August 31, 2001
I'd like to close my eyes and go numb
But there's a cold wind coming from
The top of the highest high rise today
Its not a breeze cuz it blows hard
Yes and it wants me to discard the
The humanity I know, watched the warmth blow away
So don't let the world bring you down
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
Remember why you came and while you're alive
Experience the warmth before you grow old
So do you think I should adhere
To that pressing new frontier
And leave in my wake, a trail of fear
Should I hold my head up high
And throw a wrench and spokes by
I'm leaving the air behind me clear
So don't let the world bring you down
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
Remember why you came and while you're alive
Experience the warmth before you grow old
So don't let the world bring you down
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
Remember why you came and while you're alive
Experience the warmth before you grow old
Before you grow old
Incubus - The Warmth
1:53 PM
Boredom eyes benjamin
ben was in his room. the clock read 11:17pm. 'Finally, some peace and quiet,' he thought, inspite of the constant dripping from the air-conditioner which he was already used to, as he laid his chemistry file atop the heap of last week's homework. he began the routine of going through his notes with linkin park crawling in their skin and blasting at incredible amplitudes. as he closed his eyes and slowly concentrated on the facts and formulae and fishball soup he was having for supper, he heard the door creak open. suspecting his mother, he didn't pay extra caution to look up. but strangely, the room was washed with a flurry of icy wind the moment the door opened. he was perturbed greatly by this, and looked up pretty much annoyed.
Boredom was cloaked in the same blackness as he was when he appeared before weian and david. but his sheer hugeness was what stumped ben. towering over him, Boredom slapped on a quirky, impy smile on his dead lips and took out a parang!
"aaarghh! save me! help" went ben helplessly as the magnificent freak took a step closer. the battle began the moment Boredom took a blind swipe at ben's jugular. but ben was just too dang good for Boredom. he put his left foot in and his right foot out and expertly dodged the blow. job not accomplished for Boredom. then Boredom lunged at ben, parang still dangerously in hand. this time, ben was left with little choice but to shake it all about and just elude Boredom. Boredom tried and tried, but each time ben would evade the assaults.
ben tries to kill boredom
ben took note of Boredom's heavy breathing and suspected asthma. he intelligently began running around the house, in the hope that Boredom would follow him then die breathless. after 42 min of exhilerated running, ben remembered that he too was asthmatic. oh, the horror, the pain! ben falls to the floor, clutching his heart, gasping desperately for air.
ben kills ben
ben lay on the floor motionless. Boredom took one last look at him and shook his head in pity. Boredom left the room, dissatisfied at the challengeless assignment, leaving the sound of the dripping from the air-conditioner to echo within the 4 walls which held the tragic secret to ben's demise...
1:09 PM
August 30, 2001
i'm back. missed me?
4:30 PM
August 15, 2001
english oral exam! oral english examed.
It's crazy how much more nervous you can get during an exam, especially if you're me. I had never experienced anything quite like it ever. I was fumbling like i had never done before, and those examiners (god rest their soul, for i think i may kill them some time before dinner tomorrow.) never helped one bit. I tried to maintain eye contact and one point, she wasn't looking up, but when i did, her head sprung up and her eyes stared back at mine. i quickly looked down to resume reading. imagine, if i hadn't looked down immediately, i would have been caught in the flow of things, then i would have been grossly distracted. 2 bonus marks for me, don't argue.
7:40 PM
August 01, 2001
back to me and my astral projection problems.
i almost projected yesterday. i was lying on my bed, bored and rather sleepy. then i thought, "what would be better than just sleeping?"
"not sleeping"
i lay there, and tried to relax. i remember what i had read in some webpages, "...and imagine a blue light of energy entering ur body from ur toes, and as it does so, imagine it relaxing, and taking away the tension from every part of ur body"
i did just that, focusing and relaxing at the same time. relax and stay focused. easier said than done. sleep. easier said and done.
next thing i knew i was ten minutes late for school.
perhaps i really needed to relax and stay focus. the next evening i spent my time more usefully, thinking of how and what exactly i should have done. for a moment the day before, i'm positive i almost had it coming to me. but all of a sudden, poof, u'r unconscious in ur sleep.
4:35 PM
