Survived the death sentence

and the await is over...
I passed...

18 points people...


18 points...

And that test...

Traffic Police test is tomorrow...

Godspeed khairul...

All the best...


You can...

Humiliation

how am i going to sleep tonight... ?
Arsenal lost to Chelsea in the FA Cup semi-final..
its another deja vu for the team...

the most touching part of the whole programme is about the boy who cried alone in the stadium when Arsenal lost the game...

I felt for him.. very sorry for him... almost wanted to cry...

just couldn't bear that very moment...


gonna be so down this week..

Last call.

... And its the last week of the term holidays... the 7th week.... Finally.... I've got the taste of the holiday since the last time was during the fasting month.. like 3/4 of the holidays have to be pushed for fasting.. abit of a salvation for those tiring moments in school... I couldn't imagine myself to be put up for that challenge... insyallah, with great will.. I can.. anyway..


to think back.. those days.. of holidays.. are some lonliness .. yet great determination within me..
nothing gonna hold me back now...


but i just lack of something.. just got that feeling..

I get angry easily nowadays...

something must have been following me..

bad dreams... I have..

no one to talk to...

my worries.. my stories..

I've got no one... close..

but nevermind...

a change person.. I am.







that will be all
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Khai.

treatment

This past few months, some weeks and many days ago till now... its been somehow somewhat dissapointing...

Nowadays... people don't acknowledge me like saying "hi" or "hello" or so...
its always me... always me.... me to be the initiator...
If you talk about me being so pessimistic... well .. I'm trying my very very best to be the opposite... thinking about the brightside... but hey.. reality kicks in your conscious much faster...

so what fuckin wrong have I done?

maybe whenever I'm on the messenger... perhaps the other users thinks .. " oh .. its this guy.. so and so... narr.. nothing special.. nothing big or anything to talk about... I'll pass.. "

I might jump to conclusion... but I'm confident 80% of those words I've stated earlier.. is on their or YOUR mindset..

As I discussed with my friend regarding this... even he acknowledges and totally agrees with me...

Just like what I thought about and the same as his...

If one fuckin day.. I did something that could change my entire life... of course which includes being famous.. getting names ... in the limelight of the media... etc etc...

will the people who ignore me or think I'm just nothing and nothing in common/interestingly to converse....

start to "flirt", being to be "busybody" to know whats going on... shit.. i forgot what I wanna type here.. was so devastated by it... but anyway... and lastly... them being so friendly... and started saying.. "HEY! KHAI ... ! I read about you the other day...! " or " HEY KHAI ! HELLO ! :) Where you in the news the other day ?!! " this kinda of "sweet sweet cute" questions like they just know me yesterday or so....



Now for my part... I give a rheotical question for you fuckin sick humans..

should I answer... " HEY HI THERE .. YUP I WAS.. :) ... NAR ITS JUST NOTHING.. JUST DOING MY PART..."

OR

" oh. hi...
yea..
thats me.
... what do you want actually from me..
oh me? being so arrogant..self-centred ?
why now you start talking to me?
oh..ok.."


in the end... in this world... people will look on to you when you have something... if you're nothing, you're as good as thin air.




That will be fuckin all.
Dismiss.