and a special shoutout to M2 IAN. trainings were a lot more fun and entertaining with you as my pageant partner, thanks for being the ever supportive and understanding pp! (: and thank you snrs, for your constant encouragement as well!

M2 Ian

Hey guys! Our big thing is just TWO days ahead and I guess we are more or less up to it! One month of training for a night of showcase. Let’s just give our all! :) Results don’t matter, what matters is the friendship that we forged out of this. And of course not forgetting the fun and laughter we had throughout this whole process. Jiayou guys!

Oh! A special note to F2, we must have CHEMISTRY! *STARES*

Anyway, on a brighter note, my dear pageant partner, you’re doing very well in your catwalk! Remember I said that you have a nice pose and smile, must keep it up okay! And dancing has never been this fun for me. You definitely brighten up our dance moves. Good job weirdo!

F3 Ying Qin

Life without y'all is like a broken pencil - pointless...(:

M3 Hazzely

if your lost listen to your heart and if it doesnt give you any answers, close your eyes and think about your parents, you'll overcome anything

F4 Peishan

Hall 8’s D & D is finally coming to an end. Being involved in this event has been a pretty stressful experience as I really struggled with some of the performance items. If not for the encouragement and support from the seniors and fellow pageant contestants, my life would have been very miserable. To all contestants, we have come thus far together; let’s work hard for the final lap!

M4 Chuan Kai

We will SHINE and blind all hall eighters!!

F5 Hong Zhi

To all the pretty babes and handsome hunks of Hall 8 pageant, you guys ROX!! Thank you for bringing me so much laughter during the training =D

Also not to forget our dear ‘nannies’, who have to run about with us. Love you guys. Muackz~!

M5 Guang Yao

hey guys! This is the last leg of the race already.. We have come a long way since the first day we introduced ourselves during SP night.. I am glad i have made friends like you all in the past month.. So let's enjoy ourselves and cross the finishing line together! =D

___________________________________________________________

the stuff abv was written by the pageant contestants one/two days before the actual thing, which was last night...
anyhoo, CONGRATS TO F3 YING QING and M4 CHUAN KAI, the new KING n QUEEN!!!

" Ay....Don't liddat lei.....wait for meeee...... =( "
- timo

a few more hours to DND....
tension was pretty high tonight..
most of us tried not to let it show.
yea i felt stressed and said as much but didnt, or tried not to let the babies see.
the cheong sam lady is such a biatch. seriously.
some of the cheong sams were total crap.
we have to pin them up tml before their catwalk!
urgh.

but the gowns are darn nice.
=)


"thats the way uh huh uh huh, i like it, uh huh uh huh"

Labels: gakkou, tomodachi

i dont understand ow parents can want their children to be models. i dont have anything against them... but. modelling, acting, being a celebrity is all about appearances.
people generally won't care that you do bleed when cut, they idolize you then think of u as some super-infallible-human. so when you actually begin to show signs of being human, you get shot down, criticized and turned into an outcast, not tt you weren't out casted in a sense, when you became a demi-god. i mean yea, its glamorous, you get prettied up, wear pretty things and told pretty words (at face value) then when you're not IT anymore you're part of the unimportant yesterday. History. and people dont care abt history cuz they think its boring. history lovers will deem you as a freak that labels them as geeks and that u arent important enough for them to remember you.

all in all. the rich and famous have pretty sad, unfulfillable lives in which they remain lonely cuz they never know who they can trust, and who really cares, that their "concern" isnt just about appearances.


anyway. SG is too small. SHINE has another n.y.d.c person in it other than markus and kiat (yes im sure its them now.) this time its a wheelock staff called wilson, apparently a hotsider (BUT another pretty boy type which kinda shocked me cuz he looked to niang to be in hotside)?
and he knows anthony n thomas.

Labels: gakkou, shigoto

tired tired tired.
but.
2 more days to DnD.

banana...dont think i can go for the bbq alr.
=/

".....for june, who always sat on this bench, and for joseph, who always sat next to her......"

i totally died on the couch today.....
stayed over at a.rita's on sat night after work (which sucked cuz of the godfather and miss ilovetopoutansslack; night-time was okay).....
Am turned on the telly for me and i watched "Love Actually" while waiting for my hair to dry.
had oreos and milk.....gosh its been a LONG TIME since i got to do that.
I cancelled tuition for sunday....wanting to spend time with A.rita cuz she just got out of surgery and all and she's my fave grandaunt and the doc doesnt think she's gonna last too long and everything.
i didnt get to sleep in, but was woken by the uncle, who made mozzarella cheese toast for breakfast, which was gr8! watched "Big Fat Liar" whilst eating breakfast .
then came "Bridget Jones Diary" one AND two and "Notting Hill"...
i couldnt resist the pull of Mio TV and the fact tt they were all my fave brit, dry humoured romance movies.
although i prob have to face the fact tt i couldnt concentrate on hw cuz i kept worrying abt the grandaunt.
i mean, i always thought she'd live to see my WEDDING and now, here i am at 20, and i haven't even introduced her to a boyfriend, why? well, because......I OBVIOUSLY DON'T HAVE ONE!
and its not tt i wanna get one.
it's just one of those things u expected to have, and now it seems topsy-turvy, and its all gonna be different, and its gonna disappear.
i don't think i can bear it if she left.

shucks.

"......you'd better stop, before, you tear me all apart........"


".........out of reach...........i never had your heart."


-----------------End of my "Verbal Diarrhea"

Labels: kazoku, shigoto

heyhey youyou.
decided to go for IBG Basketball today.
damn tired now.
=/
we won our opponents but didn't win overall cuz our score wasn't as high as 41's.

Welcome back supper was ytd and the Sing and Strum Group put on a performance...
i only got to see the first half though.
and last night proved that FLYERS have no real use after all.
Kerry, if u are reading this.
i give out flyers and ppl still think it starts at NINE, instead of EIGHT!

shine was, hmm, as usual.
the pageant ppl practiced a bit more ytd night before going back...
Maxar meeting went on for some time.
digression, as usual, kills.

Labels: hall.

"It's like she's renting all the real estate in the girl's department of my brain"
- when it happens

today, i, nephrite, attended my FIRST lecture of the semester, and, it was, a. TOTAL. WASTE. OF. TIME.
-_-

1. the teach in charge DID NOT get enuf textbooks for everyone, so as usual, Popular Bookstore in NTU ran out of stock, and this is week 3, and we're supposed to be starting on our third book whilst most of us haven't even managed to get hold of the FIRST book. howzzat feel? STRESS.

2. i felt she went on, and on, and on, and on abt history til it felt like a history lesson. GOLLY! steven n damien were like, snoozing. Damien even ROCKED back n forth in his seat til ain, wani , ally and the girls in the back started giggling.

for the earlier part of the day....
i actually managed to wake up for tutorial this morning.
BUT.
the STUPID shuttle bus. first 2 buses were so packed i couldnt get up.
then the next bus took another 15 minutes to come.
in the end, i took the shuttle only at 1045! when my lesson began at 1030!
i waited like, 45mins! FREAK.
if i had known i would've walked! i'd be sweaty but at least on time! its abt 10-15mins from hall8.
last yr the shuttle was never this packed, and it never took this long in the mornings either.
i was like, totally flabbergasted.
and i had to sheepishly find my seat in class.
though thankfully...
1. the tutor was jeremy ( a nice guy, although he almost NEVER is on the point, he digresses and digresses, altho mayb isnt tt bad a thing)

2. there were 2 others even later than me. btw, i reached class at 10.55am, meaning almost half the lesson alr went out the window.

3. Damien, steven, ain n nicole were in my class! esp happy abt the former 2. friends from last sem. and i made a new friend. natasha (reminds me of ms baey tho)

hey all, check our DND webbie out. lots better than last yrs! no offense though.
http://hall8dnd0708.blogspot.com/





Anyone can see my every flaw.
it isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all.

Labels: gakkou, tomodachi

you said that if you could fly,
you'd never come back down...
you only have eyes for the sky,
that blue, blue, sky...



had dinner with the piggies, as banana calls us, ytd.
by jove, we REALLY ATE.
for 4 hours minimum.
and we still had milo dinosaurs and paper prata after.
papa wanted to bring us to the deserted train track in clementi but its the seventh month and it was really dark, so we ended up not going...
haha.
we made banana cry...AGAIN.
LOL.


2 weeks to shanghai night.

Labels: tomodachi

its complicated
its complicated
its SO FREAKIN complicated!

i lie, and i lie, and i lie,
but the truth won't die.
somehow i feel ashamed to admit.

why am i staying in hall for the next few weekends?
crap.
i'm so tired right now i really don't care if i live or if i die.

just finished my little project i'm working on.
hope it works out.
sheesh.



sometimes, most of the time, things just take either really long to change.
or, they just don't change at all.
either way.
i feel like crap, i think i've been talking abt nonsensical things to people jsut for the sake of talking.
i suddenly have this fear that if i'm not heard, everyone will forget me, or forget about me.
its irrational, but shit!
srsly, i have no idea what's wrong with ME.

Labels: gakkou, kazoku, tomodachi

super busy with the pageant..
the aunty at the cheong sam shop exploded at me n hweeleng...
we were like, so stunned.
srsly.
her reasons for getting pissed off were more like, non-reasons.

for the record!
i am not biased towards "i am himbo"
its just i think tt quiet people always have something more to them than meets the eye.
like....emily for example.
and even in the kindergarten my mum works at, my fave kid is a super quiet little girl who doesnt even reply sometimes, when spoken to.
its just me, following the expectation i have for other ppl as well, the "dont judge by the covers"
i'm really not the sort of person who can entertain quiet ppl by asking questions or talking all night....esp aft having marcus as my SP....i mean, yea, i talked all night but i was like forcing myself to go on, rather than being my usual self.


next up.
brought the pageant ppl to SHINE ytd and HOLLA!
markus (the one from n.y.d.c) had his poster pinned on one of the walls! i was like WHATTTT????? you gotta be seeing things.
then better still, leechong from IJC WALKIED IN.
he's a part time model there TOO.
like wth????????????????????????
i was thinking in my mind, what is so good abt tt place?
last year they were really really mean.

Labels: gakkou, The A List, tomodachi

as promised.
the details of camp.
so i moved in on sun, 27th Jul, realising that i didn't have a room, i brought just barely what i needed for camp.
met up with the azriel ppl, now Aeon.
haha.
roomed in with lynds.
we forced the guys to paint their nails blue along with all us girls.
lynds painted hers and weewee's yellow, according to their X-clan colours.

Monday, 28th Jul
Rushed to SAO with Lynds to settle my acceptance fee, we found out from the hall office tt my spot hadn't been given away!
so, as though it has become a tradition, i was last to introduce myself to the Aeon Juniors.
this year we had the biggest group of seniors who came back for A Clan!
managed to show the juniors a really united front.

the CGL (cheif group leader/loser): Chow Chee Chong aka Chee Chong Fun aka Chee Hong lol
the ACGL: Dency aka A, B, Dency
GLs: Nina, Kennard, Brian aka aunty Mok, Jake aka ah beng aka Xiao tian tian, Me
SAs (Seniors Attached) and GA (grand Seniors attached): Andy aka Honey, Emily, Eileen, Shyan Jun, Wai Ching, Eldine, Gina, Emilio, Eddie, Gordon, Denise, Michelle
Programmers: rtcc n derrick n Shuwen(who were hardly arnd except during games lol)

Juniors: Jenny, vicki, cherlyn, jieying, shu qing, hui yi, pat, nicole (jill's pri sch mate), han bin, edward, aloy, hazz, edric, leon, ian, rahi, myo, yingqing.....i think tts abt it...

anw. we emerged from round campus first again, last yr we shocked the others, this year we maintained it! yea!
oh. but i lost my voice. and it was only the first day.

Tuesday, 29th Jul
POOL GAMES!!!!
the stupid lifeguard wouldnt let the girls go in the water with singlets on which was total BS cuz in the end all of us who ended up getting dunked in the water by "accident"were ALL wearing singlets and the guard didnt do nuts.

BANNER PAINTING!!!
our juniors made a pretty cool banner. was pretty happy for them, esp since none of them are art students.
the time of the month came AGAIN. i was so pissed.
its two weeks aft the previous one, meaning its way too early.
cant understand.
and in the middle of camp, too.

INITIATION NIGHT!!!
didnt bully the freshies much.
too tired.
mostly stayed in my block area watching the kids get tortured with chilli sauce, fish sauce, flour, eggs, water, toothpaste etc.
not to mention the hits!
stupid emilio put me in one of them.
yiping got pulled in.
the one with batman in it was freaking funny.
shall sub the ppl with A n B
went sth like this...


senior: HIT ONE!!
A: why so serious?
senior: HIT TWO!
A: you know how i got the scars on my face?
B: Because batman like to squeeze your pimples!

all the juniors were blindfolded and toyed with.
black paint and camo cream were included.

Wednesday, 30th Jul
my most dreaded day.....turned out pretty fine =)
it was most dreaded at first cux it was TREASURE 8 Closing Ceremony..
and most of my clan's GLs were involved....
left ken n me looking aft A Clan.
and the two of us were supposed to be picking the pageant contestants.
then at night i was mentally preparing myself for fright night.
but it wasnt too bad.
except poor CCC fell sick with a high fever and didnt go with us to the chalet.
morale went down..we were all pretty reliant on him as the CGL i guess.
but dency did a great job.
i was the most useless. no voice = nth much i can do.
we left for the chalet.
.....and me, being in a daze had to scramble up to my room FOUR freaking times.
first was to get lynd's suspenders for rtcc, then to grab my specs, then to grab my wallet then my charger.
my GOD.
i was like jelly, or at least, my legs were, by the time i got to the bus.
fright night was a success, happy for lynds
except i got groped. along with marcus and chua.
i swear, that freshie is sick in the head.

Thursday, 31st Jul
dragon boating and round island.
Nina and i wanted to get on that boat so badly but couldnt.
BOO.
round island wasnt as siong as last yr...
and the freshies got to ride on the reverse bungee. so unfair!
we didnt pass by heeren at all though.

CAMPFIRE!!
was ....er.
CCC's bad luck got us cucumber and beansprouts for dinner.
but we managed to make more seniors lend us their shirts to win the pizza.
and instead of doing a skit the freshies sang a song dedicated to the seniors...
and did the ahbeng, ah lian, cao ah kua cheer for us.
we also had a disco like thing whilst dressing CCC to be our clan's ah kua mascot.
we were so high tt night we actually sang all the way back to the chalet.
LOL.

Friday, 1st August
SENTOSA ROUND ISLAND
SP NIGHT.
the last day came of course.
all of us GLs hardly slept. some didnt sleep at all.
we were trying to settle the groper case.
tt night was the night tt convinced me the guy really has issues.
i mean. when u grab a girls boobs and realise tt some of the actors are girls, doesnt tt tell you u shouldnt touch anymore?
but no after me, he squeezed marcus, smiling as he did it.
sicksicksick.
all the excuses he gave us were BS too.
anw.
Aeon was given Programmers favorite again this year...
the kids' efforts werent thrown to waste...
honestly.
everyone tried their best, and covered up their weaknesses too.
=)







as to whether the rest believe us, i cant do much.
i just treated his actions toward me as accidental, but whats up with what he did to marcus?
fundamentally wrong.

its too obvious.
its too obvious for me to even lie to myself.




why is she torturing me this way?
she knows.
its not that she's oblivious.




and as for the other one.
who's the "fake" one in the family, exactly?
she's the one who says i'm fake behind my back.
makes me rush home by cab then tell me to get out.
but still she gets everything from mum, all she has to do is ask.
and why do i have to feel uncomfortable?
why do i have to pretend she didn't do all that to me?

i have to pretend cux mum alr knows what she did, and still asked her to stay.
and no, no discussion.
she happily smsed during camp tt jo's coming to stay, and tt my stuff was gonna be packed to one side.
i was so naive in thinking tt she'd be here alone.
no, snoopy came along.
and they BOTH know i cant stand the fur on the dog.
better still, mum knows my respiratory system is weak.
thanks a whole bunch right?














just came back from camp ytd.
will update everything tml on my own laptop.
away from spying eyes.
and one of the most horrid spammers i ever got.
i think i'm not coming back.
i know when i'm not wanted.
the only way to make mum realise anything is if i stop all contact.
sorry guys, i may not see u all in amk after all.
i don't like the way my family makes me feel.
and that's a sad thing.


everything's changing and i don't feel the same.