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Saturday, July 16, 2011
HI EVERYBODY! IM BACK TO BLOGGING!!! AFTER ONE YEAR. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! One year is like....... 13 months ever since the last time ive blogged? 13 months. But so many freaking things happened. Oh well.. Within 6 mths. I lost everything. Im used to being alone. Then someone came, but left again.. This time without hesitation. Den... Im not used to being alone again. Cause i realised how sick i am to be alone. Oh well.. My days are back. crying alone.... Nobody knows what Im thinking.. Facing everything.. ALL. ALONE.. Yeah that's me. :) But hell yeah. Im sick and tired of holding on. But trust me, if you came back looking for me again. I will still accept without hesitation. But.. Nahhhhh.... I can give up on that thought. i dont think you will. Hahahah. Life still goes on.. Being alone, or not alone. Oh i just realise something. I only get moody when im alone lately. When with others. Even if i get moody, i make myself get well 30 minutes later. -.- Anyway.. Im letting go. But doesnt means because i dont love him. I just dont want him to... Feel it that way again. I think im giving him too much burden. Too much stress. Too much of everything. Without me he definitely will be better. More carefree.. And not getting stressed everyday about what to do or whatsoever. Zzzzz... All of a sudden, i wished i never appeared.. Then you wont be like this already. I know he regretted alot.. But I dont. Actually.. Yeahh.. Regretted for appearing.. Because if i dont, nothing like this would happened. First made you broke up with your ex. Den now.. This happens again. Im sucha bitch.... -.- POOOOOOOOOOOOOL~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Second time today. but IM SUCHA NOOBIEEEE!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. I SUCK TTM. LMAO Ming ming hit straight can liao. dunno why forever go slanted. ZXZXZXZX. :'( Jitao play till darmn sian.. TT I totally got a hell good laughing session today with the guys and our Dear dear Peixian 'MCQ ques. ABCD which one you want?' Wahahahahaha. totally. I totally laugh like nobody business. I think that Zhengyu guy must think that im crazy. First time see me then I keep laugh like a bimbo. LAUGHS. I think they are all crazy. Pool from 1pm to 7+pm. (Y) naise..... I WANT GO SINGGGGG~! But my time keeps clashing with th others. -.- People weekends den free. I special. Weekdays den free. Zxzxzx. No one is as cool as me. tireddd.... I wanna go sleep.. But it's so darmn early now. LOL. |
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Saturday, July 24, 2010
Sometimes life is just so boring.. Sometimes life is just such a burden.. Sometimes.. Life is just that fun.. But come to think of it.. How many percentage of it are happiness, burdens, and sadness. I cant even bare the thought of it. Im tired.. Why cant just give me a chance? If everything is all about a guy, who doesnt even know what's happening.. And because of one person.. Really.. I dun find the worth in it. Some of them just likes to spoil things up. It not be on purpose. But on subconscious. But people beside you could always see clearly.. Say it as an misunderstanding.. Im nt sure.. I just feel like that excuse for you to make sure of everything. And if Jealousy is what it is.. Think about it.. You've got someone with you already.. What do you treat him as? But i just find it all stupid. What is that exactly that you wanted? Im not sure.. It's been such a long time.. An infatuation at first.. It got worse.. And things happen. It's just so stupid.. What's wrong with everyone of us? The matter just seems so complicated when it isnt suppose to be. Awkward in everyone.. Okay.. Except you.. Cause you didnt really know what's happening. Hah.. Funny isnt it? Everyone knows but you. Joke. It's good that you didnt know also.. If not.. *Claps* It's gonna get worse.. It's just soo.. Ridiculous. |
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Tuesday, June 15, 2010
OH GOSH! WHAT IS MY HOLIDAYS BECOMING?!?!? im either reading at hm, or doing my hmwks and studying. Im dead bored at home alr. my hmwks seems are done so slowly!! This is real shit.. im feeling so tired today. And the thing is.. Im mentally tired almost everyday. -.- Thinking alot these days. this shall be a short post. Darmn tired today. Byes. |
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Wednesday, June 9, 2010
I suddenly felt sad.. I dont know why.. Looking at everything. Thinking about all the past.. Urgh.. It's been much more fun with them.. But.. Maybe i should consider more about my studies.. Plus.. It always clashes.. -.- Okay.. I shall not think anymore. Im glad i got my other friends.. Anyway.. I cant die without friends. :) That's always what ive believed in. Arh.. Collected passport today.. Waited for freaking 3 hours there. -___- 100 per hour.. WOW! That's the power of school holidays. Did the bank thing too. By the time i reach home and had dinner. 8+ alr.. So tution was canceled and postponed to tomorrow. Whatever.. Im just right now pissed with my coursework..Like.. Seriously.. Zzzz.. Hmmm.. Everything is rushing into my head. :( I wanted to know.. But.. I cant.. Im so fucking pissed with myself. For being so fucked up. Hahahahah. My twitter profile makes me look like someone who loves pink. xD  |
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Sunday, June 6, 2010
hmmm.. I tot it would be good to hav a blog post. xD Ive been like so lazy to blog nowadays. HAHAHAHAHAHHA. Just reach home from the camp yesterday.. I'M HUNGRY!!! BUT THEY ARE STARVING!!!! okay.. so i wasnt really feeling quite hungry ytd.. but im felling WEAK without food for so long. it's like.. at the end.. OMG!~ i need food. TT okay.. so.. It was the ext prog. before we rushed there. Was almost late. because there was this jam. And that Bus Damai provide it like.. Lousy to the shit core. -___- Nvm.. At least he provided us transport.. didnt have the time to eat though we bought the food. Becoz no eating was allowed in the bus. =.= So we register straight.. Rush and everything., Blabla~ went for the opening ceremony and had their crystal jade bun.. Urgh.. wadever.. okay.. so after the opening ceremony.. we went to find and meet up wif their family members. in that camp.. i now realise th meaning of.. how 5 ppl could hav th similar face. Hahahahaha. this guy over dere reminds me of Shawn hew. I was really suspecting whether if they were Brothers. LOLOL!!! hmm... so.. It was the normal thing as last yr.. but.. is like.. nid to queue so many times. -___- and for SO LONG. went for work.. And the work we did is like.. STUPID. TT i felt so humilated. SERIOUSLY. like.. OMG. im someone who CARES about my face.. TT TT Wadever~ got AIDS after singing.. HAHAHAHAHAH THAT'S SO RANDOM. that person still tell us.. got that to show that we did that work.. i actually -rolled my eyes- Opps. LOL. got vaccinated after that. hmm.. Went to queue for education.. and when it was about our turn.. The first.. Phase? ends.. -.- this is retarded.. we queued and wasted our time. Our adults went to work whilst us children queued. they went drug trafficking.. HAH. When we went back to find Duc, Our facilitator.. (okay his name is darmn cool. sounds more like dude) Eugene was like. Okay we're all stupid. HAH. okay.. so.. we found out that. 7 ppl from our family got AIDS. That's like.. ALOT. LOL so phase 2 starts.. so we went to gwt our work permit. but the place was changed. and we got problem finding it. Zzzz.. finally.. got where th place is.. and queued. watched sum video abt aids. It's quite sad lah so did sum quiz.. hahaha. and got my work permit.. went to the tennis court thinking of working.. and i saw 'No AIDS allowed' Like.. WTF?!?! LOLOL! DISCRIMINATION!!!~ oh yah.. not to forget.. we got that 'I HAVE AIDS TAG' and i love it. HAHAHAHAHA So.. went to the hospital.. but by the time we reach dere.. phase 2 ends. -___- hmm.. took a photo of all of us having tht 'I HAVE AIDS" photo. darmn funny.. LOL Phase 3.. went to the auditorium.. Duc said he nid volunteers. i feel so cheated.. coz i volunteered.. hahaha. we end up being dead. LOLOL but darmn song lah.. lie down on th cupboard.. can sleep. LOLOL others are supose to carry us back. :x i feel so ps lah.. so when dey carried me.. i feel so bad.. LOL used my hands to cover my face.hahahaa went to the concert hall.. and did the 1 min of silence. lols. went back to see how they build the shelters.. erm.. forgot wad we do after that..:x sum workshop or sumthing.. we went to pick beans from thrash bags wif wet newspapers at night. is like.. so dark.. TT our hands are like so black after that. LOL so we became shoe shine boys after that. lols. i feel so bad to let xiao hui clean my shoes lah. -.- like.. guilty sia. hmm.. so.. cant rmb again. omg. nvm.. SKIP! go to slping time.. shared slping bag wif shirl and nicole. THXS SHIRLENE! :D Hmmm.. woke up at 4am to bath. LOL i was still unhappy abt their bath rooms. :( cockroaches all around. grah.. like.. hey. comeon.. i noe tis is a boys school. but there's no nid to be like that. TSK hmm.. went back to sleep after that. hahaha. so woke up.. and went back to family.. er.. so.. area cleaning after that.. and flash mob.. LOL that guy was making my whole family.. LOLOL!!! hardcore sia.. HAHAHHAHAHA. played games after that.. The MRT game is like.. FUNNY SHIT. LOLOL. Is like.. Everyone is 'aiming' on TaiJun and my head. (i dunno how to spell his name. -.-) i forgot hu was beside them.. but dey got beaten up darmn cham. others is laughing their ass up. LOLOL. waited darmn long for the bus.. -.- and is screwed.. the camp is like screwed lah. so disorganize. so.. went up on bus and SLEEP! reach scape.. Slack again. -.- everyone was real tired alr. lolol. so.. built shelters after that. orchard became a slum district. LOLOL the shelter fall after tat. :( thxs to the wind.. and th bamboo hit my head! TT TT When to sleep again.. LOL. wishing the shelter could be really leaned on. hahaha. went for the flash mob thing. real stupid.. IT'S ALMOST 30 HRS ALR!!! Was waiting for our food!!! hahahaha. Food finally came! But was like darmn disapointed lah. -.- ate abit and got darmn full alr. Zzzz.. it was when we were about to go get our bags.. when i found out that, there's 4 of us surnamed Ong. hahaha! this is like.. first time on history.. xD Regine Ong, Victoria Ong, Nathan Ong and Martin Ong. LOLOL. okay.. took an hr to get our bags. -___- went hm wif nicole, wengheng, yongxian, jianrong and darren after that. lols. was laughing like shit coz of wengheng. LOL. okay.. lazy blog liao.. such a long blogpost alr. LOL. |
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Thursday, May 13, 2010
TO ALL BIMBOS AND BITCHES OUT THERE. Im. REALLY. NOT IN A GOOD MOOD. Arh~! Like.. Comeon??? Wad's wrong wif me?!? Im going crazy.. I keep craving for food this afternoon.. and went to sleep.. Now when i woke up, Yah yah~ I find food like.. abit disgusting arh? -roll eyes- Okay, so.. My exams are like.. FINALLY over. Im to my limit and CANT STUDY ANYMORE FOR THIS PERIOD ALREADY. Im gonna flunk LOTS of subjects. And im gonna feel happy & proud about it. :DDD And so today is like.. When i reach home.. I feel darmn sian.. And dont feel like talking to anyone. So the whole day today after i got home.. The only person i had talked to is Abner He's becoming naggy too. About me not eating.. (What???) It's weird for a sec1 to be lidat. *nodhead* totally so.. O.O Hmmm.. Soo.. Im out of reach to everyone else. But surprisingly, everyone seems to know that i wont be replying.. So nobody actually really msged me. LOL Okay.. Get back to studies. My F&N coursework.. Got to amend everything by 18th May. And change 3 of my dishes by 18th may too. Wtf. Means planning and food order list need to REDO FML. After coursework, There would be the Practical exams. After Practical exams, the MT o level gonna be next. Like.. HELLO?!?! Need to put it to be so packed mah?! Walao.. Thought we super heroes arh??? All the fun seems to be like so FAR FAR AWAY~ Meeting up wif pri sch frens.. but didnt noe when.. Eliza have not asked the others when they free. She have not finish her exams and that will be like next week.. -____- Famine camp.. At june.. but that feels like a long way.. Cause there is going to be Sufferings during this period.. Great.. I feel terrible now.. I felt like im an stupid idiot. And i realise.. That's the diff between gurls and guys. It's a fact that you cant seem to change it no matter what.. So.. ive been that fool all along.. I feel so stupid now.. And i felt like.. THAT DREAM Is telling me something.. About the friendship between us.. My dreams always tells me something. Except for those ridiculous ones of cause. hahaha I JUZ NID SOME COLD AND SWEET THINGS FORME TO EAT. I DUN CARE WHETHER IM HAVING MY PERIOD AND WILL DIE ROLLING ON THE FLOOR LATER ON BUT I JUST NEED ANY ICE CREAM OR DESSERTS OR ANYTHING LIDAT!!! ARH~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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Thursday, May 6, 2010
hello bitches! CHEY~ okay.. im going crazy soon. -.- like very long nv blog liao arh? lazy + no time.. TT exams~ exams~ exams~ was busying studying and catching up my sleeps.. hahaha. like now.. im suppose to be slping instead of th comp.. -.- slept at 3am and woke up at 5am. lolol. but th thing is, i feel asleep only near 4am.. HAHAHAHAHA exams are CRAP+SHIT im like practically failing almost everything. -.- I PEBBLES. woohoo~ how optimistic am i.. xD was at cliff's hse studying like.. i forgot when.. hahaha. but tat's th only time where i can study during th day time. -.- mum was making me drinking chicken essence too! EEYUK~~~ taste is like total crap. =.= my sis found a private teacher fr me.. so i could say BYE to that group tution.. yawns.. my tution forever dun hav permenant de. hahahah. wonder how long can tis one last. -________- but i like private tution anyways.. less STRESS i tot. LOL. okay.. i lazy to tink wad to post le.. -.- so.. BYES! i shld catch my slp soon. going to feon's hse to do poa ltr on. :) |
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