YMonday, August 26, 2013' 6:03 PM
My aunt came ytd. This morning, she was talking to me about the family and a person's inner soul. She shared with me what she has learnt about people and herself, and also what she observed in me. I don't know why I break down as I hear her speak. It felt as though the sadness has been built up inside me since a long time ago. It's just that I bury them deep inside. After the long chat, she gave me a tight hug which made me felt so comfortable, loved, and supported as I Cried harder.
So right now, I'm trying to learn and accept the way things are. If I can't change others, I change myself. Perhaps I did hate my family before; but after hearing my aunt saying about how each person's own story shape them into what they are today, I feel that I should try to understand them more. I realized that I have never put in the effort to understand my family more. Which is why I felt so disconnected with them and never felt loved. Then again, nobody's at fault. The key is to try and dissolve the situation right now. People are different because they each encountered different situations which taught them different things and led them to have different characters. We should really try to probe deep inside to understand a person better. I also learned that we should always speak up our mind. It makes our body healthier. (: I really felt good today!
YMonday, August 12, 2013' 10:48 PM
It all started with Susanti asking me if I want volunteer via heartware for NDP'13. I found it cool since I didn't volunteer for such a large scale & celebration event before. So the process started with interview. Well, I didn't manage to be a leader since I don't have experience I guess. So I ended up being a participant. First training came and we played games. It was like a camp! Team bonding games! I really enjoyed the games. Then, for the second session, my group was changed. Everything became unfamiliar again. Lucky for me that there's one girl from my previous group joining the same group as me. I thought, maybe it won't be that bad afterall. Then the second session made me felt that changing group was a really good decision. The group leaders was really friendly, cool and nice. I really enjoy myself more! Then, cr3 was at floating platform already. Was kinda surprised that audience are invited for the show. It was the first time doing the duty. After that, there was ne show 1,2 and 3. Follow by preview and finally the actual day. My roles have changed Afew times. I have out fun pack like twice or thrice, was a queue usher once and it was totally chaotic with kids everywhere. I also stand alone at a corner before, directing audience to the location they should go, and had a headache when students came streaming in from both direction and I was caught in the middle. They just kept on walking past me and it seems never ending. I can't forget how busy bees walk past and one of them game me a sword balloon. I also stood by the roadside before, splitting audience into the various sectors, enduring the hot sun together with the army guys. My group got closer to each other, even though there are cliques here and there. The best part was the dare or dare game on the actual day itself. We entertained ourselves and the army guys through forfeits. We also played some full of shit games that don't really make sense. Checking out the cute army guys was one of the best part too. The journey was really tough. Enduring the weather, the long train rides, the long hours doing duty. However, I really enjoyed the process and never regret a single bit of it. I'm really glad that I volunteered for this event and I'm so gonna join again next year! (': i really thank everyone that has made the event so enjoyable. Watching the playback on tv last Sunday really made me quite sad. Sad that this whole event is over. My Saturdays now are going to be empty. Gonna miss them lots. <3
School is starting tmr. A brand new chapter is about to unfold. Hope I will have a eventful and enriching uni life. (:
