My Redeemer is Faithful and True

As I look back on the road I've travelled,
I see so many times He carried me through;
And if there's one thing that I've learned in my life,
My Redeemer is faithful and true.
My Redeemer is faithful and true.

My Redeemer is faithful and true.
Everything He has said He will do,
And every morning His mercies are new.
My Redeemer is faithful and true.

My heart rejoices when I read the promise
'There is a place I am preparing for you.'
I know someday I'll see my Lord face to face,
'Cause my Redeemer is faithful and true.
My Redeemer is faithful and true.

And in every situation He has proved His love to me;
When I lack the understanding,

He gives more grace to me.

Sarah >> This song is dedicated to you.

Come Home Running

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame
Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, daughter and son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness

Five-Year Construction of a Servant's Heart

If someone were to ask me "What's your purpose in life?", I think I would say "My purpose in life is to have a heart that beats like the Master's." Jesus could have stayed in heaven and leave us to die. However, He chose to come as man to give us life. He put aside His agenda and took on the Father's will - to live and to die. He lived a blameless life and He died a Glorious death. Sacrificial Love I would say.

I think I have shared with some regarding God's calling for me. He has shown me the word 'prove' several times through songs and sermons. It was not long ago that I figured out what it means. This following verse tells it all:

But you know that Timothy has proved himself, because as a son with his father he has served with me in the work of the gospel. - Philippians 2:22

Professor Freddy Boey came to give a sermon on the Names of God. He encouraged us to get a spiritual name for ourselves. I chose Timothy. One of Timothy's characteristics is timidity. Just like what Khai Ying said, "Your boldness is inversely proportionate to your size." Perhaps it is really so, but the reason I choose him was that I want to grow up (spiritually) to be like him.

Last Tuesday, Khen Howe challenged me to make big dreams (being spiritually ambitious) to build the temple of God (church). I went back home to pray about it and I took on the challenge to make the subsequent five years a period of preparation and transformation. At the end of the 5th year, I would confirm God's calling to use me to serve Him in church.

And just like the Timothy in the bible who constantly received warnings, advice and encouragement from Paul, I invited Khen Howe to be the Paul of my life to help me grow.

Pray that the Lord will help me to secure this decision.

Total Submission and Unreserved Surrender

It might be easy to tell others about us wanting to put our trust in God and to exercise our faith. However, when it comes to the point when we really have to do it, we tend to give excuses and not carry out what we said earlier on. The Almighty God created us so that we can have a relationship with Him so as to glorify Him. He did not create us to make us our own gods. He longs for a relationship with each of us and He wants to have the authority over our lives, without removing our freedom and full rights as His sons.

Khen Howe sat down with me to reflect on incidents that have occured and to discover what is God trying to show me through those incidents.

Firstly, He allowed my mum to discover about my faith and He spared me from persecution. This shows that He is in control. Secondly, I was told by Meng Choo that she can no longer support me due to her financial difficulty. My first thought was, 'God, you gave me something yet you take another thing away. Why so?' At that point of time, I really struggled in terms of funding for the mission trip next month.

Two days after that, I eventually sent out the support letters to four of my churchmates, knowing that I made an agreement with Khen Howe earlier on regarding the exercising of faith. I thought that things were fine until I received a call from Khen Howe that very night. He asked about my reasons for sending out the letters and He explained to me why shouldn't I do so.

Perhaps the withdrawal of Meng Choo's support was God's plan. He wants me to know that in all circumstances, I should always be still and know that He is God. He doesn't want me to be wise (human wisdom) and think that things are alright.

I think that what God desires out of me and out of eveyone is our Total Submission and Unreserved Surrender of our lives to Him.

God Works in Ways We Cannot See

My Redeemer is indeed faithful and true. And whatever He has said, He will surely do. I have known Him for more than three years yet I was never more thankful than now. God has indeed shown me that He listens to my prayers and meets my needs (even those I did not pray for). There is really no one like Him.

Last Thursday, my mum found out something which I have been hiding for 3 years. She discovered that I am a Christian. I had been living in fear for the past three years, keeping from her that I accepted Jesus. This was because I am afraid of possible persecution. Despite constant encouragements from my fellow siblings-in-Christ to make my faith known, I lived with a heart of fear - fear of man.

While she was searching for a voucher which was misplaced, she actually read my mission trip folder and all other stuff. She did not tell me what she found and she did not raise this during dinner. It was only later in the night that she opened my drawer and took out the bilingual bible. I thought that moment was the end of me. However, by the Grace of God, mum reacted in such way that I would never expect her to. She told me that she will not object. I couldn't believe it. I sat still in my room for a couple of minutes, trying to convince myself of what mum told me. At that point of time, God spoke to me too.

For the past few months, I had some thoughts. I told God in my heart that if I manage to get through my parents (as in making my faith known to them), I would be able to love and serve God will all my heart, all my soul, and my strength and all my mind. Through this incident, I felt God telling me that, "Hey, I have taken up your challenge and I have proved it to you by sparing you from persecution. So what are you going to do next?"

I thought that was a good question. Frankly speaking, I do not have an answer to that. I am still trying to list out plans and actions.

Anyways, it's late... I guess I will continue another day...