Out of all the "firsts" I didn't expect this one to be the hardest. I worked that day but figured it would be a good distraction to go and try not to think about it, I dropped my kids off to my moms and headed off to work. I was doing pretty good when I first got there but then my supervisor walked in wearing a Lacoste sweater (Logan only would wear Lacoste shirts) and I lost it. My amazing friends Sue and Sami had ordered me flowers, they are the best friends a girl could ask for! I ended up leaving work because I was hysterically crying and decided to pick up Brynnlee and have a girls day with her. The minute I walked in the door and saw my mom I started crying even harder. She watched Brody for me so Brynn and I could spend the day together. We went to our favorite restaurant Olive Garden and then headed off to see The Croods in the movie theatre. After the movie we did some retail therapy then off to Chick Fil A for some ice cream. It is amazing to me that even though it was an emotional day filled with so much hurt, that spending the day with my little 4 year old could bring me so much comfort. Later that night my parents and I went to dinner and Hale Theatre to see a show. I am surrounded with so many people who have helped me in this past couple months that I wold be lost without.
We got a lot accomplished in the short years we were married then most do throughout their whole marriage. After we were married we immediately started the adoption process for Brynnlee, on March 28, 2011 Logan was able to adopt Brynnlee and she officially became Brynnlee Hardman. May 2011 Brynnlee was sealed to us. That was the most amazing day and I will never forget it, Brynnlee looked like an angel walking in with her white dress sitting across from us and the feeling that was in the room was absolutely incredible, if i could relive any day again it would definitely be that day . It really does feel like Logan was always meant to be Brynnlee's dad, their are so many similarities that I cannot explain , its like it was prearranged in heaven that he would come into her life. On December 19,2011 we had our precious little Brody Logan, after having him I really did feel like our little family was complete. Logan absolutely adored his little mini me and it melted my heart how he was with both of the kids, he was one incredible daddy! In June 2012 we moved into our first house, the house process was stressful and scary at the same time but it was all worth it in the end. We were only planning on this being our "starter home" but we made so many memories in this house in the year we were here I couldn't imagine moving out of it right now. As I sit back and think about the timing on everything that has happened in my life, I know for a FACT that Logan was here with us in the time he was to give me my eternal family and fulfill the roles of a husband and daddy. I will never accept the fact that it was "his time", but I am grateful for the time I was able to spend with him while he was here. Logan got to experience being a dad, husband, brother, son, and all the other earthly purposes here in life and I am glad I got to be apart of those with him. I wrote in his obituary that this is just a short time of loneliness because I do have an eternity ahead with him, I am grateful for the knowledge of that and cannot wait until I get to be reunited with him and what a happy day that will be!!
