Happy Birthday Grandpa Bell!

So, yesterday was my Grandpa Bell's 88th Birthday! I'm so glad that he has been in my life for so many years. We came up to Burley, ID yesterday with my mom and my little brother. I forget how much fun I can have in the same car as the rest of my family. We haven't been on a road trip like that in a long time! Mostly mom and I got to visit a lot, which was really nice.
I need to preface with something before I continue. We found out a couple of months back that Grandpa has been showing signs of Alzheimers. When we saw him at Thanksgiving,it was much worse than I had thought. He kept asking who owned my parents house, even though he has been there SO MANY TIMES, as my parents have never moved. About a week ago my sweet Grandpa had a seizure, and was hospitalized. He was really disoriented for the first few days.
We arrived yesterday, and it was not what I was expecting. Grandpa was doing really well last night. He knew where he was, he knew who we were, it was great! It felt like the "Old Grandpa" was coming back. This morning I woke up at abou 6, just due to the fact that I was aslep so early last night. A few minutes after I woke up, I heard a commotion upstairs. Grandpa thought he was at the neighbors house, and he was trying to walk home in his underwear. Luckily he was caught before he actually made it outside. This morning has been a huge struggle for him, and for me as well. I love him so much, that I just want him to be better. When my Grandpa Ellison died, and I saw his failing health, that was easir for me than seeing this.
I was such an emotional wreck. I'm glad no one could see me break down. I need to be strong for my mom. I know this is harder on her than she will ever say out loud. Same for Grandma for that matter. I am here to help, not hinder. I needed to get my feelings out. I'm really sorry if this hurts anyone, I really don't want it too. I just needed to get it out. I will be good now! :)
Happy Birthday Grandpa. I love you more than I know how to express!

Family Update!

So, Caleb lost his job about a month ago. He has been out searching pretty hard for the last 4 weeks. Today, he got a new job! He now works for a new trucking company, that is more established than his last one, and they loved what experience he had. Once that application was in, they had him do his drive test the same day, and he started work tonight. He only put in the application Tuesday afternoon, so this is fabulous considering the economy we are in. This is the first time in Caleb's job history where he felt that he had enough experience to be a huge benefit to the company. Caleb has been trained on equipment that a lot of other people haven't, and they aren't even willing to learn it. He's also willing to go and get some more endorsements so that he can work even more for them! I am so proud of him! He is really doing everything he can to try to provide for us. We know that these guys work a lot, so this is a good thing!
I am still working like a maniac, but I want us to dig out of our hole, and be able to pay things off while I am working as much and making as much as I am now. Once we get things paid off, then my hours will slow down. Until then, I will work a lot, and escape life in books!
I am always looking for book suggestions if any of you have them! I'm easily reading 2-3 books a week right now depending on length, so yeah. I'm reading a lot. Now that Caleb is going to be working nights again, it's better for me to read then veg in front of the TV personally, so I would love to know what others of you are reading. I just finished Graceling, and I loved it! Maybe I should start a book blog...nah, I've got enough on my plate! :)

Dangit!

So, Caleb lost his job a week ago. We have been trying to find him something else, so if anyone hears of anything in Utah County, let us know please! We really could use all the help we can get. I'm already working 60+ hours a week, so I can't really add anything else on to help more, or I will be the zombie of the century! Caleb is willing to take anything he is qualified for. He's not comfortable with anything super technology oriented.... but he's willing to work about anywhere at this point.
Thanks everyone! If you don't hear of anything, just keep us in your prayers!

Happy Birthday Shala!

So, I had my birthday, and I survived! ;) It all started Sunday, when my parents made my favorite dinner, (Chicken Cordon Bleu, Garlic Mashed Potatoes, squash and zucchini) and they also bought HUGE cupcakes from Flour Girls and Dough Boys located in town. They were really tasty! Then we got to webcam with the "Brazilian Ellisons" for a while. William was in a mood, but it was great to visit with Ty and Kimie for a while. Plus my little Rico was sweet as ever, and went to bed early, because his school started the next day.
Monday really was a good day! I woke up in the morning, and my hubby had a sewing machine sitting out in the living room for me! It's a little cheapy machine, but it does what I need it to do! Then we went and grabbed a quick breakfast, then went down to my in laws to borrow her car. We then had lunch with Nate , Carrie, and little Ele Gross, and it was so fun to see them! It's been way too long!
After that we, took my mother-in-laws car up to IKEA to purchase a bed! That's right, we got a bed! They had a great bed on sale, so we picked it up! We got back, and got it put together, but there were no slats for the bottom of the bed in our boxes. We called up IKEA, and found out we had forgotten a piece, so we drove all the way back up to IKEA to pick it up. While we were there, we went up to the cafe and picked up a cheap dinner, and then we took the car back to my in-laws. They suprise me with Cupcakes from Cupcake Chic, and it was great!
My hubby didn't have to work that night, so the best present for me was being able to sleep in our new bed together! We don't get that much, so it was nice!
Thanks for all of the birthday wishes on my facebook! I had over 100 people stop by and wish me a happy day! I feel so loved!

Tubby Time!

So, between working and moving this week, I felt spent. I wanted to find a way to relax that wasn't just vegging out in front of the TV. I was going to bake some lemon bars, but after talking with a friend, (Thanks Chelsea!) I decided it would probably be better not to, especially since I am home alone tonight. So, I decided I would take a bath, and read my new book, that was really short!
It's Dieter F. Uchtdorf's new book called, "Your Happily Ever After" The title caught my eye as I was birthday shopping a little early. (Thanks Don and Kathie for the gift card!) So I bought it, along with a new great picture for our new place!
Anyway! I was in the tub reading this book, and it made me a little emotional! It reminded me that for anyone to get to their own "Happily Ever After" they are going to go through tough times. It's the only way to make things sweeter when you get to your ending! I really needed to hear that tonight! I'm really glad that I got to do that tonight! Now it's back to laundry and organizing!

Break Down

So, this last weekend, I had a break down. I think this is mostly related to stress, but something hit me hard this weekend. I am turning 26 on Monday. Looking back, I thought I would be in a different place. I thought I would have at least 1 child, maybe be pregnant with my 2nd by now, kind of like my mom was. I thought we would own a home, and that I would work because I want to, not because our survival depends on me working.
I got home Saturday around 4pm from work and running up to IKEA to pick up a dresser for the new apartment. When we got home, I just crawled in bed, and started to cry. My husband and I argued for a minute, because I didn't want to tell him why I was upset. I told him I didn't feel good, and of course, he didn't believe me. Once I told him what was going on, he encouraged me to try to sleep. I took a short nap, and woke up crying because I saw my dreams of the past in my dream.
We were supposed to go to the rodeo Saturday with my in-laws, but I couldn't make myself get out of bed. It was not something that I enjoyed in the slightest. It was a real struggle for me. I don't like to become vulnerable. But, being the lucky girl I am, my in-laws understood why I couldn't go, and I have an amazing husband who stayed home with me, and held me until I stopped crying. He let me cry it out, and just held me. He didn't try to fix it, because he knew he couldn't fix the past.
So, as of Monday, I will look forward to new dreams that do consist of a family, and a house still, but I won't set a time frame on it anymore. :) Here's to a great rest of my 20's!

Moving, again...

So, we are moving again, and it's only about a block away from where we are now. Our current landlord now has 2 young children, and they need the space that is currently our apartment, so that they can renovate it into a home office for him. We will still be in our same ward, so we will get to see them.
For anyone who wants to help, we think we are going to move most of our big stuff on the 30th around noon. Anyone who wants to help is welcome to! We will slowly be moving other things over after we sign our contract on the 22nd. We have to get internet and everything set up over there too.