Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby.
Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning.
sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself,
I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets.
There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know.
And then you will see the world through my eyes.
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Nephrite at 12:58:00 PM
two days.
2 days
liang tian
more.
and.
bon voyage.
dare mo shiranai.
...
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Nephrite at 10:34:00 PM
agony.
funny how the word is diluted.
now i feel it.
oh yea.
i sO feel it.
me n my clumsy feet.
arg.
sucks.
so much for enjoying pe.
bullshit
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Nephrite at 8:19:00 PM
nothing has changed.
what was said, or not said was total and complete bull.
weel, i think u can guess wad i mean.
cant rely means cant rely.
its the same as the others from a while back.
can u catch the gist?
we've been bluffed, or should i say cheated?
yet, to be unforgiving is a sin?
but does this count when the person burns u over and over till u can't trust yourself to do the right ethical thing anymore?
argg.
i wished i'd asked someone else now.
i lost my chance.
totally.
and i quote " i'm so stupid, i'm so stupid (knocks head)"
bluff bluff bluff!
oh you fraud,
u make me sick.*__*
sportsday06
Friday, May 19, 2006
Nephrite at 9:01:00 PM
todaytoday...
wad do lions eat?
*toot in a bowl.
waha.came home at almost 1030pm n slept at 2 the previous nite.
woke at 5.20?
went to haunt the 3rd lvl of civics centre with huiXian.
walked to sch w/ her n aDeel.
the rest of the day was total nonstop movement.
ohoh. and i had this shit-awful blue black on my upper thigh, which, was revealed to the world due to that minute skirt.
it looks like a birthmark.
except, i don't have one.today was my last sports day at innova as a current student.
well, initially i was gonna pon it and go fer my appointment at the dentist's.
then i decided to help with the cheerleading.
well, doesn't tt sound noble?
of cos, it will be noble only IF i could pull it off.
which, obviously, i didnt.
egad.
i'm SUCH a liability.
i bet 50% of the non-sync was my bad.
still.
taurus was totally sync-ed and looked pro.
but our moves were better.
i think?
was kinda disappointed we got 2nd for the cheerleading.
but with someone like me, the eleventh hour crazed person, its hard nt to see why we didnt win.
and.
i missed out on the mini after-party with ms chua n the rest.
why? had to go for the UK briefing. hmm.
after that?
cabbed down ta toa payoh sports hall to watch the bball finals.
my reaction when i first stepped in? WOW. of course, i thot it inwardly.
cux just a few seconds b4 i entered the colosseum someone told me tt the first time would leave a person in awe.
and boy, that prediction was sure as hell pretty accurate.
y i say colosseum?
the the 'supporters' are more like spectators watching their team fight a bloody sparring match.
the bballers were more like gladiators. seriously.
the whole thing reminded me of GLADIATOR.
the cheers were deafening. like, can go deaf tt sort.
but the players put on a real good show.
i sO think VJ's girl's 11 is zai!! and RJ's girl's 5. like, in my grin ear-to-ear way.
for the guys' match... whoa.
quite drama la. some parts. but pity AJ didnt win. was rooting for them.
i'm starting to think in the political way. support the opposite.
omgg. they r aLL sO cOoL!!!!!!!
after tt. i didnt get to bathe.
went to some place in toa payoh tt had a cinema and decided to watch da vinci code.
i so CANNOT wait to read the book *hints to eileen chew*. haha.
ended up watching with some other innovians.
oh man. richard is sO gay. in every sense of the word. and i mean EVERY sense.
he's funny. period. and funny at his own expense too, totally value-added.
if ya get what i mean.
hurhur.
=Poh. im quite annoyed with someone who has like, blantant disregard for others.
like, hello!
i know u're pretty, smart, popular n all ut is this wad u do to a friend's favour?
sHeesh. i'll jus lie the next time, why shouldnt i?
argg.CONGRATULATIONS TO RASALAS,
CHAMPIONS OF SPORTS DAY 2oo6!!
ROCK ON BABY!to end.
i think, the more u will ppl NOT to see u, the more they notice.
but the minute to try to get their attention to converse, they get distracted.
so then. how DO you stay invisible?
how?
we're all objects. nothing more. nothing less.
just a day, just an ordinary day.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Nephrite at 4:29:00 PM
its me again.who'd you expect?lol.anyway.mothers day wasnt all tt bad.we carteled.aunty rita stayed over the whole weekend.why?soth abt someone gg bonkers.like, whaTTT??from the most unexpected person too.sheesh, who'd've thought?dad.hm.he has cleaned the house.a miracle?perhaps the making of one.last nite though, just proved my mother's theory right.the stupid letter. egad.does this mean he's always up to sth if he starts being nice?cux this jus means he'll NEVER be nice.we are objects, nothing more than property.we, as in the children. yup. THE children.freak yourselves out!oh. andand,i'm so dead for tml's cheerleading.like, bangbang dead.
Quietus est
Friday, May 12, 2006
Nephrite at 2:51:00 PM
someone please sign my quietus est.
im so tired of it all.
this world is such a NOT nice place to live in.
"even the best fall down sometimes"?
you'd have to be the best to fall DOWN in the first place.
so wad does that make me?
i was never a 'best'.
you can fall when u were never high up to begin with, can you.
egad.
seeking shameful ways to avoid shame is the commonest thing around nowadays.
bring somone your family tells you NOT to bring home and you ignore them.
some sister.
wait a minute.
have u actually ever been sisterly?
now. thats a questionable question.
i wonder if there's anything more than blood concerned in this relationship.
you actually told me to go hide in the room.
oh, the nerve.
better yet.
u cant even conceal your secret properly.
i didnt say anything. u made ALL the mistakes AND managed to let the cat out of the bag all by yourself.
why did i BOTHER worrying?
hah. you are sO in such a sorry state.
u're friends are right.
i shouldnt bother with you at all.
u placed yourself beyond a reachable state.
u have idolized yourself without anyone aiding you.
or mayb you did have help.
of flattering sycophants and panders.
i have nO respect for u at all.
i'm a tad bit happy tt mom's moving.
why? at least she won't have to scream all day and complain about you and i won't have to see her cry.
tt will be relief in itself.
saying my attitude was bitchy tt day?
well, newsflash baby!
i learnt it from the "almighty' you..
aw. aren't you so terribly touched.
oh wait.
you have bEEN touched. literally.
whatever.
how DARE you
Sunday, May 07, 2006
Nephrite at 3:06:00 PM
the TWO of you have succeeded in screwing up MY LIFE.
which is so ironic since you created me by literally SCREWING each other!
what the HELL is WRONG with you??!!
you play tug-of-war, NO, make that Push-and -Shove with what u call 'THE kids'
and now this.
taking revenge on each other via US is NOT the way to do it.
HOW dare you?
how DARE you?
how dare YOU?
how dare you blame things on ME.
how dare you say I'M being UNFAIR.
well.
two words.
FUCK YOU.
and thats coming from a person who doesnt like to use uncouth language.
FEEL MY RAGE.
affected
Friday, May 05, 2006
Nephrite at 8:50:00 PM
heya.
egad.
im quite surprised to find myself so affected.
i actually felt like crying. felt like.
whywhywhy.
why did it turn out like this.
i feel like i didn't cheer enough.
or didn't pay enough attention.
or mayb i just shouldnt have gone, i feel like a bad omen.
darn.
you should've seen their faces.
at one point i wanted to sock all the stupid stompers in the face.
seriously.
they were infuriating.
the i-want-to tear-my-hair-out kind.
like the -nails-on-chalkboard thing.
ohoh, and. someone smells girly.
hurhur.
`where'd you go?
i miss you so.
and you.
so irresponsible.
to think i tot you could be trusted.
hah.
you blew it.
BIG mistake.
big, huge, gigantic, humongous, enormous, gargantuan.
today's econs test was a KILLER.
then again, when it chows down to econs, EVERYTHING is a killer.
`i dreamed i was dying, as i so often do,
and when i awoke i was sure it was true,
i ran to the window, threw my head to the sky,
and said whoever is up there, please don't let me die.
hmm. true vs false
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Nephrite at 1:17:00 PM
Jade, your goddess groove is the Chart Toppin' Pop!
Hey, Chart Toppin' Knock-Out, your goddess groove is like the Top-40 charts: you're always a favorite with the crowds whether you try to be or not. People are drawn to you because you're not afraid to state your opinion, ask questions about the world around you, and even make a fool out of yourself — if it'll cheer up a good friend or family member.
You're a trusted addition to any gathering, and people want to hear what you have to say. Your advice is like that catchy tune that stays in their heads for days. You're the true original — often imitated, but never duplicated. If others pick up on your popular style, just try to remember to take it as flattery. After all, you were their source of inspiration.
Your creativity seems to know no bounds — it has a head-bobbing groove that lends a noticeable flair to the artist inside. Whether it's music, painting or photography, you're always looking for another outlet. It doesn't matter where you go — leave it to your family and close friends to provide the familiar hook that always keeps you grounded. You have what it takes to reach your goals in life, so get ready to ride your goddess groove to the top of the charts.
true?
LoL
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