hmm

ok defintely going to be even busier.. Why is it, i wonder, that each time i have to write an essay, i would also have a presentation on the very same week!!!!!!!! urghhhhhhhhhhhh... furthermore still got lots of tutorials both online and written.. goshhhhhhh... wat is wrong with NUS!!! arghhhh... now i really cherish my last sem!!!!!! my one and only time taking 4 modules thruout the whole 4 years of my course!! okay i may seem very stressed out but im not ok! lydia been reminding me of my principle. Do not worry about tomorrow for today has enough troubles on its own! but i m just thinking abt how week after week i follow a mundane schedule of doing tutorials, online, presentation, and writing essays, project meetings and stuff like that. Weeks after weeks i have to keep reminding myself there are online tuts and labs. And have to remember the deadlines. And definitely my faulty laptop is not helping me either. Have to reformat it sometime this week. But see no time. Haiz.

anyway stef has gone back and defintely i am going to miss her a lot man! lots of things have happened on the last few weeks before she went back but im happy that my wish for her to leave happily has come true.

things to look foward to:
- this weekend *grinnns*

things not to look fwd to:
- SS test, and presentation
- Econs essay cos must read a lot of materials.
- Maths Test (on sat!!! sux!)
- CTW Essay! (still confused with lots of things)
- All the labs and online tutorials.
- Deadlines!!!!!! urghhh...

oh yeah yesterday did another round of shopping.. goodness me.. every week im practically spending money to buy new clothes.. haiz... so horrible nata and i could shop in the old daimaru at clarke quay for over 2 hours plus.. hey but we found this rice-cooker that can be used in microwave.. the kind that we dun have to use electricity but just microwave. And u can cook lots of other stuff with that too!

was just talking to mum about me being underpaid!! and wat a great mum i have!!! she is willing to top up my pay 100 bucks more.. i was laughing my head off!!! cos she said she will claim the 100 bucks from my student's dad who is apparently my parents' business friend and partner-to-be! she will ask for discounts from that big boss! I really laughed my head off!!! world's greatest mum! only she wud do this kind of thing! but that means i also have more savings to come.. She also said when im buying a car i must use this savings and the difference she will top it up! hahahahha... so happy!!!! and u know prices of cars in singapore is damn ex and yet she will top it up! i doubt my savings can pay 10% of the whole thing! hahahahaha okay very high!!!

at the same time im seeing my project mate did a very funny mind map! one that i really have a hard time understanding... poor istriku (lydia) have to draw the mindmap at this hour. haiz.

hurt.

i am simply hurt, confused and don't know wat to do.. i just felt that this week had been a nitemare!!! everything seems to happen in an unexpected way! I am concerned yet i felt that my concern were just thrown back to my face!! so why should i care? seriously! But then again am i the type of person that can just dun care about the people and things that are revolving around my life? I am angry! im nt sure wheher i should be or not, but honestly who would care if im angry, in despair, or hurt! I have been caught in the middle, torn here and there.. And do i simply walk away from this?? I really Cant!

maybe you didnt mean it, or maybe it's just the way u sms me. but most of ur recent sms-es hurt me.. it just cut me deep when i wanted to meet up and just talk. But a " no thanks" simply just cut me short. or even the part where u re-enforced ur stand of not meeting up, it just hurts a lot.

i really want all this be cleared up before u leave! not meeting us is just like running away. and till today i still wanna meet u! I know how a jerk i was, each time when we are going to meet up, something crops up. And really i didnt mean them. And it doesnt mean that i didnt treasure u. If i hadnt treasured u, why wud i be so bothered to write all this. to feel hurt. to get us all back together again. why wud i love u my dear friend!

I always treasure all my friends. And definitely you are simply too special for me to just dun treasure.

why?

why must you put yourself through this?

do u know each time u cried, the guilt in me just add on.

why are you putting yourself through all these?

why cant you just pull urself up from the self-pity pit?

life is a blessing, live it the way God wants you to live.

the way you are acting is getting me pissed off.

so pissed off cos i cant do anything to help u come out of this!

i just want us to be normal and happy again!

i want you to leave with sweet memories and not with scars.

i just want to see you smiling again.

finally

yessssss finally online physics is done. My essay is done.. And im left with 1 more online tut.. Hahaha this is like a great load is taken off my shoulder.. Was so afraid that i wouldnt be able to finish writing. But i have to admit i dun think what i wrote in the essay is good stuff. It is mostly just crap (in my opinion). there is not much time left to edit or re-read or make it look good anymore. It weighs quite a lot actually. It is actually about 30% of my CA. At some points i was stuck and really was researching a lot to find for materials or i was really too distracted to continue.. Okay the coffee that i just took is making me write craps here. It's making me giddy maybe it's the caffeine. Anyway my point is my stress mode is over! hahaha but saturday there's a test still! aiyohh... i hope everything goes well!

at nydc holland v.. the 5 of us (fanni and ong not in pic) ate 7 courses.. so greedy rite? 

love this pic! hahahah... i know ong will love it cos my eyes look small here.. 

2 vain gals.. 

karaoke-ing 

my xiao char bor friend but still a very very dear friend to me. 

been so long

wow.. never did i realise that i havent been blogging for quite sometime.. I tot i blogged from my uncle's place a few days ago.. Okay i should start with Gong Xi Fa Cai to everyone... I hope this rooster year you will be blessed all year round. The past 3 days including eve of CNY, i have spent my time in Eunos (my old house) for the new year. We had reunion dinner with the whole family.. going round to collect my hong baos! visiting all the aunties and chatting to update one another.. Then there was cousins talk too! The cousins meeting every year in one of the rooms in Eunos. Then an extra Gary's WGM ( Wedding General Meeting). He's getting married this july so we were sort of being told wat to do and who will be the MCs and stuff like that. There is more to the WGM meetings on the way.

I have collected enough hongbaos to bring me shopping. I was just flipping the newspaper and everywhere was on sale. WOW! hahaha but no no no no! No shopping... i have a critique essay due on wed midnite.. It looks like as if I hv to stay home the whole of tuesday to finish them. This sat i shall stay home to do some researching.. Or i will go crazy about the critique.

Ohhh something tht I must write abt last nite.. Last nite i was supposed to meet my bro's friend at Mandarin Hotel at 9 pm. And thinking that some shops wud be open, i went there early to do some shopping. WHo knows when i reached there, none of the malls were open!!! It was the 1st time i see Orchard as dead!!!! Goodness i didnt know wat to do so i walked around aimlessly till i got tired and went back to the hotel. And it was only 8pm. I got Ong who accompanied me thru her sms-es and call. Finally it was 9, i kept calling to the room but no one answered the phone.. I waited till 930 and finally called my brother to tell his friend that i was already in the hotel. When bro called me back he told me that he and his family went on city tour which will only end at 1030! So there i was waiting for them again. THank God Nata called and i asked her to go home together with me. When nat came, we went to Swensen's and stayed there to wait for them. While she told me all that happened while I wasnt at home. Goodness, i stayed in Orchard untill 11. I stayed there from 730-11pm at dead town Orchard. And in my mind i was really wondering wat these people are doing in orchard when none of the shops were opened.. Thank God that swensen' were opened 24 hours..

Evryone went HappY Birthdayy to Linsey while I almost blurted out Ong... I think that was the grin for! ahaha 

Ong (linsey) 

Im squashedddd.. 

arhhhh...

goodness me have had a busy week and an even tiring one this coming week. I have lots of tutorials both online and inquiry-based types to finish before CNY! and CNY is just like 2 days away! After CNY i have to rush to do my critique writing.. I almost killed the tutor when she said that the deadline of the critique writing was on sunday midnite! That would leave me with only 2 days to do research and readings on the topic. I wud dieeee... But thank goodness she was kind enough to change the deadline to next wed midnite!

Sat had morning lecture after that went with lydia and ong to go bugis. They wanted to shop for decorations stuff over there but we ended up eating and trying all the different cookies and CNY goodies there. ANd most of all definitely shopped A LOT!!!!! i bought 4 tops from Bossini. They are having 50% sale. Missed church in the end. Then after that i went to meet up with stef, mei and sheena. We went to K-box and sang and took pics like crazy! will post the pics later. After that sheena had to go and we decided to go to esplanade to meet nata as well to see this jazz group from indo called Mocca. They were really good i tell u! I enjoyed the whole performance or rather half the performance since by the time we reach there it was midway already. I am really proud that they did so well! The whole crowd were 90% indonesians and when mocca said it was time to end. There were shouts for an encore! The nice soothing voice combined with the wind was really perfect. Believe it or not I could just stay there the whole nite! The stars as well the sky was beautiful! It turns out that Fanni, Kresna and Erik was there too! Nata met him for the first time. Her cousin-in-law to-be. I dun really have a good impression of him. The way he brings himself is really sloppy and tells a lot about his character. And apparently that's wat the rest of the indos told me too!

Anyway after that we went home and upon reaching i wanted to do some of maths and did them till 2-3 am. Fell asleep but had to wake up early for church. After church had to tuition my kid and after teaching, i brought them(my student and his bro) out for lunch and sent them to church. I went home and went on spring cleaning. From my toilet, my room, the dining-room. Goodness it was really a lot of work! Just cleaning, moping, sweeping. After spring cleaning, cook dinner for myself, nata and my housemate and edmond. But before that cos we didnt have enuff food, had to go to Lot1 to buy some more food. We ended up shopping again! And At Bossini AGAIN! Bought myself a nice tee and a pair of jeans! It's some decent jeans and since nata (and lydia) said nice. So okay i bought them since it was at a 20% discount. So had a good deal! So horrible rite.. spending money like crazy before getting my red packets. Later in the nite, we celebrated Ong's (Linsey) birthday at her room which is in Temasek Hall. And i was in charge of buying the cake as well! So happen that i cook her fave soup as well so brought her some. And gosh bringing the cake and the soup made my hands stiff and almost had crams. Some more had to walk pretty far from the bus-stop! But we had fun!!!! will post the pics later. I like her room! It's quite big!!! And so far the best that i've seen so far.

Okay shall go back to doing my online tutorial.

tired

im really tired now.. maybe cos ate too much and laugh too much too! goshh dinner was at holland v with NUS people like lyd, fanny and linsey and of cos with my dearest housemate too! gosh the 5 of us ate 7 different main courses! goodness me! i think the waiters were all startled by the amount of food that we ate.. we laughed so much that our stomach were aching from the food we ate as well from our laughters... they made me laugh so hard that i could choke on my water.. took a lot of candid pictures... really2 funny!

anyway the day sucks tomorrow.. at 10 am i have a make up tut!! BUT im gonna meet stef, mei and sheena for dinner!!! SOMETHING to Look fwd to! havent met them for so long.. goshh.. that was how busy school was.. and i tell u next week will be an even busier week with CNY and all and i have 1 critique to submit days after Val Day!!!.

Now in my mind is where to go for my singles date with mei and stef on val day!

my chiobu housemate.. for once she is looking like her age!!!!!! 

please pray!

This morning receieved a call from Elaine. I thought she wud nag at me for not meeting her yesterday to show her my shopping.. But hte first sentence that came out of her mouth was " Uncle is hospitalised" She told me all the things that happened this morning. But all i could think of was my uncle in hospital and i must go to him. I rushed down all the way! And i was glad that he was alrite. He really didint look sick while my cousin described him as very very ill. She really gave me a shock. The doctor said that he most probably had fits or the Old Stroke. as in Stroke that strikes the elderly. Please please pray for my uncle so that God will heal him and let him continue to serve Him. Dont let his simple fait be tested.

Yesterday lydia and i went shopping. I was looking for my spaghetti strap while she went around looking for a bag. Yeap spent A LOT yesterday! not so much on clothes but rather on earings.. but cute cute earrings and we sure ate a lot! Bought an earring for nata. When i saw them the only person that came to my mind was nata! When i was home, waited for her to come back from Leo's place to let her try them on! And boy it was very very very nice and really suits her.. And she got this matching tube dress to go with them. SO we took pics of her with the earrings and the dress. She look damn mature.. Finally seeing her so mature. hahaahhaa..

Well im not going lecture today as well the interview for the councillor thing. Will be spending most of my time in the hospital. Currently im back at my uncle's house accompanying my cousin to take some stuff. While she's taking a showwer here i am blogging. Ok shall blog again anotherr time...