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change is terrifying.
do you not agree?

people change with time,
time changes people.
appearance is secondary.
what's scary is when things we cannot see, hear, touch change.
mentality, personality, character, relationship, feelings.

it scares me sometimes.

Monday
friendly with victoria school
1 rubber
2 lost
pool at paradiz
then home

Tuesday
suppose to go to the zoo with for junior-senior outing
but overslept,
so met jinnie instead.
went to cathay with her to pierce her ear
then manicure
met up with chapman
lunch at pizza hut
bought clothes and darren's present
met up with becky, jinnie went off
then off to darren's birthday chalet at downtown east. HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY, LUCKY!
saw morgan, john and friends
then becky's rents sent me home

Wednesday
shooting training
shot like crap
cheryl said it was mental
but i don't think so cause i concentrated more than the previous time
but shot far worse than that
even joannah said so
home and slacked.

Thursday
suppose to go for shooting training again, but overslept
pangseh cheryl, i'm sorry.
slack my ass off at home the entire day
but the thing is that i only woke up at 3.30
so by right, half my day was already gone :/

Friday
badminton training at yck
i swear albert's thigh training thingo is killer!
i couldn't feel my legs at all,
and the best thing is, it was only the start of training.
rush home early from training for CHEENERR tuition.
sucked as usual.

Saturday
which is today, or 45 min ago.
went out with toto.
walked here walked there,
took some random photo with some random people outside heeren
saw renkai and friends
caught ENCHANTED at 6.30
super sweet show! (alliteration! :D) love it anyway.
received a message from junjie, saying he saw me,
but i didn't see him :/
checked out itouch, but i still want an IPHONE.
then home because toto went to find eugene

Sunday- tomorrow
either go for watch outing at ps at 12
or going to give flyers? with toto also at 12, then meet watch people later.

that's about it.
my life is boring, isn't it.

can some explain to me please.
what the hell is going on right now.
are you still here, or are you gone?
what's happening!
damn it, but this is freaking me out.

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own, oh

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight (one more chance tonight)

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not gettin' me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

And I didn't mean to meet you then we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

i envy the special you.
really.

HUUURRRHURRRRR!
new skin, but i don't very like the "hearts never lie" part :/

my 5th ear hole! :) hehehe.