The Sweetness of Love

Friday, October 24, 2014

we may be apart.

but t me, im still attached t you & im proud of it.

its been almost a month.

i blardy miss you.

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

i miss you

things has gotten way out of hand for th past weeks & we have no say in our r/s at all. we love each other but we're being brought apart. but fair enough, mutual respect has t be there. family comes first, i always emphasize on that. but im slowly destroying myself.. th fact that im still here today being a willing party t be destroyed is bc i still love you & besides that, who said we'd be defeated so easily? it was nvr easy being me. society just has t stop gng against us. we're humans afterall arent we? we're all flesh & blood. we all love w our hearts. i dont see a difference there.. just bc im a normal person in a country that doesnt support who i am, doesnt mean i have t stop being who or what i am. humans often make a big hoo-haa over minor issues & this is exactly whats gng on now. i am no demon loving your daughter. im just an ordinary human being loving wholeheartedly. & i have feelings too. famous people can always get away w being gay at th end. & ordinary people like us can never get away w it. just look at this society. stop judging, start accepting please? & then there are people that sabotages peoples r/s out of no will behind their backs. if they really cared if that was th reason. you'd at least think for their happiness first rather than ruining it. i still dont get what do they gain by doing this. its not cool guys. bother bout yourself first & be kind t one another.

feelings & emotions has become a big obstacle for me after everyth happened. life was nvr th same. i stop gng t work, i turn down events. i seldom meet my friends anymore. i stay in bed all day. i dont even step out t my living room or kitchen for more than five mins. i have a dog tho' & he's my only companion for now. friends asks me out for dinner & all. & it rly depends on my mood. some days i feel stronger than before then i'll head out but when night comes, its back t square one w all th thgts & all. then at that point of time, i'll have a beer in my hand. i love drinking t drown my thgts, it makes me feel better. whenever im home alone or when my parents are fast asleep i'll just start thinking as well. & i'll always have t fight th urge of hurting myself bc i promised that i wouldnt. i honestly dont know what t do. & i know all of these are just my thgts. ntg major has happened yet. but not talking t you is out of my league. i miss you so much.

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