well im back from Lake Tahoe the place where there's snow!!! Man it was so cool! and really glad that finally i saw my white xmas!!! We kept on saying take lots of pics but never really gotta do it cos we were busy playing.. playing the snowball throwing, having war, feeling cold.. n i looked like a ball in the thick clothings!!! and then we played snow tubing... it was fun!!!!
Snow is so great... it is just like when u eat ice kachang.. those shaved ice... we threw snowball at one another and had really a good fun there... went so crazy!! but too bad it was a little rushed since we went with a lot of other people.. we wanted to go ski-ing but then too bad the weather didnt permit us to go skiing.. had really wanted to try.. a lot of us has no pics.. but thank god there still Joseph who video-cam-ed us in action. so hopefully i get a copy of it too..
We went crazy when we first saw the snow.. All of our eyes were glued to our windows intaking the panaromic view that we get from our windows.. It was so fun and crazy... We took lots of pics whenever our car stopped.. But that was because we didnt take pics.. I will ppost the pics later for now just imagine k! All the view are all so wallpaperlike.. And its amazing that within a few metres there are some trees that has snow on it and some trees not. Some the places have snow that we all feel like stepping on it cos it is so white and just looks so smooth.
Anyway it's been so fun this time round. When we are back at home, we feel as if we are at Tretes having some rest time. We were supposed to go ice-skating but then cos of the weather (storm here) but yeah i still have a phobia of it. I dont know whether i will go though. So scary...
Anyway HappY New Year to all!!!! Have a great time anywhere u are.. And Let this new Year bestow u with lots of blessings and Let Him be someone whom u can rely for u can always depend on Him to be ur guidance and helper...
Thursday, December 29
Saturday, December 24
a cold xmas eve morning..
well im waiting for a call from elaine since she said she would call so that i can wish the peoplein the house Merry Xmas... yeap it's pretty early in the morning here and im already awake and man im freezing!!!! my hands are so cold...
then im so surprised to see nata online and then we talked for a while and then my connection was in a good spot..well in any case i was surprised cos for the last 1 week havent talked to her online.. and i was thinking that she wont go online so often there..
anyway in a few minutes its gonna be xmas in sg and it will also be my mum's birthday!!! and bad marlin didnt get anything for her!!! *so guilty*
Anyway i havent done any shopping here since there is still not any sales at all.. waiting for after new year sales.. hehehehe...
anyway MERRY XMAS to everyone... Wishing all of u a blessed Christmas.. Another year has passed and
then im so surprised to see nata online and then we talked for a while and then my connection was in a good spot..well in any case i was surprised cos for the last 1 week havent talked to her online.. and i was thinking that she wont go online so often there..
anyway in a few minutes its gonna be xmas in sg and it will also be my mum's birthday!!! and bad marlin didnt get anything for her!!! *so guilty*
Anyway i havent done any shopping here since there is still not any sales at all.. waiting for after new year sales.. hehehehe...
anyway MERRY XMAS to everyone... Wishing all of u a blessed Christmas.. Another year has passed and
pictures...
this one is in our neighbourhood
and i love it when we can get to see rainbow like this clear u know!!! how often do u see them back in indo or sg???
The christmas tree literally!! in their front lawn!!!
our neighbourhood!
and tis one is the one with the snowglobes on their lawn!!! crazy right!!!! but man it was so nice !!!
Another day in SF... nice and cool!
here are some pics i took of the neighbourhood where i stay.. and man here xmas is nice.. the people actually decorates their house literally inside out.. outside they decorate the lawn with lots of lights some even so crazy to go and decorate a live Christmas tree that's abt 3 m high!!! and then there's presents and snowman even.. and then the whole house is so lit up with the lights and stuff like that.. One even use snow globes to decorate their house lawn..
life is so great here no stress.. people can come home from work betw 3 to 7!!!
havent really tasted american food here.. but we've been cooking up a storm here...
anwyay how come i havent heard from anybody huh! the only person i've heard from is Janice and man she is also in SF! She's been here for so long and i didnt even know that she's been gone since 10dec!!
Happy Merry Xmas eve to the one in SG and Indonesia!!!!
life is so great here no stress.. people can come home from work betw 3 to 7!!!
havent really tasted american food here.. but we've been cooking up a storm here...
anwyay how come i havent heard from anybody huh! the only person i've heard from is Janice and man she is also in SF! She's been here for so long and i didnt even know that she's been gone since 10dec!!
Happy Merry Xmas eve to the one in SG and Indonesia!!!!
Friday, December 23
im in SF
finally after almost 2 days of travelling through the different time zones... i finally reached here safely yesterday.. bad news is i dont know why the heck isnt my handphone working!!!! The weather isnt that cold.. and it's nice and cool! last nite when i arrived it was really ok.. i could just wear my tee shirt and jeans thru the nite... This morning it was a bit cold but it's fine now and i really like the weather a lot!!!! u can just bunk in the bed and do nothing all daY!
anyway took lots of pics already..
did i say we would transit in Taipei for 14 hours? they all gave us an outside hotel to stay in and it was pretty okay.. i just needed a bed so badly!!! i couldnt sleep at all during the 16 hours in the flight.. I only managed abt 3 hours maybe... thank God they have all the movies playing..I got a bit jetlagged.. last nite the moment i lay my head on the pillow i just slept right thru... I only got awake when i was dreaming of something and obviously i was kinda running in the dream and it got my heartbeat went so fast i just woke up then...
Last nite after we reached, we went to this place where they have Christmas by the Park. And boy it was so cool! It was really so christmas-ey!!!! really so blessed to have come here... I will upload more pics later in my msn space! Ok later maybe i will update u more at nite..
Take care people...
anyway took lots of pics already..
did i say we would transit in Taipei for 14 hours? they all gave us an outside hotel to stay in and it was pretty okay.. i just needed a bed so badly!!! i couldnt sleep at all during the 16 hours in the flight.. I only managed abt 3 hours maybe... thank God they have all the movies playing..I got a bit jetlagged.. last nite the moment i lay my head on the pillow i just slept right thru... I only got awake when i was dreaming of something and obviously i was kinda running in the dream and it got my heartbeat went so fast i just woke up then...
Last nite after we reached, we went to this place where they have Christmas by the Park. And boy it was so cool! It was really so christmas-ey!!!! really so blessed to have come here... I will upload more pics later in my msn space! Ok later maybe i will update u more at nite..
Take care people...
Sunday, December 18
To my Deerest Friend, Nata...
It all started with our shocked faces realising that we were staying so near to each other (back then it was at Eunos).
In my mind, i was like "What a coincidence!"
In her mind, it was " Oh sharKs!!!!" well back then i gave the impression of being a smug who doesnt speak indo n dont bother to mix with the indonesians.
Soon, i irritated her more with "No i dont like to listen to Indonesian songs." and me always speaking in english rather than in indonesian.
Finally the truth of me being unable to speak indonesian comes to light and we both started going to school together. Back then there was even Zhang Bei. and we always meet up with the rest of the indos- Montjot (Monika) , Margaret and sometimes Lyvi. We were famous for reaching school on the dot. We would run from JE station to our old premises. We were almost never early.
She would never fail to complain about getting up early to go to school. She n Margaret always said abt their preference of getting married rather than being in school and oh boy one day, a malay guy who heard our conversation actually answered " how abt getting married with me?!" I was laughing my head off and then she was so embarassed and angry!! hahaha..
Through her strict scolding and nagging to gossip in indo, I finally manage to converse in Indo again. through her fierce look, i slowly remember a lot more indonesians word. One day when one of the twin was back, we went to meet her and i spoke to her in full indo sentence and she was kinda shocked and amazed! Cos truly in my sec school life, i dont think i ever speak an indo word before.
Through her guidance and consistent crazyness over this indo guy, i watched an indo show and got quite drawn to it and finally knowing the indo songs and today im proud to tell u that man i like indo songs. Each time i go back, i look fwd to getting the latest songs that's in the season.
Through her, my circle of friends grew bigger and bigger. From Qkho to Eliana to Jonathan. then From Hana to Harry. Today it grew to the NTUnians. It is truly amazing how i met more n more crazy indonesians who just love to have fun like us. And the chain reaction goes on and on.
Each year we grew closer and closer. Today we are best friends and even flatmates. Living with her has also been great and full of crazy moments. Even when we quarrel or bicker it last barely 5 minutes before we go crazy again. There's never a boring moment with her, cos i know she will always have something funny to share or a story to tell. At times when we talk about serious matter, her maturity also helps. And defintely she is always ready to listen to my unhappiness or problems. But there's a time for it. For when she has her com and games in front of her, there is a chance that nothing even goes in to that ear!!! (heheheheheheh) But most of the time, she is there listening.
I always laugh at the looks of Albert and Fei whenever they see us bicker or having some arguments, sometimes with her "abusing" me, especially when the next moment we just go on saying abt something so amicably. They would always get so confused with our actions. But that's wat i have come to love about us. We can quarrel and then get back to our usual self without letting any of the arguments affect us.
She has come to be quite an important person in my life, whose judgment and advice i have come to trust fully in it. Well sometimes i dont, and i will really regret it. I have come to love this friend of mine and a lot of times, i expect too much from her and then the expectation hurts me. But today i have understood that no one is the same. And Im sure God has brought her to me for a reason.
Today is my deerest Friend birthday.. And i just wanna tell her that I love her a lot and life with her has been nothing but a blessing. Knowing her brought a lot of changes in me and im grateful for that. I hope she will like this little poem-like but not so much like it too. I hope our friendship grow stronger each day be it emotionally or spiritually.
A Great Friend.
You've been nothing but a blessing.
You've been nothing but a good advisor.
You've been nothing but a good confidante.
You've been nothing but a good listener.
You've been nothing but a GREAT FRIEND.
You've brought me nothing but Joy.
You've brought me nothing but Patience.
You've brought me nothing but Faith.
You've brought me nothing but Confidence.
You've brought me nothing but Temptation (comes to shopping n eating)
You've brought me nothing but Hope.
Your smile is always so contagious.
Your "anger" always make me laugh.
Sometimes your innocence always make me so amused.
Your sad face always brought me a drive to bring a smile to your face.
Your sad face always brought me a drive to chase away those problems that bother you.
And when finally i bring a smile to your face, im satisfied.
Thank you my friend for the changes in me.
Thank you my friend for bringing more and more people into my life.
Thank you my friend for withstanding the irritating things that i do.
Thank you my friend for tolerating my crap and lame-ness.
Thank you my friend for never chasing me away when i need you most.
Thank you for being always there for me.
Will you give me a chance to be such a Great FRIEND too??
In my mind, i was like "What a coincidence!"
In her mind, it was " Oh sharKs!!!!" well back then i gave the impression of being a smug who doesnt speak indo n dont bother to mix with the indonesians.
Soon, i irritated her more with "No i dont like to listen to Indonesian songs." and me always speaking in english rather than in indonesian.
Finally the truth of me being unable to speak indonesian comes to light and we both started going to school together. Back then there was even Zhang Bei. and we always meet up with the rest of the indos- Montjot (Monika) , Margaret and sometimes Lyvi. We were famous for reaching school on the dot. We would run from JE station to our old premises. We were almost never early.
She would never fail to complain about getting up early to go to school. She n Margaret always said abt their preference of getting married rather than being in school and oh boy one day, a malay guy who heard our conversation actually answered " how abt getting married with me?!" I was laughing my head off and then she was so embarassed and angry!! hahaha..
Through her strict scolding and nagging to gossip in indo, I finally manage to converse in Indo again. through her fierce look, i slowly remember a lot more indonesians word. One day when one of the twin was back, we went to meet her and i spoke to her in full indo sentence and she was kinda shocked and amazed! Cos truly in my sec school life, i dont think i ever speak an indo word before.
Through her guidance and consistent crazyness over this indo guy, i watched an indo show and got quite drawn to it and finally knowing the indo songs and today im proud to tell u that man i like indo songs. Each time i go back, i look fwd to getting the latest songs that's in the season.
Through her, my circle of friends grew bigger and bigger. From Qkho to Eliana to Jonathan. then From Hana to Harry. Today it grew to the NTUnians. It is truly amazing how i met more n more crazy indonesians who just love to have fun like us. And the chain reaction goes on and on.
Each year we grew closer and closer. Today we are best friends and even flatmates. Living with her has also been great and full of crazy moments. Even when we quarrel or bicker it last barely 5 minutes before we go crazy again. There's never a boring moment with her, cos i know she will always have something funny to share or a story to tell. At times when we talk about serious matter, her maturity also helps. And defintely she is always ready to listen to my unhappiness or problems. But there's a time for it. For when she has her com and games in front of her, there is a chance that nothing even goes in to that ear!!! (heheheheheheh) But most of the time, she is there listening.
I always laugh at the looks of Albert and Fei whenever they see us bicker or having some arguments, sometimes with her "abusing" me, especially when the next moment we just go on saying abt something so amicably. They would always get so confused with our actions. But that's wat i have come to love about us. We can quarrel and then get back to our usual self without letting any of the arguments affect us.
She has come to be quite an important person in my life, whose judgment and advice i have come to trust fully in it. Well sometimes i dont, and i will really regret it. I have come to love this friend of mine and a lot of times, i expect too much from her and then the expectation hurts me. But today i have understood that no one is the same. And Im sure God has brought her to me for a reason.
Today is my deerest Friend birthday.. And i just wanna tell her that I love her a lot and life with her has been nothing but a blessing. Knowing her brought a lot of changes in me and im grateful for that. I hope she will like this little poem-like but not so much like it too. I hope our friendship grow stronger each day be it emotionally or spiritually.
A Great Friend.
You've been nothing but a blessing.
You've been nothing but a good advisor.
You've been nothing but a good confidante.
You've been nothing but a good listener.
You've been nothing but a GREAT FRIEND.
You've brought me nothing but Joy.
You've brought me nothing but Patience.
You've brought me nothing but Faith.
You've brought me nothing but Confidence.
You've brought me nothing but Temptation (comes to shopping n eating)
You've brought me nothing but Hope.
Your smile is always so contagious.
Your "anger" always make me laugh.
Sometimes your innocence always make me so amused.
Your sad face always brought me a drive to bring a smile to your face.
Your sad face always brought me a drive to chase away those problems that bother you.
And when finally i bring a smile to your face, im satisfied.
Thank you my friend for the changes in me.
Thank you my friend for bringing more and more people into my life.
Thank you my friend for withstanding the irritating things that i do.
Thank you my friend for tolerating my crap and lame-ness.
Thank you my friend for never chasing me away when i need you most.
Thank you for being always there for me.
Will you give me a chance to be such a Great FRIEND too??
Friday, December 16
back at home..
well today marks my 2nd day at home.. and man... been so tired... this morning finally cut my hair and then dyed it... well the highlight is supposed to be ash colour... well i was in a dilemma whether to do it the whole head or just highlite.. but was afraid that i wont look good so ended up with just the highlite.. but i think im gonna do the whole head when i come back next year...
well after the haircut , just before the dyeing, i look at myself amazed that my whole head was black... and i look kinda not used to it.. haha... i was looking and wondering abt my hair the whole time..
arghh im so dead tired now.. really got lack of sleep!!! and yay!!! now i finally got a new harddisk so my com can run much faster now... hahaha.. =)
ok i think wat i want now is just sleep sleep and sleep.....
well after the haircut , just before the dyeing, i look at myself amazed that my whole head was black... and i look kinda not used to it.. haha... i was looking and wondering abt my hair the whole time..
arghh im so dead tired now.. really got lack of sleep!!! and yay!!! now i finally got a new harddisk so my com can run much faster now... hahaha.. =)
ok i think wat i want now is just sleep sleep and sleep.....
Wednesday, December 14
wacky moments with Retha and Jia2
Everywhere we go, we took lots of pics!!! and man really enjoy it a lot!!! enjoy the company too! and there wasnt one moment where we were pretty serious... And it's good i guess cos it helps to lighten up the moods...
To both of u... dont worry k!!! everything's gonna be Alright.. God will lend u His mighty hand.. and those who try to harm u both will get their just dessert.. Im glad that i have been of help.. though it wasnt much but just wanna let u know that i will always support u my friends.. Whenever u need help, just look for me...
LAST DAY!!
today marks the last day of 2005 that im gonna be in singapore.... well let's see morning will probably be spent in bed... afternoon tuition.... and then finally at nite... a nite with my 2 darlings-sheena and meiyi... after a long timeeee here they are in my house again!!!!
then after that maybe maple... then off to zzzz land... ehmm then do abit of last min shopping in airport.. need to find some things in airport... and then finally will be seeing my mum!!!!
well today been quite okay.. was cleaning the house... was doing my laundry... ironing.., (nat!!! ur clothes masi diluar u know... in the end kecipratan berkat juga loe.. gue bantuin ngelicin! biar rumah keliatan rapi bhowww) then after that.. was wrapping up some xmas presents and then i decided tht i havent gotten myself a present this year ( every year i do this thing.. so it's nothing uncommon!) since im broke decided to do something and come out with this!!! and i love it!!!!
The pictures shows how blessed my life has been! And there are so many colours in there to show how colourful my life has been.. shades of black was unforgotten... cos they represents the down moments in life... but most of them are bright colours.. actually i wrote a message behind too.. but yeah let it be personal... =)
Confused, guilty...
What do u think abt white lie... or a lie that i know it will save myself and save others from disappointments and stuff like that.. i know it's wrong but it's like i have no choice but to do it.. well not exactly that there's not a choice... i can choose to get killed.. but then what wud u do? haiz its getting me so depressed!!!
Tuesday, December 13
hana's prom..
more of malaysia pics is up in my msn space..
here are some of hana's prom pics.. well i think it would take her years to upload also.. so i will just post a few pics for her... anyway she looked stunning that night!!!!
back from m'sia..
yes im back from genting.. and man weekend was great with the kids... from them to driving me up the wall to just plain envious of their innocence.. a lot of laughing.. and defintely i have passed on the taking pictures syndrome to elaine and the 2 kids.. we took 250 pics on the first day and 100 on the 2nd day..
everything was on sale and managed to get some good bargains but too bad, financially not so strong to go there and buy more things..
anyway, now im going back on the 15th!!! yay!!! well partly cos the flight on the 16th is changed to night's flight and i dont want to take night flight, cos it will rob me the chance of shopping later in the night.. hahaha.. but then it also means i will be home a day earlier.
now the confusion..how am i supposed to spend my 2 last 2 days here???? tomorrow i gotta do a lot of packing, cleaning of the house, tuition... n wednesday.. i dont even know what's the plan.... but i know there are lots of unsettled appointments made.. haiz... but all i know now is that i want to spend as minimum as possible... hix hix.. first time im so broke to this state...
anyway here's some shots from m'sia...
Friday, December 9
playing police
THese 2 days been spent on helping the twins deal with their scheming agent whom havent played nice in this little game of hers. It's sad case really and cos of the many times it have been said, im right now exhausted of re-telling the story. maybe next time i will say it.
But we've been going here and there and uncovered a lot more truths and that we are more and more convinced that it is actually a scheme. haiz but we need a legal help to solve this amiably. And we are not sure the scheming agent will agree or not.
Anyway, im sort of glad that cia2 is here cos there was so many things that i need to talk to someone about and im glad that i could talk to her about it. Seek some help with some matters that i know she has understood the situations and stuff like that. Well she helped me straighten out some thoughts.
Okay im physically quite drained right out and today is another time of playing police again and i dont know what will be uncovered this time.
But we've been going here and there and uncovered a lot more truths and that we are more and more convinced that it is actually a scheme. haiz but we need a legal help to solve this amiably. And we are not sure the scheming agent will agree or not.
Anyway, im sort of glad that cia2 is here cos there was so many things that i need to talk to someone about and im glad that i could talk to her about it. Seek some help with some matters that i know she has understood the situations and stuff like that. Well she helped me straighten out some thoughts.
Okay im physically quite drained right out and today is another time of playing police again and i dont know what will be uncovered this time.
Tuesday, December 6
what's wrong with my blog??
hmmm i cant seem to open my blog...
anyway there was one part of the party that was forgotten to be written down. it was nata's suprise bday mini celebration... yeap when she went downstairs to send qkho hanjin and fauzi off, i told hana, why not we use the log cake to celebrate nat's bday since everyone else is still ard.. we know that time was running out but me and hana was still considering whether to celebrate or not. we did in the end. And we needed about a minute to prepare and then we all stood at the lift area. The moment it opened, we all sang a birthday song and gave her the cake! Well i saw that she was teary-eyed and was simply surprised. Haiz it made me happy at least another surprise has been pulled off! and somehow feel glad that at least she was touched by the gesture..
okay right now im waiting for hana to come by and upload her prom pictures.. hana u didnt make the 100 mark!!!!!! haiyah.... shud have taken more!!! only 20 more to the 100 mark...come on do my camera some justice.. hahahaha it's been taking more 200 pics each time being used...
anway next week off to xmas hunt again.. this time round with meiyi and hopefully sheena comes along too! so mei dun be jealous arh!!!! hahahaha
anyway there was one part of the party that was forgotten to be written down. it was nata's suprise bday mini celebration... yeap when she went downstairs to send qkho hanjin and fauzi off, i told hana, why not we use the log cake to celebrate nat's bday since everyone else is still ard.. we know that time was running out but me and hana was still considering whether to celebrate or not. we did in the end. And we needed about a minute to prepare and then we all stood at the lift area. The moment it opened, we all sang a birthday song and gave her the cake! Well i saw that she was teary-eyed and was simply surprised. Haiz it made me happy at least another surprise has been pulled off! and somehow feel glad that at least she was touched by the gesture..
okay right now im waiting for hana to come by and upload her prom pictures.. hana u didnt make the 100 mark!!!!!! haiyah.... shud have taken more!!! only 20 more to the 100 mark...come on do my camera some justice.. hahahaha it's been taking more 200 pics each time being used...
anway next week off to xmas hunt again.. this time round with meiyi and hopefully sheena comes along too! so mei dun be jealous arh!!!! hahahaha
just so down
just went to somebody's blog and it got me quite down as i realised that the doubt that i might be having is coming true... and right away when i read it i was really really saddened..
it's like argh all the things i;ve done is meaningless cos im not that important afterall! i;ve always been open and yet xxxxx cant be with me. maybe it shud be blamed on me. cos im not mature enough? too easy to be judgmental? it's a lot of time that xxxxx cant tell me what's bothering xxxxx. sometime it makes me feel like as if i cant be trusted or i cant do my part as a listener. yes maybe sometimes what is being said makes me judgemental. but sometimes i wanna be there to share the burden to! but how to if xxxxx is not helping.. I know this cant be forced. but just thinking abt this and feeling the sad and disappointed feeling already got me so teary-eyed. I have always have this doubt of me being just a normal and not someone close for quite sometime. ad now this.. i dont know. maybe it;s just me being too sensitive and reading too much to things. but hey i hvae feelings too. i know everyone isnt the same? but couldnt we at least just make certain things clear?
at times im always consoling myself, if xxxxx wants to tell me xxxxx will. this is wat i have been telling myself. maybe im still childish but a big part of me wants to be that important friend too! not just someone to hv fun with? im writing this not becos i want to force xxxxx to make me important but i just wanna voice out my feelings and dejections. I dont want it to be out of a sympathy or being forced to. But i want it to be out of self-reflectons.
Truthfully as i write this im already teary-eyed and my heart just feels like being torn apart and broken to pieces. But i just hope that all this were just a misintepretation on my part and that whatever thoughts that i hvae were just a folly on my part.
Im difficult with making things clear for i will most of the times end up saying and acting the wrong way from what i intended to be. N the confrontation would never end with beautiful ending but rather more complications and misunderstandings further occur. That's y i have always avoided being the one confronting and making things clear. cos i dun want a bad ending to it.
All i can do now is pray and leave it to God. and hope that this is all untrue.
it's like argh all the things i;ve done is meaningless cos im not that important afterall! i;ve always been open and yet xxxxx cant be with me. maybe it shud be blamed on me. cos im not mature enough? too easy to be judgmental? it's a lot of time that xxxxx cant tell me what's bothering xxxxx. sometime it makes me feel like as if i cant be trusted or i cant do my part as a listener. yes maybe sometimes what is being said makes me judgemental. but sometimes i wanna be there to share the burden to! but how to if xxxxx is not helping.. I know this cant be forced. but just thinking abt this and feeling the sad and disappointed feeling already got me so teary-eyed. I have always have this doubt of me being just a normal and not someone close for quite sometime. ad now this.. i dont know. maybe it;s just me being too sensitive and reading too much to things. but hey i hvae feelings too. i know everyone isnt the same? but couldnt we at least just make certain things clear?
at times im always consoling myself, if xxxxx wants to tell me xxxxx will. this is wat i have been telling myself. maybe im still childish but a big part of me wants to be that important friend too! not just someone to hv fun with? im writing this not becos i want to force xxxxx to make me important but i just wanna voice out my feelings and dejections. I dont want it to be out of a sympathy or being forced to. But i want it to be out of self-reflectons.
Truthfully as i write this im already teary-eyed and my heart just feels like being torn apart and broken to pieces. But i just hope that all this were just a misintepretation on my part and that whatever thoughts that i hvae were just a folly on my part.
Im difficult with making things clear for i will most of the times end up saying and acting the wrong way from what i intended to be. N the confrontation would never end with beautiful ending but rather more complications and misunderstandings further occur. That's y i have always avoided being the one confronting and making things clear. cos i dun want a bad ending to it.
All i can do now is pray and leave it to God. and hope that this is all untrue.
10 more days!!!!
10 more days to my family... in any case home maybe still equals to sg home i guess.. hmmm... home to me is me and my carefree life... but i know my family will always be the one in indo.. i never felt so homely back in indo anyway.. it;s like my room isnt really my room. I dont know anything abt my room.. or anything that's in the house.. but i know my family is there.
if only they are here.. then it would maybe be quite near to perfection.
anyway today was supposed to watch Saw 2 with mei. But well i hvae been persuading her not to watch that and catch Exorcism instead but it was no longer showing in Lido.. so watched Aeon Flux in the end.. and gotta say it was okay the typical scientific but i didnt realise it would lead to cloning... And i like it the way that they have used cloning as a last method to keep the survival of men and how when nature comes back, they just abolish the cloning. So i like it.. but mei didnt so yeah next week i will accompany her watch Saw 2.... =)
then after that we wanted to go home but then i didnt really feel like u see since i hardly meet her.. so went to Far east, inteding to get the Shihlin crispy chicken but then it was closed so since Chippy was open, we wanted to get mars bar and were queueing.. when we wanted to order, they just switched off the light (=_=!!!!) so went to new zealand and the first thing we asked were whether they were closing.. thank god it wasnt.. so off we went eating ice cream. Walkig from one side of far east to the other and back to find a seat since we didnt look like we were finishing the ice cream soon..
then went on chatting... and catching up... till it was time to go back. Man it feel so nice to just have a meet up like that.. just chilling out like that...
if only they are here.. then it would maybe be quite near to perfection.
anyway today was supposed to watch Saw 2 with mei. But well i hvae been persuading her not to watch that and catch Exorcism instead but it was no longer showing in Lido.. so watched Aeon Flux in the end.. and gotta say it was okay the typical scientific but i didnt realise it would lead to cloning... And i like it the way that they have used cloning as a last method to keep the survival of men and how when nature comes back, they just abolish the cloning. So i like it.. but mei didnt so yeah next week i will accompany her watch Saw 2.... =)
then after that we wanted to go home but then i didnt really feel like u see since i hardly meet her.. so went to Far east, inteding to get the Shihlin crispy chicken but then it was closed so since Chippy was open, we wanted to get mars bar and were queueing.. when we wanted to order, they just switched off the light (=_=!!!!) so went to new zealand and the first thing we asked were whether they were closing.. thank god it wasnt.. so off we went eating ice cream. Walkig from one side of far east to the other and back to find a seat since we didnt look like we were finishing the ice cream soon..
then went on chatting... and catching up... till it was time to go back. Man it feel so nice to just have a meet up like that.. just chilling out like that...
Sunday, December 4
another 12 days...
12 more days to my going back. im defintely looking fwd and afterall i have come to terms that 12 days is gonna be fast with the fact that im gonna spend this weekend in malaysia... yeap i will be leaving for malaysia on sat mornign and only be back on monday nite....
anyway that day when homesick was bad, thank god my sis called... at least help lessen the homesicknes... well the past 2 days i have been spending lots of time with my cousins.. well actually i want sometime to myself to do my own things to... well not that i have a lot of things to do.. but just being at home... just slacking is my kind of stuff..
tomorrow will be meetin meiyi at last... hahaha it's been a long time and man i miss her a lot too!!! miss our biweekly afternoon lunch together... dying to hear some news from her.. since she doesnt even blog things oftenn....ok waiting for hana to come now.. we'll be having pasta!! yay!... we are supposed to be watching sleepy hollow but i dunno why they are showing mighty joe young!!! urgh.. so i asked her to bring her makeup kit and let her try out tonight since she is having her prom tomorrow nite... Ong even suggested we both go play make up and take lots of pics... =)
anyway that day when homesick was bad, thank god my sis called... at least help lessen the homesicknes... well the past 2 days i have been spending lots of time with my cousins.. well actually i want sometime to myself to do my own things to... well not that i have a lot of things to do.. but just being at home... just slacking is my kind of stuff..
tomorrow will be meetin meiyi at last... hahaha it's been a long time and man i miss her a lot too!!! miss our biweekly afternoon lunch together... dying to hear some news from her.. since she doesnt even blog things oftenn....ok waiting for hana to come now.. we'll be having pasta!! yay!... we are supposed to be watching sleepy hollow but i dunno why they are showing mighty joe young!!! urgh.. so i asked her to bring her makeup kit and let her try out tonight since she is having her prom tomorrow nite... Ong even suggested we both go play make up and take lots of pics... =)
Saturday, December 3
the people..
These are the number of people that comes to the party.... it was held at function room so it seems like few people.. when we got them to the house... my house become so packed with people!!!!
the food...
doesnt the food looks so appetizing/??? getting me so hungry.. anyway the hams and roasted beef were all from cold storage.. brocolli were DIY.. and then i made the potatos and the sauces for the ham... hmmm i love the potatoes a lot.. not self praising but it was really nice and simple to do...
Friday, December 2
homesick...
man the last time i felt this homesick was when i was in Hong Kong and now it's back again.....
today nata went back to indo... when the twins went back i was already feeling i wanna go back too.. and today when nata left, the feeling just overflows and i really really want to go back!!! arghhhh... hix hix..
then missing my family (yes, for once...) and then nata.. twins... and then after this weekend, hana is going back too!!!! arghh... hix hix.. it just makes things worse.. and i cant really go back early this time.. gotta fulfil my responsibility as a tutor...
haiz im always torn between responsibility! haiz...anyway... will be spending most of my time at home playing games or mapling... thanks to hana... arhghhg make my passion for maple burn again!!! then thanks to albert for giving me the full zuma!!! hahaha now i can attempt to complete zuma!!!
haiz... i wanna go home... i wanna go home... and mostly i miss u nat!!! twins, my bro n sis, tez... im gonna miss ya a lot hana!!!!!! ong...
anyway this week been crazy... after exam, hana n ong has been sleeping over!! and man it's great really!! haha.. finally hana is allowed to sleep over!! there was the christmas party, which everything turned out as planned.. though the whole thing wasnt really finished... i didnt get to give my speech.. but the main things were all reflected in a video that i made.. it's that away from home, we are/ shall be one family. Most of the foreign students arent like me who have relatives here or families here, so it will be good if we can hang out all the time treating one another as a family. people who share their joys burden and stress... together we shall create precious moments to last us a life-time ... but really it was such a wonderful time of gathering together.. exchanging presents.. playing games.. having great food (courtesy of cold storage)! lots of cocktails stuff and then the logcakes...
and then after the party there's karaoke last nite.. it was crazy lah from 9 to 3 am!!! i was dead when it was 2 o clock.. i fell asleep already at the last hour.. we were being so spastic too singing all the children's songs - grandfather's clock, twinkle twinkle little star and im a little teapot. we had lots of funny videos.. If only i can upload videos.. but man i think better not show those videos.. cos i was really defintely spastic in all the videos!!! it was fun really.. one of the most fun thing that i did this holiday besides the crazy photo-takings.. hahahah..
today nata went back to indo... when the twins went back i was already feeling i wanna go back too.. and today when nata left, the feeling just overflows and i really really want to go back!!! arghhhh... hix hix..
then missing my family (yes, for once...) and then nata.. twins... and then after this weekend, hana is going back too!!!! arghh... hix hix.. it just makes things worse.. and i cant really go back early this time.. gotta fulfil my responsibility as a tutor...
haiz im always torn between responsibility! haiz...anyway... will be spending most of my time at home playing games or mapling... thanks to hana... arhghhg make my passion for maple burn again!!! then thanks to albert for giving me the full zuma!!! hahaha now i can attempt to complete zuma!!!
haiz... i wanna go home... i wanna go home... and mostly i miss u nat!!! twins, my bro n sis, tez... im gonna miss ya a lot hana!!!!!! ong...
anyway this week been crazy... after exam, hana n ong has been sleeping over!! and man it's great really!! haha.. finally hana is allowed to sleep over!! there was the christmas party, which everything turned out as planned.. though the whole thing wasnt really finished... i didnt get to give my speech.. but the main things were all reflected in a video that i made.. it's that away from home, we are/ shall be one family. Most of the foreign students arent like me who have relatives here or families here, so it will be good if we can hang out all the time treating one another as a family. people who share their joys burden and stress... together we shall create precious moments to last us a life-time ... but really it was such a wonderful time of gathering together.. exchanging presents.. playing games.. having great food (courtesy of cold storage)! lots of cocktails stuff and then the logcakes...
and then after the party there's karaoke last nite.. it was crazy lah from 9 to 3 am!!! i was dead when it was 2 o clock.. i fell asleep already at the last hour.. we were being so spastic too singing all the children's songs - grandfather's clock, twinkle twinkle little star and im a little teapot. we had lots of funny videos.. If only i can upload videos.. but man i think better not show those videos.. cos i was really defintely spastic in all the videos!!! it was fun really.. one of the most fun thing that i did this holiday besides the crazy photo-takings.. hahahah..
Thursday, December 1
the xmas party
the xmas party was a blast.. and it was right after my exam!!!!! whooo.. joy and jubilation!!! hahaha.. very very fun! had taken 250 pictures altogether... i had problems selecting the bad pictures.. cos all look so great!!!! and then there's the mini reflections time.. it was like the best thing we had ever done together... some of the pics are here...
food was great too!! cos of the many pictures that i need to upload, u all can view them in my msn space.. under christmas 2005... it has all the christmas pics this year... in my blog u can just click under most photo albums...
there are more pics that i need to upload actually... and yeah i will upload them soon!!!
more more pics...
here are some more pics from the xmas tree hunting.. this year there's been 3 hunts... next year 4????
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