AND.... for you bro..


I've never include bye on purpose in our conversations for a reason, I don't want to say goodbye to you. But when I do, I mean it and that would tell you how much you've hurt me and I think I'm enough of it because I certainly do not and don't deserve to go through the pain anymore.


We think that keeping things or secrets from our good friends is protecting them but in the end we are still hurting them by keeping things from them. Everyone has a right to know the truth. So, what makes you think that I can't handle the harsh truth? You know how much i went through?


For all that you know, please remember i still care. 

Today is the first MONDAY I don't have to worry about datelines or exams... since the start of 2011 I've been working my ass off papers. Next week I have MDRT Dinner and High Net Worth Prestige Luncheon 2011, quite nervous cause I'm a newbie. I'll be on course in 2 weeks... sian... and then school exams in May.  Oh ya, this 30 year old women said I don't have the alpha look and I was like, yeah I AM, want to try? Lol!

Well, everything feels so surreal but I do miss you... Sometimes lovers hurt me in ways they don't know.. and I give more knowing they do that... I know, weird... but I guess somethings are just better left unsaid. I didn't put a stop there actually... I'm just leaving it open ended

Tryna work a baby smile to myself. Good day to you! :)

I just woke up lol. its 4pm and now I'm eating my yoghurt.

My hair is growing longer!!! And its going back to the normal soft flattered look... omg... I just realized I've become a day person ONLY, I cannot function in the night anymore. And I've become darker,tanned.... and my mom is kinda questioning me about what I've been doing cause of the obvious skin colour.

This is bad... I mean the part where I become only active in the day. Anyway this is weird but seems like many people heard about .... lol ... ppl randomly asking me if I'm okay and things like that, I'm good and happy! There's no reason why I should sulk when people don't care you know. And how come people know about my work when I never disclosed anything, then suddenly wanna meet up? Okay but I said yes to some of you!

My day started out really bad... but I shall not talk about it cause it just kinda makes me mad. Anyway I received really nice chocolates and a dinner treat from :) tonight! Eating one now!! I kinda hate the idea of drinking already, like I just don't wanna go back to the scene anymore cause its messy and I had my fun back then..... So right now just chilling out... Going for my IPL later after my submissions. And need to go cut my hair, its getting out of shape.. hahahah no shopping at the moment.

Today I slept till so late, cause I seriously am tired, didnt sleep for like 2 nights...


And about you...honestly, very disappointed... very disrespectful. That awkward moment when you don't know how to continue a conversation with someone you care about and you just sound really boring.
When you hurt me continuously, you have no idea what I'm going through. Now you're hurt by someone, you have a taste of the unbearable heartache? How does it feel? Sucks isn't it, but it's times two the pain for me to see you like this. And you'll never understand or know.
SO if you miss me… you can’t text, you can’t email, you can’t post it on my facebook wall. if you really miss me, you come and see me... - no strings attached




I walk, trying to lessen the weight of my heart. To a place neither close nor far, where a different me stands by. The one that don't fear, don't tear, don't open up. You'll see it all, pretty soon. Reality forced me to turn in the hard way and no one tries to drag me back, you can't blame me for that then. :)

Jealousy. Mistrust. Insecure. That's what you are made of. What good you have really, tell me!

Up till today, i think having a friend like you makes me real diffcult and stressed up. As you know,i've already been very stressed up with my business just started not long. I need support and encouragement. 

Let's put in to an end, since nothing changes from before. After several times, i tried very hard to feedback to you about yourself. I'll clear up what i have owed you, and the chapter of our "good friends" friendship ends here. Let's just be a "HI-BYE" friend,so you wouldn't be expecting anymore of my calls and texts.

Like what i mentioned at the later part of last year, i would REALLY see who are my true friends and i will eliminate those i no longer need.

Fond memories will forever be kept inside me, you choose it this way. Can't be help. For my part, i know i did my best.

-take care-

Only both of us know what we truly want to feel.. and I know how you express your love... in many ways, sometimes I can't understand. Haha, maybe I'll never get to, but yea... I figured, I don't have to be right, I just want to be happy and I am happy with you...

I'm different from the rest, I'll treasure you and love you, like now.. like the beginning... so treasure me too :)

Someone said something really true... sometimes, people dare not show their true feelings even if they like somebody, but most of it would usually be shown in one person's eyes only... you get the drift... so true.


I love you, you know I do

So much can happen within a span of half a year.. so much memories can be built... so much emotions involved. Honestly, I remember only the happy times cause I knew that when I was with you I was very happy :)

I miss you.. I def do... I love you... I def do... I would do anything just to spent time with you... I def do.. I would go ALL out for you... you know I would and my actions have spoken clearly, louder then my feelings from my heart and words spoken from my mouth.

Yea I let this pass and I know damn sure there'll be a third...and if you don't care.. you seriously don't have my respect!


I don't fucking care about the context of the lie, whose in it, whose not.. whatever. I care about the spirit of doing it... and what it means to you and how it measures me in your life... 


Seriously how come people don't take relationships seriously, especially after being previous relationships? Don't you learn ????

In general, the Scorpio men is very faithful to the people they love, however they can also portray the considerably strong traits for over possessiveness and jealousy within their relationships.