Too much has occurred in the last few months. Things that I can’t just sweep under the carpet and forget that it ever happened. I miss the old me, and I hope I’ll get to meet her soon. I am still the same person at work, but I talk more out of respect, and not because I want to. In reality, I wish that I could act like the new me, the reserved one. Once my trip is over, I’ll go look for a new job and start afresh. I’ve contemplated on deleting all social networking sites I am on, but I guess I’ll leave my twitter be in the meantime. Rehabilitation starts now, and hopefully I’ll come back stronger than before? Who knows. Yorobun, annyeong~

things i've bought recently but am too lazy to take photos of

- bag - $26

- Starting with Cats book - $4

- Beauty and the Beast book - $2

- wind-up mouse toy - $5

- mocassins - $28

total: $65

- Batman with Wonder Pig figurine - $12

- Undergarments - $55

total: $67

- My Neighbour Totoro dvd - $20

- Sleepy Hollow dvd - $17

- Hello Kitty jigsaw puzzle - $5

total: $42

ALTOGETHER: $174

UGH I NEED TO STOP SPENDING ESPECIALLY SINCE I'M SPENDING WITH CASH FROM MY BANK AND ALSO SINCE I'M STILL JOBLESS OMG WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. but at least i'm not spending on clothes. the bag and shoes were a need not a want cause i need prefessional looking bag and shoes for my interviews! oh and the undergarments were a need too. but they weren't for the interviews haha. the rest were wants, the batman figurine was for dizu cause i made him had a shitty saturday so that was an apology gift. but i'm happy with my wants-buys cause they are stuff that can last me an entire lifetime and be shared with people too!

speaking of interviews, i'm supposed to have two today but they didn't call me to give me their address (like they said they would) and also i lost their number so i still ended up interview-less. but i went out wearing professional-looking clothes. just in case. but you know the outcome of today anyway. but like my mum said, bukan rezeki, so i'm off to find more! i'm not gonna giving up!

this is what i have been doing for around six hours yesterday. that's right folks, decorating sugar cookies. i did others too like mickey, winnie and (hello) kitty, but they all turn out looking like crap. damn you edible markers! i mean i use the markers to draw out the eyes but they end up looking so sucky. only these two, edible markers used included, turned out nice. nice to look at and nice to eat too.

anyway i'm not doing these for fun, they were for my mum to sell them at tepak sireh on saturday. she's a sort of home based baker. but she's going places to sell her stuff to do um "networking". that's what she calls it. and i'm obliged to help cause she says the money she earns is for my future school fees at nafa. mmhmm. i supposed i'll forever be indebted to her. oh well. who isn't indebted to their mums anyway. we all are, somehow.

oh and i made one for dz! we're gonna meet on sat, and sunday is our seventh month, so it's very apt that i made for him something! nice timing too heh. not telling you guys what character i'm giving him! if i tell you, i'm essentially telling him. so there. y'all have to wait for sunday then i'll reveal what is it. now it's shower time, bye!

it's so goddamn annoying to see that almost every freaking job wants you to be able to speak mandarin. ugh but what to do. times have changed. it's a global world now! but i have a plan. if i do get a job, i'll set aside some money and use that to enrol for... mandarin classes! good idea ey? back then during attachment, me and kaya planned to enrol for mandarin classes but we earned only $450. how's that enough for extras after minus-ing our food and transport money? a girl's gotta shop too y'know. cheh.

woohoo i've completed my resume and i've applied for four jobs! yes that's right, i'm feeling so goddamn proud of myself, finally i'm doing something instead of whining about no work! oh and i've posted an ad about myself too on gumtree hehe thanks sakinah for the help! speaking of sakinah, i've gotta get ready to meet her and accompany her for her interview at yck. woohoo today is feel good day see y'all later tossers!

oh yeah and i watched kick ass with dz on monday. it's awesome, it really is. good thing we decided not to watch shutter island. dz's friend said it's boring so... go watch kick ass! what are you waiting for!

look what dz got for me at the crane machine thing on monday at the cathay. he took like about five tries i think. and the last try, some ite kids were hovering around him, making him feel under pressure. i wanted a kimono one, but the lady didn't allow us to take that, so we had to settle for this. but i'm so so happy! and i was extremely shy when i got it. i was hiding my face behind hk's head. then i made him keep it in his bag. and now i sleep with it everyday hehe cue rolls eyes motion. hahahaha okay that's all goodnight!