Today

today is the day where i'll be off to the same place..
the same place where you said it once where its a horrible place to remember of..
Now i do share the same experience...
That very same place is where I work...
That whole area has part of us..
That whole place has its aura of us used to be in a situation...
Those good bad times...
Those smiles, laugh and anger...
Even those tears fell at the same environment...
No doubt its a sacred place between us...
But its just another fantastic place for people to travel...
But now I've feel the heaviness inside me.. to go through that realm of area...
Once I reach that place..
I know I'll be in a different world..
A world where I reminisce things about...
A world where I will say.. " Oh this is what I did over here... "
Tears start to appear...
I pull it back.. just to make my eyes red enough so that people will think I'm just awake from a
long journey ...
But in my heart...
In my soul...
There's always someone special that touches my heart..
And there's always drama upon it to make it an interesting book for us..

I'll be there not by my own transport which I usually escaped...
But now.. the same bus.
The same type of vehicle where I cried..
My own tears shed for someone who is already somehow, somewhat a big part in me..
who i deeply love ...
No it shall not be in vain...

It will be a whole different place now when I get there.
Peace yo.

it was a smooth journey..
I could compete..
But I fell right through the deeps of porthole..
With a setback that could cost my entire capability..
Please..
Dear God...
Recover me well..
=(

I just can't go to sleep..
For the time being.





So sharpening as the lightning.
Loud as the thunder booms.
but there's isnt any rain..?

A brand new name

I've my name in Russian..
Personally created by her.. - I love it..
Since I got that intention to have my name that sounds Russian..

well heh.. I love it very much and I get it spelt out.




Клазик


short and sweet.


Спасибо, Нора..


:D

Swoooosh..

I live my life for you..
You know you're everything to me...

Shh.

Must have stabbed her Fifty-fuckin times....

I can't believe it !

The feelings that is being caged..

I miss her all along... real bad..
Its like my feelings being caged out...
She is there.. I can see..
But I couldn't touch, feel, scent her...
But I'm grateful enough to see and hear from her...
But man is never satisfied with things...

I cried, smile, happy, miss, reminisce, dreaming about you ...
but those feelings are being caged in my heart..
When I can't do anything...
And when I don't get to do things that I want to..
Helplessly.. tears fall down..
That signify how much you are missed and love by me ...


I love you.
That counts it all..

This is where it starts..

I've to start to do my part...
last night was I thought I could overcome it... but the tears did fall free..
Too many shits I've done.. I need to really recover it all back...
I love her alot.. just that my moves are pretty bad.. thats all.


I want to do my best now in school...
and to have a good future ...
a good future with her.. if god wills.


I have to be a firm guy..
No more fuckin crying like a baby.. in front of everyone...
Emotions to control and not to be a dictator in a situation or relation...

Now i got her back.. and I don't want to waste anymore time or taking things for granted...
this IS my time to do something.. and prove it ...

She's simply the best girl in my life.

I'll wait for your return my dear...
This is where it starts...

My first big challenge is being patience...
Patience for your return...

Next is my whole personal life to build that foundation...
So that happiness could be gain easily without a doubt of any...

I love you so much, Nora.
Only the Almighty up above knows how much I truely love you..

Do well in your honors...
I'll be here doing my part..

No..

I still can't accept the fact she's leaving already...
But there's things she has to do...
You got my morale support, honey.
You're my sweet romance..
The fragrance from all flowers..
Like those cherry Blossom trees..
of those dead leaves fall to the ground during Fall..
That is how much I cried for you...
My emotions are well-too deep ...


I don't want you to go...
I don't want you to go...
I don't want you to go...


but you have to..


You'll be back... I'm sure.

The trip

The trip was a spontaneous and instant plan...
Perfectly wonderful.

These are the things we experienced and shared together.

We had 1 room..
for a 3day-&-2night stay..
Took 444 pictures for the trip...
but we left in our hearts countless and infinite wonderful memories..
which no one can take that away..












Will always remember this..
We just add another interesting story in our book.
Its lock,seal and kept in my heart
To cherish all these moments..I do and I will.
Love you.


Khai

The person

The greatest birthday gift ever...
Is you being there for me..
Thank you.