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I'm trying this to see if it works. I've been wanting to blog on the go tapi terlupa nak try. Kalau tau mende ni working for sure dah buat lama dah.. Huhuh

On teacher's day..

Ok what's the hype with all these Mother's day, Teacher's day and so on.. Can you just do your job and less complaining. Hahaha..
I'm not a big fan of these 'special' days.. during my days (chewah mcm tua sgt) we didn't celebrate a thing, not even birthdays. So I don't really see the point of making a big fuss of this so called appreciation day. Well, I demanded for a nice luxury meal on mother's day of course just so that I don't have to cook.
Birthdays on the other hand, is worth to ponder upon to, in my opinion.

So as usual I was browsing facebook and every single thing on my wall was about teacher's day. People wishing other people yada yada yada.. *yawn*
Then it actually made me thinking.. hummm.. ape cerita la dgn cikgu X so on and on.. dah kawin ke dia etc.
And.. I suddenly realized, without noticing it before.. these are the teachers whom I cared for and I will remember them for life.

(1) Pn Azizah - Too bad I can't even remember her last name hehe. How can she be so special when I can't even remember her full name.. She's my 4th grade teacher at TMS (Tengku Mariam). She's a very sweet person, very motherly. I remember that I started to get good grades when I was in her class, from nothing to no 5 in class. Hahaha.. and I was elected as a school prefect by her. After all the years I had from 1st grade to 4th grade (so sememeh, isolated and felt like nobody) I didn't think that I'd be choosen to be a so called 'mawas sekolah' haha. I knew she had faith in me.. and I hope I made her proud.

(2) Cik Sharipah Noor- I'm not sure if I get the spelling right haha.. apedaa.. she was one hell of a scary teacher. Everybody in TMS knew that; and I ended up in her class. Yikes.. but then I became one of her favorites, so things went pretty well. She always looked up after me, made me feel so special and I could never thank her enough. One thing that I can never forget is she kept calling me 'Syahrul' instead of 'Khairul'. Well of course I never dare to correct her.. but yeah through out the year she'd been calling me Syahrul. Weird kan..
And another incident yg sampai sekarang tak boleh lupa was when the UPSR result was out, she was the one handed the result to me. I was looking at her hopelessly.. and she said.. ' 2A 2B syahrul... kenapa syahrul...'
I felt tears in my eyes... tahan jela. Then she smiled at me and handed me the result. It was 4As.. I knew it! Sabar jela kan..

(3) My beloved mom- She might not be an A+ mother (hahah tak baik nye, you know I'm kidding) but I'd rate her as an A+ as a teacher. She explains everything very well.. I can understand whatever she's teaching within a sec. Although she never likes teaching, I think she's the best teacher by far. And I'm proud of her.

You see.. the two teachers that I remember and adore are the primary school teachers. I think those teachers are the one whom actually contributed the most to you growth. Happy Teachers Day.

Irfan- 2 yrs 8 mo

Kesian Irfan.. hari ni asyik kena marah and pukul je.. he hasn't been eating so ape lagi cranky la kan. Anak cranky mak nye laaagiiii la cranky. Yang kesian nye Irfan la kan...

Sedih betul kalau pikir pasal history Irfan ni. Asyik sakit jela.. at 6 mo kena kawasaki disease, 1+ yr ear surgery for tube and now in June, another surgery because of cavities. I feel like a bad mother. But at the same time, I'm just too tired to handle him. He's making it soooo hard. I dunno why he's not eating. Tak makan meaning tak makan veggies la.. nutritient sume mcm mana. And at one point kalau sakit.. it's the mother again yg kena blame.

Banyak betul la dugaan jaga anak ni.. I dunno if it's just me that having a hard time being a mother. For once I just wish life is easier.. and I can just cruise along. Irfan is a sweet boy.. he really is. He always make me smile, he listens to me when I talk, and there are days when he calls me 'pretty' and pointing at me :)

But when you're a mother and you're with him 24-7, there are times when you just wish that you are away from him, be it at work or where ever. Sometimes I just feel like I need a break, siang malam jaga anak memang boleh sakit otak like seriously. Zuhri gets home around 7 or so.. then he'll be out for soccer or basketball game or whatever- interesting- other- than- staying at home and helping out until it's bed time. So I'm pretty much with Irfan 24-7.. Sigh..

I know.. this is me being me.. whining and rambling.
Irfan, I love you to bits. Please make it easy for mama to love you. ;(

My set of gigi besi!

Here are pictures of my set of gigi besi.

I've been wanting to have this on since forever. I remember I kept begging my mom to take me to an Ortho since I was in form 2 or 3..
Then I flew to the States. Time study mana mampu kan. After several years working now I get the chance to actually memakai braces. First day wasn't too bad.. 2nd- 5th day was terrible. Couldn't eat and soar all day. Malam2 terjaga tak dapat tido wow.. unexpected betul. Starting on the 2nd day mulut pecah2 teruk sgt because my mouth wasn't used to the unfamiliar metal strapped on the teeth. Today is the 8th day- and I'm not fully recovered just yet. Makan nasi main telan je.. and... this really convinced me that Beauty is Pain.. muehehe I pick beauty so I guess I have to deal with the pain.

So Nov 2010 my journey begins- The Gigi Besi. Two more years to go! Dang!

Should I?

I have this G Hobo bag.. similar to the picture below but in Ivory (cream) / White.. I bought it couple of  years ago. I was planning to sell it then rasa sayang, it reminds me of Irfan.

Now the bag below is on sale! It's a hobo too except that it's a leather bag. So tempted to buy it but again it's the same design (hobo) same designer brand! Wah.. nak beli ke? Confuse makcik! Plus it doesn't look very comfortable to carry it ey? But it's huge and I need it to carry Irfan's junk+ my junk hoho!

Please please please leave me a comment if it's a yay or a nay?!

Ramadhan is here..

Alamak Alhamdulillah Ramadhan is here.. another month of blessings.
My puasa ganti for this year was 30+ days sebulan tak puasa after deliver Irfan on Ramadhan last 2 years plus pindah on Ramadhan last year
Nasib la dah bayar awal2 so I didnt have any problem to prepare for the holy month

My checklist azam for this Ramadhan:
1. Solat Terawikh
2. Bayar long overdue Zakat before raya
3. Gamba Raya to Utusan
4. Baju Raya almost there, Zuhri and Irfan dah ade
5. Kuih Raya tengok la kalau rajin, my first attempt la kot usually order from Gem je
6. Menu Raya akan dipikirkan dgn Wichita crew
7. Nak Raya mana? KC ke Wichita tak tau lagi. Ni kes dilemma raya nak balik kg ke tak
8. Irfan burfday party and openhouse Since Irfan's bday is going to be on 2nd Syawal so ingat nak sekalikan jela
9. Cari keje
10. Kemas and deco rumah before raya
11. Spend time with my boys ahahaha ni dah tak macam azam Ramadhan

Betul ke ni azam Ramadhan. Most of the stuff on the list is for Raya uhuks.

Ok tukar topic. This is something that I made for Irfan last week. It's like burritos or quesadillas. Ala sume Mexican food sama je kan just nama je lain2. Irfan loved it so much, and so did the dada. Nak buat pun senang:
1. Tortillas the Mexican bread yg ala2 capati
2. Grilled steak cut into cubes
3. Shredded cheese
4. Tomatoes cut into cubes
5. A1 steak sauce
Nak add sour cream, avocardo, beans etc silakan. I didnt have all the bahan so I just used the five ingedients.Oh and kena roll ye before you serve it. I didn't have the pic yg dah roll.Google kalau tak tau mcm mana rupanye.

The mexican dish for my boys

Bakar dalam oven

Irfan eating grapes. Look at the hair clips! He's a doll!!!

Sgt yummylicios. Made me drool bile teringat. Senang dah ade satu resepi for picky eater-Irfan.

Please make doa for our safety

I just have too many things going on at once that I shouldn't spend this precious time writing this. But I just have too. I'm scared and I have no idea who to turn to..
and before this miserable life threatening piece of s*!t gets into me even deeper.. I really need to put this in writing..

We have BR spider problem and I think the house is infested. I googled about this particular spider months ago but never really got the guts to read about them again until today. The articles and facts about it are just too spooky for me. I thought it's better off not knowing. And today, after seeing tons of the spider in the past weeks, I did my research again... and here's what I've found:

How would I know that I have a brown recluse spider infestation?

This seems like an silly question, but it truly is not. It is possible to have a brown recluse infestation and not realize it. That is, you do not realize it until it is to late and you get bitten by this dangerous spider.

To be infested, you need only have enough brown recluse spiders that they are breeding. Just a few spiders can reproduce enough to give you a problem. If you are seeing brown recluse spiders once a week or so, it is better to be on the safe side and take some precautions.

First, you want to identify how bad the infestation is. If you are seeing brown recluse spiders every day, then stop reading and call the exterminators. You are infested big time. I once saw a house that literally had brown recluse spiders in almost every corner. Not a place that you want to be.

We literally have seen more than one recluse every week!
We've found one in our own BED and Irfan and I were sitting next to it!
Zuhri found two in the bedroom last night!
I found one crawling in the living room and killed it violently!
We found one trapped in the closet at our living room!
One was found in the kitchen, trapped on a glue board!
And some other spiders as well!

I don't feel safe living in this hell place.
I have a son sleeping on his bed and I'm constantly worried if he's safe there..
And when he's up and playing... I'm constantly worried if there's any spider underneath the toys (well, I don't check on the toys before letting him play with them)

Ya Allah please give me strength to go through this... please give us guidance and please protect our family. I don't really know what else that I can do other than cry doa and praying really hard. I really want to move out of this junk but I guess that's not an option for now... maybe not until somebody gets hurt.. nauzubillah

Honestly, I'm scared to death!

Weekend's activity

Selalunye weekend memang la penat and rasa kejap sgt. Especially when you have a little one, a toddler to be more specific. Nak kemas rumah, masak, basuh baju, day out activity, main2 dgn irfan, getting ready for the week ahead.. i wish the world could just stop spinning for couple of hours so that I can get caught up. See my weekend schedule doesn't include keje langsung that's why I was so behind in work and nampak mcm pemalas. urgh.

Anyway yesterday we went to Tulsa, 1.5 hr away from Indy. It'a a very busy city ala2 tempat Gem but the traffic is way crazier. Did a little shopping, last2 terbeli banyak la pulak.
Initially we wanted to get a trike for Irfan, then dah kat Babies R us pegi tgk stroller pulak so in the end bought a trike and a MacLaren stroller (ergh memang tak patut Irfan dah ade 2 strollers) for Irfan. The thing is we have a Zapp Stroller yg tak boleh recline and kesian sgt bila tgk Irfan tido dlm stroller tu. Mcm sakit tengkuk je sbb tido kepala tersengguk2 kan. When we tested the Maclaren Irfan memang suka sgt so we decided to go for it dah alang2 ade 20% off.
Both Zuhri and I were so amazed by this stroller - lightweight, easy to handle, Irfan sgt suka and comfortable in it so beli jela. I think Gem should get this one too for the baby.

This is the trike that we bought for Irfan. Memula nak beli the one that cost $90 then when we actually look at it rasa mcm kecik pulak. Memang the design is for 9-36 mo but looks too small for Irfan yg makin tinggi. Plus the price is just way too $$$ so we settled with this one for $40.

I also had a hair cut yesterday. Zuhri thinks my new look is sexy auuuwwww...
Hari ni pulak nak pegi photoshoot. Dah lama nak get a family portraiture in a stuudio- we have a DSLR tp jarang amik gamba sekali. It's either me + Irfan or Zuhri + Irfan in the picture. Ye la kalau tak sape nak jadi cameraman kan. I wanted to do this since Irfan baby lagi tapi takde la masa... until at one point Irfan kena kawasaki so memang la tak terbuat kan. Hope the session wil turn out good. Puhleasseee Irfan behave ok... jangan la cranky nanti...

Laugh of the day

My conversation with Zuhri this morning went like this..

Me: KB mimpi something yg pelik tadi..
Zuhri: Mimpi ape?
Me: KB mimpi Amal (Zuhri's youngest sis) dapat offer letter to Jepun, dentistry kat Kinokawa U
Zuhri: Huh?
Me: Tu la pelik sampai termimpi2... I'm suprised I remember the U's name K.I.N.O.K.A.W.A (ntah ade ke U nama tu kat Jepun tak tau la huhu)
Zuhri: Ler..
Me: Ye la asyik tgk status Amal kat FB... waiting for phonecalls on that interview to Jepun
Zuhri: You know what that tells you?
Me: ....what? (I care too much about your family ke? in law mithali ke huhaua don't think so)
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Zuhri: It means you had too much facebook going on. Stop looking at facebook je.
Me: Ahahhahaha Whatever (didn't expect he's going to say that, mcm tak related to my mimpi je huhu)

More videos of the Daycare

Some videos of Irfan at the Day Care

Both of the videos were taken early this month. The narrator is Ms Brenda, Irfan's teacher. The other lil guy in the video is Irfan's classmate, Cayden.