"We are sorry but somebody has to take the blame."
That's what the senior investigator from CYFD said, and then court started and we realized we should've never believed or trusted anyone.
"You can take her back and put back up the cameras and intercoms and if she molests again, we won't take the other children away because you did all you could." is what else he said.
The GAL for CDQ had her head up her ass and wanted revenge. CDQ was missing a month. I keep her in care for three years. Safe. CYFD has her a month and a half and they lose her. 13 and a runaway. No one looking for her. No one cares.
"The child wishes they both be adjudicated before relinquishment." Really bitch? The child understands, the child spoke to you? The MISSING child said these words to you?
I don't believe it.
I know the child that everyone sees is no longer there if there ever was a child. She is a sociopath. I've had to accept that.
We were charged with neglect because we would not allow her back into our home. Her death threats which had her removed from the home, her violence and sexual abuse... meant nothing. My other children didn't matter, my husband and I, did not matter....only she did.
Why is that?
Why is her abuse towards us ok? Because we signed up to help? Because we sure as shit didn't start the fire, we didn't kill the child inside her.
Some children are too lost already. Too much abuse, too much trauma, too much life at such a young age. But why allow them to pay it forward when it is so obvious that help is needed?
No one gave up on her. She was gone before she even entered my home. Too little, too late. Under rug swept. The system failed her.
So my children pay the price and my husband and I pay the price and ultimately CDQ pays the price.
The system is fucked up. It's not about the children. I'm not sure it ever was...
That's what the senior investigator from CYFD said, and then court started and we realized we should've never believed or trusted anyone.
"You can take her back and put back up the cameras and intercoms and if she molests again, we won't take the other children away because you did all you could." is what else he said.
The GAL for CDQ had her head up her ass and wanted revenge. CDQ was missing a month. I keep her in care for three years. Safe. CYFD has her a month and a half and they lose her. 13 and a runaway. No one looking for her. No one cares.
"The child wishes they both be adjudicated before relinquishment." Really bitch? The child understands, the child spoke to you? The MISSING child said these words to you?
I don't believe it.
I know the child that everyone sees is no longer there if there ever was a child. She is a sociopath. I've had to accept that.
We were charged with neglect because we would not allow her back into our home. Her death threats which had her removed from the home, her violence and sexual abuse... meant nothing. My other children didn't matter, my husband and I, did not matter....only she did.
Why is that?
Why is her abuse towards us ok? Because we signed up to help? Because we sure as shit didn't start the fire, we didn't kill the child inside her.
Some children are too lost already. Too much abuse, too much trauma, too much life at such a young age. But why allow them to pay it forward when it is so obvious that help is needed?
No one gave up on her. She was gone before she even entered my home. Too little, too late. Under rug swept. The system failed her.
So my children pay the price and my husband and I pay the price and ultimately CDQ pays the price.
The system is fucked up. It's not about the children. I'm not sure it ever was...
