Wednesday, December 05, 2007
5:41 PM
yays!!i can almost smell freedom in e air man!!haha :):)
supposed to be studyin my ah pei's module but i am like totally complacent!!i swear if population monetary n industrialization dun come out i can 100 percent go n die!!i will just faint in e exam hall later!roars!
but i am like totally no mood to read anymore stuff!!!
cant wait for enchanted later!
n on a random note
i should stop blog surfing!
cuz the whole world is making me jealous!
but nvm!
5 more hours!n freedom here i come!
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n some people are really stupid i swear!!
changing their email like 93849038403948 times
trying to get me accept them
but is so obvious that i know who that idiot is
n i totally hate it
how u try to spoil my every single holiday
by all the random smses
random email
random adding me online!
random phone calls that i never pick up!
i really wonder..what u want from me!
i just want u to shoo away!!
everytime u do this kinda thing
i will just ROARS! n RAHZ!!
n just get stomachache n start thinking bout 938490384093 random things
n true i am stupid n naive!
but am i stupid enough to be naive enough again?
obviously no!
so pls stop doing this kinda random stuff!
maybe i should change my email instead!
what a way to end off my last paper!
Monday, November 26, 2007
9:18 PM
just wanted to blog abit while waiting for yi-lin to come!
mugging n slacking are like worlds apart
but yet, thats what i have been doing the past week or so
don't really have high hopes for my CAP this sem
but just hope that it will not go down further
n i officially ventured to all the different libs in NUS
n law school rawks la!
shall post up some photos one day after my exams
the atmosphere..the auora...the atas-ness..n the nice milky tea which is o damn nice!
n not forgetting the company
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n yest i was just reading e newspaper
bout the dragonboaters
n my heart really go out to their family n friends
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on a side note
just for u guys
my annoying sisters
i miss u guys!n all your nonsense!
happy?
hahaz hope u are enjoyin yourselves super alot
n tmr night is e wedding!
sighz!wished that i could attend!
i love love weddings
even with all the rising divorce rates
even with all the broken familes n everything
i still love weddings
because at least on that day itself
n at least on that day itself u really believed that there is such a thing called happily ever after
but whether that happily ever after really applies
thats another story n another chapter
Thursday, November 22, 2007
9:00 AM
sometimes the more you expect
the more disappointed you will be
n i really wonder
what is the dominant strategy in this whole thing
is there really one?
tts y i seriously think that econs is a load of crap
cuz seriously in life..
is there really a dominant strategy?
n i just wanna say sorry
cuz i felt that there is so much i could have done
but i did not
i just assumed 39490340292 things
n i really felt ultra helpless
n i wish that i can do something about it
Sunday, November 18, 2007
8:28 AM
but anyways on a much more positive note
the birthday celebration was great on friday!
thanks to the stupid pd who made me do 93849038493048093483 stupid things!
n is so embarrassing!
but i still love every bit of it!!
n i love e watch!:):)
n e top:):)
n not forgetting the nice board that kw n cherie did for me!
is like in my room now!!:):)
pretty pretty!:):)
7:37 AM
seriously sometimes i really wonder
about alot of things
n about all the answers which i will never have
but i really wonder
like when i read bout all the south Asian stuff
how the people can endure their fate thinking that they deserve to be that way
to be treated that way
to be the 'untouchables'
being in the lowest caste
n i just hate people for being so apathetic
or bout all the bullying cases
why is it always the minority that end up getting bullied
children nowadays
i just hate people that uses violence seriously
i just wished that there is something i can do bout it
like the time i went chiang rai
looking at the children made me feel damn helpless
i thought that there is much i can do for them
but seriously
i can do nothing.
nothing at all.
and it sucks.
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was quite upset bout some stuff today
sometimes i thought that i can totally heck care bout it
n find 9384938493843904830 reasons for ya for so long
but is all excuses
n i am really sick n tired of finding excuses for ya
i tried to be perfect
i know my hair does not fall in place
i know i am not pretty
i know my grades are not good enough
i know i am not a million things
but i really tried my best
but i guess
maybe i am not good enough
e only thing i can do is not to rant to anyone
because if i do
i will be even more imperfect
being unreasonable
expecting too much
but i guess...on a positive note
is better than nothing
at least you attempted..
so thanks
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n e ant incident made me understand something
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n yes!
thanks sis for the crumpler bag!:):)
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
7:01 PM
just wanted to blog abit since i am like feeling o so bored
though i have 49748930840284 things to mug at this point!
n so we celebrated the big 1 on monday
was just a simple affair
but it was good enough
n i watch this show just now
n i thought of 338937473 things
remembering that i wanted to be a detective when i was in primary 4
or how i used to think that everyone is suspicious
n got the habit of people watching
n how i loved to play treasure hunt!
or how u would cheer me up n hide my present somewhere
n i have to solve all the clues to find it
miss those days like totally
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n i thought of my birthday wish n what i want from santa
give me more brains can
or just make me smarter
n let me survive this sem
n i swear
i will be a good girl
i will not waste any more food
i wun be evil to anyone anymore
i will treat my sisters nicer
i will treat the whole world nicer
just give me more brains!
Thursday, November 08, 2007
9:10 PM
so i had good food today again!
crystal jade breakfast with my favorite people!
though is just me lf kw n manda
but the company n food still rocks nevertheless
n we are like dim sum fans!
ate dim sum both yesterday n today
omg!at this rate i am spending i will be dead broke
n we celebrated tk's ethel's n sufi's birthday
happy big 20 babes!
lotsa fun as usual
all of us wearing the o week shirt
feel like arts camp or o week all over
munchie monkeys for dinner!
my favorite sandwich n stuff
but it feels weird not going there for like sooooo soooo long can
used to go there on a weekly basis!
n i felt bad for not going for movies with bryant they all
next time!
i definitely will join them!
been like 92384590430930 years since we went out
n lf was zai as usual
putting my thoughts together
n my pissiness was gone
but i am still quite amazed
cuz all these mundane stuff never bothered me in the past
who cares if you dun contect me for one whole week
or so what if we dun go out for a few weeks!
n most of the times i used to be e lazy
complaining that i rather stay at home rot n watch tv
than to go out
n cant even be bothered to drag myself to do anything
but everything is good again!
n my whole pessimistic n pissified mood was gone (for now)
n at least today i did not bully the poor crayons anymore!
n decided to put in more effort into everything!
wanted to put pictures of what i have been up to staying up the past few nights
but roars!cannot
shall post it up next week!
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n the world keep asking what i want for my birthday~
but i really cant think of anything
but i cant wait for exams to be over!then it will be zara, topshop, miss selfridge (they are having sales n i saw this damn cute dress!!!)or anywhere!
so maybe vouchers will be good!
n kw got selective hearing seriously!only when i mention about shopping then she will turn n remind me bout my resolution!
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n i cant wait for chitty chitty bang bang tmr!
n on a side note:
i wanna watch enchanted!
n i wanna mug n do well for this sem!
n i cant wait to go hong kong!
though it will be the same old visiting of relatives every single daY
n being bullied by my sisters to go ice skating with them!
but still..
i am still looking forward to it
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n yays!
monopoly n mugging later!
ciaoz!
7:42 AM
i hate horror movies..
everything always happen cuz e lead actor or actress is too kpo
is like when they saw some ghost-like thing
they should just turn away or walk away
but yet..curiousity always kill the cat..as the saying goes
so they will tend to look at it wanting to confirm if is true or not
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alot on my mind
but i just dun noe how to put it into words
but that day at e lib
i wasted alot of time trying to confirm something
n now that i think back
so what is true
so what if it isnt
it does not really matter
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"All Or Nothing"
I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's gotta give
As sharing in this relationship gets older, older
You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair
Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all
There are time it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it , show it
Then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you could see
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it , know it
Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well
I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell
Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all
Cuz you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No more inside for me in your life
Cuz I want it all
Or Nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
It's now or never
Is it all
Or Nothing at all
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
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n sometimes something can just manipulate people
n can totally brain-wash people making you a totally different person
but i guess everyone makes mistakes
but i am really glad to receive your msg today!
so if u are reading this
just wanna tell ya that i forgive u
n dun worry
cuz everyone makes mistakes
so yup yup!
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on a random note
is quite funny how human can remember sad stuff much more than happy stuff
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n i am really having a mini food hunt la
1st was killineys last fri
then today we went yum cha n this desert place
n tmr will be holland v crystal jade
n i am happy cuz i got alot of nice songs on my ipod!
:):)
satisfied!
n on a very random note:
i really want an alarm clock!
pls excuse all my ranting here!
Thursday, November 01, 2007
10:05 PM
Yucks!i think the mugger-toad-ness is starting to rub on me! yucks man
let's see what i have been doing this week...
mm...monday after macro lect went clubroom to do my marketing tutorial!
so glad tt i need not submit anymore marketing assignment!!
it makes me lose interest in marketing like totally!!!yucks!
n tues..after tutorial went to meet yilin for dinner n we mugged abit in e lib!
but the talk was good
been like damn long since we really talked i guess
realised tt this sem i have been neglecting many of my friends!
shall make more time for them!
n wed!!
i met lynnsie for lunch, desert n shopping at bugis!!
have not met her in a million years
n i promised the whole world tt no more shopping for the rest of this sem
but wait..no more REAL shopping!!
means window shopping is still ok
so is buying stuff from school bazaar
or if i go out with my mummy n she pays for it
n for anyone who wants to contribute to my shopping fund!!
n thurs!
long day in school!
had like non-stop lesson from 11-4!
yucks!
but luckily marketing ended early so i can eat my fav cheese susage n my dumpling at the biz canteen with remmy!
n if u are reading this!
u are damn freaking disgusting can!
how can u get 100 marks for ur essay!
disgustingly disgusting!
show off!grr!
n south asea is so damn boring!
the lecturer is so preaching can
e only reason we stayed was cuz we felt bad to leave half way through~
n LF n me self entertained ourselves by playing stupid games online like e madonald game n pacman!hahaz n i was totally screaming in the lecture threatre
n e guy sitting next to me keep giving me weird looks!
but omg!
n me n kw spent the entire journey home talking bout the different food tt we love to eat!
while some mugger is mugging for his life-guard stuff!
n so much for my logic of diminishing returns..
i was wrong after all!
if only time can stop right now...
then there will be no exams...
n there will be no next year...
then we can just do the million things on our to-do list!
n roars!my maco tutorial ended like ultra early!
so i am like in the as7 com lab printing stuff!
n i am so bored waiting for e rest tt i can blog in details bout the every single thing i did this week!
settlers cafe later!
:):)
n breakfast at Killineys with kw totally rocks la!
e Kaya toast, the dim sum, the tea!
it rocks to have people staying in e west!
but yucks!i realised tt i only mugged one day this week..n it was only 2 hours with yi-lin tt night!
on a side note
i totally missed my sisters while they were away on their Malaysia trip!
it feels weird to have no one annoying me for once
n the house was quiet
but too quiet already
though they spoilt e new bought camera
n help me invent a million fake bfs..
n as usual..they bought me sth which i will never use
i still love them to bits n peices
n on a opposite side note:
got this guy in my macro tut..
he look damn poor thing somehow
cant really explain it
but i felt like talking to him cuz he looked so friend-less
but e reason as to y i noticed him was maybe cuz he is an ang-moh
n my whole macro class was damn freaking enthu!
like everyone all fighting to answer something can
disgusting!
n some idiot score like 90 plus for his macro test n he still tried to ask for more marks!
really damn freakin disgusting!
yucks!
i love shimin(written by shimin)