It's a pity and it's a shame,
    that wit is innate and luck isn't game.
Then there is hope and there is yay,
    that hardwork may do and spirit will pay.

The end of our time will we see our line,
    whether it a mess or it as fine.
But it be great or it be break,
    it will be but time do us wake.

Time we lazed or time we aced,
    it is afterall time we paved.
So find your gall but not be loud,
    for it is only just we do us proud.

Growing, living and dying - our lives at its simplest.

"there's a very thin line that separates the strong, true, bright bird of the imagination from the synthetic noisy bauble. where is that line? how do you recognize it? how do you know you've crossed it? At the risk of sounding esoteric and arcane, I'm tempted to say you just know. ... The thing about this 'line' is that once you learn to recognize it, once you see it, it's impossible to ignore. You have no choice but to live with it, to follow it through. You have to bear with all its complexities, contradictions and demands. And it's not always easy. ... The trouble is that once you see it, you can't unsee it. And once you've seen it, keeping quiet, saying nothing, becomes as political an act as speaking out. There's no innocence. Either way, you're accountable"

"Painters, writers, singers, actors, dancers, filmmakers, musicians- they are mean to fly, to push at the frontiers, to worry the edges of human imagination, to conjure beauty from the most unexpected things, to find magic in places where others never thought to look. If you limit the trajectory of their flight, if you weigh their wings with society's existing notions of morality and responsibility, if you truss them up with preconceived values, you subvert their endeavour." - Arundhati Roy

Alas, school has started and perhaps it is time to start blogging again. After all, one of this phase of life will have many things in life which he might not able to apprehend. Which is what is exactly happening to me. It has been a semester in University - one of which boasts too much than what it actually is, and I decided to take a trip to Tioman for a long needed breather. Particularly because it is beginning to feel suffocating in University.

I used to wonder about all the exciting things I would be able to do in University. The many opportunities and chances one would be given, the friends you will find with the same passion and understanding as you, the inclined ramp that will help you 'lift off' in life. Never would I have known it would be this harsh.

All along, I believed people would be able to make sense - doing activities they enjoy and indulging in their passion and joy. But my time in university has been quite a contradiction to what I believe. Or rather, what I would wish to see. Students, hungry for success, for recognition and for power, are doing things not particularly because they like it. But rather, because it is deemed commendable if one does so. Which brings me to one of my greatest frustrations in life - When would people finally stop to realize that they are conforming to societal wants? I find myself particularly in discomfort as I encounter such people in school, where they want to be the best. Yes, I would agree that being the best is a good way to live. After all, what point is there in living if you do not make the best of out it? However, it only applies to the context where people desire to be the best in only their very own eyes. It seems to me that there too many people who have lost their minds that they can only succumb to the ways of the modern but depressing society to fill their empty souls.

It is then in the best interest of a good friend of mine, one of whom I am lucky to have found, commented on the way I think. He says that I am narrow-minded, and being overly critical and perhaps insensitive. Which makes me wonder if there is a definite right and wrong in how we act. The overly used saying of a man's poison is another man's meat sheds some light on the relativity in the ways we perceive things. However, is there really a need for one to be open minded because of this? And to add on, what is on the two sides of this debate?

My time in university has made me realize of the complexities of the society we live in. Some of it due to our inherent nature, and some of it due to our unnecessary actions. Even that is debatable. As such, perhaps my time in university is not as much as allowing me to excel. But rather, to figure out how credible my beliefs are in face of this huge mess.

May God Help Us.

Mark my words,