Saturday, February 07, 2009
The End, rather, the Next step
It is nearing the end of my undergraduate education (not really), but close enough for me to have come to a new phase in my life. Hence, I am turning the page and shifting to a new spot. If you don't know where that is, feel free to email me or leave a comment here...love you all, thanks for being around these 3-4 years. It's been great
<3
belle epoque at 6:08 PM
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Vienna
belle epoque at 10:05 PM
Holiday in Europe!
Just got back from holiday in Europe - Munich, Vienna, Salzburg, Innsbruck, Venice, Florence, Milan...then back to Munich to Chicago:) Here are some pictures...the artwork and music and history was just amazing
belle epoque at 9:38 PM
Friday, November 28, 2008
For whom the bell tolls
It's becoming harder and harder to wake up everyday.
When you wake up and wish that you were more sleepy so that you could have a legitimate reason for not wanting to wake up. Nobody picks death because it is a sweet release, or the peaceful exit that we romanticise it to be. Death is always going to be a frightening and impossible idea - I can't imagine not existing, not being able to think or move or just simply trying to understand the unknown path that lies before me presents an infinity of fear and uncertainty. No, death can never be a state of Certain rest.
I think that eventually people pick death because the prospect of waking up into a nightmare another 18425 times in the rest of their life is much more painful and unbearable than dying just once.
belle epoque at 11:13 AM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Aims in life
Finding an amazing place where everyone is perfect and beautiful. it's true! Everyone is charismatic and intelligent, and No one's trotting around in a half assed presentation of themselves, because looks Do matter. and I'm prepared to work as hard as necessary...Sometimes, it's about leaving parts of the past behind so you can go as far as possible.
Meanwhile, I've been thinking about why I suddenly feel empty and more insecure (than usual? haha); I think it's because I'm taking a break from orch this quarter, so I haven't a leadership position to perform, keep busy, and validate myself with. I'm trying to find something else at the moment that will fill that gap, something that's a mix between service, and hopefully to do with the market, which is an interest at the moment. I need to get out more, definitely, dressing up is always fun. And of course, health scares always put things into perspective.
Any jokes generated this week by myself can all be regarded as highly offensive and will not be posted on this blog for my own safety.
belle epoque at 12:51 PM
Monday, November 17, 2008
Getting older
The older you get, the more you realise that all solutions come to those who are willing to wait. Although it seems to become a pattern, how the easy pleasure of anticipation often changes quickly into the burden of expectation and a lot of fear. Weight and self fulfilling patterns.
On the bright side, going to watch Perlman conduct tomorrow, Tchaikovsky's 5th. My most favourite of all time. One of the few first movements that can make me cry...and we're sitting in row B! So we get to see everything up close, finally one of the great musicians I've seen recently, besides Bell and Yefim Bronfman. Missed out on Isaac Stern and Rostropovich in my lifetime, sadly. CSO was amazing, the strings really have a soft cushioned landing, even on the forte-s, and they really have a unified sound. Unlike some ensembles with audible stragglers. Learning the Brahms Sonata now...it's a good piece.
belle epoque at 2:05 AM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Summer Loving
The summer (and actually most of this Fall quarter) has come to a close; it's been a really busy and insane quarter, with me learning a whole lot of things and coming ever closer to figuring my life out, which hopefully will be a sealed deal by the end of Winter. Waiting to pan fry a cod now and some steak as well for dinner. First snow today...felt a bit of the excitement that I felt in first year when I first saw it falling from inside my dorm; except this time I was outside with B, and we caught the first snowflake. First snowflake of my last year in Chicago.
belle epoque at 6:05 PM
Thursday, August 14, 2008
1 year and 2 great dreams!
Wow an entire year has passed. Since I don't really like my linen in public (like I would not brush my teeth in the Ganges), let's see what amusing things in life pop up!
I have this sudden compulsion to record two very odd dreams before I forget them.
Firstly, the Holy Rollercoaster.
So I had this dream where I was running away from HC and heaps of people were trying to kill me (and some other random spies) and I slid down the roof and got into a car with I and C (huge mistake) and C promptly got us killed. Next thing I knew we were riding on a rollercoaster, single file (can that be applied to transport?) and Iv was really grumpy at the back, C had somehow disappeared (into a different field? ring?) and I was somewhere in the middle wondering wth was going on. So this lady comes up to me and says You're dead. This is the rollercoaster that will bring you to heaven
Anyone hear this is the first day of the rest of your life?
And it's pretty nice, high up, not unlike a Bird Park monorail, then suddenly we're in this silver train, silver innards, pretty nice and Heaven is a state, a continuity; not really a point or place. it's a journey...if that can be even conceivable since you would think that that's the one place where you would find an end. So I ask
" Won't we get bored on this ride"
and she says
"No, there are lots of things to see, and we keep moving"
and it's true, we make stops daily, but there are lots of great restaurants where lots of happy people eat at (I remember this round table with candles and happy people eating seafood with beer - people who want to make this dream happier can upgrade to wine) and people getting their hair and nails done...and basically no one's ever bored because there's so many new relaxing things to try!
How awesome is that!
belle epoque at 12:24 PM
Resurrection!
Back from the dead! Resurrection, which by the way is also the name of a very awesome Mahler Symphony
belle epoque at 12:23 PM