will it be repeated?

Here I go again... with the same old shit story not me in the winning end.. but starting from scratch.. on the inevitably losing side...

why..?

whenever I hear her talk about her... whenever I see her MSN status saying how great time she has with her ... just makes me feel sad for fuckin nothing..

I'm like playing in my own games... which she don't even fuckin know about it...

I should have gone earlier.. but i was too carried away from the past focus of mine..

sharks.. such a pretty girl with the characteristics I dreamt of like you .. its once in a lifetime for people like me to get the chemistry naturally.. but sadly you're taken by some other people...

im in already in a stage where im starting to worry about my life...

after graduating from polytechnic... i don't think i will be able to social myself with different kinds of people and gender...

and when im going to serve my NS.. for sure thats just seeing dicks.. and no love... or to who i could confide in...

like Amy said to me... " you're just feeling alone..." ... i was so touched by his words... because i didnt realise it myself...


but first ... i just have to focus on study...


That will be all
Dismissed

Khai.

there goes the big plane..

There goes the big plane ...

I missed it .. long before I knew it..

I should have be brave enough...

I should have approached her and have that thick skin..

I should have be friends with her way before...

I should have..... so much about it...


but now the other pilot has taken up the seat of that plane..

I don't know why I'm feeling kinda shitty... probably had taht feelings towards her... after for so long ....




but to think again.. i couldn't match up with her guy.. he totally blew out her night.. and i mean... she's having a great time..


just why the fuck am i always in this state/condition... ?

they say it took someone's sadness .. just to gain the other person's happiness..

is that true?


had the song called "air" by Jesse Cook .. dedicated to her.



but anyway.. its back to square one.. .. only God knows my prayers.