6/25/09
This blog is almost Dead
Since my blog has been inactive "dead" for so long, i doubt anyone will read this post since nobody will expect it to be updated. So i can write anything i want! Not. Better to be cautious. So i cant exactly say it over here that i find some people are really good at acting. No, not maverick of cos. Ok, on a serious note, im working ice cream again with dhina and dex tonight. Think will be quite fun la.. As expected for a post that is updated after such a long time of inactivity, or of a post that will stick for a much longer time, it will be much longer. However, blogging is too time consuming and i wont be updating anymore unless i have something interesting to share so i declare this blog officially,DEAD.
2:13 PM
5/9/09
Happy? Vesak
2 am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You cant make up your mind
Bla bla ba...
Its 2.48am, but the rain is not falling.
Im not at any crossroads though.. Im at home, all alone. So there's no 'we' here, to stand at crossroads.
As a matter of fact, there just happens to be someone telling me that shes so confused and cant make up her mind right now.
Ok thats lame.
Now for real posting..Im hungry now.. but i don wanna go down for supper. So im watching Happ tree friends to try n erase my hunger haha. Went to slack today, it was pretty unintersting for me.. just a matter of looking at the sky. I cant believe i missed the shooting star. Jac's ultra lucky man. Then we did something pretty childish. A typical message in a bottle thingy. Then we threw it back to the sea. Haiz i just wish there would be heart.sports today. Vesak day is lame. I want to play super cap in the sun. It seems to be able to melt all my troubles for a little while. Maybe i can go out later, and probably have good enough fun to keep my thoughts at bay. I do hate this trying to put off my feelings thingy. Pretty sick of it actually. But no choice i guess. Im beginning to feel like a super useless thing beyond hope now. Anyway, happy Vesak i suppose.
2:45 AM
5/7/09
Order of the pheonix
I think its gonna rain soon... funny how it can get so chilly and wet at night, but still wake up in the baking heat as though it havn't rained for a long time. I've just finished a couple of movies. Harry potter, and Big Stan. I think Hermione is so chio..... and is it me or do all the Dark Lords look similar? Consider Prince Arthas, and especially Orochimaru and Voldermort. Interesting huh. Anyway, this kinda weather is best for sleeping! Hope i don't dream of Voldermort though...hee
2:33 AM
5/5/09
Emo-ing
Indescribable. The nearest word that might be able to begin to form this feeling would be 'émo-ing' And that is but a very brief description. Was it fear that caused this suden onslaught of dread and horror that makes one tremble in the face of life? Or is it just loniliness making one dread the part of waking every day, the cruel realisation that his dreams was but a dream? Or is it possible for a so called Christ believer to experience hopelessness? And what of friends? One could try very hard to be a good friend but what of the possibility of betraying your friends concious or not, regretted or not? And with a bleak future staring in the face will one dare to love? One might, i suppose, be able to ignore all these dull and dreadful things, shrugging it off his shoulders when he is standing upon the top of his world. A mixture of these however, is many times more horrifying when he is instead, in his lowest point, trying to walk out of his solitude, his valley.
As bad as my emotions can go, i am also concious of the presence of a Almighty God who cares. Despite my innumerable and doubtless intentional sins, i am aware of his Grace. However, i fear that my stiff neck will eventually land me in hell. For as many times i become repentful, i will sin even more very soon. I am very sad and worn out. I do not believe in tears. As one grows up, he realises that life is not as blissful as he hoped, that second chances are much harder to find than he would have liked. Is the word 'regret' still applicable?
2:35 AM
4/26/09
Still calls me son
This video really went straight to the heart, so i'd decided to share it here. Today, is as boring as sundays goes and i might really die from the boredom if not for the rather interesting session of camwhoring with joanna and rebecca. So a big thank you to you gals, and a bigger sorry for dropping your cam! =D No pics yet... hee
11:08 PM
4/24/09
Hippiest Hof
Today, is the hippiest hof we had so far! Im so happy, cos i won $20 worth of island creamery vouchers from this game Don't forget the lyrics (evangel style). And the hof band was awesome. We nearly raised the roof. And i guess i sang pretty ell too. And haiz.. guess im no longer in control now. Didn't make full use of the chance when i had it. I hope God will help me again.. Gotta trust in him!
11:19 PM
4/3/09
Happy tree friends
4:19 PM
Would you dance
if I asked you to dance?
Would you run
and never look back?
Would you cry
if you saw me crying?
And would you save my soul, tonight?
Would you tremble
if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die
for the one you loved?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Would you swear
that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.
I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.
I can be your hero.
3:43 PM
3/9/09
Hello!
Thanks everyone who celebrated my birthday with me! I had always dreaded birthdays cos it always makes me feel really alone and quite friendless.. But im really touched that there are friends who remembers and my birthday. Im genuinely touched by your wishes and all. Ok im really scared now about my exam results. My CA isn't good, cos i missed some tests so...i hope i can pass! If i do, i'll have to take note of my own attendance for sch. Anyway,im so sleepy now. =D
11:34 PM
3/6/09
Chibaku Tensei!
Im gonna be 19 soon! Sad man... haha. So! This week was a horrible one. I was looking forward to go to this interview for a very simple and high paying job, but i fell ill with fever on sat night. On sunday (my supposed interview day), i could hardly crawl to church let alone go for that interview. So i had to let it go.. =( My fever went away that night as well, and i spent the whole week trying to de-flaghm myself. (donno how to spell) Hopefuly, i can manage to sing smoothly later.
Cao ge is damn amazing. He could sing so awesomely despite being sick.
2:27 PM
2/25/09
Smiling..(really)
Last paper soon.... ok thats not the main reason why i am feeling down. Cos im quite confident about the subject..(weirdly). But im not so sure why im feeling down myself. Maybe i shld meet up with some friends ltr.
2:13 PM
2/23/09
Sick
Whoots first exam over.... for the sake of entertainment, i found this funny piece of video on youtube.. the front part is not funny at all so if you're watching, pls watch till the end..
it was really horrible at the exam hall just now. i was caught by a sudden seizure of sneezes from question A1 all the way to the end. And worst, i had no facial tissue with me! If i fail, its cause of my flu... haha! just kidding! i think i did pretty well, considering the number of lessons i attended and the hours i spent studying is not alot. Aye aye.. i could answer most of the questions, so i guess i'll at least pass.. 2 more papers to go!
4:24 PM
2/15/09
hi
9:59 PM
2/12/09
Bye bye
Finished this rather lame series with totally unreal but cool basketball moves today! I thought that they will show more about his fire-ball technique. But looks like they forgot almost totally about it. Sian gtg
3:17 PM
2/9/09
=D
Thanks Joel, Shu ting Zhi wei Chen Min and Ming Hui for a wonderful Ktv outing, it was really fun! Lets go again together sometime.. The pictures chen min took was er... so so... so i'll not post it! haha.. I should go and improve my range le.. don wanna zhao xia or wadeva haha! Oh man i cant get enough of it! Just wanna go again..and again... and again! oops..haha
2:56 PM
2/4/09
You can
This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself, it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can
Show me that good things come to those who wait
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself, it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can
Show me that good things come to those who wait
10:41 AM
2/2/09
Yawn
Bored.com rocks
1:44 PM
1/30/09
Addicted
Finally! its friday..! My weekend begins today. Tommorow is Yellow festival, and finally sunday is Kbox! Whoo cant wait..
11:40 AM
1/28/09
Happy niu yr
Happy chinese new year all! Or happy china new year as wei xiang calls it. Ang pao this year is quite pathetic...sighs couldn't get all the stuff i wanted to buy after all... I hated the car ride to and from my gran's place. Just couldn't stand my mum.... i know i shdn't be rude or wadeva, but man i was really pissed about the things she kept saying. Gosh! Anyway, we arrived dressed like a parade of misfortune since me and my mum wore ALL black.. and my dad and sisters wore white so we were like black and white. So imagine the faces of those losers...i mean relatives when we turned up...haha my poor (and horrible) gran will probably be talking about it for some time. Alright sounds like i really dislike that family... but actually, i kinda like some of them. The rest are probably just jealous of our good looks..... Omg did i just say that? Haha... Not taking it back! =P We didn't stay long, and left at 2pm.. So i spent the rest of the day with the E sisters, the J sisters and maverick. Cant wait for the weekends! Im doing balloon sculpting on sat and finally, kbox on sun... i hope nothing crops up and i gotta end up cancelling it..
12:23 PM
1/22/09
Crap
Initially, i thought that my wednesday would be a typical and peaceful one, ending with a nice g12 meeting. Who would ever imagine that there is a much greater deal of crap waiting for me by the end of the day this wednesday (yesterday). I came back from g12 at around 10+ last night and was looking forward to a good bath, settle down with a nice book and read till i feel that i must sleep or die. However, my sister had a sudden attack of headache and kept on insisting to see a doctor. And we ended up at Mount-something hospital 24 hr clinic. And the first thing that happened when i stepped into that stupid hospital, was that i slipped on some moron's puke, and ended up washing my jeans in the handicapped toilet for about half an hour! The puke is horribly disgusting its white in color and smelled extremely foul. And that stupid nerd actually ate RICE when he was sick. There were grains of rice all over my jeans...it was just so damn gross! Worst of all, the puke is like almost totally camouflaged on the hostpital floor. It is impossible to see it, due to light and the color of the floor. My little sis actually sat right infront of it, without noticing it, until she saw me "moon walking" and my sudden disappearing act. And i was just approaching the seat next to her...... =( Some comfort anybody..? Anyway, my sis felt much better the moment she reached the hostpital. Which is the proof of how things like doctors and hostpitals affects the psychological state of a sick person. And im coming down with some illness as well...i dont feel very well....=( Just dont let it be the virus of that stupid moron thats passed to me
11:47 AM
1/21/09
Hi
I just had a traumatizing bus ride to school.... There was this indian guy jabbering in insanely fast and loud tamil into his mobile, right behind me... And there was this philipinno lady seated about 2 seats away from me, and she too was on her phone, and yabbering away furiously in fluent tagalog. I sat in between this two, feeling like im attending a mind blowing prayer meeting, and every one was speaking in tongues.... -.-
10:15 AM
1/20/09
Post
I wish i can live in the countryside
12:47 PM
1/15/09
Bleh.
Im sick...or at least, im halfway there. Theres this horrible feeling that a fever is trying to set in, but im fighting it as hard as i can... i really hope i dont fall sick! I shall go and emo one corner for now... Ja, ne... snifff*
3:27 PM
1/13/09
Lazy sheep
Watching Yizhimei.... and its so touching! The father is so noble! Sacrificing his life for the sake of his sons. Ok, wadever... Bumped into tnw on the 969 bus, and came back together. I feel so tired cos of the super long day in school today... Stared at the com for 3hrs, staring at some super small stuff for so long... and my back aches so much from it...So tired just thinking of waking up tomorrow! Sighs....
10:33 PM
1/12/09
I will be still
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
My heart is heavy and my life is catching up with me.
I've been humbled, and i'm relying solely on God's grace now.
I know now, that my life will definitely work out. Because it is never too late to turn back
God can make something ugly beautiful even if its not his Plan A
And he knows what i will do before i even do it
So he has a plan b for me, in advance
I will be still, and know that You are God!
8:50 PM
1/10/09
Buzz
Its yet another long and boring sat afternoon. I cant forget that horrible dream i had two nights ago... Somehow, the images remained clear and sharp in my memory. *Shudders*
Anyway, I read a very touching story last night, that was like... super touching? Its called 'I Believe in You' by some guy call Low something something.. Haha. I could not believe that Singaporeans are capable of writing such good stories. I thought that all they could produce was stuff like True Singapore Ghost stories and some Lee Kuan Yew stuff..thats all. But this is the 2nd good story i've read that came from Sg writers.Im Impressed.. =D Cant wait for new year, when my long awaited ang paos will start coming in..haha! Outreach is still about an hour ++ away, and im so sianed. Theres no basketball game today, for some reason...=( so i've just gotta rot until then.
Last night, i really laughed super hard because of some dumb antics by Joan. We were in the back of Choo chye's van and crapping away, when all of a sudden Joan was like 'Árgh! A fly just went into my ears!' We laughed really hard at that. Joan kept going on saying 'Íts not funny ok?! I can hear its wings flicking!' That was totally hilarious we were no longer able to control our laughter. And Choo chye adviced from the front seat, 'Don't worry! go home and spray some Baigon in your ears and you'll be ok!' Omg hes the ultimate!
1:46 PM
1/8/09
Cry to the Blue corn moon
Have you ever asked the grinning bob cat why he grin.
Somewhere beyond the flossy clouds
Cupid has lost his romancing arrows
Plays sad sonorous tunes on his bow
Dedicated to all weepy lonely hearts
Cupid has lost his romancing arrows
Plays sad sonorous tunes on his bow
Dedicated to all weepy lonely hearts
Is there really no restart button?
No turning back? For everything....?
If i had a second chance, would it change anything?
Would i have treasured my studies more?
Would i..... have dared to ask you on a date?
Even if i had known it was hopeless, i would still have done the same
Simply because i cant help but fall for you
9:25 PM
1/7/09
Flying away..
Im so happy cos Sherry commented that i have improved with my parts, and that she is glad of it. Looking forward to friday, when i can sing and show off that improvement. =D Jk! Sighs...whats taking the new naruto manga chapter so long to come out..... Cant wait! Now is the really exciting part in the story! Looking forward to Red Cliff 2 as well! Though i hvn't found anyone to watch it with yet.. Ponyo as well.. Hee! Notice that my blog songs are very repititive, cos i cant find any nice songs! And im so bored with these songs alr.. A few minutes till i go and get ready for g12.. So maybe i'll go hunt for some nice songs... Ok im really out of ideas on what else to write! So im randomly typing down what comes to my mind...so forgive me, if you find this post very japalang! Ah yes, i've found out that offense is one of the most powerful bait Satan has in stall for us, so i'll choose not to get offended and to forgive. These are the kinda things one has to work on in life. Anyway, this blog song may be slow and weird cos its frm the 70s, but i think its nice and emo enough..
If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.
If a face could launch a thousand ships,
Then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.
If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.
If a face could launch a thousand ships,
Then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.
If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away
6:26 PM
1/5/09
Baa
'He could not stop running. Looking back as he ran, he caught sight of the monstrous figure, still chasing him with a wand. He knew that if he was caught, he would end up as a sheep...Speaking of sheeps, how come there were so many of them around him? Gasping, he mustered his strength and kept on running. All of a sudden, he was falling......' Jerking up suddenly and violently, he looked around and realised he was still in class.. 'Oh deary me....i must have fallen asleep after all... How long have i slept?' He asked. 'Not long...bout half an hour' was the answer. Half an hour... it had felt longer...much longer. Already, he feel very much energized by the short nap. Why do people always wake up in such a abrupt manner when thier dreams includes falling down...? And damn! It had just got to the nice part as well.. He put his head down, and tried to start dreaming about angels... He gave up...His arms was red, and they ached from the strain of being lain on for so long. Furthermore, he no longer felt very tired. And the lecturer appeared to have just embarked upon some important topic.. He had woken up at the exact right moment. He wished he could be out playing basketball..
I want to live at Antartica...wheres theres lots of snow..or was it ice..? Maybe Artic is the one with snow... -.-
5:03 PM
SHEEPIE
Hi, im Alex.play around with the sheep on top :)
BAA!