I must admit, at the rate I'm cooking stuff, I'm really stressed out. Stressed out that i'm not able to handle my FYP well. Things are not turning out well. I'm suck with time management. Neither do i want to be managed, it's a lot of things that is tearing me apart from within. Plus the pressure from my families to do well, and at least to get the honour ! It's just like facing the impossible. I've not really gone out for a week, except for church! Neither do i feel like going out, cos I have a bloody lot of things to do.

I may look easy going, but i guess inside me i'm really stressing out and freaking out. Thank goodness i have cooking to rely on. With each moment, i'm not able to handle my situations i just turn to cooking. It is such a relief to be able to control something. And cooking gives me that. Although i may be trying for something new i know for sure i can control the taste and stuff if i watch it well. But i guess i cant apply the same thing with my life. And how my life is turning out and how everyone is really watching me makes it uncontrollable and the fear is really freaking me out. How i truly truly wish tht this damned degree wasnt a Honours one. At least by now i would have graduated and not dealing with FYP. I just feel that I'm not suited.

EAch day the will to be a chef, to open up my own cafe, just get stronger and stronger. But i know it's no easy feat! I've been watching Jamie's Chef closely and looking at how they start up a little pub in Britain and the kitchen work itself can really stress one out too. There needs to be a really good co-ordination between kitchen and the cafe staff. How to handle crowds, menu. All these makes it hard but somehow it is not as scary as facing my studies now. I'm somehow beginning to detest my study life. I'm not saying i'm not enjoying the student's life. I love the life, carefree and although independent but somehow the expectation is less demanding. But the studying part is the part where i really detest and i know for sure i will have no qualms saying "I hated Studying! Uni makes me hate studying"

Food was fantastic yesterday.. chicken was so so though. I love my ratatouille.... Words cant describe how nice and sweet are the vegetables. I'm loving cooking more and more each day and the passion is really growing. This past week, i've tried to make risotto! and it was nice to start with. Even nata who was initially repulsed by the thought due to some bad experience with it, complimented it. I made salmon pie today for the family and it was really good and simple. It's such a joy to cook and trying to come up with the right taste and when u get it, it just feels so good and make you proud of being able to do it. I must thank God for this gift, cos I know without His guide, i wouldnt be able to do it. All the wonderful things that He had created, from the simplest vegetables like potatoes, tomatoes, they can lead to beautiful dishes and yummy too.

The Menu

Appetizer

Bacon and Mushroom with Buttercup Lettuce Salad

Main

Bacon-wrapped stuffed chicken fillets with Leeks and Wine sauce
Spaghetti with Garlic Sausage in Lin's special sauce

Dessert

Banana, Chocolate and Cheese pizza

SHARKS!!! only Singaporeans and PR!!!! =_____________+

Should I join this?????? How long do u think i can last? excerpt from http://www.mediacorpradio.sg/subaru2007/index.asp MediaCorp Radio Subaru Impreza Challenge 2007 Battle of the Sexes

Singapore’s highly-celebrated survivor challenge returns with a twist! Jointly organized by Motor Image Enterprises and MediaCorp Radio since 2002, participants of this year’s challenge can look forward to pitting their strengths in two camps – women versus men. This year’s challenge revolves around the theme of Mars and Venus, whereby one male and one female survivor will each walk away with a Brand New Subaru Impreza 1.5R. Starting from 7.00 am on Saturday, 3 November 2007 at Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza, contestants will have to register on site personally. A lucky draw will be conducted to determine their allocated palm position on the car. The Challenge will start at 1pm sharp where the contestants will place their palms on assigned cars. In response to the overwhelming support the challenge has received, the number of qualifying contestants for 2007 will increase from 320 to 400, with 200 male and 200 female participants. Singaporeans can definitely look forward to a much bigger and more exciting event this November. The twist to the challenge is, between the last male and female standing, the one who outlasts the other will win a Brand New Subaru Impreza 1.5R (MI Rally Team Edition/Manual) worth $68,000 and the other winner will win a Brand New Subaru Impreza 1.5R (Manual) worth $58,000. Please note that both cars do not include COE, road tax, insurance, IU unit, radio license and registration fee.

Currently hooked onto facebook! well it's fun in its own ways with all its adorable and amazing applications that get u so hooked. SO much so that u just didnt realise u've spent 3 hours on facebook alone.

Well nata has been harping on me about my craze over facebook but hey, guess what! She's currently hooked as well!

Recently nata proposed a good idea about opening a 'catering' service. Doing what i enjoy most and letting other people have a taste of it. Probably just target people who live nearby. Initially i thought that it might be very troublesome, especially with deliveries, buying supplies and etc. But yesterday i read an article in Sunday Times about these brothers who are doing something like that except that it's done in their house. Of course on mine, i wouldnt be able to do it in my house, it'll be a complete madness. So she suggested the function rooms. The idea is more or less there. And i think it's no harm trying and we are going to try it next weekend. This week we'll probably start our market research and see how everything falls.

As for the menu, I have come up with something simple, which I'll reveal sometime next week.

As for the name of this catering service, I dont really have a name for it. Any suggestion??? Lin's Kitchen?