结束了

它醒了
因它总算看清了一切事物
它也死了
因它知道一切已失去意义

一丝丝的恋情
也随着风儿飞走了
那深深的爱意
也随着时间流逝了
或许他和她
此后再也毫无瓜葛了

至少它明白了一个道理
不懂得珍惜的人
不值得去珍惜

Redeemer, Savior, Friend

I know You had me on Your mind
When You climbed up on that hill
For You saw me with eternal eyes
While I was yet in sin
Redeemer, Savior, Friend

Every stripe upon Your battered back
Every thorn that pierced Your brow
Every nail drove deep through guiltless hands
Said that your love knows no end
Redeemer, Savior, Friend

Redeemer, redeem my heart again
Savior, come and shelter me from sin
You're familiar with my weakness
Devoted to the end
Redeemer, Savior, Friend

So the grace You poured upon my life
Will return to You in praise
I'll gladly lay down all my crowns
For the name of which I am saved
Redeemer, Savior, Friend

我真的真的已累了

虽经过了许多吵闹
又产生了无数误解
虽偶尔会感到厌倦
质问彼此为何存在
虽那充满愤怒的话
像飞剑向彼此扫射
你在我心中的地位
从未动摇从未改变

这份隐瞒着的爱意
不知你是否已看穿
你忽冷忽热的回应
至今我还无法理解
踏上未知数的道路
我快要喘不过来了
但是错不是在于你
或许是我太执著了

深深的爱着一个人
却不能够表达心意
昼夜的折腾与折磨
又有谁是能够明白
那在沉默中的思念
又有谁是能够理解
我想告诉你我累了
我真的真的已累了

Till the End of My Days

Hear the cries of Your servant, Lord.
Do not pass me by.
May Your love consume my heart
And set it on fire
Do not let it turn cold towards You
Nor let it be numb before You

Hold me tight and guard my heart
Which is deceitful above all else
Take it, break it and mould it
Till it becomes wholly Thine

Set my vision on Thee only
Even when the world crashes on me
Forbid it that I stray from Thy presence
Hold me securely in Your arms

Help me see Thy great and mighty power
Which You displayed in the past
Grant me sight to see Thy working hands
Even when toils and trouble meet

May my every deeds and actions
Be of pleasing incense in Your sight
Lord I give my all to You
In total sweet surrender

I shall love You with all my heart, soul, mind
And worship You at Thy throne
In Spirit and Truth shall I sing Thy praises
Till the end of my days

Lord Have Mercy

"I have great sorrow and unceasing anguish in my heart. For I could wish that I myself were cursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my brothers, those of my own race..."

Dear Lord, have mercy on Your people. Many hearts have turned cold and more are turning hard. Lord let Your love and truth soften and revive those who are dead. Forgive our transgressions and cleanse us, Father. Forbid the hearts of Your people to wander away. Would You sustain them, Lord? Father, hear this plea and save Your people.

Jesus, I've forgotten the words that You have spoken
Promises that burned within my heart have now grown dim
With a doubting heart I follow the paths of earthly wisdom
Forgive me for my unbelief
Renew the fire again

Lord have mercy
Christ have mercy
Lord have mercy on me

I have built an altar where I worship things of men
I have taken journeys that have drawn me far from You
Now I am returning to Your mercies ever flowing
Pardon my transgressions
Help me love You again

I have longed to know You and Your tender mercies
Like a river of forgiveness ever flowing without end
I bow my heart before You in the goodness of Your presence
Your grace forever shining
Like a beacon in the night

I Want To Be Your Servant Lord

“It is not easy.”

“No one said it will, son.”

It had never been this way. Through the months and years I had never come across similar situation like what I am currently going through. Ministry work has indeed been more and more demanding and some really do require immediate attention. I suddenly realized my many limitations which I did not know. Sometimes I really asked myself whether I am doing the right thing, or perhaps, is it the right time.

I must confess that I now no longer enjoy luxury of time. In fact, the twenty-four hours I have do not seem to be sufficient for me. Many times when I looked back on the things I had to do and the people I needed to meet, I just lost my mood and desire to do anything. Instead of faithfully serving and completing the entrusted tasks, I ended up complaining. In the end, I eventually found myself procrastinating.

Although my tongue kept proclaiming that “I want to be Your (His) servant, Lord”, I realized my heart never meant it. The song describes one who wants to serve the Lord the way He desires and one who is eager to hear “Thou good and faithful one” from the Master. I knew I was miles away from that. What exactly was missing?

… (to be continued)

A Broken Spirit

A broken spirit and a contrite heart
You will not despise
You desire truth in the inward parts
A broken spirit and a contrite heart
Lord, my heart is prone to wander
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart, Lord
Take and seal it
Seal it for Your courts above

God's Own Fool

Seems I've imagined Him all of my life
As the wisest of all of mankind
But if God's Holy wisdom is foolish to man
He must have seemed out of His mind
Even His family said He was mad
And the priest said a demon's to blame
But, God in the form of this angry young man
Could not have seemed perfectly sane

We in our foolishness thought we were wise
He played the fool and He opened our eyes
We in our weakness believed we were strong
He became helpless to show we were wrong
So we follow God's own Fool
For only the foolish can tell
Believe the unbelievable, come be a fool as well

So come lose your life for a carpenter's son
For a man never died for a dream
And You'll have the faith His first followers had
And you'll feel the weight of the beam
So surrender the hunger to save us now
And The courage to say I believe
For the power of paradox opens your eyes
And blinds those who say they can see

So we follow God's own Fool
For only the foolish can tell
Believe the unbelievable, come be a fool as well

The Wedding Day

Lately I've been thinking, as I look all around me
I see by the signs that were soon gonna be leaving
The Bride Groom is coming to take us all away
It maybe tomorrow, I pray that it's today

So we can fly away in the twinkling of a eye
Leaving all our heartaches, telling them all goodbye
We will fly away, when he hears his Father say
Jesus go and get your bride, today's your wedding day

When we see the bridegroom on the clouds in the sky
Will he be telling you, Hello or goodbye
You better be ready to meet him face to face
You've got to fight the good fight
You've got to keep the faith

Fly away, when he hears his Father say
Jesus go and get your bride, today's your wedding day
Today's your wedding day
Yes, Lord today's your wedding day

Keep Me Growing Till I Die

Oh Lord, You know how I've been so far,
Just struggling along in my sin.
All around me I see, temptation of the world
Calling for my attention.
Till one day you came and showed me
How just like a baby I was.
You said You help me grow
Grow just like a tree
Rooted and grounded in Your love.

Keep me growing Lord, help me see
What it takes to be like Thee.
For the only goal I have is to live to please You more
Keep me growing till I die
Keep me growing more like Jesus would I be.

I hear his voice as I grow along,
His hand it leads me on.
There is victory thru' Him,
There's no fear becos' He's near
Every time I call He hears me.
I'll know I'll never go back on Him
For He is my Lord and King
He's my hope, my joy, my crown
He's the song I'll always sing
And He is my all in all