Nobody cares

Nobody cares about that, what for myself to think about that?

don't want to think so much at this moment...

just concentrate in study then enough...

i rude all these days...

no more rude for me!

i miss this long hairstyle!

and my thin face!

my face become more and more chubby nowadays ><
...

Mummy.... T_T

i miss my family badly...

very very very very very very miss them...

T.T

i don't want stay at here!

i want back ss!!!

how sad need wait till mac 11 only can back. =(

and just back for injection, 

then Sunday or Monday need rush back kampar bcoz of the mp and cb assignment.

Had a chat with him just now...

huan ask me how? got feel better?

i ask myself...got feel better?

hmm...

i don't know...

i think myself really so "fan jian"

when ppl treat me good i dont want, 

i like torture myself, = = 

i know this is my turn to try the feel..

actually i have many things want to tell and ask him,

but i dont know how to ask, 

maybe i know even i ask he also not going to tell me,

i don't want to stand the feel being rejected again...

when he told me we start all over again ok, bcoz we ady have gap and misunderstanding bla bla bla 

hmm.. what should i say?

should say yes ok right?

yea.. but i dont know why i not willing to say yes.

= =

what start all over again...

my heart telling me : I DON'T WANT!

right now, i really dont want,

but i dont know myself de feelings towards him too.

zzzzzzzzzzz

how stupid am i.

when i saw he close with any gals i will feel pek cek! bu shuang!

but my fren told me he close with any gals is non of my business~

i know la...

but the feelings i cannot control ma...

just feel bu shuang la!

when he treat me cool i also bu shuang la!

(altot i know i b4 also treat him like tat)

but i really feel bu shuang la! 

=(

or like they say

maybe now is bcoz i too fan, too lonely, too stress, i need rely on somebody,

need someone to listen to me,

need someone to let me find,

need someone to acc me.

i dont know!

=.=

arghhhhh...

and my 自尊心 very high too,

when i very ri qing to you 

and i never say something to anyone like tat but say to u then get the respond is cool like hell,

i will very hurt,

and whatever u say or no matter how many times sorry you say to me,

my heart is hurt ady.

i forgive you,

but i cant forget my pain and my zi zun.

i don't know how to say to you when face to face

bcoz i still cant forget what you told me this afternoon and your respond...




很多时候不是说重新来过就能解决问题的......
hmm....

Logistic helpers =)

西瓜甜不甜？

heeee.....

whole logistic helpers~

yeah! =)

Should not have.

Awww.......

Why when i saw *that* i will very very very bu shuang?!

i should not have this kind of feeling one..

><

低落

每个人都有低落的时候，
这段时期低落的感觉又来找我了....
=3=
我也很讨厌这种感觉，
可是控制不了，
can i run away from kampar back ss???
 ><
人在低落，寂寞的时候特别想念家人和家乡的朋友。
i so miss you all nia.. know why?
because when stay with you all i no need to think about my campus stuff...

Ps: please allow me to down for few days..><
i need to think a lot of things..
my dear friends.. i know you all very concern and worry me..
im fine.. dont worry.. few more weeks later i will be ok.=)
thank you ya..
cheers!!!!

Talent time - feb 19th 2011

        

^^,

ps:  当我哈哈大笑的时候并不代表我真的很开心，

当我说没事的时候并不代表我真的没事，

只是不知如何表达，也不懂应该如何说，

因为我知道说了也是不能解决，

不是没试过，

而是我已经尝试了告诉朋友可是答案还是一样，

最终还是要看自己的决定，

我...... 

只能用微笑、大笑来掩饰自己，

你懂吗？

today supposed very happy one..

because all of us joined talent time as helper,

but seriously.. don't know why my mood not high at all..

i always said want happy happy happy,

but this moment i know that I'm not happy at all.

hope tomorrow will be fine. 

写不出

其实有很多东西很想写，

可是不知道要怎样写，

有些东西不能写，

只能和朋友诉苦。

阿不然就是自己静静一个人发呆，想事情。

（最近时常都是这样）

这个星期开始会很忙了，

社团、考试、作业全部一起来！ = =

最近有几样事情都不顺利： 人、事、物...

有时侯真的很烦，听到某些话我更加度烂更迫切= =

我已经有够烦的了，请不要再来烦我ok？

（如果你真的摆我上台，我一定站起来大声说：妈的！讲了多少次我不要！！！

如果你硬硬来，我哭给你看！！！）

T.T

千与千寻 - 宫崎骏

最近心情不是怎么好的我，

爱上了听宫崎骏戏里的音乐。

多数是“久石让-Joe Hisashi"的作品。

尤其最爱"Day of the River".

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=asSqrkJIR6k

sorry e lin.. im not dont want to choi you.. is because i dont have the mood..
>.<

大学就是这么的现实

我好恼卑人摆上台！

>:[

Happy Valentine

Around 6.30pm reached home...

Mum back from work..

haha..

You guess what she told me and showed me?

She holding a rose!

Yes.. My dad presented a rose to my mum!

LOL

My mum said before married my dad also never give her a rose.

Today he did it.

haha

(because my dad was forced by George's mum..she asked my dad to buy it for my mum.)

lol

haha.. happy valentine to all those couple..

for me.. happy family la~

Lalalala...

today went to ipoh spend so much jor a..

damn poor now..

><

Dim Sum

8am somthing went to Ipoh Foh Sun ate dim sum with Fu, Tung, Lin and Tong..

hehee...

after dim sum went to Parade while to look for checked shirt...

can't find checked shirt but i bought a hat!

Aha..

satisfied ya..

=)

back home help mummy 煎年糕~
hoho
planning wed cook again bring some to kampar...

:P

Random.

2月14 就到了，

看到很多人在面子书写没情人的情人节，

什么什么单身情人节，

Lol

其实对我来说，生日、情人节都没有特别感觉。

反倒是端午节，中秋节，新年，元宵节对我来说更有意义。

也许是我没有男朋友的关系吧，

个人我认为其实如果就算有了男朋友，我还是希望可以和家人和他一起度过端午节，中秋节，新年和元宵节。

可能我是一个比较保守的人，不懂得浪漫的人= =

我觉得身为华人，端午节中秋节这些节日对我来说是传统的，是很有意义的。

我觉得生日有我在乎的人记得就好了，简单的就好。个人不喜欢很多人围着我，看着我一个，当主角好像很奇怪，很不习惯 ><

至于情人节，我觉得情侣之间不需要被情人节束绑着，庆祝也可以，不庆祝也可以。

Lol

也许是我没有情人的关系所以不懂的当中的情趣 。

XD

还有还有，

最近好像都时常被别人说我冤枉他，

自己也有被人冤枉。

Hmm

自从来到Utar读书后，

我变了很多，

其中就是变得坚强了，

看事情比较乐观了，

心情不好的话，

很快就会恢复，

没有别的原因，

因为学会了没有什么事情是不能解决的，只是看你如何去看待它。

我也变得不会太在意一些小事情，

以前的我很在意关于友情的事情，

和姐妹们会因为小事情而心情不好，

现在的我，

遇到不开心的事情可以很快就忘掉，

我也不懂，

也许人的社交圈子扩大了，

忙的事情也多了，

不会把不开心的事情放在心上很久。

=)

感恩我有很多关心我的朋友。

感恩我有一个温暖的家。

Interaction day for helpers - talent night

wohoo~~

today had fun at westlake basketball court...

made new friends today...

hope "talent night" this event will be very successful on Feb 19 sat..

i'll be logistic department helper on that night

hoho..

hope the job won't so hard. =p

( Anyone who have interest to go for this event? 

Talent night- that day will have many students perform on the stage to show their talents.  =] )

but enjoy =)

Belated post : Happy birthday to aw mei sin~

wohoo~~~
20age jor loor..
no more 1 字头...
this year my day fall on Chinese New Year again...
Had a simple and nice birthday this year ~ =]
Thanks peng hong, sum, kah chun and janssen lose money for me~ hohoho~
Thanks kah chun and guo yao play mahjong with me during afternoon~
Thanks gigi, kang yao and benny give me cake and accompany me pass 12 during night~
Thanks Jenny, Kenny,Xiao Wei, Xian Yeun, Lin, Bobo, Huan, Apple, Agnes, Kit, Joseph, Kam, Seng, Sam, Yuen Teng and Chee Keat present me the gift...
Thanks Bjunn present me the gift...
Thanks Sam present me the gifts...
Thanks all my dear friends wishes...
=)
Thats my 20age birthday~ pass with mahjong during afternoon~ night pass with three 38 friends~ XD
Simple but warm~

Gathering - 3.2.2011

Yesterday had a wonderful gathering with secondary friends. 

=)

I can feel

I can feel she is not happy...

but i dont know why...

tomorrow is cny eve ady...

everyone should be happy one...

but my house seen like many thing happened..haih...

what should i do?

i hope everyone in my house also happy..

not always argue and fight..

=(