Hi my dearest friend

I have been thinking about you a lot lately.
Hoping your quarter is winding down well and that you find some peace in the whirlwind of every thing.
i miss you. i miss seattle. i miss being able to sit in your room and talk about life.

one day. one day.

but as for now... hope you are enjoying your Wednesday!


love.love.love you!

Hey...

I miss you.

My dearest Samantha,

I know you don’t like this picture... but this picture sums up our friendship to me.

Even though you probably look at yourself and cringe, I think you look beautiful. It caught us both in mid laugh and I love that. But when I look at this picture, the thing I see the most is my body language. I look so comfortable and happy. This picture sums up our friendship because that is simply how I feel with you. Growing up makes you realize how hard it really is to make true best friends. But with you, it was as simple as getting up in the morning, or talking to someone who has known me my entire life. Whether you know it or not, you came into my life while God was making some big changes. You were a breath of fresh air as my last year of college began close. You were my other half and lifesaver in China. You grew with me as we touched the lives of those kids, and we were both changed because of what we experienced. You were my listening ear as life began to change and I had to let go of my world. You acted like a mirror and talking things out with you allowed me to see God’s hand and grace in my messy situation. That one day were we hashed out our plans, ideas and fears in your bedroom was a life changing moment for both of us. I walked away from that day encouraged by you and so excited because I saw how God was working through you; I saw Him in the way you talked, I saw Him in the way you processed the China ideas and I saw Him in your future. That day (just like this picture) is a moment in our lives that I will cherish forever. Sammi, you know how to make me laugh. You know how to comfort me and when to encourage me to keep moving forward.

I am writing this blog because I wanted you to know what goes through my mind when this picture cycles through my desktop pictures. Someone once said we do not know the true value of our moments until they have undergone the test of memory. This picture (and many others) has given me many wonderful memories. You have given me a lifetime’s worth of moments filled with laughter, joy, remembrance, strength, comfort, trust, reflections, and just plain old silliness.

So thank you. Thank you for being a constant reminder that I am not alone in this world. Thank you for the example of a godly woman, a great friend, and allowing me to never get too serious. Thank you for the safety and allowing me to be honest about every thought, doubt, action and thing that runs through my head.

Most importantly, thank you for sticking with me. This hasn’t been the easiest year of my life. Yet, you are always there praying for me and allowing me to lean on you. Just like in this picture, I know you shoulder is never far from my reach, and that simple fact makes going through all this so much easier.

You my dear Mac are simply thee best. I am proud to know you and to call you my best friend. I cannot wait for this weekend, for new memories and adventures with you : )

 With all my love,

                                       Cheese

           

I know God loves me so. I know that He has plans that allow me to prosper, bring Him glory and give me the greatest joy I'll ever experience.

I just can't stop thinking about what might have been. Johnny and I were so close. And now, he will be standing at the end of the pews, waiting for his bride... and this time it won't be me.

Though I know the reasons why were aren't together, I can't help but be hurt at this moment.

it's like I'm looking for someone to tell me it's going to be okay. That one day I will get that moment, and it will be better than the one I imagined, the one I pictured with Johnny.

I didn't know my heart could break any more... please pray for me. I feel foolish.

ehh. sorry for this blog. it's def not my favorite.

Hi best friend :)

I miss you all the time. Seriously, all the time. I am praying for you constantly and constantly and am so proud of the person you are right now and the person you're going to be in the future. You're working so hard and I look up to you so much. Keep me updated on things during the next few days!

Things are good here in Seattle. It snowed last night...a lot, actually...but of course school wasn't cancelled. I need a break already, and it's only been two weeks. This quarter's classes won't be too bad, but the amount of reading I have to do is INSANE and I'm already stressed. So just know your arrival is highly anticipated. :) I can't wait to relax and chat and laugh with you.

I just cancelled my interview with SPRINT officially today. I don't know how I feel about everything. I think I made the right decision, but I just still feel bummed out. Pray that I'll be at peace with the decision I made. Pray that I'll open my eyes up to all the good in this situation, when it's so much easier to just be disappointed.

Love you SO much and hope you have the best day ever tomorrow!!

:)

hi, ive missed you

we are kinda sucking at this blog thing.. and since I don't have facebook to stalk you on, you are gunna have to give me something ;)

Going into my 2nd day at the clinic. Still nervous because I am afraid my supervisor is going to make me lead the group. No idea what I am going to do.. still don't know enough about AA and all that jazz (though I am ready alcoholics anonymous right now, pretty interesting)

um feeling a bit better about the whole johnny thing after talking to a mutual friend we have and hear that Johnny did the same thing to him (asked if they could meet asap) so I am guessing he is not engaged, just maybe wanted to catch up? Continue to pray for my heart... I feel like I might be disappointed by the outcome of our meeting (though I don't know what I am expecting??)


LOVED hearing that you are excited to see me NEXT WEEKEND. Honestly, it made my day. Thank you for putting a smile on my face and for constantly being a strong support and godly example to me. You are more than a lifesaver :)


Loving you from sunny California!!!

Good morning sunshine :)

"Let us be grateful to people who make us happy; They are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom." -Marcel Proust

I am so grateful for you and our friendship. You are such a blessing! More than you even know. SO feel special today because today I am celebrating you :)