Till the End of My Days

Hear the cries of Your servant, Lord.
Do not pass me by.
May Your love consume my heart
And set it on fire
Do not let it turn cold towards You
Nor let it be numb before You

Hold me tight and guard my heart
Which is deceitful above all else
Take it, break it and mould it
Till it becomes wholly Thine

Set my vision on Thee only
Even when the world crashes on me
Forbid it that I stray from Thy presence
Hold me securely in Your arms

Help me see Thy great and mighty power
Which You displayed in the past
Grant me sight to see Thy working hands
Even when toils and trouble meet

May my every deeds and actions
Be of pleasing incense in Your sight
Lord I give my all to You
In total sweet surrender

I shall love You with all my heart, soul, mind
And worship You at Thy throne
In Spirit and Truth shall I sing Thy praises
Till the end of my days

Lord Have Mercy

"I have great sorrow and unceasing anguish in my heart. For I could wish that I myself were cursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my brothers, those of my own race..."

Dear Lord, have mercy on Your people. Many hearts have turned cold and more are turning hard. Lord let Your love and truth soften and revive those who are dead. Forgive our transgressions and cleanse us, Father. Forbid the hearts of Your people to wander away. Would You sustain them, Lord? Father, hear this plea and save Your people.

Jesus, I've forgotten the words that You have spoken
Promises that burned within my heart have now grown dim
With a doubting heart I follow the paths of earthly wisdom
Forgive me for my unbelief
Renew the fire again

Lord have mercy
Christ have mercy
Lord have mercy on me

I have built an altar where I worship things of men
I have taken journeys that have drawn me far from You
Now I am returning to Your mercies ever flowing
Pardon my transgressions
Help me love You again

I have longed to know You and Your tender mercies
Like a river of forgiveness ever flowing without end
I bow my heart before You in the goodness of Your presence
Your grace forever shining
Like a beacon in the night

I Want To Be Your Servant Lord

“It is not easy.”

“No one said it will, son.”

It had never been this way. Through the months and years I had never come across similar situation like what I am currently going through. Ministry work has indeed been more and more demanding and some really do require immediate attention. I suddenly realized my many limitations which I did not know. Sometimes I really asked myself whether I am doing the right thing, or perhaps, is it the right time.

I must confess that I now no longer enjoy luxury of time. In fact, the twenty-four hours I have do not seem to be sufficient for me. Many times when I looked back on the things I had to do and the people I needed to meet, I just lost my mood and desire to do anything. Instead of faithfully serving and completing the entrusted tasks, I ended up complaining. In the end, I eventually found myself procrastinating.

Although my tongue kept proclaiming that “I want to be Your (His) servant, Lord”, I realized my heart never meant it. The song describes one who wants to serve the Lord the way He desires and one who is eager to hear “Thou good and faithful one” from the Master. I knew I was miles away from that. What exactly was missing?

… (to be continued)

A Broken Spirit

A broken spirit and a contrite heart
You will not despise
You desire truth in the inward parts
A broken spirit and a contrite heart
Lord, my heart is prone to wander
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart, Lord
Take and seal it
Seal it for Your courts above