Friday, October 31, 2003

Michigan Status

Didn't believe that I would undergo so much criticism for a bunch of MBA essays; I was shaken to the core after She-Sandy post mortem-ed my "almost respectable state" Michigan drafts. I completely re-wrote it tonight which took me approximately 4-5 hours of painless regurgitating. I am really really happy and felt accomplished after finishing it - believe me it is in a much better state now. If She hadn't given me the appropriate feedback - my essays would never have reached the state it is now. My mail-in items have already reached Ann-Arbor (checked FedEx few minutes back), my interview is over and my essays are almost complete. So finally it looks like another application is done. I have high hopes for Michigan - I already feel so attached to the school. I would be very disappointed if I don't get an admit.

Here I come Michigan...

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

1 down, 5 to go

I am very tired today and may not able to write a big blog :) I just finished some major drafts for the Michigan application - it seems to be in a respectable state. First application is always the most difficult - after that it seems like a breeze. MIT i have already submitted today morning - so 1 down, 5 to go (Stanford does not look like a possibility for now). I have put extreme efforts into the MIT and Michigan application and i can absolutely say they are my babies. I need to work on the ethics essay more - i have substantial time to finish it - then i need to run down once with my fiance - get her feedback, do the editing and then submit it. MIT - i am expecting that atleast i should get an interview invite - if i don't then i will assume the following two - MIT is extremely picky when it comes to undergraduate institution and GMAT scores are very important ( not that i have a disrespectful score but from MIT perspective) I am not going to open the MIT essays any more before Jan 12 when i would hear the final outcome of all these sleepless nights and agonizing pain of vomiting your thoughts. So Guys/Gals i think i would be busy till the end of this week so blogging may not be regular but i will try to post atleast one per day. Best of Luck to you all and Keep your Hopes Alive.

I am.

Monday, October 27, 2003

PINK FLOYD

The first time I heard Pink Floyd was when I was in college. I still remember the day clearly - It was my freshman year and college fest was on. We had a rock band scheduled for the evening. The sky was blue - twilight - a bunch of "high" freshmen surrounding a senior on the green field - guitar and "Pink Floyd". The guy who was performing had his smoke stuck in his throat as he was playing "comfortably Numb" - the cacophony of the bustling streets faded into oblivion as we harmonized to the tunes of the guitar. Since then I have been a big fan of Pink Floyd. I remember those days when I use to hang around with our college rock band - we had regular jam sessions and occasionally we pleasured ourselves with songs from "The Wall", "Division Bell" and "Wish you were here". I had hardly any pocket money to buy and listen to their cds - so most of the albums I borrowed from friends for a day or two. My parents use to shout on me thinking that the westernized world has taken over me [So, occasionally I borrowed the portable headphones from my neighbor and listened to their music hiding under the quilt].

The thing which attracts me most to Pink Floyd was their ability to dramatize through music - as if the gentle strokes of a painter on the canvass. And their lyrics are awesome - the first song from their "momentary Lapse of Reason" Album for example where the pilot is diving to his death. Believe me - if you want to enjoy Pink Floyd you need to be high ;) Anyway those college days will never be back again but the legacy of Pink Floyd will and the flutter of my soul to their every single stroke on the cords shall.

Especially I feel amazed when I hear that people haven't heard about Syd Barrett - he was the driving force and the founder of the band. He went schizophrenic after some of their earlier albums like "Atom Heart Mother". And there was a clash of characters between David Gilmour and Roger Waters. Roger Waters was more predominant during "The Wall" days whereas later on David Gilmour took over. David Gilmour was more into special effects through music whereas Roger Waters was more into melody.

Some days after a bad night I sometime listen to Pink Floyd - especially those days when everything seems going nowhere. I feel that I have come to the wrong profession I should have gone for something like Liberal Arts or Philosophy not Engineering. I dread by the thought that I have to spend the rest of my life in front of a computer - mocking me back. I wish I had the magic wand - I wish I could change the past and choose the future.

Remember Pink Floyd's video "We don't need no education" - that's what happens to us when we go to school - we are churned into engineers or doctors - some predefined notions dumped into our heads and we are like those mechanical robots performing a 24X7 monotonous work . Well!! The entire world is like that....

"Welcome my son, welcome to the machine.
Where have you been? It's alright we know where you've been.
You've been in the pipeline, filling in time,
provided with toys and Scouting for Boys.
You bought a guitar to punish your ma,
And you didn't like school, and you know you're nobody's fool,
So welcome to the machine.
Welcome my son, welcome to the machine.
What did you dream? It's alright we told you what to dream.
You dreamed of a big star, he played a mean guitar,
He always ate in the Steak Bar. He loved to drive in his Jaguar.
So welcome to the machine. "

Sunday, October 26, 2003

NEWS FLASH

Ok!! I have decided to drop Stanford from my list. It is not humanly possible [Shit!! I just hit the daylight savings update on my laptop] to complete 7 applications within the timeframe. MIT is almost done - need to do some last minute reviews and i am hitting the submit button on Monday night. Michigan i would probably submit by the end of next week. Berkeley got delayed but the good news is i have been successful to schedule my TOEFL in the middle of next month.So, Berkeley will be done by middle of Nov. I am going for a vacation in the middle of December - so before that i have to complete Kellogg, HBS and Wharton. I know HBS is a long shot for me but atleast i won't repent that i didn't try. Most of the great things are not done without trying, without taking a risk. I remember the snipet from Forbes 40 where Donald Trump said " I wouldn't have become a billionaire if i didn't take a risk. I quit my job and invested on real estate with gargantuan debts. " [ I am paraphrashing here]

I have updated some important documents in BW Buddies YahooGroup including the Wharton Cover Letter Guide and Wharton Resume Guide. I also created a database where people can enter their profile maintaining their anonymity for survey purposes at the end of the application cycle.

To my BW Buddies, why not meet for a chat session next Saturday Nov.1 in the evening at 5 PM PST for a tete-e-tete. It would be a good break from this crazy schedule.

Saturday, October 25, 2003

Reality Check

Finally she re-edited and proofread the final versions of my MIT essays and as usual gave back some valuable advise. She is still not 100% convinced - I always try to tell her, everyone is not as good as you are. She sometimes goes through these creative phases and come up with some excellent ideas. She already gave me a very good tip about Stanford Essay #1 [unfortunately I may have to drop Stanford from my list] . I sometime wonder if she applied to Business School she would be a shoo-in in a Top 5 - but I can't convince her to go for an MBA - she prefers the academia. I am really appreciative that in spite of her hectic schedule she could find some time for me and took genuine interest in my essays. Ohh well!! I forget sometimes that she is a super woman.

Today we were discussing after the editing was done about this entire MBA process. She always tell me that after I go to school I would be fairly disappointed as I have raised MBA to a certain pedestal - it is after all a school - what more can you expect?
I sometimes get attracted to this external glitz - like a moth to a burning flame. But since the last 2 years I have matured a lot and take everything with a skeptic eye. The outside matters, but the inside matters the most.

After all MBA is not a do or die situation. Worse - I will not get an admission in any of the schools I apply - What then? Can the adcomms stop me from achieving my goals, my ambitions, my desires, my dreams? MBA is an aid not a necessity. Ain't it? So why get disappointed at all? Think about the worst case scenario from now itself so that I don't get upset in the end. Ohh Well!! I will get dinged from all the schools - I will pack my bags - leave my current job - take a English teaching assignment in a Latin American country or go backpacking to Kilimanjaro. I always craved for those mountaineering experience - how about climbing Mount Everest? [ with the weakest of lungs - my-o-my I dare to dream]

How can someone decide my fate and why should that happen? I can't let someone else take the reigns of my life - I want to write it myself. MBA not - so what? Life doesn't end here - if I have an idea and the passion - I will go door to door in Palo Alto - I will become "Stifler meister" if required to get my wish fulfilled. I will be that dog who wags his tail for a piece of bread - I won't stop achieving.

I remember the famous ad line from one of the Indian commercials - I would apply the same philosophy to my MBA applications:

"Fill it, Shut it, Forget it."

Friday, October 24, 2003

MICHIGAN MICHIGAN MICHIGAN

As usual i took the BART again to San Francisco Downtown. It was a 5 minutes walk from the BART station - and there stood the huge skyscraper 101 California Street. The reception was in the 16th Floor sponsored by ATKearney. As i entered the reception booth - there was my name tag - picked it up , pasted it and headed straight for the food section. Hands Down Michigan had the best food in town when it came to Info Sessions [ I thought MIT was the one who splurged on food and drinks.] I took a seat and a fellow indian sat beside me. So, as i enjoyed every morsel i initiated a conversation with him - to my surprise he was a Michigan alum. I never even realized that he already had an MBA from Michigan since he sat beside me so casually. In Michigan ways, we talked in length about Michigan. He told me that he only applied to Michigan as he was very much drawn to the Michigan community. He regularly visits Michigan to recruit students. I felt that Michigan maintains a strong connection with the alums as an intellectual capital and job tapping source. Another Michigan alum jumped in and broke the silence as the session started - he is currently working in ATKearney and this is the second year that Michigan is hosting its info session there. The Associate Director of Admissions then started the flash presentation - very good Marketing job with keywords like Acheiver, Believer, Lead, Thoughts into Action - I am a Michigan MBA.

Michigan has changed its sales pitch and it is more geared towards social responsibility in business [ Smart Move especially after Enron, WorldCom and Global Crossing ]. I also heard the key word "co-creating" many times - what value will you add to the Michigan community and what will we learn from you? Multiple times it was reiterated that Michigan is a very well-knit diverse student body [ as evident from the "chemistry" between alums.] I had a general feeling that Michigan MBA would be fun - Michigan Wolverines, Ann Arbor, no backstabbing, regular social parties etc. Michigan is adding a new thing to the curriculum - an option of taking an elective in the 2nd Year. Also i heard about the new X-MAP started by C.K.Prahalad where a bunch of students from Michigan Business School went to India to market a soap business and create a case/video from that experience. Also they have elongated the LDP to 2 weeks from 1 week. Michigan's approach seemed very genuine and i felt very passionate about Michigan. They also talked about the spouse-significant others club where people get more close than the MBA students - they believe that the MBA experience is for the entire family - very true.

The warm fuzzy feeling was there throughout the session with light-hearted jokes and innocent banter. Each of the alums said the same thing - "If given the opportunity i would go again for the Michigan experience - we envy you". To top that Michigan is strong in all aspects of management education - Marketing, Finance and Entrepreneurship. One thing really struck me - the number of applicants went down last year but the average GMAT went up - why? Did they fall for the same numbers game and ranking race? I hope Michigan does not looses it charm running after numbers like other GMAT focussed schools and loose the camaraderie and teamwork in the student body.

Michigan tops my list. But sometimes i wonder whether i would be able to inculcate leadership skills in such a teamwork oriented environment.

Go Blue

Thursday, October 23, 2003

Berkeley

I reached the Berkeley BART station 30 minutes before schedule. As i wondered aimlessly trying to figure out from where to catch the University Shuttle I realized that i don't have much time in hand - I was also not sure how long i have to wait for the shuttle so i decided to walk towards the HAAS Building. As i was half-through to my horror i realized that i am walking from one corner of the campus to another. As i started to walk briskly i started to sweat profusely - damn!! I should have figured this out before but it was point of no return. I ran out of breath as i reached the HAAS building and the reception. I was instructed to sit in the sofa and wait for my HAAS ambassador. After a good 10 minutes wait he arrived. So we started talking about where i am planing to apply and why i am interested in HAAS. He was an international student, looked very friendly and readily answered my queries.

As i approached the class, there were bunch of students waiting outside the class. I expected that a few would accost me and get acquainted. Anyway, I went inside the class and was given a corner chair - I was the only one visiting. It was a case-study class so i was lost. After a few minutes one of the students gave me a copy of the case - it was related to the biotech industry. I was surprised to discover that none of the classmates had biotech experience in a class of around 60. And the case method was very different from other schools, the professor already had the reports from the students - so he was just calling them to state their opinions. I didn't find that energy maybe because it was almost at the end of the day. Though the professor was humorous and making funny comments - the class was drooling on.

The class didn't have an AC and was small. It seems that the entire HAAS building does not have any AC [ though people will argue that you don't require an AC in CA.] There were few fans in the corners. I also felt a little claustrophobic as the class was small and i saw people sitting on the stairs. Though it is good to have a casual enviroment - I would have preferred a bigger class.

After the class was over - same thing - no one bothered to get introduced to me. Anyway as my ambassador walked with me [ he was genuinely friendly] he gave some insights into HAAS. In some of the classes you can sit with the engineering students and exchange ideas. The international student body was facing issues as most of the big tech companies were not hiring international students. I think this is a dilemma in most schools - not only Berkeley. So, we talked in length about the industry - that next year the opportunities would be more etc. etc.

Somehow my experience was not good - maybe i was in the wrong class at the wrong time. Don't get me wrong - HAAS is a great school - but the student body is not as well-knit as other schools. Academically, HAAS is good or as good as any other Top 10 school.
The one thing which attracts me most to Berkeley is the ROI - I just need to shelf annually 15,000 dollars [ as i am a CA resident.] and get a decent education. But in the end the experience matters - I won't deny that.

Berkeley topped that with TOEFL. I just have to give TOEFL for Berkeley - hence i have postponed my application for Dec. 12. Every school has its pros and cons - Berkeley has too.

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

MADNESS

It really sucks !! The TOEFL thing hit me bad - who knew I have to juggle with this thing at the last moment. I presumed that I can waive my TOEFL for most of the schools but Berkeley really demoralized me. I have to call Berkeley and Michigan tomorrow to verify if I can waive my TOEFL scores. If not - to hell with TOEFL - not only I have to shelf an extra 130 bucks but also put in some efforts to make sure that I don't screw it - over that an extra 3 hours gone from my precious appin' time. Anyway I lost the evening thinking about - I hardly could concentrate on my Michigan Cover Letter. I am thinking of taking Thursday off and concentrating on the rest of the stuff I have to finish before the weekend. Maybe I will attend the Michigan reception in the evening. I am really curious to talk to the Michigan adcomms this Thursday - hope I will get some last minute tips.

MBA appin' process is really a drain on you - emotionally and physically. One day you spent hours regurgitating thoughts - the next day you turn into a complete dumb.
I am tired of it everyday spending hours perfecting my application , whereas the entire process maybe a crapshoot - who knows? I don't want this to bring me down - after investing so much time what if I don't get into the school of my dreams. What if this entire process is a waste? Who will reimburse these lost days of trauma and frustration?

Did I portray myself correctly? Will the adcomm give me a second thought or will he just dump me it into the pile of rejects even without bothering what I went through? I lost my social life, my reading habits, my technical brush-up, my family time... and over that TOEFL. ohh !! When will December arrive? - when will I be done with this process and can sleep peacefully. When will I get those admit calls? When will all this end?

It's more difficult for me as I have been planning for this for such a long time. I want to go to Business School or I would never get that corner office in Manhattan; I would never get to mix with the social elites ;I would never get that window of opportunity. And then I think - what about Bill Gates? Larry Ellison? Dell? They are not MBAs - they didn't need an MBA to be successful - then why do I crave for it?

Lot of gibberish thought for a day. I will close the chapter here. As promised I would put my Berkeley class visit soon. I am thinking to organize a chat session in Nov.1 in my yahoo groups where all we can come together and vent out frustrations. I am sure most of us would have submitted our first round applications and would be gearing up for second round. This chat will be a refreshing break from all this madness.

Book me for an asylum. If nothing happens that is the only place where I can be sane shadowed behind insanity.

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

MIT

Finally, the MIT drafts are done - I invested around 15-20 hours of intense efforts of thinking and editing. I won't say that i am 100% satisfied but i am convinced that it covers all the facet of my application - especially professional experience. I somehow feel that MIT stresses a lot on diverse professional experience more than your other activities. I have mailed the recommendations too and i hope that they would reach by tomorrow morning. So, I am atlast ready to submit my first application. Even the MIT self-reported Transcript and Resume is done. I still need to work on the additional info which i plan to do next weekend [ I already have a copy from last application which would help me considerably.] It's not a simple job to write all the MIT essays especially the Cover Letter. I wish i knew the right reciepe because finally what makes the difference is what you have highlighted in your application. But i personally think that this strategy should differ from school to school - like for Kellogg teamwork, HBS leadership etc. etc.

I visited MIT school 2 years back. I was there on Sunday so i was able to visit Boston as well. The MIT campus is breathtaking just located by the Charles River. The Boston skyline is visible in the evenings. There are wooden chairs by the river where you can sit and enjoy the scenery. Boston is a great place but is a driver's nightmare - hence most of the people use muni. Boston is a beautiful city especially the building architectures which is a mixture of old and new - kind of grotesque. There were a few students out on the campus who reluctantly told me that Sunday is not the right day to visit the campus. Even then i walked around the engineering school - you already start feeling geeky in the campus and you get this trumendous urge to study. I took one of the Boston tours - i liked the city. But the only problem is winter when it is horribly cold and snow covers the entire city. This is the problem for any major city in the east coast and needless to say it is a hazard. I couldn't wait till the next day when i would finally get the opportunity to talk to some students.

Next day morning after a brief breakfast and with a coffee mug i headed for the campus. I went straight to the reception where i saw a bunch of prospectives munching on bagels and reading WSJ. I sat beside a chinese lady who immediately started asking questions - Her first question was - "What is your GMAT score?" . I was taken aback as i politely avoided the question. She started the usual stuff about she is applying to H/S blah blah blah.. Anyway we headed straight for the corner office where Rod Garcia talked about the school - I had a general good feeling of the crowd - I remember someone flew in from London to visit the school. [ It was 2002 , baby !!] The first words we heard was "Mens et Manus" [ I know it by heart by know.]
Then the bragging about the school started - MIT undoubtedly stands out as an academic oriented school - It is the only school where you have the option of pursuing a Research Thesis. Another thing which was constantly reiterated were that most of the administration is run by students - that was pretty obvious. Then our student ambassadors arrived to take us to the class. The class was a "Strategy" class and it was a blast. I never saw such cold calls in any other school - the professor repeatedly asked students question from the case. The most interesting part was that one of the students actually worked in the company whose case was being studied. One of the students gave a presentation which was very humorous. The most strikening thing about the school was the international student body. The discussion moved from biotech starups to german automobile to French spirits to Chinese manufacturing.. It was impressive - especially the diversity in the class. Obviously MIT recruits a bunch of smart kids..

And these smart kids are so humble and down-to-earth that it's unbelievable. Before the class most of the students accosted me giving me tips about the application. After the class my ambassador took me to the cafeteria [ it was pretty small - the only negative thing i remember about MIT :) ] Then he sat with his study group and started brain storming the next class. I walked towards the lobby where i saw a bunch of indian brothers - caught one of them and headed straight for a sofa. His instruction was just be yourself and don't get discouraged by the BW Forums ;) - numbers are only a part of the application and try concentrating on the essays. He told me that his first choice was HBS but got rejected after an interview - But he said no regrets - MIT is a great school. We talked in length about the application process and the cryptic essays [ essays have changed since then.] Overall i had a great feeling about the student body.

To sum it up, as we were crossing the MIT campus, the bus driver of the Boston tour remarked - "You know what the locals call this place - Millionaires in Training."

Sunday, October 19, 2003

Midnight Peril

Finally had a significant progress in my application - I was able to finish final drafts of 2 MIT essays and the cover letter. I had been working relentlessly for the last 6 hours and i am so happy that i can finally go to bed with some sense of accomplishment. This year i know i have to push myself to the edge or i don't deserve it. It is not an easy task to write essays of 7 schools as mbain2004 has pointed out. So, i need to put extra efforts and i am sure that i would get that orgasmic feeling after i get admitted to the school of my choice.

I plan to complete applications in the following manner.
MIT, Michigan, Berkeley in the First Round.
Wharton, Kellogg in the Second Round.
If i have time and the perseverance i would apply to Harvard and Stanford.

I now that i would be burnt out by the middle of December. How long can a person work like this? I have almost given up my social life ; i have stopped watching movies or reading books. The only thing i do is surf, gather information about the schools , visit the BW Forum, work on applications and my essays. But the time spent is worth it in the end. Who can deny an admission in Wharton or Kellogg? They are one of the most premier business school insitutions in the world. I think Wharton and Kellogg has the strongest brand name when it comes to MBA. MIT, Stanford, Berkeley is still percieved as a premier engineering instition worldwide. HBS is totally on a different league, HBS produces leaders not consultants or marketing managers. Michigan doesn't carry a strong MBA brand name outside North America.

Let me go back to bed since i need to finish the other 3 essays of MIT tommorow morning before going to work. I need to finish all the final drafts of the 3 schools by the end of next week (before the weekend). Next weekend i can go over them and look for minute changes here and there. I also need to sit and look at the application with a holistic approach.

Good Night or shall i say Good Morning!!

Friday, October 17, 2003

Michigan Interview

Michigan Interview was a blast. I passionately got my points across. The alum was very friendly and congenial - so full of Michigan community. He is trying to start a company of his own so we shared some insights about my and his industry. I have no doubts in my mind that Michigan is a fit - and the alum reiterated that. I think my interview was way out of the line as we spent the first 15 minutes talking about my industry and where it is headed - what do i think where it will be 3 years from now? My job responsibilities? Why MBA? [ He didn't ask why now? so i am thinking that he is pretty convinced MBA is the thing for me] Why Michigan MBA? In the end, he was convinced with my answers. He also asked me about my extra-cirrucular and community activities - how do i feel without it? What do i do in my spare time? He mentioned that since i was WL - obviously the adcomm liked me. I think i worked on my shortcomings in the last 2 years and he agreed. I am so full of Michigan right now - need to visit the school some time in winter. I think i should concentrate on my essays and get it done a.s.a.p.

Go Blue :)

Thursday, October 16, 2003

AWA

My AWA scores are in. I scored a whopping 6 - I am very happy - It's not that it will make a lot of difference in my application - more because of personal satisfaction and perfection.

I think I have to work real hard in the next few days to complete my application.

Wharton Reception

It’s all about “passion” – so after all it’s not a myth anymore it’s true – Wharton loves to use this word “passion” all the time – I have heard that Wharton dinged applicants saying that they lacked passion. So, what’s “passion”? – Hypersensitivity, overtly enthusiastic, drive? – I couldn’t figure it out from today’s Wharton session.

As I entered the building I saw a few applicants standing outside doing the usual “chit-chat” – “ohh!! I applied to Harvard, Stanford? What about you?”, “Did you attend the last MIT session?” – the usual “I-am-the-smart-know-all-applicant”. I entered the building after Wharton alum took the job of giving the security badges (or else I was thinking that I had to wait there forever). I took a seat in one corner of the room while I had a bunch of fellow Indians around me – they seem to follow me everywhere :)

The session started with the usual “Wharton innovates” – the first business school in the country – the first entrepreneurship program – a brief on curriculum – Individualized Major – 198 faculty members (a 1:4 faculty to student ratio which is pretty impressive). The adcomm member was pretty funny and I hope that she is a reflection of the Wharton society. She stressed on the fact that you don’t have to play violin with one leg to get into Wharton – just be yourself. She also said that they look for a 75-75 split in GMAT score (I had the impression they look for 80-80).

Anyway I was pretty disappointed with the section of alums representing the Wharton community because I had the feeling that they are actually not what Wharton is all about. Most of them were from the EMBA program – baby boomers whereas I was interested to talk to some of the current students or actual full-time MBA alums working in the Silicon Valley. I think Wharton would do justice if next time they mention that the session would be more geared towards EMBA or Lauder program or Full time MBA.

I walked out of the session quite early because I have a Michigan interview scheduled tomorrow. Additionally, I felt that I wouldn’t get much from the EMBA alums/students.

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

APPLICATION 2002

This was the toughest year for MBA applicants - the economy was in a pretty bad shape, there were hardly any new jobs in the market and thousands of people were getting laid off. Hence the competition was strong, with number of applications doubled in most of the top 20 schools. First Round was the most competitive as I found out later in the application process. I applied to all the schools in the 1st round - MIT, Kellogg, Michigan and 2 top 20 schools (I will use 20a and 20b). Kellogg and Michigan - I gave an alumni interview and for 20a, 20b - I interviewed with the adcomms. The final score was admitted to 20a, 20b; waitlisted at Michigan and finally dinged; dinged by Kellogg and MIT (without interview).

My approach to the entire application was cynicism and hope. I hoped that I would get admitted to a top 5 school but I was skeptical at the same time since I knew that I would not be competitive with 3 years of experience, a GMAT score of 700 and absolutely no professional leadership experience. So, I stressed on other parts of my application like my involvement with the non-profit boards, community activities, outside interests, diversity and drive. I had substantial extra-curricular activities in college but I was not sure that was enough to offset my not-so at-that-time involvement. And I worked fervently on my essays with my fiancé (I won’t deny that she helped me a lot with the essays and edited them multiple times - she is very adept in English unlike me) - they were truthful and from my heart. But one thing I felt that I ran out of content and was duplicating information in the essays. (this raised a red flag that I didn’t have considerable stories - especially professional to portray) I dropped Wharton at the last moment, as I was not confident enough to get an admission in the 2nd round.

My Michigan interview went pretty bad; as it was the first interview I gave. It was an alum interview. I choked on most of the answers. I was not well prepared for most of the questions like why x engineering? Why did you choose this undergrad university? Why this post-MBA career? How do you know you want to this? In the end I had a bad feeling. Michigan was also the first application I completed but I think I did a pretty good job with the essays. Actually, I am still pretty passionate about Michigan - especially about the camaraderie culture in the student community. I had a feeling that Michigan would be a fun place to get my MBA (not to mention that I would do no injustice to my academic needs) Even after the bad interview experience I was waitlisted in Michigan so I think that my essays pull me through and the fit.

MIT was always the dark horse but I still hoped. I knew it would be not possible to get into MIT with just the profile I had and especially since they had such a small class size. Even then I visited MIT and spent a day there. This is another school for which I had the soft corner. (Was it infatuation?) The community is unbelievable - if you think that you would meet a bunch of snooty nerds you are wrong. Every one of them were so humble and down to earth - they would take a passionate interest in you spending hours explaining to you the horrors of the application process, enlightening you with tips unique to MIT. And you get the tech vibe everywhere. Unfortunately I was not invited for an interview and consequently dinged mercilessly.

And then there was Kellogg. The alumni interview went excellent. We immediately clicked and he told me that I was the perfect fit for the Kellogg community. We are still in touch and he couldn’t believe that I was dinged. He told me later that 2002 was competitive and was pretty difficult to get admitted. In the feedback interview they told me that they had doubts about my leadership skills and my extra-curricular activities were not in par with the admitted applicants. Anyway I brushed up on both but that’s a different story. Kellogg is the place if you love to work in a team - you will smell teamwork in everything. I was absolutely impressed by the Kellogg alum - he was so friendly and helpful and we still exchange emails.

20a and 20b are two top 20 schools. In both of the schools I gave an interview with a member of the admission committee. In both interviews I felt pretty confident and I managed to impress them. My essays were usually cut-and-paste from the first 3 schools. I got admitted in the first rounds. In one of the schools I deferred for a year and finally didn’t join deciding to apply this year.

Conclusions at the end of the application process:
- Adcomm interviews are more useful than alum interviews. Or else why would I get dinged by Kellogg and waitlisted by Michigan?
- I come from a pretty competitive pool and essays, interviews, extra-curricular and community activities make a difference.
- GMAT is not so important once you cross a certain threshold since Michigan, 20a and 20b dinged friends with higher GMAT scores.
- Goals need to be crystal clear and especially why X.

Saturday, October 11, 2003

MUSIC AND INNOVATION

David Gilmour, Roger Waters, Jim Morrison, Page, Kurt Cobain, Freddie Mercury and Mark knopffler - What is common among them? They are the greatest innovators of the 21st century. They did to Music what Ford did to corporate America, Mandela to apartheid and Fidel Castro to geopolitics. So, when we talk about innovation why don't we talk about them? We talk about GE, General Motors, Coca Cola - why not Grundge, Punk Rock? We talk about Jack Welch, Bill Gates - why not Slash, Syd Barrett?

Syd Barrett gave his life for laying the philosophy of Pink Floyd - he turned insane. Kurt Cobain and Jim Morrision gave their lives for their music, their art. Led Zepellin's "Stairway to Heaven" is one of the most philosophical lyrics ever written in the history of music. Freddie Mercury's "Bohemian Rhapshody" reveals his musical ingenuity earning him accolades around the world.

Music and Innovation goes hand in hand. If we really want to learn what innovation is - we should learn from them - the rockers who are considered "punks" in the social elite.
So, in Guns' N' Roses' "Get into the Ring" , let confront those hypocrites ...

Friday, October 10, 2003

GMAT

I have been lurking on the BusinessWeek Boards for almost a year and people still fight over a 680 and a 700 and a 750. I am tired of the same old debate - day in and day out. We should put this topic to rest and concentrate on other parts of the application which are more important than GMAT. So, here is a compilation of quotes from Members of Admission Committees:

"Not necessarily. I don't really know the average amount of times an applicant [for the Class of 2002] took the GMAT. The GMAT is valid, consistent, and reliable. You can take the GMAT as many times as you want, and your score will cluster within a certain range. We know that for a fact. An exception would be a 100 point difference, and that is only possible if [the applicant] took a coaching course.
But for the person who took the test today and then again next month without doing any review classes or any preparation, the score will probably [vary by] plus or minus 50 [points]. What I'm saying here is that we're not concerned -- no matter how many times a person takes the test -- because we can predict how the applicant will perform.
The other reason why I'm not alarmed is that there's a point where getting 50 more points doesn't really put you at an advantage. If you score 700, what does [scoring a] 750 do? If you're a really excellent applicant, and if you scored 650 on the GMAT, what do an additional 50 points do? Having 100 points more on a GMAT really doesn't make a big difference because there's a point where you disregard the score and you look for other things."
- Rod Garcia, MIT Sloan

"We want to ensure that a student can handle the academic rigor of the program, which is where the GMAT and one's undergraduate performance come into play. The GMAT is only one aspect of the application. However, you need to be competitive because two-thirds of our applicants are very capable in handling the rigor, and as part of making selections, you're better served if you're more competitive. That said, the GMAT is not a predictor of future career success, which is why we look so strongly at the other aspects of the application, such as an applicant's track record of success and their full-time work experience. I would address a low GMAT in an optional essay. "
- Kris Nebel, Michigan.

"We want to maximize a person's ability to flourish at Stanford, so academic rigor is important to us. The academictranscript tends to be more important [than the GMAT] because it's a record of the applicant's performance over time. Butwe look at academic aptitude in context.
Let's look at my own case. I was a psychology major and worked in consulting for two years before applying to Stanford. Ihad a strong academic record but hadn't had a lot of quantitative courses in college or experience afterward. So a strong quantitative score on the GMAT would, today, give Derrick the admissions director comfort about Derrick the applicant. I want someone who won't just survive but who will thrive here.
There's much too much focus on the GMAT. It's a threshold. Once we're comfortable that you can handle the workload, there'sno benefit to having a score that's 50 points higher."
- Derrick Bolton, Stanford.

"Q: How heavily does Harvard weigh each of the following: undergraduate record, GMAT, and work experience?
A: We do not have a weighting system in our evaluation process. Our goal is to assess the candidate's strengths on our three main criteria. Every applicant is unique, and each of those data points is taken into consideration in evaluating the application in conjunction with the many other data points presented in our applications.
Q: How about this scenario: An applicant has a not-so-hot GMAT score, great work experience, and a 3.7 undergraduate GPA. Any chance?
A: Looking at just those attributes would be an oversimplification of our process. We take into consideration all aspects of a candidate's personal and professional background. We don't have a threshold for the GMAT or for GPA. There is no requirement with regard to years of work experience. "
- Brit Dewey, Harvard

"Q: The GMAT. Which section receives the most weight -- the quantitative, verbal, or analytical writing assessment (AWA)?
A: We have to be assured that candidates will be able to handle analytical coursework. One proxy for that is the quantitative section of the GMAT. But we also look at courses the applicant has taken, type of work performed, and the recommender's statements about the person's ability. All of those come into play.
The bigger issue may be competing for a place vs. another person. Probably 70% of the people who apply to graduate school can do the work. But the process has become so competitive that it is sometimes difficult to earn a place above someone who has done better in several areas, including the quantitative one.
Q: Say an applicant took the GMAT three times, and never broke 600. What are this person's chances?
A: If the test score is problematic, we look to proxies such as undergraduate coursework. The initial intellectual hurdle is to demonstrate that you can handle the work. The next hurdle is the comparison with the applicant pool.
Many candidates ask if they should keep taking the test. If you prepared well and gave your best, I would advise focusing on an area of the application over which the candidate has more control -- for example, the essays. "
- Michelle Rogers, Kellogg.

"We're going to be looking at your GMAT and your undergraduate record, as well as any other academics, to determine whether you would be successful here academically. If you're struggling academically, you won't get involved in our community. Once we have a comfort level with your academic potential, as understood by your GMAT and academic record, it would no longer become a differentiating factor of your application. Getting a GMAT close to the average of the school you're applying to will be important. Getting a GMAT considerably in excess of the average would not guarantee admission. "
- Alex Brown, Wharton.

Thursday, October 09, 2003

San Francisco "Cinderella City"

I don't feel like working at all - I just finished a major project at work and I wish to take the next two months lightly. This weekend would be fun as she would be here. I especially love getting dressed for dinner - I love French and Italian cuisine - I am a culinary connoisseur - Foie Gras and Roasted Duck. Hmm!! I love hanging out in North Beach, San Francisco - I love the ambiance - In some of the restaurants you just sit by the streets and enjoy the strawberry and the champagne. Then there is the carriage ride in the winter with full moon or Coit Tower and the view of San Francisco thro the devil's eyes. I love the city and its diversity. It has a problem which is common to any big city in the world - Parking. Parking is horrendous in San Francisco. Nowadays we usually park our car in Pier 39 and go for a walk down the beach. Just sit in the Park and enjoy the sea and the surroundings - I would love to go the city after such a long time - I can still smell the fishy odor of the roadside stalls. And then there is the blue lagoon hidden behind the hills of Golden Gate Bridge - I have heard about this place but never could find out. It's such a great combination for a city - hills, sea and the fantastic weather - slong with most liberal people in the world. Castro District - China Town - North Beach - Little Italy - 49 miles drive - I have been to Chicago, Boston, Philadelphia, Washington D.C., New York City, Pittsburgh , L.A - "Nothing compares, Nothing compares to San Francisco" . So, if you are planning to come to Stanford or Berkeley - I am sure you will enjoy this place - all the excitement of Silicon Valley blended with the urbanhood of Berkeley and the scenic beauty of San Francisco - It is paradise on earth. So, if you are deciding based on weather, diversity among urban population, scenic beauty and outdoor activities - then Stanford, Berkeley should top your list.

WAR AND PEACE

What's the world has come to? Israel-Palestine, India-Pakistan, US-Iraq, North Korea - South Korea. Why can't we learn to live in peace and harmony? "Imagine all the people living in one world - Imagine" - John Lennon's utopic vision lingers in the mind. Especially it is hard to imagine one brother killing another, bombing civilizations, filling young child's lung with poisonous gas and using threat-matrix as an alibi. Who are the actual terrorists? And Who are the civilians? It reminds me that last scene from "One Man Flew over the Cuckoo's Nest" where Jack Nicholson broke the glass window separating the wall between the civilized world and the insanity.

Is War the solution to all problems? Is threat the way to cope with your enemies? Look inside yourself and you will realize that threat gives birth to more threat, war gives birth to war, and killing innocents will give birth to more terrorists. It does not matter who the other side is - Indians, Americans, French, German, Koreans, Jews, Palestines - It's all the same. Don't we understand that the only bond which ties us together is Humanity?

Who have created all these barriers? Who have created nations? Who have created the boundaries separating us? - We ourselves, but on what basis ? Who gave us the right to stop one human being from crossing into another? We have the right to go to any place any time - it's our birthright? It does not matter which language we speak, what we eat or what our facial contour is.. We are human beings and it is our god given right to go to any place in this universe. It is our right to remove all barriers that separate us. Bring down the Wall - "Winds of Change" , Candlelight, Scorpions and Brotherhood.

Think about it. A lion in the wilderness with his own pride. He leaves peacefully in his territory - hunts and reproduces. He has plenty of food and plenty of cool shade. When would he go and attack his neighbor pride? - If he does not have any food or his pride has been destroyed or there is a deadly famine in his region. He won't go and kill lions from his neighbor pride unless he needs to do so. Even the animals are better than human beings - We are the only creatures going against Darwin's "Law of Evolution - Survival of the fittest" We are the abhorrent, insane maniacs......

FOCUS

The decision has been made. Yes, Stanford has moved to Round 2. I won't hurry my Stanford App in Round I unless and untill we are 100% satisfied with the drafts. I have few ideas in mind which i need to spin in the appropriate direction. Hence, Mich/MIT/Berkeley is going in the 1st Round ; Michigan Interview has been scheduled for next week. I am excited about the Wharton Visit and Stanford Class scheduled for next week as well. I should probably visit Berkeley once more - I attended a Class - I need to attend an Info Session and spend some more time with the students. Need to Focus on these 3 schools for the next few days and get in my applications as early as possible. MIT/Michigan CL is still a concern but i have some time to work on them. I spent the evening doing some research on my essay topics and Berkeley. As she has pointed out - I need to have the content/main_points in place before i write the essays - need more coherency and depth. Everyday before i start writing i feel that today would be the day - like that rabbit out of a magician's hat but that never happens. Hope some day i can meet the Rabbit from "Alice in WonderLand" - Hope some day i can write like William Wordsworth.

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

Exhausted!!!

I am kind of feeling tired today. I got mentally exhausted after some gruesome work and evening telephone conversations. I am feeling sleepy too - Shall i go to bed? Also i was partly disappointed after getting an honest feedback about my Stanford Essay which i wrote last night. I kind of guess that it was not my best - i was too much harping on what i did rather than i what i am and how it happened? I still have a few days to go before i can finish my drafts. Stanford may slip to the Second Round but i don't care since this time i have to give my best shot. I would rather concentrate on MIT and Michigan on the next 2 days before she arrives on Friday. Even if i can send Berkeley, MIT and Michigan in the 1st Round i would be kind of happy. I have till the middle of December to work on the rest of the application. Before my vacation i want to get it done so that i can rest peacefully for 3 weeks before i come back in Jan and wait for the results.

I think we all go through the stress of the application process everyday. The more we enjoy , the more we hate it - it's the Snake Conundrum. The Transcripts are here - good lord finally i got it. I got the recommendations from my peer and i am still waiting on the other two recommendations. I have given them enough time but it seems like that they still haven't found the time to write it - even after i sent a worksheet to assist them in the process. It was the 49ers or Blame it on RedSox. Hopefully i will get them too by the end of next week so that i can make the Oct 22 deadline of MIT.

I think i should go to bed and probably get up early tomorrow morning to work on my essays. Sleep tight.

STANFORD "Stand for the Door"

Finally i can write something without pressure. I finished a decent draft on Stanford's First Essay - "what matters to you most and why?" If there was something like a Nobe Prize for Generalization then Stanford's Essay would have got one. Stanford is notorious for open essays and this is one of its masterpieces. It took me exactly 4 hours to finish the essay - but i am still not 100% impressed with the draft. I can take a look later on, for now let's forget about it.

OK, let's talk about Stanford. Stanford is a GMAT whore - that's what the reputation on the streets. Stanford prefers superstars - the one with great scores, great numbers, stellar work experience and fantastic achievements. Look at their brochure - they boast of having the best faculty in the world - three nobel laurates. Location is an advantage for Stanford - heart of Silicon Valley, great weather, Palo Alto (the VC den) , the Engineering School [strangely but true]. Stanford shrugs at Indian engineers - the usual cold shoulder i have talked about before. But still we dare (DARE in all caps) to apply to Stanford. STANFORD after all is STANFORD. Sad but true that "acceptance rate" makes Stanford as one of the most coveted business schools in the world besides Harvard and Wharton.

I DARED to attend one of the Info Sessions of Stanford in their Palo Alto Campus. The Campus is beautiful - no doubt about it. The Architecture of the main building reminds me of Peter Keating from Ayn Rand's "FountainHead". [If you haven't read "FountainHead" make sure you read both "FountainHead" and "Atlas Shrugged"]
I reached the Palo Alto Campus quite comfortably before time but i was dumb enough to park the car far from location - I was afraid that i won't get parking as it happened before.I was there early as i saw a fellow countrymen passing by me with a grim face. (Strangely we forget to smile at each other - maybe we get our old habits back) The auditorium was pretty small filed with maybe 100-150 people. The diversity was loud in the crowd. I picked up the brochure and made myself comfortable at the end of the hall. I had another fellow countryman sitting beside me (Seriously man. We are dime a dozen)
There were atleast 10-15% indians in the crowd - I presume that would be the percentage of the entire application pool of Indians applying to Stanford (do the math!!)

To be frank, it seemed the same rambling to me as in the brochures. Nope !! No difference other than some of the answers given by the alums. The alums were pretty impressive - there was this African American Engineer who was a first year, an American born Indian with semiconductor experience, a funny oil-driller [ I don't remember the rest] This old driller harped on the fact that we should try to spend our money before we get admitted (wishful thinking!!) to Stanford because Stanford has lot of fellowships and grants which is distributed based on your needs. There was one more useful information that "I want to waive my rights" in Recs usually is used after you get an admission. After admission you can see the entire application and Recs would be baised on whether you waive or not ( silly!! I use to sweat on this).

Essays are very very important - it was evident from the Session. It was very important to be yourself and rather than stressing on "What" , stress on "How". I think most of you guys applying to Stanford got the newsletter yesterday - Make sure you read the Essays section.

I am packing off right now - need to go to bed. It's already 2-00 in the morning and i am amazed i still have the energy to type :)
I would like to end it on a note - Have you guys noticed that Stanford stands for "Stand for the door" ....

Monday, October 06, 2003

WHO IS SATYAJIT RAY?

I am tired of hearing the same rant from desis - Who is Satyajit Ray? We should be ashamed as a nation if we as Indians haven't heard about Satyajit Ray. Satyajit Ray is one of the most acclaimed Indian Director of all times - an Oscar Winner and a contemporary of Kurusowa, Renoir and Fellini. Kurusowa once said that to be in a world without Satyajit Ray Films is like to be in a world without the sun and the moon. Satyajit Ray has created almost over 50 movies mostly produced by the Indian government or some low key businessmen. Yes, Apu on Simpson's is actually from Satyajit Ray's Hero, Apu in "Apu's Trilogy". It is rumored that E.T is actually Satyajit Ray's idea since his movie script "Alien" was circulating among Hollywood circles before Spielberg made E.T. He got numerous awards including the Oscar, Golden Bear, Golden Lion, National Awards etc etc. He wrote, edited, music-directed and directed a movie at the same time. One of his most famous movie is "Pather Panchali" or "Song of the Little Road" which gave him international renown as a film director. "Apu's Trilogy" is still hailed as all time great bearing the same drama as De Sica's "Bicycle Thief". Lot of people do not know that Satyajit Ray is also a writer and wrote a lot of Children novels including Professor Sanku and Feluda Series.

I have seen almost all his movies including "Nayak - The Hero" , "Ghare Baire - The Home and the World', "Charulata" et al. Ray can be compared to Kurusowa when it come to pathos - i find an absolute similarity in their directional styles - especially between Kurusowa's "Rashomon" and Satyajit Ray's "Pather Panchali" - sometimes, the sorrow is unbearable. It maybe because Kurusowa and Ray were such good friends. If you are a movie fanatic and an Indian - you should obviously watch Satyajit Ray movies or you may get embarrased when an american or a brit or a movie lover asks you about him.

Some of my favorite directors and their movies are :
<1> Bicycle Thief - De Sica
<2> Rashomon - Kurusowa
<3> La Dolce Vita - Fellini
<4> Pather Panchali or Song of the Little River - Satyajit Ray
<5> Metropolis - Lang
<6> The Grand Illusion - Renoir
<7> Apu Trilogy - Satyajit Ray
<8> Rules of the Game - Renoir
<9> The Seventh Seal - Bergman
<10> Seven Samurai - Kurusowa
<11> 81/2 - Fellini

Sunday, October 05, 2003

APPLICANT BLUES

I am running late . I have so much to do before the end of next week. I still have to finish my second drafts of Michigan,MIT and Stanford. I have to finish my resume to day and request a Michigan Interview. I have already requested a Kellogg on-campus interview. I was weighing between Michigan and Kellogg for the on-campus interview and finally decided on Kellogg. Since i have been once waitlisted by Michigan - I presume i have a better chance this year to go through. But who knows?

I don't understand the lackadaisical attitude taken by Adcomms towards Indian applicants. It may be due to the fact that scores of applicants are from India so they don't have any dirth of good Indian applicants. I remember what Alex Brown told me once, as Whartonites we try to encourage the best to apply - if that is the case the adcomm members should be smart enough to figure out who is genuine and who is not. I am tired of getting the cold shoulder everywhere - in most of the info sessions. I posted the question to Sandy - why people don't hesitate to flame indian applicants? Is it because we are dime a dozen? Though I agree that people tend to get frustated with the same thread title - "What are my chances?" I am sure my fellow countrymen need to research more before posting or asking silly questions - No one in this world can predict your chances without seeing your entire application, whoever is telling anything is totally based on certain presumptions. I am sure that if i post i would get the same answer - H/W/S - Hell no !!! So, let's see if i can prove the entire world wrong who says that in order to get into H/W/S - you need a solid GMAT, a blue chip experience, blah blah blah !!!

As i have said before, we as Indians tend to forget that there is life outside numbers. "What is your GMAT score?" is not the right way to initiate a conversation. There is a person outside those numbers - GMAT and GPA only forms a part of the application. Don't expect that it would be a shoo-in with 4.0 and 780 - nope !! There are other more important factors - your career focus and performance, your personality, the essays, the interview, the recs, your extra-cirrucular and community activities and your leadership potential. So don't gloat that you have great stats or that you are from IIT - try to look inside yourself and I am sure you will have the right answers.

I remember sweating after reading the boards in 2001 - i had a GMAT score of 700. Everyone was saying that it would be impossible to get into good schools - "ohH!! you don't have the numbers" "You only have 3 years of experience - Impossible." I think my involvement with the non-profit boards made a difference and my essays were very genuine. My fiance helped me a lot in previous year's application. This year i am doing most of the work but i will still consider her opinion - she is as shark as Sandy is? [ I am sure she was a guaranteed admission if she ever thought about Bschools - but she prefer the nerd profession Ph.D , ohhmigosh!! ]

I have to get back to work, finish the Resume and send the Michigan Interview Request. I have to still work on the Achievement Essay for Berkeley - I am still thinking whether i should write the optional essay. If i get time i would write a synopsys of my impression about the various schools i am applying. Expect me to very busy this week. Next week, my fiance will be here - so i have to find some time for her [ I am really panicking to think that i won't work for 5 days :( ].

Life will go on.

INTRODUCTION

Let me give a brief introduction of myself.
I am a techie (in the true sense) working as a lead engineer in a mid size networking firm in the Silicon Valley. I come from the Indian Subcontinent hence MBA admission is like winning the CA lottery. There is so much competition in this demographic pool but people tend to forget that there are only few serious applicants. I know that every Tom, Dick and Harry apply for MBA but how many are seriously thinking? Anyway, i have been looking for diaries of people with similar background but was unable to find one - hence i decided that i would become a blogger myself. I am sure it would help a lot of serious Indian IT applicants in the future - won't it ?? :)

I applied in Fall 2002 with only 3+ years of experience, got admitted in 2 Top 20 schools and waitlisted in 1 Top 10 school. This time i am more serious and i am applying to a wide range of schools. In the first round I am targetting Berkeley/Michigan/MIT/Stanford and in the second round - H/W/K. I am determined to go to a top school with 710 GMAT and 3.7 GPA. I know !! I know!! I have heard it many times that i don't have a high GMAT score but i want to compensate it with other parts of the application.

I know we Indians are really obsessed with numbers. We tend to forget that we have other passions. Though it's true that many of us have little extra cirrucular and community activities - but i think that's one factor which sets me apart from the rest of the pool. And i am working really hard on my essays, which is extremely important.

So, this is just the beginning - I will keep posting about my thoughts, my inhibitions, my pet peeves, my school visits, my dilemmas etc. etc. It is Sunday Afternoon, I have to take out my mentee today to Dave and Buster's. I also need to prepare my resume for Michigan Interview. I have almost finished my Berkeley Essays, and first drafts of MIT and Michigan. I am struggling with the cover letters of MIT and MIchigan. Stanford - i am totally lost. Still few days to go and i hope that i come out victorious in the end. I plan to finish my entire application by Dec 14, 2003.

Talk to you guys soon.