I know the blog has been a bit "blah" lately. I apologize. I keep meaning to post on lots of different things, but alas, I never do.
So here's my attempt at something "meaningful."
The blog may have been boring as of late, but life has been quite the opposite.
I'm reminded again of my abilty to cope with disappointments more successfully than blessings. Which is sad, really. I don't know what it is, but I think it's true of most people. This could explain why so many people are willing to wallow and stay in the "depths of despair." It's strange, but I guess there's something familiar about pain, something routine. Or maybe it's just that we have a callousness reserved for life's pain and dissappointments, whereas joy really gets you where it hurts, and there's no hiding from it.
Tonight at City Church Kevin mentioned how life with God is sometimes a little out of control. I'd have to say amen to that one.
At the moment I'm listening through a few playlists from last fall and they're making me feel a plethora of things. I wish I could tell you, but I just can't find the words. (currently I can only steal them...) Lately, when I take the time to think back over this past year it isn't long before I find myself overwhelmed. So many events, so many changes. I often wonder if Danica from a year ago would even recognize me now. It's funny, a year ago I didn't even know my fiance existed. I don't know if that makes me insane or lucky... probably both, but I'd say that that event alone constitutes as "a little out of control" not to mention the G8 summit, graduation and everything else inbetween. I for one am happy that God knows what He's doing, cause I never would have expected any of this (with the exception of graduation) last summer.
So I'm learning how to live life in a constant state of awe. With so much going on, there isn't much else I can do. It's an amazing feeling to know you will soon be married to your best friend, and yet, at the same time it's fightening to feel at times as though you hardly know them at all. It's exciting to see yourself going through the process of something that you were never really sure would happen or not, but it is slightly intimidating to see everything in your life changing completely in such a short time.
But wow. It's worth it.
And I really don't know how else to end this post, so that will have to do for tonight.
Yay for unexpected good things. Yay for being out of control.
Goodnight all.
