I'VE MOVED (:
You're in everyone I see
So tell me,
Do you see me?
Cause I'll see you!
many more to go!
;hanging by a moment
let your heart out.
gotta start getting productive work done.
gotta buck up,
i think i've been lagging behind.
someday we'll know if we were meant to be.
but right now,
i can't.
i know everyone's asking me why, butttt, i've said it. or maybe i'm just reassuring myself. thk you gwendalynn & i'm glad i talked to jazreel, you know, about the fate thing(:
johnny,
i hope you're betterrr. please come soon & eat with me. we've tons to catch up on, really.
i'm hopeful,
for the future that is.
crosses fingers-
let your heart out.
you are avoiding/ignoring me. ))):
love stories never have happy endings,
cos true love never ends.
read it on someone's blog. BUTTT it does end, doesn't it? even if it's in death, it does.
but at least it'll be until the day i take my last breath. we all want to love & be loved knowing that it'll end, someday. so why do we still yearn for it? is it in born, is it what we were meant to feel/do?
i'm waiting, waiting for sometime magnificient to take place in my life. whatever that may be.
i've been coping, coping well(:
the rest of 2007 shall only be better & better.
i demand that.
; dreams are for fools,
that let you down.
let your heart out.
well i thought i was doing well but i just wanna cry now.
everything,
everything seems to be falling apart.
i'm trying my very best to pick the pieces up.
i'm falling, i'm crying,
i'm dying under the enormous amount of stress.
some i've put it upon myself,
some is just there.
how does everyone one else do it? why didn't anyone tell me that it'll be THIS hard? i cannot, i really cannot go on like this. its only the beginning of the year.
I REALLY DUNNO HOW TO HANDLE STRESS.
i honestly am trying to not be such a
i am trying not to lose my temper so easily & get irritated at every single thing.
it's all so overwhelming. sorry gwen, i'm really trying.
pick me up,
take me away.
what's more,
there's this really super good friend of mine who doesn't seem to want to talk to me anymore. annoying- i'm sorry if i did you wrong, i'm sorry if my very existence just kills you. we ALL know what it's like when you dislike someone. i can't believe you're doing this to me. it's not like i don't have enough things to deal with, i thought i'll always have you by my side. why are you secretly ignoring me? would you even read this? come on eating partner, i miss us & all the times we eat together. ))))): am i just being over sensitive/paranoid? i really hope so.
let your heart out.
sleep versus hwk, hwk,
which is it gonna be?
i hate 2007 like really really.
boo,
come swept me off my feet, please?
maybe sometimes i'm looking in all the wrong directions,
looking for the thing that i deem perfect.
but what i never realised is that it has always been there by my side, for as long as i don't- know how long.
maybe.
but if it isn't?
it's a mad scramble,
scramble to find my life back.
gimme, gimme!
let your heart out.
that is filled up with this all-consuming & overwhelming emotion & thought of _____. (applies differently to everyone right?) it's the scary future & loneliness, for now.
there's an endless pile of hwk, tests & everything to complete. there's barely enough sleep to last thru' the wrenched hrs of sch, dance. & as my name suggests, i need r/s w people. but, now i've no more social life for $%# years.
how am i gonna survive thru 07?
wounds can be inflicted easily upon those we love,
it's often much more difficult to heal them.
try, near impossible.
i wonder,
CHERLYN=HYPOCRITE? yes, no, maybe, i dunno.
i would like to think there is a lil' of that in all of us, but then again. who am i kidding?
okay, i can definitely say in my defence that i,
try to be nice to everyone tho i cannot stand everyone.
try to be nice, since they are nice. no one really annoys me. if you are black listed, you must be that bad. cherlyn hardly hates anyone, doesn't she?
i can't imagine how it'll be like if THE NIGHTMARE, (where i was basically invisible to everyone i care about) came true. ))))):
so, cherlyn will be nice. tho not overly nice. hmm. i seriously hope i'm not a hypocrite, would really
;you and me,
were meant to be.
let your heart out.
You are a very social individual, and it is important to you to have a relationship.
You require closeness and togetherness.
You want the object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good-looking.
You see your lover as a friend and companion.
You are very sensual, needing someone to appreciate and almost worship you. When this cannot be achieved, you have the ability to hold out on affection until you receive this.
You are an expert at controlling your desires and doing without.
omg, this BY far is the most accurate thing i've come across. esp the bold points. i read a few others, 99% accuracy i would say! coolness(:
AUGUST
Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit (HURR.)
Easily angered (more like irritated & annoyed)
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous (not so sure about this. okay, don't wanna agree with it.)
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts (many of them, randomness takes control.)
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream (oh yeah(:)
Talented in the arts, music and defence (like, DANCE?)
Sensitive but not petty (haha, thank you(:)
Poor resistance against illnesses
Learns to relax (more like LOVE to!)
Hasty and rushy
Romantic (hopeless romantic(:)
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends
aye scary. this is quite accurate, rahh might agree(:
let your heart out.
i'll miss out on plenty.
the list is never-ending.
i don't wanna snap,
i don't wanna turn
i need professional help, please.
let your heart out.
i waited super duper long for the bus.
then just as i was letting my mind wander,
i saw sth super cool.
an aged man was sheltering his beloved wife from the rain with their little umbrella.
oh, i wish i were them.
oh, i wish for many things.
i wish when i grow old, wrinkled, flabby & hopefully happily retired, i have someone to share my everyday nitty-gritty happenings. someone to shelter me from the rain.
they must have gone thru much together to be where they are today.
total coolness. it's one of my dreams to be able to walk hand in hand with the man i love 50/60 years down the road, strolling thru the park & having lunch together. provided we both can still walk, that is.
i wish i could fast foward my life & get there.
i wish, i wish.
won't you take me home,
make my day,
take me away?
let your heart out.
there jun! heh(: what's more we've tons of dance practises to bond. sheesh. & i miss ogling & A7 alot alot alot. sigh.
i'm super procrastinating/distracted. whatever happened to staying focus?
needs help, desperately.
where'd you go?
so much for prioritising, seriously.
let your heart out.
i miss gwen,
ben,
cheryl,
john,
asmara,
RAH (mia):) truckloads.
can't there be more hours in a day, at least sometimes? sheesh. oh kevin, sheesh. haha. sch will only allow me to spend quality time with the SOMES & BIMS. but no best friend, girlfriend & besties. ohoh, cherlyn shall wait patiently (right.) till the A's are over.
waiting, waiting & waiting!
let your heart out.
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
How do you feel, that is the question
But I forget, you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
Folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me
aleth is totally in love with this song. BUT she has no idea what it's title is. seriously, help. anyone, know it tell me(:
i dunno if what's happening is temporary. but putting A & B together seems near impossible. when when when the bigger picture is seen, then all will be clear. (:
i had TREMENDOUS fun today! the scouts campsite place was a blast. thk you A7(((: i got wet, bruised, more or less violated. haha, it's really great. ihave blue blacks & some scraps to remind me of it(: coolness. & oh, a burnt nose! heh. two more days tho, treasures it- no one will steal it from me, even the horrific econs tutor who hates ogls(: gotta go read up & study alr. bleahhh-
;but i can only see if when you're here with me.
let your heart out.
stop not letting me be there for you. it's really
today was a good good bonding day with the group A7. we ran, walked, yum senged, talked, cheered, sign languaged & so many more(: LALALA. fun is an understatement. however, hope this really keeps up! crosses fingers-
being alone also gave me time to think. thk you gwen. sometimes i feel so restricted saying things on my own blog. haha.
don't try to know me like you think you really do. even i have no clue who i am sometimes, let alone everyone else. it's getting harder & harder to express myself thru words. or maybe it's a temp thing. i sure hope so. i don't give myself time, how can i offer it to someone else? cherlyn is tired, period. i think i'm really like a that lizard that changes colour, ( i
;maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me.
let your heart out.
yes, the HOLIDAY(: i like. oohh. wait, i <3! (: JUDE LAW is officially one of the hoooottest guys, joining justin timberlake & wentworth miller. sees gen, wei xin nods- HAHA. sch has been busy busy. tmr is amazing race, please pray it doesn't rain. crosses fingers-
i've been thinking quite abit lately, whenever i'm not asleep or tired out from the entire day's activities that is. okay, i shan't bother myself with these thoughts!
sch will only get busier & busier! the blog may take forever to update, as a result. & i'll try to curb the vulgarities & all that. you go, A7! (((:
i don't want temp anything anymore.
cherlyn will work towards the goals she's set for the year ahead.
let your heart out.
being mean to you is a way of thanks to let you know you're the greatest girl
john says:
now you can paste that onto your blog too
john says:
just so that people know that the 2 coolest guys around thinks you're nice
shame on you john. tskk. haha. thk you for cheering me up tho! & JUN too<3
let your heart out.
let your heart out.
happy '07!
i keep thinking about how things could have been & like i dunno. i'm so confused. it's so confusing! but i do have the huge A's to think about this year so everything else can like, wait? i have no idea what i'm talking about. ehhh. i totally envy my brothers & friends cos of the wonderful realtionships they're in. i mean how do you know when someone's the one? try, i hear? but i'm so tired to, at least for now. heh. like gwen said, take things slow & steady then(:
yesterday was crazy man. like bad i guess. only towards the end of the day/morning were things better. guys, should be more decisive. really. & i got a new no, tag if you wanna know. haha(:
;i love you more than you ever know.
do you?
let your heart out.
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