August 31, 2002
i have no one. cos you never really do have anyone. it's something you have to learn to recognise before you start having lofty dreams et all. and so i don't want to have anyone. that way everything is right, and nothing can go wrong. you know what you have; after all, you can't go wrong with nothing. it's fun also, especially at those times when you feel you need someone the most, but know you don't have anyone. you never did/do/will. herein you learn that having nobody By Choice gives you a clearer picture of how you're supposed to be left to rot and die. someone though, might come along and you think that someone could actually be Someone, but before you're mistaken it's better to stick to I Have Nobody and learn to like it. guaranteed success in Failure.
3:36 PM
August 25, 2002
i'm an idealist and there couldn't be more truth in that statement. thus corollary, i am never satisfied. not with myself, not with what i do, not with anything. and that would explain the way i regret everything and want to turn the clock Just 5 Minutes back. but even after turning the clock Just 5 Minutes back who knows if i'll make it any better, or just screw up in a whole new different way.
i do always have just the right thing to say. just wait for it to come out after you leave.
9:29 PM
xiaozheng you disappoint me. you want to enter lecture theatres 'illegally' to do studying? what's with you, man? i mean, if you're gonna do something wrong, you gotta do it right. sneak in to the physics labs and study THERE.
6:57 PM
August 19, 2002
i can resist anything but temptation.
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Oscar Wilde
1:42 AM
August 15, 2002
And there was silence in the House of Judgment, and the Man came naked before God.
And God opened the Book of the Life of the Man.
And God said to the Man, ‘Thy life hath been evil, and thou hast shown cruelty to those who were in need of succour, and to those who lacked help thou hast been bitter and hard of heart. The poor called to thee and thou didst not hearken, and thine ears were closed to the cry of My afflicted. The inheritance of the fatherless thou didst take unto thyself and thou didst send the foxes into the vineyard of thy neighbour’s field. Thou didst take the bread of the children and give it to the dogs to eat, and My lepers who lived in the marshes, and were at peace and praised Me, thou didst drive forth on to the highways, and on Mine earth out of which I made thee thou didst spill innocent blood.’
And the Man made answer and said, ‘Even so did I.’
And again God opened the Book of the Life of the Man.
And God said to the Man, ‘Thy life hath been evil, and the Beauty I have shown thou hast sought for, and the Good I have hidden thou didst pass by. The walls of thy chamber were painted with images, and from the bed of thine abominations thou didst rise up to the sound of flutes. Thou didst build seven altars to the sins I have suffered, and didst eat of the thing that may not be eaten, and the purple of thy raiment was broidered with the three signs of shame. Thine idols were neither of gold nor of silver that endure, but of flesh that dieth. Thou didst stain their hair with perfumes and put pomegranates in their hands. Thou didst stain their feet with saffron and spread carpets before them. With antimony thou didst stain their eyelids and their bodies thou didst smear with myrrh. Thou didst bow thyself to the ground before them, and the thrones of thine idols were set in the sun. Thou didst show to the sun thy shame and to the moon thy madness.’
And the Man made answer and said, ‘Even so did I.’
And a third time God opened the Book of the Life of the Man.
And God said to the Man, ‘Evil hath been thy life, and with evil didst thou requite good, and with wrongdoing kindness. The hands that fed thee thou didst wound, and the breasts that gave thee suck thou didst despise. He who came to thee with water went away thirsting, and the outlawed men who hid thee in their tents at night thou didst betray before dawn. Thine enemy who spared thee thou didst snare in an ambush and the friend who walked with thee thou didst sell for a price, and to those who brought thee Love thou didst ever give Lust in thy turn.’
And the Man made answer and said, ‘Even so did I.’
And God closed the Book of the Life of the Man, and said, ‘Surely I will send thee into Hell. Even into Hell will I send thee.’
And the Man cried out, ‘Thou canst not.’
And God said to the Man, ‘Wherefore can I not send thee to Hell, and for what reason?’
‘Because in Hell have I always lived,’ answered the Man.
And there was silence in the House of Judgment.
And after a space God spake, and said to the Man, ‘Seeing that I may not send thee into Hell, surely I will send thee unto Heaven. Even unto Heaven will I send thee.’
And the Man cried out, ‘Thou canst not.’
And God said to the Man, ‘Wherefore can I not send thee unto Heaven, and for what reason?’
‘Because never, and in no place, have I been able to imagine it,’ answered the Man.
And there was silence in the House of Judgment.
7:24 PM
August 14, 2002
today, my handphone was confiscated by my despotic chemistry tutor. i remember it like it were only yesterday...
a friend and i were about on a prank. we were sending messages to another guy, a classmate (who happened not to take chemistry), professing a manly love for him. then when we were at chem practical, we found out that it turns out the other guy was quite ready for a homosexual relationship, thank you. and so naturally i was quite taken aback at the replies he was sending me. i looked left, looked right, and saw that the short fat bitch of a science-pimp was not in sight. i called over to my friend, motioning him over to my bench to show him the message.
'...yea so? i'm a guy too. frankly speaking, i'm quite bi-ish. i don't care if it's with guys. as long as good looks are involved. anal and v-hole, both same feeling anyway...'
and then, an impish abomination hobbled up along the bench, screaming 'BENJAAAMIIIIIN! GIII MIII YOUR HANDFOONE!' and then i went 'oh crap' inside. given the infirmity i was caught in, i instinctively obliged. inside, i was still going 'oh crap. oh crap.' i went on to finish my practical on the double, which no one else seemed to appreciate. and when i asked if i could have my handphone back, she yelled again, 'OF COARSE NOT! NOW THE REST OF YEWW WASH UP YOUR APPARATUS AND GET OUT OF HEAR!'
and so we all did.
though she said she would be keeping it for a week, i negotiated with her for friday. on the condition that i don't piss her off again. the good part is there's no chem tomorrow. so that'd leave for friday. i shall be a good god, and finish my work.
p.s. the other guy apparently knew we were pranking. so he pranked back. so much for harmless fun. it cost me my bleedin' phone.
6:19 PM
August 13, 2002
nothing substantial has been posted here for quite a while.
...
what?
7:31 PM
oscar wilde's gay.
have a good day.
don't reply.
good bye.
7:25 PM
watch the music video, "cleanin' out my closet" by eminem. it's painful just seeing him cry. a powerful song, very powerful.
6:59 PM
August 11, 2002
uncoded coded language
babe, i love you. just say it back again. please.
2:13 AM
August 09, 2002
Beckham branded 'a lady'
Bayern Munich chairman Karl-Heinz Rummenigge has suggested David Beckham is very much in touch with his feminine side by branding him "a lady".
The Germany legend has questioned the Manchester United and England midfielder's masculinity and penchant for the outrageous, after learning that the 27-year-old had been seen sporting painted fingernails at a recent social engagement.
"He doesn't look arrogant at all. But he is turning from a footballer into a lady, especially with his painted fingernails," said the 47-year-old.
Beckham is universally recognised as a fashion icon as well as a footballer, and has hit the front-page headlines as frequently as the back pages for his cutting edge attire and ever-changing haircuts.
Rummenigge, however, is far from impressed with Beckham's latest bleached-mullet look and says he should look no further than his compatriot Rudi Voller as a lesson in style.
"It is important that people like Rudi's hair, and they do. In contrast to many others at least he does have a look," Rummenigge told German magazine Bunte.
"I believe his adherence to the grey mane is a fashion statement."
i have nail polish on. right now. i cook, i bake. i giggle. what is your bloody german fucking problem with that? the grey mane shit is a joke. it's not a fashion statement. it's an ungrammatical sentence. leave becks alone.
11:23 PM
the previous post was so stupid i deleted it.
11:11 PM
August 05, 2002
check out this song. it's called 'open your eyes', it's by Goldfinger. the lyrics are incredibly stupid. the music video's even stupider. the people in it look stupid as well. but the music's goodstuff. so, just for that check it out.
3:01 PM
August 02, 2002
i'm hoping it's pms.
9:57 PM
August 01, 2002
sec 4 class outing. 630pm, outside fish and co. at plaza singapura. 6th august, tues.
10:35 PM
