Hi peeps, long time since my last post. Well, i've passed out from my air defence weapon operator course, and now i have got another couple more months of training before i can do my 24/7 duties. Life as a trainee is actually better compared to now, cos life was simple at that time and the course was more united compared to now when we must be spilt into group. Great experience as well when i was appointed as crew chief during our pre-summary exercise. And I did something which i thought i would never be able to achieve, which is to get my IPPT gold! I can never forget how my coursemate cheer me on and how andy sprinted with me at the last stretch. Well, but i'm not complainting, life is pretty good now too, i've made some good friends in camp and i must say i feel happy here.

There's so many changes in my life now, and i guess that's helping me mature as a person. My sis got married and she's moving into her now flat next thursday. I'm going to miss her presence in the house and it's going to be very different with 1 less person at home. I'm sure my mum will feel more lonely at home cos my sis moving out and i'm not at home during weekdays and dad's been working till so late recently. I know mum's feeling sad at times but she's still doing her best to help sis and my bro-in-law move into their new house.

Recently i heard the girl i like during secondary school isn't very happy with her life now. I don't know why but i have this funny feeling like i hope i can play a part in her life now, and make her happy again just like how she's always so happy and cheerful during secondary school. I guess this is just what everyone have to deal with when they grow up, we can no longer be so carefree. But still we can still be happy as long as we can zhi zhu (dunno if this is the correct han yu pin yin) and appreciate little things in life, especially your family. I'm sure she will meet into someone who can make her happy.

I hope everyone happy with their life now!

I know I know~ you have to go~ so hurry back home~ cos i miss you so~

Hi peeps, i'm done with my basic military training at pulau tekong, and now i'm going to be a Air Defense Weapon Operator in the air force, going to go through 3 months of training at lim chu kang camp. I must say i've learnt a lot during these few months, and most importantly, these few months made me realise how much i love my family. Can't describe it with words here, you have to go through it to understand how it feels.

I can still remember during my 16 km route march, when i saw the starry sky in the night, that's when you think about your family, like what are they doing now, how you hope they can see this beautiful sky too. And every time i have to book in on the sunday, I can still remember how terrible i feel, having to leave my family again.

But like what my entik told us, this is our responsibility, when your family is sleeping at night, they will always know that their sons are watching over them.

I promise that i will appreciate every moment with my loved ones from now on!

Elections!

I have seen enough criticism about the PAP, both from the people as well as the oppositions. I'm going into the army in 2 days time, i ain't going to waste my time explaining or what, i just wanna make my thoughts clear here.

The opposition parties in Singapore ain't worth a vote with all their popular choices, those promises are just going to do us in, and do show some respect for PAP and thier leaders, especially MM Lee. I love this man because he absolutely deserves the respect of Singaporeans. Foreigners respects him, other countries's leaders respects him, and yet some of our own people don't. What the fuck is wrong with you people? Some people just like to sit on their big fat arse and complaint all the day long about the same freaking problem you have been nagging about since like 93754775834 years ago. So to all the dumbass out there who hates the government: please stop being so dumb and start making yourself useful.

P/S: Comment all you like, I'll keep all the comments i like and delete the comments i don't because this is my bloody blog and i don't really care enough to start a little debate with stupid people :)

End of a journey and the start of the next one

Hi there (to whoever are still visiting my blog haha) Actually it's been such a long time since I last blogged that I even have a problem starting a post now. Well, never mind, I guess I'll just go into the main things. Yesterday was the end of my journey in AJC's soccer team. I was in the school team for the North Zone soccer competition and now I'm released to the Recreational team. That's because we can have 25 players in the team for the competiton but we can only take 20 players for the upcoming 'A' division national competiton, and I'm just not good enough to make the cut.

There's this mixed feeling inside me now that I don't really know how to describe. Firstly it's like feeling lost, just like how I woke up this morning feeling like something's missing in my life. Now I no longer have to go for trainings on saturday mornings. It's funny how I used to feel tired of training but yet I miss them now.

Then I feel kind of sad, after months of training yet I'm still not good enough for the 'A' division team, but I felt kind of relieved as well, because I was feeling tired most of the time for the past 1 month or so because of the trainings, and I wasn't really enjoying football that much either.

I was laying on my bed yesterday and wondering to myself what if I started playing soccer since young and builted up my foundation, would I be in a different situation now? But am I able to take 2 more months of training and catch up with my studies after that? But I'll never know the answers to that. I tried to tell myself that since life turns out this way, then I guess I should just move on with it.

I know I tried my best during my time in the school team, but I'm just not one of those blessed with special talents, I can defend but not attack, I can train for months and my stamina still drops if I stop training for days, but I've tried to improve all that. But I must still count myself pretty lucky, because my coach saw all that and he helped me a lot by giving me advices and giving me chances to gain some really precious experience.

The person that I really feel grateful towards is my coach. None of us know his name because we just call him "coach" all the time. He's a special person to all of us, he don't see things based on performance only, and whenever he play football we can see how he really enjoys football, and how he still has that passion for the game. He's 55 years old now and he still can kick the ball further and higher that most of us. He can kick the ball into the net from the halfway line or even further away.

His style of play is unique: Play simple football. What he always teach us is to pass the ball around, and cover for one another. Because football is a team game and he wants to see us play like a team. It's this idea of helping one another out and not playing for yourself that's special. People just talk about a pass like it's just kicking the ball, but he teaches us how to pass the ball to make things easy for others.

I wasn't even chosen by my teacher In-charge to be in the 25 person team for the north zone competition, but he wanted me in the team because he thinks I've worked hard. And that really matter a lot to me. He had really given me lots of great memories and I must say that I'm really grateful for all that. Thank You Coach.

I also want to say thank you to Lennon (I'm not sure if this is the correct spelling) (he's a referee that we know and he trains with us sometimes), who have given me so much advices and encouragement. And also, thank you to my teacher In-charge, who's also my class's tutor, Mr Mohan, for the time he dedicated to our team during the holidays and also all the things he had done for us. And last but not least thank you to Mr.Leo for the advices and jokes he shared with us.

Top moments

1. Match against Hwa Chong JC - This match took place during the december holidays last year, and I played the full game. We managed to have possession for most of game even though the game ended with a draw 1-1. And it's the first time I got injured because my nose bleed after I knock into one of their strikers which almost resulted in a penalty haha!

2. Match against Tampines JC - This is the most recent match that I took part in, even though we lost 1-3, but I was pleasantly surprised by my teacher's decision to play with only 3 defenders during the last moments of the game and I was one of the defenders, which also means he have some trust in me.

3. Match against coach's team - This also took place during the holidays when we played with coach's team. The team consist of Secondary school boys of sec 1 to sec 4, and yet they showed us the higher level of football. They beat us 0-6, and they went on to beat some other JC teams. This match really exposed us to another level of football.

4. Having an apple after our physical training - It's really a wonderful feeling but provided the apple must be nice.

Top Quotes

1. "He was zero when he came in last year, and now he improved a lot" - Coach

My coach was referring to me when he told this to the J1s, which really motivated me

2. "Miracles can happen what! How do you know all of you will not be champions next year?" - Coach

He told us this during our team's continuous defeats during the holidays.

3. "Just fuck the ball one side! / "I want to see you fuck the ball to their defenders" - Coach

Haha, yes our coach do speak a lot of the F word, but that's what we like about what he says, and this particular line is stuck in my mind during games to remind myself to clear the ball out of the danger zone (the "fuck" here means to kick the ball away as far as you can)

4. "Keep working hard and you'll get it" - Lennon

5. "What a trick man, Vernon!" - Coach

He says this everytime we made a mistake but somehow managed to get past our oppoents.

6. "You dancing Cha Cha with him ah? - Coach

He asked us this whenever we aren't challenging for the ball.

7. "Non Mihi Solum, AJ!" - Team AJ

I love this part when we were starting a game and we shouted this to boost the team's morale

8. "You play football like prostitute you know" - Coach

One of my teamates was being made fun of for the next few weeks after he was critised for opening his legs too wide while playing (haha I know this quote got a bit bad, but it's funny)

9. "You waiting for MRT ah? Or taxi?" - Coach

My coach says this whenever we were slow in movement during trainings.

Well, this is the end of my post, and also the end of my journey in the school team. But I will still be enjoying football in the receational team (the training is once per week) and I will still try to improve myself there, so I will work hard for my next friendly game on friday! And not to forget now is also the start of my work for 'A' Levels.

Tiring days

Hi there people, it's been a really long time ever since I last updated my blog. So here I am to update a little on my life. Well, life is pretty sad these days, not only for me, but I believe for others too. Academic stuff is driving people crazy, and into selfish idiots. For example, I heard from my friend that she had wanted to borrow EOM (it's an element of our Project Work subject) from a friend for reference and stuff. That guy agreed at first, and then sort of pretend to forget later on. What is our education system turning us into?

And then there's the other bunch of people who study and study and hate their CCAs for wasting their time. And some who came into the school using DSA are actually sick of their CCAs, they just used their CCA as a tool to get into a better JC. If I were you I would have gone to a "not so good" school and join the cca that I'm interested in than join a better school and then suffer having to continue the cca that you're already sick of! People are losing their life for academic stuff!

And Anderson is turning its students into people desperate for leadership posts. School are teaching their students how to be leaders and stuff, as if there is a formula to being a leader. Schools may say this develops a student holistically, but hey you're teaching it to us like it's some academic thing! For example, Anderson wants the Chairman to think of a class mission and goals, using a formula named the SMART goals. Now we have step by step sequence to follow even for setting mental goals? Come on man, you're turning us all into machine!

Then now there's a sandcastle building thing in my school. Alright, not too bad, they are trying to let us have some fun, away from all the academic stuff. But they are limiting our creativity! There are so many themes we have to follow, first it's the class vision and values, then there's the AJ spirit theme and then the leaping for success theme, and the houses themes. Come on man, what's with all that? Don't you realise by setting all this people are only sqeezeing ideas out of their heads. We're not doing it with our heart! we're not enjoying ourselves! This is just another "stuff to accomplish" for us!

And no transport?! We have to wake up so early in the morning to take taxi and stuff to East Coast Park? Oh my god man don't you realise how inconvenient it is to go to East Coast?

And why is it in Anderson it seems that the others are all working under the council (it's a cca with every single student in it named as "student leaders") Are you sure they are the best people to be the "leaders of the leaders"?

My friend told me that some of the council people from her secondary used to be disliked by people in her secondary school. Well there must be a reason people dislike them, which shows they are just ordinary students who might even have more flaws than others. So why are they deemed as the best?

And let's be honest here, I'm seriously rather doubtful of the Council's planning and organising abilities, because so far the things they had planned sucks. Take for example, on Teacher's Day, the chairman were asked to collect a teacher's day gift. (by the way it cost each class $7 for 2 lame-ass clipboard which doesn't even have our teacher's name on it, you sure it cost $7 ah?)

Then we must wait outside the hall until the cue is given for us to go in. And it turns out we have to wait for close to 45 minutes until all the performance ended then we can go in and give the clipboards to our teachers.

We are your dogs ah? You say give clipboard then we give clipboard, you say go in then we can go in ah? At least tell us your plans first la, just tell us "wait for the cue" and then just let us wait, like the council is the boss of all the students like that.

I'm sorry that I have to make this post such a sad one, but what can I say other than this? This is the life that we're living in.

Random~

I noticed that there's more and more people reading my archives, ok I got the hint, so here I am! Let me start off with this incident that I encountered when I took a bus to suntec city last monday. The bus reached orchard road and reached a particular stop where a whole bunch of students (almost enough to form a class) from RGS were waiting for the bus. Well, if the class of students get into the bus it's most likely for the bus to be packed. And then some of the girls couldn't get onto the bus. And so they shouted (or screamed, I can't figure it out because their voice are too high-pitch and I think it would sound the same either way) , "Please move to the rear!!!".

I don't know why but I feel this air of arrogance from that sentence. You think everyone know what is rear ah? Move to the back say move to the back la, what rear? I don't know but I've never liked people who does this in the public, it feels like they are commanding the people, and there are some spaces in the middle, maybe they could have moved to those spaces themselves.

Ok enough about that, so next let's talk about "plastic friends". "Plastic" not as in they had plastic surgery, but as in fake. Well, there's a type of people who makes friends with people just because those people benefits them. From some of my personal experiences and some accounts I heard from my relatives, these people do exist and are mostly in our generation. Just because grades and results are becoming more and more important to students in Singapore. Some would make friends with clever people in their class just because they can borrow their notes and photocopy them for their own benefits. And they wouldn't mind spending hours during lectures or lessons sitting beside someone they can find no common topics to talk about.

Shouldn't this be what adults in the working society are doing, not the students! Well, it's sad how education is taking away the innocent minds that Singaporeans used to have.

Well, this might offend some of you, because you might be doing it yourself, but if you are doing it, can I suggest that before you scream vulgarities at the innocent computer and make a promise you're going to kill me the next time you see me, maybe you should first think about what I've typed here.

I don't have the right to say it's wrong for you to want the best for yourself. But are you happy doing this?

Someone's reading my archives! He/she misses me!

I was looking at my tracker just now and I saw people or maybe someone was reading my archives. I don't know why but I'm feeling like I'm letting someone down. I must admit I'm being a lazy asshole for not blogging a lot this year. I can't promise anything but if anyone of you wants me to blog, just read a few of my archives, and when I see it in my tracker I will get the hint.

There's not much gatherings with friends, I didn't meet into funny uncles on the mrt or something, june holidays is nothing but a time for us to study for the upcoming exams when school reopens. Well, I'm doing a bit of homework and exercises everyday(to at least maintain a bit of fitness because there's no soccer training till the end of our exams), at least I feel like I'm doing something with my life.

But something did happen for the whole of last week, I had a camp, it's called the Alpha Bravo Camp (AB Camp) It's a camp for all the Chairmans and cca leaders. It was a tiring but definitely a meaningful camp. It had the style of the NPCC camps that I've had before, and the instructors were shouting "Where's your sense of urgency!?" everywhere and that is exactly what happens all the time during a NPCC camp. And we did push-ups as our punishment, just the good old days in NPCC.

Well, just like any leadership camps we had courses (conflict managing course, emotion managing course, goals setting course) and we had lots of team building games, and we have about 854790 reflection sessions. We also had sandcastle making sessions at east coast park and Service Learning Journey to St.Luke Eldercare center. We also had a 20 km walk from our school to east coast park.

I had some new experiences during the camp, and I decided to give these experiences a rating out of 5 stars.

1. Salty Milo

I don't know, it doesn't taste as bad as some of you might imagine it as, so I guess I'll give it a...

2.5 stars-not shiok not too disgusting

2. Sleep half naked in the night

Apart from the possibility of the guy sleeping beside me being terrorised because he saw my naked body, it's a cooling and good experience, especially when it's so hot in the bunk.

4.5 stars-quite shiok!

3. walk bare-footed on the beach

It's quite fun, because your feets sink in on the softer sand, especially when you mix water with the sand, so you feel like you're stepping some soft things all the time, but it's not so fun when you step on some sticks in the sand...

3.5 stars-ok la not bad lor

4. Bathing in half flooded toilets

Considering I had to finish bathing as fast as possible and my feet are engulf in grey coloured soap water + other people's bathing water + some black unknown particles, and I can still feel soap on my feet when I wear my shoes, it will be...

0.5 stars-a new experience but not shiok at all!

5. Listen to teamates whine about they can't continue on in our 20km walkathon.

No one likes whiney teenagers or kids, especially teenagers who doesn't look cute at all.

1 stars-considering you just have to relax and refrain from throwing your bag at their face, it shall have a higher rating than bathing in half flooded toilets.

6. Playing games/sing songs with elderly

Atmosphere-average

Elderly's interest in the games-low (I understand because I wouldn't want some random teenagers to come play juvenile games with me when I'm old)

Elderly's interest in our singing performance-they were sort of stoning

But on the whole I think we still enjoyed the entire session because the elderly looked satisfied and we felt like we had done something.

4 stars-not too bad

7. Sleeping at the jetty at east coast park + looking at the sunrise

The jetty was windy and it was a very comfortable feeling, and the sunrise was beautiful and it felt good when everyone just kept quiet and watch the sunrise

4.5 stars!

8. Not studying for one whole week

What to say? 5 stars la!

But sometimes it is sad to see that some people don't behave like cca leaders at all. While some care only about the result not the welfare of his/her group. I think the most important thing we should do when we lead people, is that we want the best for our people and we do our best for them, no matter how tired you are, you still have to carry on.