The Good, the bad, the ugly

The Good

• Friday Night Lights. I want to be Tammy Taylor when I grow up.
• Tax refunds
• Having a dad like mine.
• A 101 update coming soonish

The Bad

• There's a lot of hard, hard stuff going on with my family right now and I'm not sure how it's all going to play out. ...and I'm scared
• Eating too much. Repeatedly.

The Ugly

• Watching a few friends' marriages fall apart while being able to do nothing about it is awful. Why can't people just choose to love and support each other? Why can't we all mean the things we say. Really mean them....not just "in the moment" mean them. Mean them and then back it up with our actions? If you go into relationships knowing that, as my friend David would say, "The ones you love will hurt you the most, not because they expect too much, they just know where to push." ... then well, shouldn't that help? Knowing that a hard rain's gonna fall sometimes? I dunno. I'm beginning to think it's impossible... though I know nothing is impossible with God... it still hurts to know that we are completely and utterly incapable of really loving each other. My human nature wants to be capable. My human nature wants to be able to do it without help... but I can't. I'd run every time if I could. My heart is breaking for my friends.... and I am selfishly afraid that that same fate awaits me if I ever get married.. because I'm not so certain that I am chooseable.... or if any of us really are.

There's no place like home.

To sum it up:

There was bowling, walking, exploring, dancing, hiking, running, laughing, crying, driving, flying, waiting, not enough sleeping, catching, throwing, riding, teasing, lying, losing, winning, pretending, ignoring, friending, hiding, enjoying and dreaming.

And eating, eating, eating.

I stuffed myself on beignets and café au lait, and muffaletas, and gumbo, and pralines, and crawfish etouffe, and King Cake!, and Amy’s ice cream, and Austin Gelato, and Whataburger and In n' Out, and Kirby lane, and rabbit, and homemade bread, and homeade pasta, and corned beef and cabbage, and Ghiradelli chocolate, and fro-yo trips galore!

The Wine and Coffee flowed.

One month, nine states and 3 trips to the ocean.

.... and I still missed home.

"...wherever you wander, there's no place like home."

Sit down. Take a nap.

"..oh I know whatcha thinking. But God never abandoned you, Firefly. He was holding you through all the pain and unfairness that found it's way to you, and He made you stronger through it! And as much as it pained you, I'd wager it cut the good Lord's heart a great deal more... Firefly, God was watchin! and He's still watchin! Sometimes He puts us on these journeys.. journey's that feel like mountains, mountains that are just too big for one soul to bear. And the truth is, they is! They is far too big to bare alone! But the good Lord goes before you, Firefly. And when you get weary, you don't have to look at the mountain and waste time worryin about how long it'll take to cross over, or fret over how you don't have the strength. No child, sometimes the good Lord just wants us to sit down and take a nap, or have a picnic, right there on the mountain! To take a minute and look out and see how far we've come. To rest, Janie. You need to rest. And before you lay your head down on that pillow tonight child, you take a moment to see just how far you've come. and I think you'll be surprised."