The other day the boys wanted to make cookies. we haven't don't it for a while so i figured why not, and i let them just dive in a get messy. kaylin had fun cutting out different cookie shapes while kiptin just wanted to play with the dough like it was play-doh!!!
How far along? 22 weeks, 2 days
Total weight gain? 7 lbs
Baby Size? 11 inches
Sleep? getting better
Best moment of the week? kaylin felt little jr kick and started laughing and was trying to tell me what it felt like. he was excited.
Miss anything? not much
Food cravings? not to many, maybe just caramel filled chocolates
Labor signs? No
Gender? ANOTHER BOY of course!
Symptoms? same old Heartburn, its really getting to me!
Happy or Moody? pretty darn happy!
Looking forward to...? finishing the painting in the nursery..FINDING A DANG NAME.
Realization of the week? its going by a little too fast now.
Some interesting tid-bits about my baby body...
*my belly button has popped out
*my belly is so round
*pregnancy has left me changing my mind about my hair every few weeks. kinda fun!
* those hormones that are making little hairs sprout where they shouldn't are making me crazy.
*i can still paint my toe nails :)
*i dont feel horribly big. so nice.
*i pee so much. Nick and I were laying in bed talking for a while and he mentioned to me that our conversation was...in his words "a two pee conversation" cause i had to use the bathroom twice during that time. i laughed!
*my belly is low, this little guy only likes the bottom of my belly and makes him self very comfortable down there, very painful on my left ligament.
*i got some happy pills and i have felt so much stress leave my mind and body, i have lots more energy and motivation to get stuff done.
*I keep having dreams about me having this little guy and he still has no name when he is born. we have to get on that soon!
Before I hit the 22 week mark I wanted to post about the 21st week mark.
Iam a big slacker this week and didnt get a picture, but there isnt really any change from the last so i figured i still looked the same!
This week was a much better week for me, I gave up my pride and asked my doctor if there was anything SAFE I could take during my pregnancy and after so i could feel human again and so my family could have their mom and wife back instead of the wicked old witch! She said it was normal and hormones go flying and things get wacky but i still wanted something and needed it pride aside.
IT IS SOOOO WONDERFUL. I seriously have not felt this good in SOOOO long, all the pregnancy aches and pains seem to be fading and my head is clear, i feel good about my self and motivated to actually get dressed for the day, i have much more control over having patience (still have a ways to go but way improved), I can sleep much better and deeper then i have in MONTHS & MONTHS, and i love my husband again (always a plus haha)..and so on and so on everything is just better and there is sunshine again :)
I have been going to the Chiropractor regularly and that is a life saver, my head aches and pains and back aches are almost gone and most days i just feel great YAY!!!
Now on the BABY side of things, he is doing great, still has no name cause we both just dont know and nothing has popped out to us yet. He is so active, I can tell when he is napping or playing, its so fun to feel him wiggle around in there and try to guess what he is doing! He stay way down as low as he can be unlike kaylin and kiptin who spent most of their days in my ribs (im sure that will come though). we are getting so excited to meet him! Kiptin asks me ever day "can i feels yours baby" and lifts up my shirt and always says my belly is hot! He gave kaylin a big kick the other night and he just loved it!
That sums up my 21st week of baby #3 i think, all in all it was a pretty good week!
This week i figured i would write instead of doing my weekly questions. This week has been the most trying week for me. My hormones are EVERYWHERE i cant seem to just have one emotion, and i loose it so fast, i want to just be by myself and in peace and quiet which can happen since i have two other boys who mean the world to me. This pregnancy seems like a killer, it unlike my other two and its soooo much harder on me and on everyone around me...sorry everyone :)
My Husband HAS to love me A LOT to get through everyday with me right now, im sure he cringes at the thought of coming home to me and not knowing what kind of mood i will be in. I have felt so bad about snapping at the boys for no reason or over the stupid simple things they do or dont do. note to self: HELLO MARCI they are only 6 and 3 year old kids...they WILL NOT do everything perfect how you expect them too so get over it.
Kaylin was my little buddy for 3 1/2 years before kiptin joined us and him and I were SOOO close, he ALWAYS WANTED HIS MOMMY, I always got lots of hugs and kisses from my sweet boy, but lately he wants nothing to do with me ( i really dont blame him) i hate when i make him feel bad or break his heart, i snap so fast and i drill what i think he needs to hear in to him, which is NOT good and I should never do that.
I remember when i was a little girl and really the ONLY memories i really have are my mom just drilling me and yelling at me and all the hitting and throwing things and just all the bad, i dont have that many good memories at all and it hurts to think i may be repeating that same pattern for my two boys. Thats all i know so its hard to be someone that i want to be but have never had that example so I dont know how other then to teach my self which is much harder then anyone can imagine.
self control is a big thing i need to work on, self control over anger is my hardest, i would put it in the same category as someone who is trying to quit drugs, its way easy said then it is done.
This really is my challenge in life, and it's a hard one, one i would not even wish on my worst enemy, it just sucks.
I know i need to grow closer to the gospel and really be listening for the help and allow it in. Thats also another thing that is hard because again i didnt have that growing up so im really having to figure out this all on my own and having to teach my self as well as learning how to teach my kids right from wrong and to be more Christ like.
Nick use to be my rock (still is) and I always relied on him to take care of me and be there for me but as we have gotten use to each other and really comfortable together I think its just easier for him to walk away or punch back, i know he finds it really hard to deal with me and he has no idea how too help because nothing fixes it, its just on going and you never know when it will hit. It would be so easy for him to walk away and move on to be a single dad or find someone NOT like me and sometimes i wonder why the heck he hasnt yet because i know i couldnt handle someone like me.
My family is my everything, i would rather spend everyday for the rest of eternity with these 4 then with anyone in the whole world. So everyday I try to work on my self as much as possible and with this pregnancy it just has me so backed into corner and it much harder on me then it has ever been. I need to really remember that every day is a blessing and we NEVER know at what time something could happen to our spouse or kids, if anything ever happened to one of them and i had just yelled or lost my temper or said something mean, it would be unforgivable within me so i always want to live like it is really the last day i have with them because i dont ever know when it really will be and i want no or at least very little regrets with my kids and so far im not doing a great job at that.
I always want my husband and boys to know that their wife and mom truly did love them more then life itself and i would give anything in this world to be perfect for them.
Here's too a better tomorrow and less yesterdays!
(sorry today was cleaning day, not the best pic)
How far along? 19 weeks, 4 days
Total weight gain? 5 lbs
Baby Size? about a half pound in weight and six inches long
Sleep? nope.
Best moment of the week? going to the chiropractor and getting everything back in line AGAIN!
Miss anything? being able to sleep on my stomach.
Food cravings? sweets for sure this week
Labor signs? No
Gender? ANOTHER BOY!
Symptoms? same old Heartburn, nausea, throwing up EVERY morning.
Happy or Moody? i just go day to day :)
Looking forward to...? finishing the painting in the nursery..FINDING A DANG NAME.
Realization of the week? it's REALLY a BOY.
Some interesting tid-bits about my baby body...
*cant bend over perfectly anymore
*sitting up out of bed is quit funny now days
*nick always tells me my belly is hanging out!
*cant see my feet
*finding clothes is not easy in my closet anymore
*no stretch marks!
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