Hmmm what beats a good saturday morning, when u opened ur eyes and u see ur loved ones beside u... Claudia slept over last nite.. So nice.. so cute so lovable... And then went to switch on my com, and there is my best friend whom i havent talked to as in literally talk to, was online and we were hearing each other's voice and talking on and on for 1.5 hours!!! Yes it defintely made my day. Then went on fussing about my little princess to getting her bathe and stuff like that and then fixing lunch and then went out.
Now im back at home, well a little tired from the heat.. Man i think it's gonna rain tomorrow. And today's sun is really stinging me to sleep. hehehe.. And i guess im taking a nap after this..
Saturday, October 29
happy
well im glad i got my visa already... so actually the US trip is pretty much confirmed already.
I will be going to San Fransisco, and then going to Disneyland in LA... Hollywood... ehmmm Las Vegas?? 3 weeks packed with fun and im only coming back to Singapore on the 15th jan.. i dun tink i can make it to school on the 16 though, I will be so damn tired unless i have enough rest.. Well my dad insisted that i should take the flight from Indo to US.. and it is ridiculous i tell u, cos it makes me get so tired out plus i still have to tuition my student. Isnt it easier to just fly from Singapore. At least it's not that tiring and i can get my free ticket back to indo that way. Plus SIA compared to Eva Air im sure, SIA would be a better choice right, considering the price difference among the 2. Plus the transit time by SIA is not as long as the 14hours that i have to bear in Taipei, when i take Eva Air.
=)
I will be going to San Fransisco, and then going to Disneyland in LA... Hollywood... ehmmm Las Vegas?? 3 weeks packed with fun and im only coming back to Singapore on the 15th jan.. i dun tink i can make it to school on the 16 though, I will be so damn tired unless i have enough rest.. Well my dad insisted that i should take the flight from Indo to US.. and it is ridiculous i tell u, cos it makes me get so tired out plus i still have to tuition my student. Isnt it easier to just fly from Singapore. At least it's not that tiring and i can get my free ticket back to indo that way. Plus SIA compared to Eva Air im sure, SIA would be a better choice right, considering the price difference among the 2. Plus the transit time by SIA is not as long as the 14hours that i have to bear in Taipei, when i take Eva Air.
=)
Thursday, October 27
Q A Time...
Okay questions were posted by Ms Natalia and she wanted our answers with reasons and preferably in essay form... Hmmm sounds like another GP essay for me...
1. wad if... one day u wake up... u know that ur frenz are not actually ur frens? *tink of the truman show*... wad would u do? ransack the whole bunch of 'frenz?'
2. wad if... ur frenz realise their mistake n wanna patch up with you? u know like in the movies, all they say would usually be 'friends again?' n there they are... hugging n crying to each other... n laugh at the same time... n the world is fully restored..... wad would YOU do?
1. Hmmm seriously this question just thinking about it gives me the creep and really i can imagine how crushed and devastated i will be. It feels like u have been loving them for so much and with lots of passion and love and yet, all of the feelings that i hv for them is wasted and that all their kindness and loyalty to me as friends were just a facade. To think that i think they deserve all the love i can give and yet it just falls oin a bunch of actors and actresses acting, it is just so sick and u know how broken hearted. I will be so angry that i think it's better that im all alone. I dont think i even will trust my family, what if they also turn out to be a bunch of actors and actresses. Wouldnt it be so hurtful? I will be so angry that i think it's better that my friends stay away from me, cos i know each time i see their faces, i would be reminded of the hurt that they've caused me to suffer. And defintely they also better steer clear when they see me, cos i dont know what i might do in my anger. It just feels like i have been taken advantage of. All the things that i do for them has not been appreciated and that people go out with me and befriends me only for their own advantage.
Friends to me is a really important part in my life. A big one. A part where it keeps me loving and be warm to other people. ANd when my friends let me down, im sure i wont be able to ahave friends anymore. Each person i communicate to, i would face them with suspicions. I will turn real cold and unfeeling towards people. And i will really believe that A man is better alone. No man is an island, is true and it is only about people being able to gain something when they do look for people.
It seems quite drama right, but really the thot of having friends do this kind of things will really affect the way i will lead my life. And i guess, it would be hard to be able to have friends though i know i would wish for someone that i can rely on and trust. To be there with me to laugh, to quarrel, to irritate, to have fun, to play mahjong with, to eat bi-weekly lunch with, to listen to all my troubles, to try out my new cooking or my experiments with recipes, to eat the food that i cook when im stressed out, to be able to listen to all my complaints, my long-winded and slow stories, to listen to my lame jokes or jokes that only amuse myself but never others, to always smile to myself when i know my friends are all happy and contented and defintely to be happy when they are happy. Most of all to be able to thank God for their existence. I will defintely miss all these if that happens to me.
DO i think i will blame God? Hmmm a big part of me, yes! But im sure i will come to a point where i know He does this maybe to test my forgiveness level? Im sure the forgiveness will take years but i know for sure, that i will not forget. But i guess i will come to one thing that only God truly loves me. Maybe one day i can see it as if im being tested like Job?? The future with God is unsure that is for sure. But im only sure of what i will do and wat will become of me if i wake up and my friends whom i have loved and cared for are actually not my real friends.
It is not easy for me to be able to have a good friend whom i can share and fully trust them. When they say it's A, i will trust them without reservation. If it's B, it shall be B. If they are not guilty when they quarrel with someone, I will believe they are not guilty to the point that im partial at that sense. Ending up that im taking the wrong side. Even if my friend is actually in the wrong, i will believe they are not till they say they are in the wrong. And my good friends are the only people whom i listen to. WHenever they give me advices, i will try to heed it cos i know they know me best and that they have given me the best advice. And most of the time, i heed their advices.
Ok better start on 2 before i rattle on and on to no end...
2. I dont think i can forgive them for this kind of thing. Yes once bitten, twice shy. But then it's just like when a guy have an affair, if he can do it once, he can always have a change of heart another time. U know, history might repeat. ANd defintely even if we become "normal" friends again, things arent gonna be the same. I will not be able to trust them fully without thinking of the ulterior motives behind it. I am always wary of my friends. Are they plotting something again? U know the hurt and lesson learnt makes me be guarded and have a wall surrounding me. I might forgive but i think no way we can be friends again. It is too hard to forget it since it has made such a big impact in my life. Think in truman's shoes, all his on scene friends decided to patch things up and be real friends again, do u think truman will not think whether it is some kind of a joke? Wont he be thinking are they doing this to boost the rating of tv station? Is this another acting on their part?
It's like is my sincerety and loving that bad that it cant touch the heart of the person taking advantage of me? And that it kept them continuing taking advantage of me instead of being guilty? Is there no conscience? If they only realise it when i have found out, then their conscience come too late and since they lack of it, i dont think i will forgive, hug each other and forget everything and move on. In fact moving on will be hard. I may stay still and be all alone, helpless, brooding why this happens and so on. Movingn on will defintely not include new friends, old friends. I will not be dependent on others and defintely i think it will be hard for me to love anyone.
Conclusion: Friends not true friends == My world crumbles, crashing down, heart hardened == All alone and be an independent, no need of friends, for friends will never be true to u unless there is something for them to gain for their own needs.
I guess number 1 is my greatest fear. Cos when i read the question, i m filled with images of it coming true and how i would feel that i can really feel the feelings that im gonna get if it does happen to me. I have a very vivid idea as to how i would be if 1 happens and it scares the hell out of me.
1. wad if... one day u wake up... u know that ur frenz are not actually ur frens? *tink of the truman show*... wad would u do? ransack the whole bunch of 'frenz?'
2. wad if... ur frenz realise their mistake n wanna patch up with you? u know like in the movies, all they say would usually be 'friends again?' n there they are... hugging n crying to each other... n laugh at the same time... n the world is fully restored..... wad would YOU do?
1. Hmmm seriously this question just thinking about it gives me the creep and really i can imagine how crushed and devastated i will be. It feels like u have been loving them for so much and with lots of passion and love and yet, all of the feelings that i hv for them is wasted and that all their kindness and loyalty to me as friends were just a facade. To think that i think they deserve all the love i can give and yet it just falls oin a bunch of actors and actresses acting, it is just so sick and u know how broken hearted. I will be so angry that i think it's better that im all alone. I dont think i even will trust my family, what if they also turn out to be a bunch of actors and actresses. Wouldnt it be so hurtful? I will be so angry that i think it's better that my friends stay away from me, cos i know each time i see their faces, i would be reminded of the hurt that they've caused me to suffer. And defintely they also better steer clear when they see me, cos i dont know what i might do in my anger. It just feels like i have been taken advantage of. All the things that i do for them has not been appreciated and that people go out with me and befriends me only for their own advantage.
Friends to me is a really important part in my life. A big one. A part where it keeps me loving and be warm to other people. ANd when my friends let me down, im sure i wont be able to ahave friends anymore. Each person i communicate to, i would face them with suspicions. I will turn real cold and unfeeling towards people. And i will really believe that A man is better alone. No man is an island, is true and it is only about people being able to gain something when they do look for people.
It seems quite drama right, but really the thot of having friends do this kind of things will really affect the way i will lead my life. And i guess, it would be hard to be able to have friends though i know i would wish for someone that i can rely on and trust. To be there with me to laugh, to quarrel, to irritate, to have fun, to play mahjong with, to eat bi-weekly lunch with, to listen to all my troubles, to try out my new cooking or my experiments with recipes, to eat the food that i cook when im stressed out, to be able to listen to all my complaints, my long-winded and slow stories, to listen to my lame jokes or jokes that only amuse myself but never others, to always smile to myself when i know my friends are all happy and contented and defintely to be happy when they are happy. Most of all to be able to thank God for their existence. I will defintely miss all these if that happens to me.
DO i think i will blame God? Hmmm a big part of me, yes! But im sure i will come to a point where i know He does this maybe to test my forgiveness level? Im sure the forgiveness will take years but i know for sure, that i will not forget. But i guess i will come to one thing that only God truly loves me. Maybe one day i can see it as if im being tested like Job?? The future with God is unsure that is for sure. But im only sure of what i will do and wat will become of me if i wake up and my friends whom i have loved and cared for are actually not my real friends.
It is not easy for me to be able to have a good friend whom i can share and fully trust them. When they say it's A, i will trust them without reservation. If it's B, it shall be B. If they are not guilty when they quarrel with someone, I will believe they are not guilty to the point that im partial at that sense. Ending up that im taking the wrong side. Even if my friend is actually in the wrong, i will believe they are not till they say they are in the wrong. And my good friends are the only people whom i listen to. WHenever they give me advices, i will try to heed it cos i know they know me best and that they have given me the best advice. And most of the time, i heed their advices.
Ok better start on 2 before i rattle on and on to no end...
2. I dont think i can forgive them for this kind of thing. Yes once bitten, twice shy. But then it's just like when a guy have an affair, if he can do it once, he can always have a change of heart another time. U know, history might repeat. ANd defintely even if we become "normal" friends again, things arent gonna be the same. I will not be able to trust them fully without thinking of the ulterior motives behind it. I am always wary of my friends. Are they plotting something again? U know the hurt and lesson learnt makes me be guarded and have a wall surrounding me. I might forgive but i think no way we can be friends again. It is too hard to forget it since it has made such a big impact in my life. Think in truman's shoes, all his on scene friends decided to patch things up and be real friends again, do u think truman will not think whether it is some kind of a joke? Wont he be thinking are they doing this to boost the rating of tv station? Is this another acting on their part?
It's like is my sincerety and loving that bad that it cant touch the heart of the person taking advantage of me? And that it kept them continuing taking advantage of me instead of being guilty? Is there no conscience? If they only realise it when i have found out, then their conscience come too late and since they lack of it, i dont think i will forgive, hug each other and forget everything and move on. In fact moving on will be hard. I may stay still and be all alone, helpless, brooding why this happens and so on. Movingn on will defintely not include new friends, old friends. I will not be dependent on others and defintely i think it will be hard for me to love anyone.
Conclusion: Friends not true friends == My world crumbles, crashing down, heart hardened == All alone and be an independent, no need of friends, for friends will never be true to u unless there is something for them to gain for their own needs.
I guess number 1 is my greatest fear. Cos when i read the question, i m filled with images of it coming true and how i would feel that i can really feel the feelings that im gonna get if it does happen to me. I have a very vivid idea as to how i would be if 1 happens and it scares the hell out of me.
Wednesday, October 26
See how im tortured by these 2 kids.. Initially there was only claudia wanting to take a pic of me piggy-back-ing her.. and then Chloe decided to join in as well... so they started to torture me. Chloe started to jump on me. And Claudia, was choking me... but they r still my 2 little mischievous princesses and i still love them all the same.To anonymous: well claudia is cute but nowadays it's hard to get a nice picture of her, whereas chloe is a natural photomodel! hehehe..
Monday, October 24
something to look forwrd to.
Okay my planned trip back home is postponed to Chinese New Year. Instead im gonna spend Xmas in San Fransisco!!! White Christmas yay!!! it was a really sudden decision when my bro and sis asked me this morning. And the next thing is we are set to go and my job here, in the middle of preparing for exam, is to look for tickets. Thank goodness SIA and Cathay has been kind enough to have pacakage deals during those High-Season timing. So tomorrow i will be going down to the travel agent to get the tickets as well as my visa. hopefully they dont reject my application.
It's quite exciting actually. i have been dreaming and yearning for a chance to go there and unexpectedly it's here. Well im filled with guilt for this trip as it's gonna cost my parents a bomb and i have to miss my mum's bday for it. But they also want us to go since there may not be other chances to go next time when i start working. To make up for not being back for my mum's bday, im gonna surprise both my parents 2 days before CNY. So i will be home for the reunion dinner as well as for CNY. Will probably miss my first few class of tutorials but never mind, i think i wanna make them happy by going back at that time even if it is for a week. And i shall pay the air ticket myself. Out of my own pocket. Hopefully will earn enough.
Today i went to Nata church and hey i found my friend who left my church was sitting in the choir at her church. WEll didnt get to say hi since we left after the service. Anyway the sermon was so meaningful and i really like her church actually. Each time i go there, when i come back i always have a clear mind over the message and i notice that the message always stay with me throughout the month if not for weeks. Today was about a family and i guess God also remind me about serving. It's hard to serve Him and yes it's hard. At times, i feel so drained and forced. At most times, i forget that im serving Him and not the church which leads me to being so drained and forced. I guess He reminded me today again that serving Him, i cant rely on my own strength but His.
oh man it's 3.40 am already and i need to go at 10 tomorrow!! argh... good nitee.......
It's quite exciting actually. i have been dreaming and yearning for a chance to go there and unexpectedly it's here. Well im filled with guilt for this trip as it's gonna cost my parents a bomb and i have to miss my mum's bday for it. But they also want us to go since there may not be other chances to go next time when i start working. To make up for not being back for my mum's bday, im gonna surprise both my parents 2 days before CNY. So i will be home for the reunion dinner as well as for CNY. Will probably miss my first few class of tutorials but never mind, i think i wanna make them happy by going back at that time even if it is for a week. And i shall pay the air ticket myself. Out of my own pocket. Hopefully will earn enough.
Today i went to Nata church and hey i found my friend who left my church was sitting in the choir at her church. WEll didnt get to say hi since we left after the service. Anyway the sermon was so meaningful and i really like her church actually. Each time i go there, when i come back i always have a clear mind over the message and i notice that the message always stay with me throughout the month if not for weeks. Today was about a family and i guess God also remind me about serving. It's hard to serve Him and yes it's hard. At times, i feel so drained and forced. At most times, i forget that im serving Him and not the church which leads me to being so drained and forced. I guess He reminded me today again that serving Him, i cant rely on my own strength but His.
oh man it's 3.40 am already and i need to go at 10 tomorrow!! argh... good nitee.......
Thursday, October 20
Tuesday, October 18
study time...
well it has come to a time for me to start my revision finally. though exam is still a month away but i guess a month comes by quite quickly. it's never too early to start a revision anyway.
anyway life's been good and normal. have finally finish tuitioning my students and man i seem so free nowadays and it's been like quite sometime since im this free!
well last week nata's mum came and well there's lots more snacks at home now and well the presence of a mum, really make the house seems different each time. even more homely????? maybe. and then last week's been a week of reviving my mum's cooking. i miss her cooking so much that i start whipping up her dishes that she always cook for me. And man, some i managed to get it and boy it's the same taste!!!! hahahaha.. and yeah well make me feel good that finally i can get to learn more of her recipes so that next time i can be a good chef to my kids and family i suppose! In a way i also want to carry on the family recipes down. Im also hoping that next time i can always pass it down to my kids and let them carry it on as a family thing.
like now im learning hokkien for the sake of being a good and fillial granddaughter to my ancestors. in a way im still conservative cos i wanna carry on the Asian values as well the chinese traditions down the family. I dun want it to end at my parents' generation. Im sure my forefathers wanted this as well. And wouldnt it be nice anyway if we still keep on some values of our traditions?
anyway since i have the free time to do all these, why not do it?! when else can i be as free as this? i also spend lots of time with claudia and chloe nowadays and they really stole my hearts! their innocence and naiveness is making me love them even more.
I just watched vanilla sky and i have come to realise one thing. Nowadays tom cruise always act in some scientific movies or those that involve around with the future and fanciful gadgets. Mission Impossible, and then there's Minority report, there's War of the worlds. All these are science-fictions categories. Nata went on commenting how Penelope can hold a candle to Nicole Kidman and how could Tom actually fell for her after filming Vanilla Sky. The beginning to Vanilla Sky was really deceiving and i really didnt expect it to be scientific.
Anyway anybody know any latest nice chinese songs, like those ballads kind????? my radio now is always at 93.3 fm.. and yeah sometimes the dj can get quite corny! -_-!
ok shall get back to studying.. just a lil update from me
anyway life's been good and normal. have finally finish tuitioning my students and man i seem so free nowadays and it's been like quite sometime since im this free!
well last week nata's mum came and well there's lots more snacks at home now and well the presence of a mum, really make the house seems different each time. even more homely????? maybe. and then last week's been a week of reviving my mum's cooking. i miss her cooking so much that i start whipping up her dishes that she always cook for me. And man, some i managed to get it and boy it's the same taste!!!! hahahaha.. and yeah well make me feel good that finally i can get to learn more of her recipes so that next time i can be a good chef to my kids and family i suppose! In a way i also want to carry on the family recipes down. Im also hoping that next time i can always pass it down to my kids and let them carry it on as a family thing.
like now im learning hokkien for the sake of being a good and fillial granddaughter to my ancestors. in a way im still conservative cos i wanna carry on the Asian values as well the chinese traditions down the family. I dun want it to end at my parents' generation. Im sure my forefathers wanted this as well. And wouldnt it be nice anyway if we still keep on some values of our traditions?
anyway since i have the free time to do all these, why not do it?! when else can i be as free as this? i also spend lots of time with claudia and chloe nowadays and they really stole my hearts! their innocence and naiveness is making me love them even more.
I just watched vanilla sky and i have come to realise one thing. Nowadays tom cruise always act in some scientific movies or those that involve around with the future and fanciful gadgets. Mission Impossible, and then there's Minority report, there's War of the worlds. All these are science-fictions categories. Nata went on commenting how Penelope can hold a candle to Nicole Kidman and how could Tom actually fell for her after filming Vanilla Sky. The beginning to Vanilla Sky was really deceiving and i really didnt expect it to be scientific.
Anyway anybody know any latest nice chinese songs, like those ballads kind????? my radio now is always at 93.3 fm.. and yeah sometimes the dj can get quite corny! -_-!
ok shall get back to studying.. just a lil update from me
Monday, October 10
got this mail from my aunt...
A preacher once said, "I always noticed that its was the adults who choose the children's hymn 'Jesus Loves Me' (for the children of course) during a hymn sing, and it was the adults who sang the loudest because I could see they knew it the best."
Here is a new version just for us who have white hair, or no hair at all.
For over 40 and all you others...
Or even under 40!
Check out this newest version of "Jesus Loves Me". It is quite cute, so read, sing and enjoy:
JESUS LOVES ME
Jesus loves me, this I know,
Though my hair is white as snow.
Though my sight is growing dim,
Still He bids me trust in Him.
Though my hair is white as snow.
Though my sight is growing dim,
Still He bids me trust in Him.
(CHORUS)
YES! JESUS LOVES ME...
YES! JESUS LOVES ME...
YES, JESUS LOVES ME...
YES, JESUS LOVES ME...
FOR THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO.
Though my steps are oh, so slow,
With my hand in His I'll go.
On through life, let come what may,
He'll be there to lead the way.
Though my steps are oh, so slow,
With my hand in His I'll go.
On through life, let come what may,
He'll be there to lead the way.
(CHORUS)
Though I am no longer young,
I have much which He's begun.
Let me serve Christ with a smile,
Go with others the extra mile.
I have much which He's begun.
Let me serve Christ with a smile,
Go with others the extra mile.
(CHORUS)
When the nights are dark and long,
In my heart He puts a song.
Telling me in words so clear,
"Have no fear, for I am near."
In my heart He puts a song.
Telling me in words so clear,
"Have no fear, for I am near."
(CHORUS)
When my work on earth is done,
And life's victories have been won.
He will take me home above,
Then I'll understand His love.
And life's victories have been won.
He will take me home above,
Then I'll understand His love.
(CHORUS)
I love Jesus, does he know?
Have I ever told Him so?
Jesus loves to hear me say,
That I love Him every day.
Have I ever told Him so?
Jesus loves to hear me say,
That I love Him every day.
so irritated!!!!
urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
was doing one of my subject's online quiz... was so happy that i can do most of the questions and was finishing them sooN!!! and then the vexing thing happen!! iwas doing and playing ard with my media player and click on something and then pop! there goes my online quiz!!!!!!! and the worse thing it's a 1 attempt thing!!! and i cant redo nor press back!!!!! so irritatingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg... that's 60 marks gone just like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh how not to be so pissed off!!?!!??!?!?!?!
stupid online thing!!!!!!!! of all thing must be a 1 attempt thing!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrr.... and then i cant even ask for a re-quiz!!!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
now im just praying the weightage of this quiz is not that much!!! arghh!! ugauhruharuahugauahrauhrhghhhhhhhhh
was doing one of my subject's online quiz... was so happy that i can do most of the questions and was finishing them sooN!!! and then the vexing thing happen!! iwas doing and playing ard with my media player and click on something and then pop! there goes my online quiz!!!!!!! and the worse thing it's a 1 attempt thing!!! and i cant redo nor press back!!!!! so irritatingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg... that's 60 marks gone just like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh how not to be so pissed off!!?!!??!?!?!?!
stupid online thing!!!!!!!! of all thing must be a 1 attempt thing!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrr.... and then i cant even ask for a re-quiz!!!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
now im just praying the weightage of this quiz is not that much!!! arghh!! ugauhruharuahugauahrauhrhghhhhhhhhh
Friday, October 7
hmmmm
well this week's been a very busy week with the students having their final examinations. goodness, very tiring.. but at least next week wont need to spend so much time tuitioning! and man the primary kid is really gettingout of hand and i have finally said IT!!! haha im gonna quit tuitioning him next year. Since he doesnt listen anyway! and really i feel like killing him sometimes!!! and u guys know how much i like kid!!!! At times, i really do want to SPANK him!!!
anyway exam is in a month's time and yes finally im doing some revision and trying to keep up with schoolwork.. Hopefully this time round, i manage to get my CAP higher!!!
and have i mentioned that im going to HK disneyland next year?? haha.. yeap im going next year.. hmm well something to look fwd to although yes it will be my 3rd time going in the 3 years running.. but im going to Shanghai as well! hopfully can do lots and lots of shopping!!! wanna get my new camera!!! hmmm and defintely look around for good electronic deals to sell back here!! =p
anyway it's late i need to ZZZ.. need a lot of rest recently... and yes life in NUS has been good so far since i come back to attending lectures constantly instead of skipping them but one problem is i cant get up early to go to school for tutorials!!! that's the bad part!!!
anyway exam is in a month's time and yes finally im doing some revision and trying to keep up with schoolwork.. Hopefully this time round, i manage to get my CAP higher!!!
and have i mentioned that im going to HK disneyland next year?? haha.. yeap im going next year.. hmm well something to look fwd to although yes it will be my 3rd time going in the 3 years running.. but im going to Shanghai as well! hopfully can do lots and lots of shopping!!! wanna get my new camera!!! hmmm and defintely look around for good electronic deals to sell back here!! =p
anyway it's late i need to ZZZ.. need a lot of rest recently... and yes life in NUS has been good so far since i come back to attending lectures constantly instead of skipping them but one problem is i cant get up early to go to school for tutorials!!! that's the bad part!!!
Sunday, October 2
dedicated to all my friends out there... no matter where u are..
A little something dedicated for all my friends...just letting u guys know that i love and cherish u guys all the time.. and i guess the passage there will teach me how to love u guys just like He loves all of us.
if u find ur pics missing there it doesnt mean i dont cherish u guys k! but it's just that i had a hard time cramming all the pics there and i want to keep updating all the pics.. dun really want to use the old pics all the time..
Love ya all and God bless u with peace and love all the time.
Saturday, October 1
have i or have i not?
hmmm nat's nickname : love, peace, joy, patience, kindness, gentleness, and self-control. these are the fruits of the spirit that He gave us when we have receive the spirit. He gave us these but the rest is up to us whether we let the Holy Spirit control us. I was pretty sure that i have changed a lot from the old me and have exercised and try to live by the spirit. sometimes im amazed at how patient i can get. how im sometimes so carefree and just have joy and no worry at most times.
in anyway i was saying telling her that well we do possess them all but just that we have not exercised them. and she jokingly chided me, " but i dont see most of these fruits in u leh? :p" and i went blank. though it was only a joke. but seriously if someone can actually joke abt these it means i have not been potraying the correct example or even have not lived by the spirit. it got me confused. and well i have been asking myself these 2 days whether i really have exercised them or not. for someone to criticise someone though jokingly or for the fun of it, there must be that kind of negative thought in the criticizer's mind. dont u agree? maybe for a person who dont see me everyday to say such thing or think abt this thing, i may just say that well u dont know me that well.. but nata is my housemate and i practically see her everyday.
hmmm just a time for reflection. a time for self-correction.
well if it had been outsiders saying it, i wil take it in my stride and just ignore it completely. but someone close and dear to me says this, it just makes me think a lot these couple of days. critics are the things that i need for self-correction.. even if it's a joke, i will normally think thru wat had been said. but then when i think abt it, i think i have but the fact others dont see it just means that i havent. haiz. it's mind boggling to think abt it.
ok i think i will return to my econs first and leave the pondering tomorrow. hopefully i can score for tomorrow's test.
in anyway i was saying telling her that well we do possess them all but just that we have not exercised them. and she jokingly chided me, " but i dont see most of these fruits in u leh? :p" and i went blank. though it was only a joke. but seriously if someone can actually joke abt these it means i have not been potraying the correct example or even have not lived by the spirit. it got me confused. and well i have been asking myself these 2 days whether i really have exercised them or not. for someone to criticise someone though jokingly or for the fun of it, there must be that kind of negative thought in the criticizer's mind. dont u agree? maybe for a person who dont see me everyday to say such thing or think abt this thing, i may just say that well u dont know me that well.. but nata is my housemate and i practically see her everyday.
hmmm just a time for reflection. a time for self-correction.
well if it had been outsiders saying it, i wil take it in my stride and just ignore it completely. but someone close and dear to me says this, it just makes me think a lot these couple of days. critics are the things that i need for self-correction.. even if it's a joke, i will normally think thru wat had been said. but then when i think abt it, i think i have but the fact others dont see it just means that i havent. haiz. it's mind boggling to think abt it.
ok i think i will return to my econs first and leave the pondering tomorrow. hopefully i can score for tomorrow's test.
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