Craps .
I have millions trouble in my head .
How i wish i could just die & free from suffering(;
i want to cry now but i can't.
i can't let my mother see or things get worst .
I am bloody sick of my life .
How cheerful i wanted to be .
How many things i had to keep to myself .
How many blooddy hell thinngs i must try to forgot .
But think about it .
It all useless .
I hate the problems i created .
I hate being ps-ed all the time .
I hate when my mother compare it with my brother.
I hate when i try to hard & did'nt get anything back .
I try to be prefect .
I try to be someone everyone likes.
But seriously .
How can ppl like me when i myself is hating myself.
IDK .
ARS .
trying hard is nothing but thinking you are an idotic .
Things came up & i know who i am ,
Maybe i am gone today,
no one even know .
I am thinking .
Is my knee injury a bless or a hatered .
If not for my knee,
i would i have gone .
But because of my kneee .
i am still here blogging .
Once recovered .
Idk things may changed anot ._.
i feel like stabing myself with millions of knife .
Cause .
i hate myself ._.
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The more i want to try harder .
THe deeper i fall .
I can't stand anymore .
I am sick of being a strong front infront of my family ,
i am weak i admit it ._.