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Monday, November 23, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
The clock said 12.48am
I never felt so hurt,lost,guilty.
I tossed and turned on bed for an hour.
I never cry so hard and long,
trying to cover myself with pillow to soften my sobs
but just when I finally stop myself,
& wished that tomorrow will be better.
The message I dread the most came
I just burst into tears without knowing.
Cause I just can't take it anymore,no matter how much I tried to.
Do you know how much effort I tried?
Do you know how much will I finally decided to do that?
Do you know how much I don't wish to do that?
Do you know that not only you're hurt,but me too?
Do you know that,even if I could,I don't want to.
I don't feel better either.
I know how much it hurt when someone you like don't like you.
I know how much it hurt when you're given false hopes,
I just don't wish to hurt you that badly. .
But,I guessed I did.
I seriously don't wish to hurt you like how I did to him.
All of a sudden, I felt I was a murderer.
For killing you,you,you,you.
I know no matter what I said now was meaningless.
No matter how much sorry I said was meaningless.
No matter what I do now will be meaningless.
All I wanted now was to get free from here,
get free from everything.
I don't wish to let all this shits that piled affect my mood,
but it just did.
It is fuckingly sickening when not only one problem affect you,
but multiples.
ALL.IN.A.TIME
Attacking me one after another,
no matter how much I wanted to avoid.
TELL ME,how can I still remain yet so strong?
Human and human relationship are alway confusing.
All the things that happened,beside this.
_ & _ made me felt weak over,
left me hopeless and helpless.
Make me feel like giving up on everything.
Make me feel like running and escaping from all this.
It made me sick really.
Now,not only you suffered,but me too.
Ain't you happy?
Last paper tomorrow,wish me luck.
Bye world.
Sometimes,truth is just so cruel.
Why is this feeling so famaliar?
On Hiatus.
I won't be blogging here anymore.
This shall be my last post here.
All the rest will be locked up somewhere from people.
I need time to recover,
need time to heal,
need time to get me running,
need time to be back to where I am,
need time to make me stronger,
need time to let everything go.
Because this time round,
I'm really want to forget everything
What are tears,
Something to show that you're hurted.
Tell me,what to do to stop them.
Tell me.
I tossed and turned on bed for an hour.
I never cry so hard and long,
trying to cover myself with pillow to soften my sobs
but just when I finally stop myself,
& wished that tomorrow will be better.
The message I dread the most came
I just burst into tears without knowing.
Cause I just can't take it anymore,no matter how much I tried to.
Do you know how much effort I tried?
Do you know how much will I finally decided to do that?
Do you know how much I don't wish to do that?
Do you know that not only you're hurt,but me too?
Do you know that,even if I could,I don't want to.
I don't feel better either.
I know how much it hurt when someone you like don't like you.
I know how much it hurt when you're given false hopes,
I just don't wish to hurt you that badly. .
But,I guessed I did.
I seriously don't wish to hurt you like how I did to him.
All of a sudden, I felt I was a murderer.
For killing you,you,you,you.
I know no matter what I said now was meaningless.
No matter how much sorry I said was meaningless.
No matter what I do now will be meaningless.
All I wanted now was to get free from here,
get free from everything.
I don't wish to let all this shits that piled affect my mood,
but it just did.
It is fuckingly sickening when not only one problem affect you,
but multiples.
ALL.IN.A.TIME
Attacking me one after another,
no matter how much I wanted to avoid.
TELL ME,how can I still remain yet so strong?
Human and human relationship are alway confusing.
All the things that happened,beside this.
_ & _ made me felt weak over,
left me hopeless and helpless.
Make me feel like giving up on everything.
Make me feel like running and escaping from all this.
It made me sick really.
Now,not only you suffered,but me too.
Ain't you happy?
Last paper tomorrow,wish me luck.
Bye world.
Sometimes,truth is just so cruel.
Why is this feeling so famaliar?
On Hiatus.
I won't be blogging here anymore.
This shall be my last post here.
All the rest will be locked up somewhere from people.
I need time to recover,
need time to heal,
need time to get me running,
need time to be back to where I am,
need time to make me stronger,
need time to let everything go.
Because this time round,
I'm really want to forget everything
What are tears,
Something to show that you're hurted.
Tell me,what to do to stop them.
Tell me.
A huge stone
Blasting music from Mp3,running with the cool evening breeze.
It calm my mind,drop the heavy stone in my heart.
Something is bothering me,I felt suffocated.
But yet, I don't know what.
I need fresh air to breathe.
Haven been revising for Chem+Phy MCQS,
finger crossed* and prayed that I'll score tomorrow^^
& Friday will be a long dayyyyyyy,
will be busy right from morning to night.
Can't waitttttttt(!),new experience:D
It calm my mind,drop the heavy stone in my heart.
Something is bothering me,I felt suffocated.
But yet, I don't know what.
I need fresh air to breathe.
Haven been revising for Chem+Phy MCQS,
finger crossed* and prayed that I'll score tomorrow^^
& Friday will be a long dayyyyyyy,
will be busy right from morning to night.
Can't waitttttttt(!),new experience:D
Monday, November 9, 2009
TungLok
Tunglok on 17Nov,can't wait(!)(!).
LAST PAPER TOMORROW,Sci MCQ.
Will be busy on thur+fri:X
Secret,teehee(;
Yesterday was the last tuition class,.
awwwww,gonna miss sitting with
Mx2+R+A.( CHEM )
K+Y ( PHY )
Y+R+A( ENG )
Sx2+A ( Amath ).
Rawrrrrrrrrr.
OUT LATERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
:DDDDD
TATA.
LAST PAPER TOMORROW,Sci MCQ.
Will be busy on thur+fri:X
Secret,teehee(;
Yesterday was the last tuition class,.
awwwww,gonna miss sitting with
Mx2+R+A.( CHEM )
K+Y ( PHY )
Y+R+A( ENG )
Sx2+A ( Amath ).
Rawrrrrrrrrr.
OUT LATERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
:DDDDD
TATA.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Here comes C.
How amazing my life become,Total Drama that my 'meimei' is anticipating,
& never fail to ask me about next steps.
but sorry to disappoint all,neither am i with A or B or C or D or even E.
so yeahhhhhhh,I'm feeling guilty x123456789 right now.
but I can't do anythinggggggggggg,seriously,sorry.
I may sound like a tota bitch,but yeah.
sorry,seriously sorry to A/B/C/D/E.
Truthfully wish that all of your will be able to find someone way better:D
but we can still be friend(;.
sorry):
xoxo,clarissa
& never fail to ask me about next steps.
but sorry to disappoint all,neither am i with A or B or C or D or even E.
so yeahhhhhhh,I'm feeling guilty x123456789 right now.
but I can't do anythinggggggggggg,seriously,sorry.
I may sound like a tota bitch,but yeah.
sorry,seriously sorry to A/B/C/D/E.
Truthfully wish that all of your will be able to find someone way better:D
but we can still be friend(;.
sorry):
xoxo,clarissa
Friday, November 6, 2009
RedCamp-Vikings
How about you? (;
Still deciding to go or not to go.
See whether alot people going viking a not.
hope bbei+karen+pyyy is viking(!)(!).
Anyway,it is a bore right now.
I just finished 2 ep of Momolove.
& i headed to vivo ytdddddddd,wooo.
will be going there again after sumyatauntie come back from Myammar(!).
& ytd was so tiringgggggggggg,dead beat.
WOOOOO,HAIPAITIANXIN OUT LIAOS(!).
for yesterday+ tonight,i was sleeping+watching show the whole entire day.
H.O.R.R.I.B.L.E
haha,my mummy's going mad seeing my room.
MY WHOLE ENTIRE ROOM IS IN A GREAT MESS.
books,bag,papers were all flying around.
need to clean up asap(!)(!)
Still deciding to go or not to go.
See whether alot people going viking a not.
hope bbei+karen+pyyy is viking(!)(!).
Anyway,it is a bore right now.
I just finished 2 ep of Momolove.
& i headed to vivo ytdddddddd,wooo.
will be going there again after sumyatauntie come back from Myammar(!).
& ytd was so tiringgggggggggg,dead beat.
WOOOOO,HAIPAITIANXIN OUT LIAOS(!).
for yesterday+ tonight,i was sleeping+watching show the whole entire day.
H.O.R.R.I.B.L.E
haha,my mummy's going mad seeing my room.
MY WHOLE ENTIRE ROOM IS IN A GREAT MESS.
books,bag,papers were all flying around.
need to clean up asap(!)(!)
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