i miss all of you, a hell lot.
this may sound crazy, but i'd give anything, anything to have people barking and screaming and shouting at us to get our drills right.
To have bunk inspections
Camping in classrooms as a platoon, wrapping ourselves in sleeping bags, ignoring the presence of bugs and moths around.
We've made mistakes as a batch, but sometimes, it's these mistakes that make us unique, and perfect, in our own sense.

sure, we can have batch outings and all, but it's just. different.
can we go back to when we were Part As, please?

i promise i'll let go, but now's just not the time.

just shut up and stop it with your freakin mood swings.
stop thinking that you know me so well cos you don't know shit.
freak off.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

Time, time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.

today was ord.
i can't believe it, it's over.
but actually, i think the fact hasn't really hit yet.

We've spent 4 years as a platoon.
In sec1, i am pretty sure many of us detested ncc and couldn't wait to get out of it. with mr chia making us run to the trees every single time (i wonder how much that tree has grown). all we would ever think of was getting by each training. who would known that we would've grown so attached.

speaking of trees. mr chia's speech totally sounded like all the PartDs died. He went like, "today's the day where we HONOUR the part Ds and look back at all they've done" then we're like!!!!! then he started talking about the trees that he made us run to. i almost started laughing gosh. fond memories i suppose.

Part Cs were so sweet (:
and thankyou part As for the resounding i love you ps and aps ahhaha :D
don't cry (:
we'll miss all of you, more than you all think.
make us proud.
PART Cs it's all up to you now :D

i'll remember the days we had to run up and down for change parades. and deciding to change in class for convenience and ended up having PEOPLE *ahem* rush into class.
the days we were so apprehensive about going to hq for fear of what people would think of us. the days we had to answer mr chia's rhetorical questions about whether running was tiring and whether we were thirsty.
the days we stood around in a semi circle trying to make our legs 90degrees.
the day of our affirmation ceremony where we all looked like idiots cos we wore oversized blouses and skirts that went down to our shins.
the days we spent worrying about our annual camp proposals.
the days we went all over singapore for the various courses. and the funny stuff that happened then.
the days we spent freaking out over specs course. the time spent doing mutual boards.
the days where things don't go as planned. but somehow we make it work in the end.
the days we celebrated our success as a unit, as a platoon.
(i'll add more when i remember my brain is kind of dead now)

and now, comes the day we say goodbye to all of this.
we may not be a platoon officially anymore, but these memories, they'll never fade.
thank you, for everything.

RGSNCCAIRPIONEERBATCH

(combined)
just re-watched our part A video :/
we've really come so far. and i don't know how to feel.
i guess we would all remember bunk inspection most vividly AHAH. they were all so sadistic laaa )): ohwell. we all ran around like mad women trying to clear up the mess and all. but at the end of the day, i suppose it was all for our own good (:
and we all looked so toot last time OMG hahahaha.

thank you all the seniors who came down to help us out even though you all really didn't have to. thanks so much for making us who we are today. thank you for bringing us to greater heights (whether you had ulterior motives or not. actually, till now i still can't believe it. but it doesn't matter. and fyi, we know we're better than that.)

yesterday went out with jaslyn to settle part As and ms ha's presents.
went to toys r us first and they are so irritating how can they not carry the putty anymore! >:(
in the end i bought the unburstable bubbles for myself :D super cute la i love it.

then we went to popular to buy whatever we needed to decorate the prezzies. i bought 2 paintys and jas bought 1 and we bought ms ha's present there :D

went over to tampines one cos i had to get mouthguard for my brother. went to urbanwrite and GUESS WHAT they had freakin 20% off storewide and we just wasted our money buying the paintys at popular :/ but anyway bought more pens there :D bookshops are my weakness honestly :/ but yeah i was so happy after that then i thoguht of this brilliant idea of getting the part As tiny alarm clocks that they can bring to hq since we couldn't get the silly putty. but tiffy said she bought it at some pasar malam near an ntuc some time ago so we couldnt get it.
AND THEN WE WENT INTO THSI GIFT SHOP AND SAW THE ALARM CLOCK THEN I WAS SO HAPPY AND THEN WHEN I SAW THE PRICe i almost died. it was 18.90 for one. like hello 18.90x22 we'll totally go bankrupt! so sad la. it was super cute maybe i'll go back and buy one someday :D

then hmm oh we decided to try out if the unburstable bubbles really work so then we can buy for the partAs whaetver la we were running out of time and ideas alr. so we hid in this walkway to the staircase and started blowing bubbles and we realised there was a camera omg so embarrassing ahhaha. but in the end we decided to get the bubbles la.

sat at the foodcourt and ate prata :D embarrassing things happened but okay whatever la huh. then um, settled the bubbles. whoever gets the ugly box damn sad but nevermind la :D heeee. THEN OH. ms ha's present. hehe. we couldn't decide if we should tear the plastic or not so we decided to call people to ask. i called mir and jas called tiffy. and guess what miranda was so, miranda.

huiyi: eh miranda we have something to ask you. do you think we should tear the plastic off ms ha's present?
miranda: *pauses* TAN HUI YI. YOU CALLED ME JUST TO ASK ME IF YOU SHOULD TEAR THE PLASTIC?!?!?!?!

mygosh my ears almost died and dropped off.
but yeah in the end decided to tear. then soon after we couldn't decide if we should write Ms Ha(hahahaha) so we called again. this time i didn't wanna call miranda anymore so we switched. i callled tiffy instead.
and miranda gave me a shock again.
cos jas was talking to her then suddenly it was just the sound of someone playing the piano then i was listening listening then i was like hello hello. then suddenly miranda went EH SO HAVE YOU ALL DECIDED AH. then i almost died there. gosh.

had pepperlunchexpress and decided to move to the library cos it was getting crowded and we were like hogging the seats. met kz at the library hahaha she was doing her ss pt and we haven't even started la gosh! so scary D: but anw finished the rest of the presents there except 2 but we still have to do the notes and the puzzle pieces damnn. ate at frolick after that :D

and there. i was out from 10 to 8 how awesome. and we haven't finished the presents :/ GRRRRR.

not you, not this, not now.

and I felt this emptiness before
but all the times I've been broken, I still run right back for more

But still I drive myself right through the pain
Yeah well it turns out I haven't learned a thing

today's ndp was okay. reached school so freakin early.
and i'm so embarrassed la. had to go up to stage to take the mics from people D:

after that went to eat with py gladys april irina and then watched UP.
it was quite okay i guess but quite boring actually.
and it was like the worst movie experience i ever had la. D:

1. There was this little boy behind me who kept asking his mum questions SUPER LOUDLY. like "why are there still balloons." "Where is the bad man"
why this why that why until me and peiyin were so irritated that we started laughing.

2. There was this girl who kept screaming at the shocking but not scary parts. she screamed like she was getting murdered or something la. LIKE HELLO this is not even a scary show! and the thing is everytime she screamed she'd kick my chair! and like some other parts of the show she kept kicking also i almost killed her la.

3. Halfway throughout the movie, drops of water dripped onto me and peiyin and we totally didn't know what it was or where it came from. so gross la.

and today last year was the day when me py tiffy and fy went out! HAHAHAHAHA. how amusing :D

i really don't understand.
and you have no idea ___.

don't do this to me. not now.

SIGHHHH.
i can't get over my dream.
OHNO I'M REALLY MAD EH I'M DELUSIONAL SOMEONE SAVE ME.
but then again it seemed so real!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

watched kobe on wednesday.
it was so cool seeing him la :D
but then again i was quite disappointed cos he didn't even dunk or anything! D:
ANDAND I DIDN'T GET HIS AUTOGRAPHED BALLL )):
but ohwells! at least i still got to see him :D

i fell down on thursday during pe AGAIN. DAMN HORRIBLE LA. i keep falling ):
and now there's like this big bruise on my knee. i'm disfigured for life AGAIN.
SIANZXZXZXZZXZ. but floorball is quite fun except it makes me ache everywhere.
thursday was a total waste of my time.

friday wasn't any better.

totally wasted my time yesterday too. started playing sims again i'm so hopeless.
BUT ANYWAY. I HAD THE NICEST DREAM FOR A LONG TIME LAST NIGHT AND IT WAS SO UNEXPECTED!!!!!
i dreamt of leeminho and kimhyungjoong AHAHHHAHAHA. i love them omg.

anyway here goes,
leeminho and kimhyunjoong were in my class. then i dont know what happened i left class for something then when i came back hyunjoong was like OMG WHERE DID YOU GO LEEMINHO IS IN THE HOSPITAL NOW. then i was so worried and scared for him i totally rushed to the hospital (with my mum idk why) then hyunjoong was on the hospital bed too i dont know why but ANYWAY i was so scared and worried but i just stood in the corner and didn't do anything (as usual) and they were like looking at me but i just stood there then after awhile i had to leave. when i left i smsed hyun joong and said "eh take care of yourself okay sorry i didn't talk much just now" then he said HE SAID "oh thanks it's okay, me and minho were really looking forward to you coming." OMG LA. then other stuff happened but i can't rmbr.
I WAS SO SAD AND DEPRESSED WHEN I WOKE UP. why didn't i hug them and like ask them what happened and like AIYA. I'M SO SAD NOW. okay i'm delusional damn.