\House == a place where you reside in.
Home == place where it includes your family members as important factors (somewhere along that line)
For me, my house is in Singapore, but home is truly in Indo. I have not felt so home-y and just be in so much comfort than now. My bro and sis are great, my parents , though sometimes quite naggy but they are pretty okay. I hv friends and relatives who are nice enough to fill the free time i have. So much so that now i think my stay here is too short. I do miss Singapore. Although i dont really miss the place, but I miss the people over there. So much so that I'm dreaming abt them in my dream.
The most recent one has got to be the coffee session with Meiyi and Stef. It was so real, us drinking coffee at TCC, just talking.
My parents are thinking of acquiring the land behind my house and building it into a warehouse for our work purposes, and we are going to have a bigger kitchen and maybe make a room downstairs for my parents. Since they'll be old, they wont be able to climb the staircase that well by then. So have to move the master bedroom downstairs. I suggested maybe they could make a room for me and they were in shock abt it. I told them it's for my use when i come back and i told them of my plan to go back if my bro and sis are going to China for mandarin studies or if one of them are going overseas to study. They told me to stay on in Singapore and work there, cos somehow it would be foolish to go back. The cost that we've spent on my studies wont be recovered should i work in indo. They are not that supportive about me going back to indo. I'm still confused abt this part, and i've been weighing this option for quite sometime.
For me, life in indo is going to be a lot easier and a lot cheaper so i can save a lot of money. But it's not gonna be easy working for people ard here unless, i can find a MNC here. Furthermore, i always have reservations and criticize the way things are done here.
In SG of course the job prospect is good. But it's not home. And somehow maybe cos im getting older and mature, and my parents are not that young anymore, i wanna spend more time with them and the family before we all go on our separate paths, especially for me and my siblings. I've been away from them half my life. And the attachment somehow comes late for me, but it's there and it's getting stronger. Although i'm independent, but being showered with love from your family beats the wants of taking care everything by myself. I do want to be pampered by them. I want to be the responsible sister and i do want to do my part as firstborn.
But of course my parents discouragement for me to go back for good is a hindrance. Further there's also a great number of people whom i have to leave if I come back. They are also important. For they are in my dreams almost every night. Be it the 2 girls and my 2 little princesses.
I guess for now, I shall leave my options open and I'll wait for God to take me where He knows what's best for me.