My Amber Grace

We have been pretty busy doing lots of fun activities, and while we do have fun, I can't help but think at least once during our fun times that we're missing a special someone. She should be with us going to the pumpkin patch, dressing up for Halloween, going on hay rides, enjoying Thanksgiving sweet potatoes and pumpkin pie (well, maybe not this year), picking out a Christmas tree, seeing Christmas lights, and (being freaked out by) Santa Claus.

You know, just experiencing all the sights and sounds this world has to offer.

I often wonder how her personality would fit into our family. What traits would be her Dad's and which would be mine. Would she be more serious like Ethan or more silly like Abby? I feel like I know her perfect, beautiful and strong little spirit but we didn't get enough time to know her.

I wonder if she was going to look like Abby or like Ethan or maybe a mixture of both or maybe not like either of them at all.

I just miss her.

It's hard to go to church and see babies around her age (she would be 7 months now). It's hard going to Target and walking passed the baby clothes department. It's hard with Christmas coming up that I'm looking for Christmas PJ's for my family and knowing I have one more pair I should be buying.

There's no way around it...

It's hard...

I wish I had more faith, I wish I had all the answers, I wish it wasn't so heartbreaking, but most of all I wish she was here with us.

I am glad to know what I know, that heaven is real and I will see my beautiful baby girl again...one day. But for right now, not having her here with us is hard.

I sure do miss and love, love, love my Amber Grace...