Half a lifetime

Two days after my 34th birthday, while there are still two dinners that I took rain cheques on, the happy times weren't all just happy at all. My back is beginning to feel stiff again, probably due to me skipping yoga class for the past few weeks. But still it has been a great birthday, having friends around is truly a bliss. Hopefully I'll be forever more blessed.

This is my first post with the new iPad, I'm attaching a pic I took with it during tea at TWG on my birthday last Sunday.



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The last day yet

I got up early this morning, earlier than usual. A point I have made since two weeks ago. I've asked my boss to let me off at 5. Fact being, I need to rush back to the east, grab a quick shower if I can and hail a cab to the airport with my 20kg check in quota.

I managed to pack everything into m's 60litre tatonka, my topman weekender and this round I have two laptops to carry home. A black Sony vaio which I've bought on Monday after two weeks of pondering on a MacBook air, and my old Toshiba which I plan to let it retire in my humble abode. Perhaps it could enjoy an easier life keeping my parents company.

The mood is slowly creeping in. Yayyyy...!

The long waited plan

Three days. In just 3 days, I'm leaving for my 3 weeks break. Though I've had this planned since last year, but now that it's finally here...I'm not as excited as I was back then. Strange. Maybe the long wait has worn me out.

I'm never good with plan, never like the feeling of waiting for something to happen in the future...life's too short. Why wait when you can do it now...?

Was walking out of office with PC, she is all dressed up again. When i asked her of her plans, she raised her eyebrow, simply replied 'you should know'. And indeed i know. Countless tries later and she is still trying. I admire her determination. May she get lucky this time.

It's 810pm, I'm still in the train. Feeling rather lethargic. Thinking of my dinner options. Can this go on forever...?

Looking forward to the arrival of mood...

Thinking cloud

Next time when you pause, just a short halt while waiting for a train or watching the crowd pass by at the lights...think of one moment in life that you were happy. Can you think of something immediately? Or do you have to scan the imaginary cloud above hoping to find a picture that once made you laugh or smile genuinely. It's funny how easy we forget.

It's been many pauses since I boarded this train home, and I'm still scanning.

P/S: all I can think of is the uncle with bad breath beside me :s I hope he gets off soon...

Once in this lifetime

Friends don't come easy in life. Old friends are even harder to keep in your life. I'm grateful that every now and then I get to know someone new. And even more grateful to know that I have friends that I have manage to keep for so many years and yet our bonds remain strong. Not an east task, but one that is very much fulfilling to a single soul.

This weekend though most of us were pretty tired with our routine life, we had made a promise to an old friend that we will throw everything aside and make a trip to Miri to attend her life's biggest event. It's been a long while since we have spent so much time together. How much life has changed for most of us and watching one of our dear friend walking down the aisle, smiling broadly with tears in her eyes, made me feel that we have come a long way to witness this very moment, to feel it. I'm most happy for her new found life.

Though I'm very tired after all those rushes, but this weekend was the best I have spent for a very long time.

Out of the water

I haven't been able to sleep well or I would wake up at 3am or so for no reason and would not be able to fall asleep again till at least an hour later. It's tiring and frustrating at the same time. My mind will be filled with images of the next day. What will people think or say, how should I react, what should I do...etc.

I realize now, getting out of comfort zone is not an easy emotional moment. And the moment itself, will probably take weeks or even months.

At least now I see myself getting dragged here and there. The day in office seem to whizz thru. Something which I feel rather positive about...
I'm spending lesser time surfing in the toilet. Actually I haven't been able to do it at all.
My morning routine of reading google news for an hour; does not exist anymore.
...and when I leave office in the evening my phone is still at least 70% full. Unlike previously i would almost run dry or blinking at red.
Next Monday, I'm officially moving over and taking over the rein.

Perhaps it's a life changing moment

Breathe in, close your eyes and take a big step out of your comfort zone.

I was offered a chance to replace someone who is leaving the company. Someone who is more senior. Although it's not gonna be my same old trade skill. It's gonna be an entirely new battleground. And frankly I'm not too sure if I'd be able to cope. But I guess it's time, given the chance; it's probably time to take another step. A year later or so, I may be able to look back at today and ...like Edith Piaf would say, 'je ne regrette rien'.