cough

down with cough for a week now.

im sick tired of flam in my throat.

im abstaining frmo drinking and smoking for this period.

and i might forever.

mahjong

gambling is so complicated.

i've always hated gambling.

i think it spoils the fun insteads of adding fun.

especially when your playing with friends.

that is why i've always encourage playing small bets whilst playing with friends.

its like when you win,

you feel the sense of satisfaction yet you feel hesistant to express your joy.

incase your roar of happiness might upset your mahjong khaki.

although i won pretty big,

like we started with $15 and i won $15+

i still feel a little bad and all.

i mean its my friends money.

never mind never worry.

i'll make sure they have a nice christmas day to enjoy =D

i better go do my homework.

so they won't say i'm greedy for their money and all.

how i wish theres other stakes involved.

like instead of playing real money,

the 2 highest earners could probably enjoy a treat,

prob a meal or desert by the 2 lowest earners.

though i very much have to agree that with real money the flavour of the game truely evolves.

i still don't like how the root of all evil is being passed around the mahjong table.

i've always loved money and always hated it.

it is heaven yet i feel like in hell when i'm with it.

i must train myself...

to not be greedy.

i always feel that the more money the better.

but what is money without friends.

good pals whom i can trust and rely on to cheer a bad day,

share a problem.

many things are more important than money.

i haven't really knocked that into my thick hardy skull.

but soon when i'm working i will know that friends are msot important.

now i'm not working and i'm living off my mom.

money seems so precious to me.

i hope in future i'll value money less highly,

i'm working on it. =D

christmas day

hehe christmas day is coming! =D

santa santa i wish my crush will send me a christmas card!

camps rashes suck

came home finally after 4 days of kayaking expedition.

sure was fun / tiring / interesting / painful.

came back with sunburn rashes but new memories which i will take with me.

quite lazy to blog now cos i feel real bad.

my legs are spotted with red rashes.

got medication to apply twice a day =(

religion

i've been thinking.

and i've come to a conclusion that

2 of the most dealiest aspects in life

that never fail to make the world go haywire are...

1)money

as many say money is the root of all evil.

that i feel is very very very VERY true!

i mean money can buy nearly everything you can even imagine.

of course money might not affect 1 single person

depending on his or her character,

thrifty, happy-go-lucky whatever it is.

BUT definitely immediate friends or people who know that single person

will definitely be affected by his/her assets.

so i mean if you really treasure friends,

make it a point that when you borrow money.

return it and whatever that is worth money.(handphone, shoes, etc.)

lets not play poison.

2)religion

another posion that's causing most other conflicts in the world.

i would say that religion is some what related to money.

thats why i put money as the top of all deadly poison.

jesus went to jerusalum on a donkey.

not a horse.

why most pastors in the US take private jets,

transport that their assets haev been proven to be unable to afford.

why must pope john paul the 2nd wear red prada shoes in public.

if there was no religon there might not even a discrimination of people.

maybe the muslim rule in malaysia wouldn't even exist.

sigh so many problems.

so little and close to 0 answers.

save us from all evil.

human relationship

i think its human's nature to neglect the feelings of others.

but if we are born in such a over populated country,

we really do need to buck up in our EQ.

after watching a show that discusses of the problems with maids in singapore,

i've come to realise that many singaporeans fall short in our human relations.

and i ponder if we can blame it on our asian beliefs?

probably the cause of this shortfall is our high standard of living?

causing all of us to place the value of $$ over everything else including people.

or does the rigid education system play the biggest part?

i feel, to a great extent that it is our education system.

i mean all that we learn is merely how to study efficiently.

rarely or occasionally do we encounter a few moments where our teacher,

whom isn't even a psychology expert tries to correct our behaviour

in accordance to her own beliefs.

we may never know if he or she that is helping us,

is truly beneficial.

why spoon feed children information,

when they can be shown love and compassion and have a first hand experience,

of what good human to human relation is.

maybe this is present in every school.

but what is the crux of the matter is that,

that is not given credit.

children as many would say are the successors of our generation.

so why feed them with information when they are young.

anyone can learn how to be smart.

all they need is time.

but few can learn to be compassionate,

it takes opportunities when one is young,

to develop feelings for others.

when i entered JC,

i somewhat regreted.

it is as though i've entered the working world.

everyone knows that the working world,

is dog eat dog.

that is truly prevalent in my course of study now.

we are still kids man.

prob 1/5 of our life has passed.

that a chill pill everyone.

relax.

we are going to spend the rest of our lives working.

now is the only time we can have few worries.

take joy in making friends.

take joy in using the computer to play games.

take joy in going out for movies.

take joy in sleeping long hours.

take joy especially in finding true friends.

for we may never experience these happy days anymore.

feelings of emotions

its wierd why sometimes,

i just feel so damn fucking happy.

these days are one of the moments i guess

enchanted

welcome to reality.

childish

i think im being childish.

ill just move on.

china

you're probably in china overseas.

all free and no worries.

but i'm still here.

deeper in the cage filled with your potraits.

walls are closing in.

i feel so lonely.

but i know i see a door.

its my heart that is heavy.

my friends outside.

are my support.

ill be free.

when you are back.

i dont want to be caught up with this world i created with my mind

soul and heart.

peel peel janana

my sun burn is peeling already and the nice tan is leaving haha.

not to worries.

went to hilltop to chill today.

haha been quite awhile.

met the puny charmaine hahaha.

den went down to clarke quay to drink.

later to cantoumon bar(paul's place)

to drink. i must say his mixes are nice.

haha after some ribena vodka i died.

lol

miss oei

miss oei is such a nice teacher.

i wish she could stay on and develop my class for another year.

sad to say she had to leave. =(

farewell for her at glass house.

i hope we could meet her in the future to catch up.

she's gona be transfered to secondary school.

wish her the best of luck to get a good class =D

kayaking lesson was pretty hmmm.

fun but chilly.

it started to rain and i was close to shivering.

ahah.

so cold.

and now my forearms are like still tensed.

kayaking is kinda fun.

haha if only the water looked cleaner ahha.

den i would wash my face and drink some water whilst kayaking.

hahahaha.

tmr's gona be another day of kayaking lessons.

this time is capsize =D

sounds fun hehe.

just hope it doesnt rain.

confusion

i'm troubled and vexed up.

i really want to lose it all.

like to forget this quagmire so difficult to escape.

but it ain't as easy.

i want to not annoy you.

i know it will never last.

cause you don'y fancy me in the first place.

is it so hard to be together with a fallen star.

i guess it should be.

for in the show,

they became immortals as the heart has been given.(love)

star dust is a nice meaningful show.

although abit corny at times. haha.

yet its plot is interesting and entertains me=D

if only you were my fallen star.

i need to get rid of all this infatuation shit.

its degrading me slowly but surely.

i want to concentrate on my friends and studies.

no more SHITTTTTTTTTTTTT!

rain

rain is retarded. haha.

i wish i could dodge the rain.

like running from every droplet of water.

hahahha.

or a breath of fire so i can blow fire above me

and steam all rain that will fall on me. hahaha

time to leave for science centre -.-

pimple

what a day at the science centre =D

i had fun. haha though there were boring moments,

when nobody came.

haha but it was hmm enriching i would say.

working for that 5 hours earned me 5 dollars of macs.

hahahhaha what could i have asked for.

tmr's another session.

~

abstain janan =D

vicious cycle

its the end of what seems to me as another week with my friends =D

now ill down tired and back to square one.

not to worry janan.

what is good will not come easy.

i wait till the day someone comes.

206 friends i will always stand beside.

haha. definitely made a stronger friend in sec 2 class.

just hopes he doesn't pick up smoking.

cj classmates will stay for another year.

really want to stop being distracted.

no matter what, next year i shall soar!

haha as in exams not fly fly.

hahah.

hilltop bobo siaos forever together!

had 2 chalets in a row and im almost broke.

haha. dope.

staying out of my house

off for my class's chalet.

going into oblivion to the rest of the world for a few days.

i will from now.

take my time.

to find 1 girl.

yes my mind's set.

haha. now its time to stock up.

so that i wont be missing out on good stuff in the chalet. =D

happy birthday sarah. haha.

project work

i wouldn't say it was a success,

neither would i say it was a failure.

all i can say is that i'm really glad it's all over.

=DD

days to come shall be heaven to me.

for hell bestowed onto me its powers already.

haha

sheryllynn.. your right. haha.
i guess i shouldn't brood over it.
hmm yea. ill try my best.

haha. hmm looking ahead i seeeeeeee.
chinese ahhh!
how i dread chinese. looks like ill be spending the weekends mugging on chinese dictionary.
hahahahahha don't give me that puzzled look.
dictionary improves my vocabulary =DD
ahhaha good luck for all else taking chinese or pw exams!!

betrayal.

my friend whom i know is close to me.

says im a player.

why do everyone have that image.

i definately have not been in so many relationships to be called a player for sure.

and why of all my friend who has been with me since pri school.

i've already been feeling fucked up enough.

i wish i can just take it in my stride.

but it is never easy.

yesterday night was fucked up...

as i teared myself to sleep ugh.

i guess im still that weak inside.

here i am.

on the worst day of my life.

i miss you more.

whenever i think about you.

i've been thinking.

to go crooked.

or maybe castrate.

to stop all my sorrows.

over.

now i am sure i must let go.
i hope i don't lose my ego.
cause currently i feel like a goat.

now i know you cant like me.
theres no chance for me to win your heart.
i should just lose all hope.

though theres still a year to go.
i hope i wont feel sad throughout.
you are still truly gorgeous.

feelings so vast, emotions so deep.

as every day passes i stem deeper...

never do i make the first move.

(what was i thinking?)

always i've been behind waiting for others to make the first.

but now its all different...

after my previous i am shattered and left broken.

waiting so long for some1 to pick me up

and fix me back.

i don't get that reply i so desire.

is it all lost.

how i wish a yes i will hear.

or at least a sign so i will know.

i really want...

to see you all day long.

heartaches and confidence lost.

emotions kept and thoughts unsaid.

mind unclear and yearnings unsatisfied.

maybe i should just... forget about it all...

why am i feel this way.

nothing's been said..

little has been done.

but am i ready to go in all the way.

maybe..

just maybe..

i am better off..

alone.

L O V E

you tender smile and sweet cries.

steals my attention from everything else.

is this new affection,

something i've waited for so long.

i don't know and am afraid to know.

for someone whom maybe friend today.

maybe strangers tomorrow,

that i will never afford.

...

the trail you left i gladly walk beside.

wasted.

7days in week have i spent out.

chilling, playing 2moons, drinking, soodoowoodooing

haha

haiz now im feeling regretful as i have just wasted precious study time.

o wells.

i just have to mug like the way i did in sec 4.

haha.

may all be good for my promos and every1 else's exams.

holidays

ticking am i a time bomb.

exploding as the wire burns out.

im sorry for the explosion.

you know i still care.

tired

been awhile since i feel so shagged.

at least i am relieved that my fitness will be maintained.

haha i just hope im fit for army.

swimming training sure was tough.

kicks and pulls i cannot dooooo.

haha. argh my legs are dead.

really dead. lol.

i dont know if i can continue.

hopefully i can.

i will den continue to die in every other training.

if i cant ill continue bridge =D

its not too bad just rather unsporty.

haha. good lucks to me i guess.

2moons is being a bitch

i came home wanting to play the game and it ends up failing to operate.

sucks. nvm.

now i got time to study.

haha or at least an excuse to study.

sucks

sucks getting caught for hair.

sucks having a gay bag to carry.

sucks having pimples on the chin.

sucks to bare grudges against others.

i never wanted to be so insipid,

slow in assignments,

uninterested in useless subjects.

slowing sludging through everyday lessons.

i guess its just my character.

i need to change

i want to change.

but how to change...

sorry miss oei for any comments today.

but the very few gp lessons i had in MI,

were far more worthwhile than all gp lessons in cj added.

DEBATE!

sorry kimberly for being so direct.

but raihana's human,

she bottles up,

i just want to amplify her small tiny voice of anger.

i wish i could be perfect.

looks.

character.

money.

but i know i can never be.

times like this when my mind drifts to wonderland,

im glad i know,

i have good friends to lean on,

share our experiences,

at least i know im still human,

after talking to them.

=D

some bus drivers are just plain nice =D

i said bye to 162 indian uncle,

and he smiled back.

at least he appreciates my bye and thanks!

haha.

when boredom strikes

saturday morning,

what a nice fresh day as i spent the morning lazing in bed,

as i hear the rain trikle and the air a nice cold blanket.

love rainy mornings.

now its like 1 and im praying the sun would rise for i wanna swim.

got to this website http://www.stuffbyme.bravehost.com/

its really good stuff.

haha. at least for me.

yea and reading the author posting on bus 157,

i just had the urge of criticising bus drivers, or captain if they so please.

it is a norm to board a crowded bus,

and soon later the bus driver starts shouting for everyone to move,

so that others whom havent boarded could have space.

im not upset over this, in fact im glad the driver does this.

however doesnt it just piss you off when u see some random human waving frantically at a bus,

and it just doesnt stop.

does it mean we need to flash our boobs or run in front of the bus just to get the bus to stop?

i mean what the fuck are these drivers thinking,

if they can shout across the bus to let some passengers up,

why couldnt they break their slow bus just exiting the bus stop,

to pick up 1 fellow human being.

its just contradictory,

okay i guess not all bus drivers are like this but please.

why call themselves bus captains when they do not portray the willingness to serve.

i rather them be called robotic bus driver uncle with no EQ whatsoever.

with the topic of bus drivers den come their stupid analogy of ez link cards.

kicking up a big mother fucking fuss if u dint bring ur student pass,

and forcing u to pay 40 cents or more for their pleasure.

their orgasmic pleasure in watching u dig ur coins in unbalance for that few cents.

i mean if this scene keep happening,

when we students grow up, we definately would be driving our own vehicles.

who would want to board a bus after such horrid experiences.

and our EARTH is dying.

PLEASE DO SOMETHING.

anyway we should be having much happier bus travels,

buses are so much more environmentally green.

by having happier rides den can the SBS which earns millions earn even more,

at the same time saving the earth of harmful green house gases.

no doubt they want to fuck us up if we use coins,

because the very fact that when we use coins, we could cheat a few cents,

however when we use ez link cards, theres few ways of escaping the fare,

or is there only 1.

remember the time u saw an aunty or uncle board the bus,

tapping out immediately upon making his way pass the exit.

afterwhich he/she would take a seat down.

ahha i mean fare systems will always have loopholes.

my point is no matter how hated the coin system is(by SBS),

please uncle drivers dont put it out on us,

i know they have been driving long hours and their ass feel flatter den usual,

but yea.

argh

the way u smile

and look i just cant describe.

infatuation's never good.

tempting as you are i hope i will not fall into another pit.

will friends do?

deadlines

extremely sleepy.
i think this week's PE has utterly killed my entire being.
literally.
i have no energy and mood to walk/move/study.
and as usual we all got tons of homework.
i guess.
im done for.
ahhaa.

NO! MUST DO!
hhaha.
Met ziling at bishan cc in my attempt to study.
ahha.
fuckloads of people can.
anyway got bridge competition tmr.
lol. im gona get last.
studied with Joel.
haha. i feel bad cos i slept.
leaving him alone to study.
haha.

I GAINED 2 KG wooooooo!
sexy mass gainers!
cant wait to reach a healthy 65kg =D


i wish i was closer.
i wish i was partner.
i wish i was batman.

solo

i think single life increases chances of wet dreams.
sucks.

wet

twice in a week.
fuck wet dreams.
BUT.
the dreams really was good.
heh. for 5 seconds at least.
i can still remember.

chilly dude.

cool.

relient k

mood rings.
will u bring the key to this mystery.

burnt

at joel's house blogging.
lol. came back from swimming and after a warm bath.
i realised that my back,
was fried.

haha. yup.
the chiew family's cool =D

secrets

though we maybe communicating,
its so unusually weird.
because i know who you are,
but you do not know me.


i just wished the posts,
will always be lively on fractions of your life.
for that is fuel for my soul.


this week the trend,
is to not join others with their lame ass trends.

Love Drug

2 of yous.
far north and south,
from the center of me.
your thoughts,
character,
pasts,
are like scattered seeds.
never able to pick them up,
neither can i get close.
as they are fenced by my fears,
my past,
my diffidence.
lush green exquisite seeds,
tempting my inner being.
to reach out,
allowing the bloodcurdling barbed wires
to flesh through my skin.
but i lay low,
as i know.
i am not ready,
not fit enough to finish the race.
not mature enough to grow the seeds.

so please.
you the seed,
roll out if you please.
to make me whole.
for i am so yearning.
for your care.

hilltop

life! is floating fast away.

i feel like a hero

something feels so wrong.
but i really want to...

friday foes

what a fucking fgood friday =D
went to find chicken and kell after some dinner.
helped chicken with her presentation.
haha. tho kell did most of the work!
lol. no 5-0 interruption.
ahhaha.
sexy.

something's missing though.
it is just so empty.
ill get used to this.
all i can do now.
is to try and say sorry to my sis.
but she was the 1 who flared at me.
calling me dumb for showing care for her rabbit.
maybe i should be the 1 who bought the food.
but its her rabbit.
argh troubles.

swimming day

i feel quite good today in school.
haven't felt so joyful in quite awhile.
haha.
maybe its because i mugged for maths.
finishing all the homework. =D
haha.
meeting kell for lepak break now.
ahaha. just finished swimming with joel my bud =D
bridge was interesting today.
ahha. staring at this super good complexion girl.
anyways ahha.
coming back later to do homework.
lol maths -.-
mugger ftw.
omg.

tuesday teases

school.
whiny girl.
please keep quiet.

yea ahha.
she's pissing me off.

anyways............

the library today was unexpected.
shy as i always was i din't dare to look.
all i ask for.
is for you to be friends with me.

i know your attached.
i just want to know more.
about your life.

loner.

runescapes.
lepaks.
tv.

don't you feel so lonely at times.
nothing can keep me sane.
cause its something special i need.
and i know i can't get.
cause i promised myself.
not to be in 1 for awhile.
i must stay strong.
not to forget to grow buffer.
hahaha.

energy, time, motivation.
all i need today to complete my homework.

fun

weekend stayover at doug's
haha joel was over too.
whole night of bkgem and o2jam.
ahha.
now its time to work on eom and maths tutorials.
hai.

magic

10th ed release party today at my sponsor's shop.
but ive got a meeting with joel to swim.
hai.
i really wanna go play magic.
i feel bad cause i haven been playing for him since ages.
ahh. but joel.

1T31

class barbecue today.
hahha. it was pretty fun.
yea. very organised people.
i mean they got everything done.
haha.
and i was there being myself.
slack and lazy.
lol.
the fire was HOT.
dominic stood there for quite awhile.
wonder how he could stand it.
i couldn't even stand like 5 mins.
heh.
i wish luke would pick up his calls.
so i could go his condo to swim.
hahah.
wish some1 could lend me their condo.
so i could visit every wed and sat.
with my good pal joel.
to swim =D

pal.

first swimming session with joel today.
hehe.
it was exhaustingly enjoyable.
just wished i had a nose plug.
my nose hindered me from swimming more.
haha.
any1 knows where to purchase 1 of those?
more swimming sessions to come.
haha. too bad amadea or yiting dint come swim.
wish all teachers were like eugene yeow.
okay maybe not all.
need a few miss oeis.
haha. to keep sanity and laughter alive.

once bitten twice shy.

jumping into 1 will do me no good.
all i'm gonna do is to wait.
for that 1 person.
i don't care how long it takes.
just 1 person.
whom i can stand.
whom i can live with.
one who attracts me.
one who exudes confidence.
whether it takes 10 years. or 25 years.
i swear i won't be with someone before knowing that person.
please god i plead of you.
may you not let me make another mistake.
like the one i've made before.
for i do not want to hate some1 this much.
for she's just a bitch.
mighty force up there.
whoever you are.
forgive the world for not saving the earth.
leaving computers on.
leaving modems on.
packaging goods with so much plastic.

why has human lost all interest in simple enjoying and relaxing tasks.
swimming running talking finger games.
have we all numbed ourselves to primitive activities.
i think i have.
and i will melt my heart and be a caveman.

tired.

happy we were till 5-0 came.
apparently the old man whom chicken always prank,
had called the police to lodge a complaint.
it was an utter waste of time.
just came home after tonning at chicken's place.
i should have paid for cab fare home.
kell lost 50 bucks.
argh.
with another 1 buck can buy 5 packs.
lol.

the world should be this silent.
this serene.
where evil does not lurk.

bitch.

first you plead.
now you lie.
what do you want.
please fuck out of my life.

whats your problem.
you want me to patch up with you issit.
fuck off.
liar.

no one in the world will ever get together with you.
if they ever see you from my view.
fuck yourself with your stories.
fabricated lies.

aren't you always using god.
looks like he has left you alone.
for goodness sake.
go burn in hell.

i have never been this pissed.
since exams started.
your shit started.
fuck off.

you are perfect.
perfect liar.
perfect framer.
perfect whore.

more importantly.
you still had the cheek to tell me not to cheat.
if not i will be one in future.
look whose the one now.

i have never been this pissed.
until this bitch arrived.
trying to crumple my life.
after its over.

man. get a life.

its a curse.

when you knew we would never patch.
the demoness took over.
once inoffensive, unvulgar person.
suddenly changed in a twitch of an eye.

temper tantrums and fuck yous.
broke my plain paper heart.
whatever seemed so simple.
you made it so abstruse.

i pray hard.
that my good friend would not have known her.
i prayed hard.
that i will never remember this horrid experience.

no doubt there were highs.
but i was always low.
high on the outside.
low on the inside.

saying no does not give you the right to throw all your shit at me.
it just means your not the right person for me.
i figured that out.
and couldn't find a way to tell.

but since you dumped me.
you helped me.
but now you want patch.
stop being childish.

if you wanna scold me ever again.
think of what you always say.
cause you know very well.
that your going to hell.

a lift or a curse.

a text message ended it all.
no tears.
no joy.
no emotions.

is this what we needed.
maybe for her.
maybe for me.
maybe for us.

what went wrong.
i don't know.
i don't want to know.
i don't really care.

now its all over.
forgive myself.
forget the past.
follow my heart.

school

pon school today. monday bluesss.

#how i wsh there was no school!

argh. today gona jog and swim haha.

study maybe see how =D

school

haha =D in school now..

finally can blog. lol.

sigh project work now lol.

shaving maybe 5 mins of the lesson.

i really cant cope with school.

im like sleeping in all lectures.

stoning in all tutorials.

have been meeting clovie kell becks for a few times.

haha fun.

but i spin on some long thingy for so long and so fast,

that my stomach was upset.

argh. =D

i wanna blog at home yo!

=D

if i can alright i would...

argh

i fucking hate bracers

yay

finally haha. into blogger. woooo.

im fucking sleepy

ive got lotsa work.

cant chill

no life

fuck school

FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKER

SUNDAY ARGH 'PEEP'

i bought a back pack!!
yay finally =D
with byong's help hehe.
he got his too!
ours are both air walks!

i still haven't done my PW...
haven't done my chem...
I'm fucked.

went to bishan.
yea and met aaron jansen!
doug!
praba!
amanda!
randall!
cone!
joe!
cyrene!
ben!


i'm thinking of you every second of my life peterpan =((

1ST APRIL

O HOW I HATE APRIL'S FOOLS

I NEED YOU

went for boon's gig with ig3 today.
ahha. it was quite pleasant yea.
2nd gig i've been too.
haha but the people yea.
abit emo.
ahha
no1 was dancing =(
boon showed his stuff la.
ahha.
support Armchair Critic yo!
ahha.



went for supper after that.
and what the peep.
this guy was peeing on the grass!
wth.
i mean in public where everyone could see his penis.
omgg.
his darn crazy i tell you.
ahha.




ahhhhhhhhh.
peterpan i can't stop thinking bout you.


CAN I ASK YOU OUT!

FRIDAY

OMG FINALLY WEEKEND.
I NEED TO WAKE UP LATE TMR.
LIGHT PLEASE DON'T SHINE ON ME TMR.
I WANNA CATCH UP ON 5 DAYS OF SLEEP!

anyway i today was school again.
ended at 12!
and now my timetable is better!
at least tuesdays i end earlier.

went to ckt today again.
aha. left my deck under my desk!
argh.
anyway i gona sleep.
train first den sleep prob.

i need an extended weekend NOW!

I PRACTICALLY HAVE NO LIFE NOW.
SCHOOL ENDS AT 5PM EVERYDAY.
I'M JAILED FOR 5/7 OF MY 2 YEARS.
THIS IS SO RETARDED.
I NEED A BREAK!
I NEED A SLEEP!

arghhhhhhhhh!
slept in almost all my tutorials and lessons.
feel so retarded now.
i'm like lacking behind.
and theres like CA coming soon.
and i still got gp homework..
project work..
bio revision..
maths revision etc.........
arghhhhhhhh!

i want a break!!



debrah's nice
she asked me bout how i was coping after being viciously expelled from vball.
yea thanks!
made me feel much better!

bored.

school was just as boring.
i hate my seat in class.
its like not under the fan.
and it's darn boring.
o wells.
went for bridge club today.
the senior taught us contract bridge.
it is damn complicated...
i think it'll be better once i know the game.
maybe more fun as well.
and i wish you would join bridge club too..
i'll be bored in bridge club..
++ i want to get to know you.

went to ckt after that for some johnson draft.
haha funnn.
competition's this saturday...
and boon's gig is on saturday.
how am i gonna go for both.
arghhhh.

draft

school was fun =D haha

but super draggy.

argh.

i think if gab says i could join gym,

i'll join gym and bridge.

trampoline gym if you were wondering haha

how i wish the day would have 36 hours.

i haven't done my homework,

and i'm feeling tired.

so yea hopefully won't get scolding tmr!

haha.

went home then to ckt after school.

bernard asked me to draft.

so yea i drafted haha.

first time drafting time spiral.

managed to win all games =D

won 3 lost none..

feeling better but still....

please hire me back to play vball......................

cards cards cards

dropped by ckt to play cards.
argh sorry joel i forgot.
and happy birthday yineng!

early morning

i open my eyes as light from the window rested on me.
i leaned over to check my hp only to find my friend upset.
everything is really against me now.
i'm like in my down(est) of my life.
i'm moody and disappointed.
am i worth living now.

sigh

i'm still feeling sick in the stomach.
why can't things go well for me.

lone, unavailable, depressed, rejected.

fuck fuck fuck.
im out of vball.
argh.
nothing can described what i'm feeling now.

training

hai. school is really killing me.
i need to get used to studying soon.
sigh.
i'm like so unorganized.. how to study properly.
o man.

anyway i really like my biology teacher.
arion blas. haha he rocks la.
he scored a perfect score for A' levels,
and is teaching us as he wait for his admission to university.
anyway i think he speaks well, thats why i like him.
haha.

unlike erm.. my form tutor............
which speaks horrendous english.
and she's my gp teacher.
er gp? please teach the right subject please.

anyway training was damn fun today!
finally got to play with the volley balls for awhile haha.
but my hands are like red with rashes?
i don't know.
but it just has red polka dots haha.
looks disgusting lol.

today was practising digging,
and pt. the pt's freaking hard la.
especially cos i haven't trained for erm..
since november?
lol. sigh....................
and wth.
they gonna kick 3 guys.
i just hope i'm not one of them man.
zzzz its so frustrating and retarded.
don't boot meeeee..
i don't wanna join bridge club.
the lady coach said to have another cca in mind.
and i was thinking.... hmm.
maybe modern dance?
hopefully i can even try for the trials again lurh.
i wanna be in a sports so that i can keep fit haha.

and lastly.
i really don't think i should get into a relationship now.
i'm sorry but i don't think i'm ready.
hope you don't get angry alright.
maybe when i'm ready alright..

first school day!

sucky boring sleepy cold day.
argh. i hate lessons.
o my goodness how am i gonna cope in the future 2 years.
hai. i wish i could have another gp teacher.
argh. her english is Oh SO Superb she could be a gp teacher.
i mean how can a teacher,
who doesn't even pronounce words better then an A' level student,
teach a class of A'level students! omg
ridiculous.
sigh sigh sigh.
and what a crap way to form a group.
shouldn't a group be balanced.
whether is it sex based or talent based or interactive based.
FLOUSY TEACHER
my form tutor some more.
suay la nah bei.

lessons was really a bore and drag.
argh. can't really find anyone in class i can clique with.
no one's like me. at least not in my class.
o well. i've got to start mixing with geeks and hopefully become one.
so that i can be more committed to studying.
lol. so soon. you will see me with thick goggles.
and a pile of books resting on my arm.
as i prepare to gain knowledge for God knows what reason.
haha.

chinese lessons seems fun =D
i'm appointed to kimberly for chi tutoring haha.
i'm so gonna make her vomit blood.

i wish our class would change back to its original position.
now its all the way at the back of the school.
super far.
way different from our first class.
which was right beside the canteen....

ahh i really think i should get another comp.
my bro keeps bugging me to let him use the comp.
fuck sia.
DAD STOP BEING A BASTARD AND GET ANOTHER COMP FOR YOUR 3 KIDS!
i don't know why but i have close to 0 respect for my dad.
he scolds my mom like she means nothing to him.

argh. forget bout that lousy father of mine.
he created me with his dick anyway.
he fulfilled his purpose in life already.






TRAINING TMR!
EXXXXXXXXX-CITED!!
hhehehe=D
hope it is tiring and fun!
just like badminton training in sji!

volleyball!!! haha. i wanna master the game.
and maybe be good at it =D

orientation's last!

today was last day of orientation!
aww. hhaha. gonna have to start mugging!
haha if you believe me =X
maybe i would. for the sake of tutoring cheryl =D
haha. and of course i want to go to university.
get a degree. be the President of Singapore.
and earn big bucks.
ahah.
don't forget to vote for me next time k =D
thanks in advance ar!

lol.
dragonboating!
woo. sure it was fun!
i'm so sorry for splashing all the salty water at all my classmates ahha.
but i dun regret it. lol. it was super fun.
aiya i feel guilty. lol.
anyways! hahah! o ya!
PRIMARY SCHOOLMATE YOUR A WUSS!
hahaha.
she cried laaaaaaa
aiyaaaaa...
cos we were doing some viking thing.
then she broke down to tears.
prob cos she was scared lurh.
aiya maybe if i was beside her i would comfort her.
but since i was so far i could only smile and um qio.
LOL.
sorry girl i hope you dun read.
and please dun tell anyone guys! ahha.
keep it to your brain. and maybe you can tell you heart
and your mouth so at least you can laugh with me
hahaha.

fun fun fun!
i wanna canoe again!
haix was hoping to capsize tho.
capsizing is like so far la!
missing those days when sji had our own kayaking experience.
i capsized like 10 times or so. with my partner haha.

bought my uniform finally!
yay! hooray! three cheers!
lol i feel damn high now.
thanks to janelle for making me er hmm for awhile.
lol.




sorry swang. for upsetting you.
hai i just feel so distant from you.
i care more bout my tangible friends than for a good friend far away from me.
i regret and repented.
hope you dun throw a human at me,
when my back's facing you.
so i won't DIE

loves=D

single and available

Met cheryl today again.
ahha she's super sweetssssssss!
heh. she came all the way to find me in the morning.
den we left for church at grace assembly!
she goes there since birth!
thats a long commitment time.
imagine 16 years of your life attending church.
haha. and for you lazy readers.
its 834 services altogether.
hahaha! thats hell a lot la!

it was super wierd, cos both of us just tightened our braces yesterday.
and we couldn't eat tough food haha.
and we planned to eat prata the day before.
lol.

anyway i think i really need a beanie.
to hide my hair!
lol its really super fugly.
argh.
randall aaron where u get your beanie!!
help me buy plsssssssss =DD
lol.

o yea and we watched STOMP THE YARD!
super la that show!
my gawd.
lol.
my favorite part of that show was when
DJ jumped over the guy at the competition.
he jumped like super high.
that view was spectacular.
some more they slowed down the speed.
haha aiya just super nice!
and the story line was interesting.
lol.

anyway.
sheryl-lynn wanted to break up with me.
i don't know why.
maybe im not handsome enough?
i don't know.
o wells what to do.
we're in different schools anyways.
and she prob got a better guy.

well i walk a lonely road.
the only one that i have ever known..............

fuck

sorry but i seriously have 0% mood to blog.


MY HAIR IS FUCKED UP.

new good friends!

woke up early today. having the thought that today is 17 of march.
dental appointment day.
panicked like hell as my plans for today just crumpled.
my mind went mental as i tried to untangle my hay-wired thoughts.
i went to bathe none the less and went to meet cheryl.
lol. but luckily when i was on the bus,
i freaking found out.. that today was only the 16th.
ass la. i was like worried for nothing.
my mind felt damn soothe after finding out my fault.
lol.

lousy crazy noobiang ipod. died on me the past 2 days..
i think it contracted viruses. lol
went to beauty world to get our beautiful cj uniform,
and found out there isn't guy sizes.
*peep* no uniform! what the hell am i gonna do la.
at least cheryl got her uniform. lol.
maybe i could try wearing skirt.
haha kidding.

how i hate lazy people in the morning.
at least those who don't even take time to brush their teeth.
i sat on the bus to bukit batok.
and this hwa chong guy was sitting beside me.
guess what.............. he open his big mouth to yawn.
and a fucking foul stench came out la.
sour smelly and fatal.
bitch ass mother fucker.
cant he like just brush his teeth.
fuck.
at least he was sitting on the handicap seat.
his probably too weak to brush teeth lurh.

met my good buddy boooon.
haha. he wanted to go on shopping spreeeeee.
but didn't really buy alot.
haha. I STILL NEED MY RUNNING SHOES!
darn. today was smoke-free day =D lol.
gona cut hair tomorrow!

IG3 STEAMING HOT!

hiya! i decided to blog because of my earnest passion to share
my views with my friends =D
hopefully You are my friend,
not someone with the desire to flame me,
or shoot me down whenever u see a crack in my posts!
hope you like my flamboyant english!
hahaha wants that word i just used mean?
anyway back to what i did today!

I traveled from upper thomson, to bishan, to bukit batok, to jurong east, den to marina south!
alamak what a long ride,
actually its not very long, but if not for my freaking ipod....
it spasmed on me la. *peep*
it had like this new playlist, with 800 songs. lol.
i played my favorite song, 'NO it isn't!
and it freaking hell hanged!
biatch! argh. retarded techno gizmos.

anyway lucky cheryl was with me from bukit batok to marina,
ahha if not i would have died of ass pain and silent loneliless.
haha. IG3 was there! =D

we headed to marina south for steam boat!
like super lotsa people going there too!
ahaha. its like now a famous 'in' thing to do!
lol. i guess its nice but i prefer seoul garden!
free flow of drinks more important. lol. to me at least.

o yea! i jogged today with cheerin! hhaha!
i damn *peeping* lousy la. omg.
i think i have to quit deathsticking.
if not my lungs will cause me my gold in napfa.
argh!

and amadea left my class!
omg my class is like damn geeky. lol.
im gona die la.
omgggg.. hopefully IG3 will keep me company,
while my class mugs their lives away.

today was super fun!
i wanna chalet in june too! haha.
my birthday psstpsst!
=DDDDDDDDD
miss ya all in IG!

i wish you could just swap places.

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