I graduated from high school in 2002. From August 2001-October 2002 was hard for me. I was way too busy, I was sick all the time, and had some very difficult social situations to deal with. Yet I still managed to get perfect grades that year. It was the hardest year of my life. Until now.
From August 2011-December 2012 is now the hardest year of my life. I've express a little of that on this blog, but for anyone who saw me in person, I think it was pretty obvious I was struggling. But after listening to our dear Stake President on Sunday, I decided to spend this time in this personal space taking inventory of all the blessings that I received throughout this difficult year. But I'm just doing the fiscal year. So here goes:
January
After spending most of the month as a single parent while Johnny worked the night shift, I learned the value of a good husband. This lesson sustained me through the year, since my relationship with Johnny was strengthened through all my difficulties.
February
I discovered how much I rely on my friendships and how much we all need each other to make it through this crazy life. Truly, no man is an island.
March
I learned how to ask for help. I've never been good at this, but it was too obvious to ignore this time. I hired some help to clean my house, and it was marvelous.
April
I regained some self confidence by spending my time developing a new talent. I took photography classes and saw a huge improvement in my skills. It was nice to know that I can still learn and grow and use my talents to help others.
May
I got to build my relationship with my sister and her family when they came to visit us. I love them so much and it was great to serve someone else for a week. It got to forget about my problems for awhile, which I needed.
June
June was my test, where I learned that I am willing to sacrifice everything, including my own selfishness for my family.
July
I got back into some of the most beautiful wilderness in this country and remembered how much peace can come from nature.
August
I had the most wonderful seminary training and was told yet again why I sacrifice so much for my calling. It was only made better by the fact that my dear friend was joining me as a help meet this year.
September
I was able to finally feel like a good mom again. Hey, I let my kids play on dangerous equipment, what do you do?
October
I learned the joy of scheduling little projects. It kept little hands busy and our house decorated and non-preschool days fun.
November
The first vacation we went on that I wasn't stressed out during. It was amazing to relax and say yes to the kids.
December
Johnny was gone for a weekend, which meant 13 days alone with the kids. For the first time this has happened, I actually enjoyed our time together and wasn't pulling my hair out by the third day. I rediscovered how much I love these kids.
I'm very much looking forward to a new year, a fresh start. I know it will be great for me, and hopefully all of you.
Happy new year!