Theory Of Speech:
The first is usually unrestricted, with little or no consideration of surroundings, hence can be regarded as ''truth'' or ''true'' feelings.
The second, modified after knowing that surroundings have responses, usually rephrased, or having a chance of tone, or even minor dilution of ''true'' feelings.
The third and beyond, is with total consideration of surroundings, reiterated by changing the truth, just to suit that of the surroundings.

Your words etched deep into my mind. ''I'll keep my dist.''

{/10:59 PM}

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Bintan Crew
List of mad stuff we did...

Went to bintan when we were just Sec 4, Without Parents or Guardians~!
Tung Luk Restaurant
And1 Bag and FBT shorts
30 pieces of KFC chicken

{/4:27 AM}

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In the long wait over nights
A nostalgic melody tore through the silence
It came unexpectedly, yet as if I felt it was coming
It jolted me conscious from my slumber
And there it was, what I waited for
Progressing, it seemed very unnatural
Sensing that it wasnt of true intention
I composed myself from the pointless joy
I didnt want it to be due to responsibilty
Cause you arent the one to be responsible
I wondered for a moment if I was wrong
Then decided it would be impossible
Though you tried to explain
I think I know what you actually feel
If only it wasnt perpetuated by sympathy or guilt...

{/3:04 AM}

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Sometimes you give me the mutual feeling, while sometimes you confuse me with your antics.
I just cant read you on this matter.
I settled every obstacle there is to be, yet you remain persistent.
I dont know how to convince you, and you wont tell me anything.
Patience is essential, I understand that.
But still, a deadline has to eventually appear.
When asked on that matter, you constantly avoid it.
It gives me two conclusions.
One, is that you do not with to hurt me with the cruel truth.
Two, is that you are still not ready.
If its the former, tell me now.
If its the latter, I will wait...

{/3:03 AM}

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Long long time didnt post liao. I forgot all abt it, or rather i had no time to post. I got nth to do now and im really bored as u can see. or else i wouldnt be posting would i?


Dni cyrkurk syobcit zudn wieh em U dnyoknd nyz e liidurk zyoct pi. Wesit zudn syrwcusdurk timuhim, udm orefyutepci. Ayo luknd dnurg udm vomd e lihi shomn yr e lylird yw ulbocmi, e timbihedi eddilbd toi dy syrwomuyr yh ifir e hemn pid dy sneccirki wedi, pod U ser emmohi ayo, udm riudnih. Ecc U emg, um e cuddci dhomd.

{/6:22 AM}

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ar long time no post. lol. im feeling really bored now, so im gonna kaobei abt somethings.(not angry)
hmm. (not angry)

i really hate the idea of working for students. damn. as in really hate it. because of work, we have lesser time for holidays. because of work, a lot of schedules and plans have to be cancelled. because of work, some ppl cannot attend certain events. why? its the holidays. its after o s. yes i understand tt the money is really essential. same goes for everyone. but why, why? a last chalet together and ppl carn make it. some of the last matches we might be playing together and its still not whole team. ARRRRR. ( BEAR IN MIND IM JUZ COMPLAINING, NOT ANGRY). but i guess it cant be helped.

its like that in life. u put in effort to organise something, and ppl juz take it for granted. dey can pang seh u anytime. BEST. so wadeva ba. i rather others be the ones to forsake me than me forsaking them. ( NOT ANGRY STILL.)

k ba. end here. bear in mind, im not angry, im juz venting my frustrations. NOT ANGRY. BYE.

{/5:55 AM}

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wooo! chem prac today! finally prac is all over. a sigh of relief.
carn blive i actually tio stomach cramp or something from the start of practical. HELL.
wasnt tt like suppose to be a girl's only thing...
im not GAY for those who tink im. lol.
mebbe its coz of something i ate. but wadeva. i survived through it, though i didnt check much.
read an intriguing blog today. lol.
A person's fury really knows no boundaries. FIERCE.
haha. all i can say is:
im laden with a curse as well as a blessing, of which i do not wish to implicate myself, you, or any other single human being.
im in a totally different era and cant accept some modern thinkings.
i dun tink i have tt many facial expressions. you can choose not to see, just close your eyes.

Zefary's Law of Subjective Determinant:

All human determined things, such as cruelty, justice, emotions, bla bla..., are all subjective to the human's thinking, behavior and influence by family and friends. Example: What age do you think is the appropriate one for getting into a relationship? Is experimenting on animals to cure humans appropriate? And from the anime Death Note : Is the massacre of criminals justified?
All of these are determined by what the MAJORITY thinks of the particular situation, as well as giving the POLITICALLY correct answers.

{/11:18 PM}

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