A journey to mindfulness.

Each day, I have realized that a person I believe that I am, a thoughtful, grateful and kind slipped away as I reflect through my day. Being sincere is becoming hard in this swept life of mine. issues involving work, friends, relationships and family, you name it are projected on the wall that succumb my mind locking out from the present moment. Yes, it is all about perspective.

Dear Blog,

It has been a while that Ive never visited nor written, a stiff gap between past and now. Have I been wiser? I don't know yet. Any way, its a been awhile so I need to catch up with you (which I don't think there's anyone out there!) hahaha!

Okay..  how should I start.. okay.. the last post was in 2012! since then where I rambled about my housemate dragging shower, I had finally graduated myself a degree, another "successful man" was born in 10th of July 2012.

A bachelor of the university, well finally. and now I am missing the student life really bad. #firstworldproblem

Before I missed something here. After all that feelings I had for someone, I had finally made the wish came true, the wish I said upon a shooting star, too sweet to say. I was finally with mem in April 2012. It happened when I decided to go to Aberdeen for a weekend for a disclosure I just had been heavily to tell. So, I told her on the last minute where I should be on my train home, and by a hug while being left by the last train, we are officially together. Not official enough, went out for a date and catching up a train back on the next day. It was so surreal, 8 hours journey back was just thinking about it. "Is this right after all that happened?" The doubt that killed everything. Yes, it didn't last long after the cliche roller coaster ride for 2 years, we decided to just focus on our lives to improve ourselves better and explore different perspectives.

Okay, atleast one official picture here to realise what had been said, well the first moments ehem...

Moving on, right after graduation, I accepted an offer from my Aunt to run her wedding business. It was quite challenging but also interesting as well, to operate a company and start domiciling. It was an worthwhile experience that I should appreciate and be grateful of. 

On my late father's birthday end of 2013, I got the job offer from Investment Division where I am currently working at. I couldn't be more grateful.

Despite of how many people realize how time flies so fast, it is 2012. It is time to change what needs to improve.

As for the today, had a bad start with oversleeping. At this moment, what challenges me is being against the sleepy head and swinging mood. One thing that just saddened me a bit, that I was 5 seconds too late to get in the shower and now, everything is delayed by an hour. But its okay, asserted!

Lastly, from what I previously mentioned about gaming. Well it depends!

Today I had my interview with my supervisor about my study to do with my dissertation. However, it wasn't that great, it got my nerves wrecking all along. I could have done better.

Sometime, well most of the time, my brain couldn't really work much, very slow. Been finding immediate ways such as eating omega supplements, avoiding smokes and napping, that all just dont work. Found a way might help, obvious and addictive: GAME!

Hey now I am back? again?

Hey hi! it is 14/11/2011. its been more than a year I haven't visited this blog! Have actually forgotten it, a bygone. Reading through my previous life made me miss more home and the past but I don't want to turn back time, I am grateful.

So, thinking to write more? maybe.

a girl was a star long time ago

but the night has gone.