Ideas.

Well, its been awhile since I got this entries done... usually I'm lazy in doing these but heh.. there's things to be said.. and maybe I could say something...

Had some street soccer tournament yesterday .. and hell it was great... Our mentality before the competition was not to win for glory but to play it for fun ... thats what we had all discussed and planned ... but as we enter the court... its a different story all together...

Being the most experienced guy in my team.. I just share what we should do as a team... - strategies our position, tactics ( yes including those playing dirty .. heh.. as usual )... and most importantly... motivate and encourage the team... well... I think I've did a very good job on these things...

Initially my team was so afraid to do tackles such as body contacts etc... but as I share with them those 2-cent piece of advice... there's a change... they really listen to what I say.. great !

we totally won all 3 games... with scores like 4-1, 9-1 and 5-3 ...
heh.. its pretty tough game as we all know for ourselves.. that after the 2nd game.. our bodies were already having cramps... no not those PMS cramps.. but body aches... heh.. luckily... I went to search to the unguarded first aid kit .... and took the deep heat cream... haa.. it was a temporary refreshment....

Anyway.. thanks to this lucky 7 shirt that I borrowed from my brother...

and yearh.. people were like " who the hell is this millenia guy ??? "
I wore that shirt just to play and dedicate it out to someone... I've could have chosen any t-shirt in my closet... but hey.. the motivation is there...

after our first few games... unknown people started to approach me ... calling up to play for the school... heh.. I was just like.. "ohh okay... I don't mind writing my name down.. " and they mentioned about training... I just could say yes... but coming to commit... its a whole different ball game... for those who know this term ... I think they know what I'm trying to say... " Ni lah janji melayu... " heh...

and yearh... I feel better playing in that shirt... and my overall game was an acceptable one...
and some goals its for you my friend... :)


Right.. speaking about its been awhile... I think I did a pretty..... bad music .. with singing and all.. damn.. I just disgrace myself... well.. I did sent her through email.. whether or not she's have checked it its another story... but for me I feel shameful... usually I feel confident in making my music... but this one I feel abit different.. but I tried my best...probably tried to hard like she said.....well hopefully you've keep it...
I'm not surprised if its not.. because I have to agree that I really can't sing.. damn again.. sigh..

I'm just good at making music....
well its 4 days ... making that song...
it might just be down the drain?

God knows...


That will be all.
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-Khai-

successful failure

Do you ever think that a day you've planned out thinking that it will be the climax of your entire life and hopefully it turns out to be an meaningful one... SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.... wait. But it didn't.... after you've gone through what you dreamt of to what exactly you want it... it didnt come out as WHAT exactly it planned out... it turns to another direction... and that direction called " TOTAL FAILURE " ....


Just as you thought you're life is just begining to reborn into a new one with someone who is there as a savior.. but just after you reach the real world... with the white cloth still intact to your small body.. that person just left you like that... abandoned...

Probably after looking at you .. who that person thought you might really look like... fantasize about it .. maybe.. doesn't really come out as what that individual thought....

just to think about it.. you're not that so smart and good looking afterall my friend.... You're just hallucinating things around you ... and the environment is just another reality dream to you... thus feelings of hurt.. isnt fake.. but real...

You might think you just get closer to another level ... another level to success... no..

You're craziness and randomness makes people adore, like, admire, laugh, smile, happy, reminisce and eventually fall for you... such a powerful thing....

Till the extend that they desire you alot in heart when they have not meet you at all...

but now.. fuck it... the world turns onto you.. with all its gravity slapped at your face...
Metaphors... thats all I'm good at...

Without you... you're just another song for my broken heart...
Without you.. you're entirely changing my whole character...
Without you.. I wonder why people mend and plays my heart?
Without you... you're just a great music piece ever created for the likes of me...
Without you... when will be my turn to face the dreams of heaven in living in a good life?
Without you... when will be my turn to curse back those who play me out..?
Without you... you're just actually a song... a song with great impact...

I should turn to God and seek refuge... not always at bad times... Have faith young man..
You're life is just beginning... there's more...





That should be all.
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-Khai-

The pain of going through years before ...
It hurts..every heartbeat...



more to come...

Reminisce

Its been a long time since I blog this thing out... been for the past few weeks been so busy.. and as well.. nothing much to blog about... but I just have to say something ... something that has been affecting my life pretty much alot... and here it is...

Firstly... its been about a week or so.. since Avenged Sevenfold Concert... and it was the best night of my life that day on 24th Oct 2008... My very first time ... seeing right in front of my naked eyes... all of the band members .. Zacky Vengeance, Synyster Gates, The Reverand, Johnny Christ and M. Shadows...

pretty sweet I tell you... they played almost all those songs that were favourited by many.. in fact.. ALL of their songs ... are like by many... but the shit part is.. Vermillion came to open the show... they say as a "warm up"...

Well, some people said that Vermillion is not bad for a band... but so what..?
I don't pay my tickets to watch them play.... and besides.. the crowd was pretty pathetic in a sense.. they keep pushing and shoving... making people fall and got trampled... not to the certain of death.. but.. it could hurt anyone... absolutely pathetic...

well.. my photos are rather crap in a sense that I most of it were too "smoky" but there's a few photos that it was superb.. check this out...





beautiful isn't it..?? okay let me add another few more ...

Thats abit of my contribution... I was wayyyy tooo jealous ... cause my brother get to have their autograph backstage and take pictures with the band... !!.. Another hour of waiting was just so priceless! .. and he got Zacky's pick.. haiz....


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Alright... enough of Avenged Sevenfold already... and now... there's things that I wanna say on ... something that its been a long time since I've felt it... and ever since she enters my world.. I feel a totally new person... a changed person ... The lonliness that I've been feeling since the past 12 months.. just disappear like that.. the feeling of liking and... should I say.. fall in love.. reincarnated once again... and that person shall I salvate and I will learn those mistakes I've done before this...

On a very first few days of knowing-her-knowing-me and exchange of words... we were already talking like we know each other for so long..... and we really had a very good and nice conversation that night... just to cut short those conversations we had on the messenger...

and as days passes by... I crave for her.. no .. not that I'm a freak.. its just affection... the time I spent time together with her.. on every night.. makes me feel wanting more... and on one particular day... we did this...

I think its lovely.. if you think its not.. then too bad. Anyway.. these are just my favourites ... of course .. there's more of it.. in fact all are my favourites.. just that these ones are special....

and yearh.. just wondering what a day it will be later on... our first meet...

Making her happy and the worth of her time of going out with me is all that I want... right Nurul ?

See ya.. :D




That will be all.
Dismiss.




-Khai-