Thursday, February 15, 2007
Nephrite at 10:48:00 PM
for the first time, i feel like blogging tho i have nothing to say.
doshite?
shiranai.
its one day aft v day.
my gosh.
kids sure are maturing early.
haha.
time
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Nephrite at 12:58:00 AM
the essence of time....
hmm...
i suppose now, that it is not abt how much time u want...
its more of how to properly make use of the time u have....and with v day coming, or rather already here...
its always easy to say its totally overrated...
but...
i rmb the tons of dedications back in nss...and the roses n chocs..
then at mrs fields...when i toiled away at the cakies and icing hoping and wishing as i went abt the work that whoever got the cakie would appreciate it as well as the person who got it for them...
i suppose at that point of time tho i was peeved i was using my own vday to make someone elses day, i still got some satisfaction...
which then brings me back to the question.
does everyone really wanna celebrate v day or is it like a habit or chore?
is it really better to confess ur feelings toward someone u like and risk pain n humiliation ?
or is it better to happily look from a distance and suffer silently?
or is it really possible to just be content watching the one u love BE content?
i think there really might be two types of pain...
one when u cannot be happy with the one u love.
the other is seeing the one u love in pain.
today.
window shopping for cny stuff.
didnt get any clothes in the end.
but alvin ended up joining us aft work n had jap for dinner n cartel for dessert.
which is bad.
we like, completely splurged.
REN
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Nephrite at 1:11:00 PM
tahan. ren. ren.ren.
so now i need a defense against my own family.
im so slow la.
on another level
Nephrite at 12:49:00 AM
pain hastaken on a new meaning now.i have never has such an excruciating train ride in my life i swear.the slightest jerk or cough and a blunt blade seems to stab me.kinda felt like the sick anticipation when theres too much tension.or the kind where u feel like maybe head banging feels gr8.nevertheless. it makes me feel old.haha.ohoh.resolution no 7....its a secret...well maybe an open secret.i mention it sometimes when i babble away.so, to people who actually listen, mayb u'll be able to guess.its no point announcing it.cuz if i did, then it would be somewhat meaningless.i think.even though im living in denial believing that im living to please people,since i m forced to admit i cant please them all,i shall then strive to trying to please as many as possible.i dont know.as in i dont think i wanna delve into the matter any deeper or i'll be stuck thinking abt this into the next century.since wad makes me happy is seeing other people happy then the simplest solution is to make them happy so i'll be happy.zu ren wei quai le zi ben.the fun fair was today.i think it turned out pretty well.we ended up helping ppl use up their tix.haha.and most of the fair-goers all got sunburnt.i wanted to go in sch u but now im glad i didn't...i would have stewed in it!being back just made me realise how much i miss it.despite the homework, long hours and the unreasonabilities.haha. IF there is such a word.
went out with jill n weel...
met up with chen halfway...
my gosh.
bra straps = lucky bands?
okayyyyy.
he still confuses me.
humane? or inhumane?
mayb i'll nv noe.
maybe i will.
maybe.
whatever.
-_- ----> nonplussed
i wish i wish.
haha.
i must be stupid.
no shame, no fear.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Nephrite at 12:15:00 AM
one day, one day.
argghh.
im quite pissed with myself.
but.
as MY new year is beginning,
i am...
1. going to keep my resolution to try to not be apathetic.
why? because. im think that this is one of the WORST traits i inherited from my dad.
and feeling apathetic never gets anyone anywhere. in fact, its a time capsule.
2. try to stop worrying?
i have to admit this is probably impossible but STILL.
3. save more.
my god. retail therapy, even in small amts, can be fatal to bank accs.
4. work towards happiness!!!
banzai!
5. reach my goals.
wad are my goals? gd qn.
i havent figured it out yet.
why? so far i've been doing everything for the sakes of everyone else so i've kinda forgot what i wanted to do initially.
6. i dunno abt this one. how 'bout, get a life?
just cAme back from watching this play with aunt jacq.
called 'the pickle king' at the repertory theatre.
it was darn funny!
tho i had to forgo my class gathering.
the way the four of us got to the play was funny.
we all but covered the whole of clarke quay on foot b4 settling on a place to eat.
and in the end, we cabbed to the place when we alr mapped out the walking route.
and better yet, we changed 2 taxis la.
the 1st one we got into didnt noe where it was and tho it was obvious he WAS NOT sporean, he still insisted he was a local. -____-"
-_-" feels so kogepan-ish.
met up with the remaining a21ers and trained back tog with jill n jo.
got an early pres from jane n aaron.
THANKS A MILLION.
and to put the cherry on top,
CHEN CALLED.
he's back, tho botak and coughing.
haha. the brat.
hmmm...should i be honoured?
anyway, okaeri!
fun fairs tml.
ugh,
i so am not in the mood for it.
in the brilliance of the moon
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Nephrite at 9:54:00 PM
i really admire some ppl...
esp those who can do the same thing for 30 plus years...
i mean...
can u imagine doing the same job for that long?
i can't...
esp office jobs...
tadaima
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Nephrite at 11:40:00 PM
jo, me jeremy
abv: Anna. kyota!
missing: kuku huat and aunty rina
the "HAPPY" prison march back. 
for all that its fly infested, the scenery's gr8.
tadaima....
im back...
i need to rant to jill n weel soon.
or im gonna bao.
i feel arrggh.
aft spending the past few days surrounded by malaysian relatives...
i can practically hear the hokkien running thru my head.
or chinese with that m'sian slang.
i feel horrid rite now.
hontoni. hidoi.
yi han yi han yi han is all i feel.
and the tears that fell were not ones for the rite reasons..
the tension.
the hypocrisy.
the FLIES.
all of it.
and the pain.
the sickness.
but at least we got to play with my cousins,
see where my gramps used to live.
lunas it is.
jo, me jeremy
abv: Anna. kyota!
missing: kuku huat and aunty rina
the "HAPPY" prison march back. 
for all that its fly infested, the scenery's gr8.
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