my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Thursday, April 07, 2011
10:12 PM
realised its still a gd idea to keep my entry as a draft. im truely dishearten aft i study this deg program. bi jing pple still appreciate the diploma more , its cheap labour. but others sae: its for ur own self learning and upgrade. oh wells. the legislation will change the way of optometry in sg. will it? maybe in ten yrs time or when i've decided that i wana change line? the two interviews really make mi totally discouraged. optom not even a nurse or technician? or as wad david said, we are a threat to them? all of them are bad pple.
im tired, but not sleepy. my bed is calling for mi, but somehow im still waiting for him to complete his ppt. will i receive a morny msg from him later?
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Monday, February 14, 2011
2:35 PM
long long time since i blogged. aft my fit today, feel v sad. i guess tis week, as each dae and each tests passed, the more demoralized i will feel. guess aft 3yrs of diploma, 4yrs of being an optometrist, gg to end of two yr of my bsc study, i still dnoe how to interpret visual field results, on top of tt oct. at times, i feel like giving up the relationship. too much causative factors, just like wad are the risk factors for glau. a qns i gt asked in viva todae....
hai. will i be able to scrape thru everyting and get my bsc smoothly?
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Friday, May 28, 2010
7:26 PM
last post was the beginning of 2010. long time since i wrote in here. just gg to 'grumble'in tis entry. recently fleet of quarrels w bf and mentioned the forbidden 3 words. while, that was resolve alr. todae sth happen again. seriously DL by wad he said. i admit partly i was jking and whining awae. everything i did, everyting i said u seem to find it an eyesore or ear sore. every r/s has its share of ups dwns, but tis time im realli Dl le... if only my feelings for him aint tt strong, i really wont wan to bother bt him. up till nw, there's still u, hidden somewhere in a remote corner. i still cant totally forget everything. but i told myself, i've got to let go no matter wad. things have alr taken a change. im frigging sick of everyting and anyting. and i just hate sch.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Monday, January 04, 2010
5:07 PM
first dae of sch for 2010 and my first post for 2010 too. test, lessons, report @ lib. left sch near to 6. gt a shock todae, why am i still so bothered by it? it doesnt concern mi too... i miss my sec sch frens.. agreed with wad elsie said. ha... each of us is bz with our stuff, or is this just an excuse? at least ,i finally met hoi wai for lunch @ dover market last wk. and she ask mi to go back MMI for a visit. and i went back, tg nv get caught by security and its the lull period, all the heads are not in. spent most of my time chatting to chin kiong, my successor! haha. saw those procured items liao! my AORss!! well, i started the vpc clinic, he continued, and we both shall see who will end it. definitely nt him cus he gt his plans..cool. saw the pixelized frame, material nt tt bad le and the design quite nice la.. actually feeling kind of dwn nw..sigh.... poster undone.... sian ah!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Friday, December 25, 2009
4:29 PM
nt really an enjoyable xmas, but afterall i dn celebrate this festive season too.. without my assignments and test done..reali super duper sian i must tell and the second wk is gone!!!! on top of tt, still worrying for my prac test. and when i saw dr tan email regarding the CL report, i nearli peng san. i thot he really expect a real simple report.. and my a3 poster, i finali gt a lil light on how to do it..thks to my classmates whom i asked opinions n lionel to... past two wks, have been seeing dear for many times , but yet still misses each time he's not beside... anw~ todae went sakura intl buffet w my mum and my relatives and cousins..due to my super intense fatigue, nv pigged tt much...but at least the food wakes mi up. seeing my two cousins growing up frm their baby yrs, wah~ feel aged . went to get my present for gift exchange w my colleagues and lil stuff for my mushiesss~~ and it was sleep for the remaining of the dae until 8pm. regretted nv get the 5bucks massager and its all sold out! >.< but my mum bought mi a patrick starfish le. even taller than the one dear buy for mi..hee~ nw i gt 5 patrick le!! xD tml nite gg to eat chi char w my colleagues!! yeah. im turning into a pig soon =x
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Sunday, December 20, 2009
1:21 PM
ling's pooh,my carebear and dear's doggie One wk of the holis is gone! >.< two more wks, will i be able to complete my assignments and have a gd rest? have been eating alot tis few daes..must be those assignments fault i guess... anw~ last fri went bpp for cartel lunch. went to find annie also..my last time de meng zhong qing ren (quoted from annie) alr ROM le and even got their flats alr...tian ah! okay...went dear's hse to watch dvd. haah rm7 with clear audio quality le. b4 tt was reading the neuro info i photocopy from bks...wah! tts seriously madness and hypnotizing. yawn so mani times w/o sinking the facts in and he was typing the neuro report...if onli he would volunteer to do mine as well... xD haha..my big star fish is in my possession ! new member to my patrick family and my sister named it super pig!! o yar~ todae went BROADWAY to take studio photos. i wonder why mum dun wait for me to grad in another 1++ yrs...o welL~ feel so xian mu when i saw both my siblings in their convocation gowns...will i be able to grad in 2011? another qns to go. no mood to do my report le... >.<
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
