I love cooking.

I am going to be making a this

this

and some of this

All because of here  and because I have so many of these

My mouth is drooling!

Summer lovin...

What have the bells been up to this summer? I mean really, well we have done a lot of this

Hiking that is, oh and we have done a lot of that...

Vacations that is...DISNEYLAND!

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Oh and just a little swimming. We did do a lot of other vacations but of course forgot to take pics' or bring my camera for that matter so these will just have to do.

Pretty please?

Will my two boys stop growing please? I know we all have to grow older and with that comes good things, for example my little ez would be potty trained, but really they are so sweet and love to give me hugs, cuddles and kisses and I know that it will not always be that way so stop it now!

look how far we've come!

Oh sadness. I was organizing all of our folders and looking through them and such. I got to Brighton's folder and let me tell you its big. We've kept all of his diagnoses, IEP, recommended therapies, everything. I started reading when he was first diagnosed and I relived all those old memories. The pain, devastation, and the unknown of what was too come. What did PDD-NOS mean? How would it change our lives? What did it mean for Brighton? Would he be able to live a normal life, get married, or even have friends? Those were some pretty depressing days. Ezra was only 6 months old and I felt so much pressure to do something but I had limited amount of time-with a baby especially, resources and knowledge. Then I look to where we are now. There is so much hope, brighton just had another breakthrough--he has regressed these past couple of weeks being so much more easily provoked, and very very aggressive. Poor ez, he is the brunt of a lot of that. A lot of the time when there is regression though that means they are about to breakthrough another milestone. The past few days he has been talking like crazy though, and all of it is relevant. No mumbling, no repetitions, when asked to do something he does it! He actually does the thing that I have asked him and he wants to help me. I know he will always have setbacks, but every kid has those. Brighton is so special and such an amazing kid with an amazing heart. I am so absolutely grateful for him and would not have it any other way!

striving for perfection and failing miserably...

Okay wow I am so sorry for whoever read this post. Complain much? Jeez. I can only chalk it up too that I was super tired and in a lot of pain and I wanted to complain. I should have never posted what I wrote though it was just too negative. We just got back from cali and before that bear lake so I will definitely be posting on that soon!!

This has got to stop

Okay so I never understood why people went private with their blog. I mean everyone probably has their own individual reasons, right? Well now I have my own reason. It all started with random comments on my blog, and all these comments would have no words just links. I really didn't think anything of it until I followed one of the links. Yep it was a nasty asian porn site. My 5 year old son plays games on this computer and although I am in the room with him when he does I never want to chance him coming across something like that. This is my own personal FAMILY blog, one where I update family and friends about what is going on in our lives. It makes me sad that I feel targeted for something like that and obviously quite angry. I work at a place where so many people come in with addictions for stuff like this and it has quite literally ruined their lives and you know what? A lot of them all say it started when they were young. Not 5 years old kind of young but more like 9-12, but still. Now I changed the comments to be moderated so that no one can comment without my approval and that was a few months ago. I still feel uneasy about the whole thing though. Now I am going private, I will be sad though I have come in contact with people that I haven't talked too or seen forever. I am going to leave this up for a little while. Just leave you email for a comment or email me your email. A little bit of an angry post I know but it had to be done!

Anyone want to get to know moi!

I should be in bed, sleeping. But gosh darnit I just love to do these tags.
What is your biggest pet peeve?
umm. I can't think of one right now. Oh wait, when people pester me about having another kid. I will have one when I am good and ready and not until then.

what makes you laugh out loud?
My hubby. He makes me laugh everyday.

What is your favorite book and why?
I love the book The Help. I loved the storyline and how inspiring and empowering it was for women and what difference we can make in others lives.

If you could change anything about yourself what would it be? Why?
My eyesight. I am blind, seriously.

What is your favorite time of day? Why?
late at night when everyones asleep. I love the peace and quiet.

Worst household chore?
putting away folded clothes. Don't ask me why but I love to do laundry and fold it but I hate putting away. The result is clean clothes in the laundry basket getting dumped out and then I can't remember whats clean or not so I end up washing the clean clothes again. I know what a waste.

Favorite person to talk too?
This is a hard one because I love to talk. I am going to say my mom just because she is an amazing listener and always has great advice for me.

What do you spend your $ on? (ex. Clothes, jewelry, shoes, home décor?) and what is your favorite purchase?
uhhh can I say supplements and therapy for brighton? That is where most of our extra money goes. After that I would definetely say clothes. Although I haven't really bought anything new in a long time. My favorite purchase would be a new back door we really need one!